"I will try to live alone." Yu Qiu said, "I think I can do it."
Xu Hong's already ugly smile froze on his face, and then he was pulled even more ugly.
After a while, Xu Hong said, "Junior brother, don't make trouble, you should think about it."
But he didn't wait for Yu Qiu to respond again, just turned around and left, and then didn't mention this matter with Yu Qiu again, as if nothing had happened. Yu Qiu looked at his back, thinking that he was just reluctant to let go, but he didn't know that everything behind him had changed dramatically at this moment.
Everything is different again.
However, is this life different from the previous life from this moment on? Actually not. In his previous life, Yu Qiu had never done anything that would make Xu Hong angry. Ever since he found out that Xu Hong didn't like to take the initiative to fight the enemy, he had never tried it. In this life, Yu Qiu has always studied talismans and never hid in the Xu Hong was satisfied after he died. With so many details accumulating together, that one response was a floodgate.
Once the floodgates were opened, the end soon came. Xu Hong coaxes Yu Qiu into the Shadow Demon's territory, flees before the battle, completely abandons Yu Qiu, and even admits that he wants Yu Qiu to die behind the mirror.
Yu Qiu was stabbed, Yu Qiu couldn't believe it, Yu Qiu laughed back from the pain, Yu Qiu realized the Tao at the end of his life, and he could die when he heard the Tao.
At the moment when his body was turned into ashes because he couldn't bear the process of breaking through, and his soul disappeared between heaven and earth, Yu Qiu knew that he finally found something, and found something crucial.
But when he opened his eyes again from the darkness, it was the beginning again. It was still the loud cry, and it was still Xu Hong's meticulous protection and care after waking up from the muddle.
Parents, Xu Hong, Xianlu, dependence, trying to be self-reliant, enlightenment at the end of life, and final demise, the experience is repeated over and over again, like a maze, and Yu Qiu seems to be completely lost in it. He is still searching, searching constantly, but he doesn't even know what he should be looking for, he just keeps shuttling, shuttling through the countless causal spaces woven by every coincidence, every accident, every thought difference.
He knew he must have missed something, but couldn't remember.
It wasn't until when Xu Hong took him to travel down the mountain for countless times that Yu Qiu met someone.
It was in a restaurant in the capital city. The man was drinking wine with downcast eyes. He was dressed in ordinary clothes, but the gazes of the other mortals in the inn showed that this person was either rich or noble. Yu Qiu became interested in him for some reason, quietly came to him, looked at his slightly frowning brows, and asked, "Did you encounter any trouble?"
Several other mortals in the inn immediately looked at Yu Qiu vigilantly, and the man also looked up at Yu Qiu, but smiled very gently, and returned, "If I want to talk, I really met some people. big trouble."
After that, the man took a sip of the wine, saw Yu Qiu's curious face, smiled and invited Yu Qiu to sit across from him, and chatted with Yu Qiu just like that.
"Looking at your clothes, you don't look like a member of Dayong Kingdom?" He asked.
The first question made Yu Qiu hem and haw. Fortunately, the man didn't care, and talked a lot on his own, from the climate in the sky to the people's livelihood underground, and finally talked about a severe drought in the north, and drank a lot of wine. "But why didn't you provide disaster relief for so long?" Xu Shi had drunk a little too much, and the corners of his eyes began to turn red, "Obviously already hungry and dying everywhere, why do those...those people still argue with me, insisting that they shouldn't provide disaster relief? Even... even that one, why are you so hesitant, how many people are starving to death?"
Although Yu Qiu didn't quite understand, she also comforted, "People, of course there are all kinds of ideas, and others don't necessarily care about what you care about. If you don't care about so many things, if you can't control them, who told them not to listen to you. "
The man looked up at Yu Qiu.
"Unless you can make them listen to you." Yu Qiu added.
The man smiled when he heard the words, and he smiled very nicely, "Your words are reasonable."
Then he took another sip of wine, "It's in my heart."
Then the two talked about some interesting things about humanities, and they had a very happy chat. After drinking a pot of wine, Xu Hong just finished his business, came to pick up Yu Qiu and left. Before leaving, Yu Qiu asked the other party's name.
The man was still full of intentions and went to the store to ask for another pot of wine. Hearing this, he raised his eyebrows and looked over with a smile, "Miangui's surname is Xiao, and his name is Chunmian."
Xiao Chunmian.
It was supposed to pass by each other, but Yu Qiu froze on the spot as if struck by lightning.
He seemed to have known this person before, but where did he know him
When Yu Qiu finally found an opportunity to sneak down the mountain again later, the Dayong Dynasty had changed. He thought that the person's status in the mortal world seemed to be extraordinary, and he was afraid that he would be affected, so he looked around worriedly, but in the end he saw that person again in the study of the new emperor.
Xiao Chunmian was still drinking, leaning sideways by the window, taking a sip of wine, and looking up at the sky outside the window. The breeze outside the window rolled in and rolled up his black hair, revealing the strands of white hair hidden inside.
"Who's there?" He suddenly spotted Yu Qiu.
Yu Qiu emerged from the darkness.
"Who are you?" Xiao Chunmian's eyes showed vigilance, and his right hand secretly stroked the saber at his waist, "What do you want to do?"
Yu Qiu looked at him blankly, moved his lips, but didn't know what to say. He couldn't tell why he came here, really couldn't tell.
After a while, Yu Qiu looked down at the jug of wine that was placed on the table, "Are you always drinking it? It's not good to drink too much... I also heard from others that it's not good to drink too much."
Xiao Chunmian was taken aback for a moment, then suddenly smiled. Compared to the last time, he was a little more tired after exhausting his mind, but his smile was still so bright and beautiful.
"I remembered." After a while, Xiao Chunmian said, "I saw you in Zuixianglou three years ago."
Inexplicably, Xiao Chunmian let go of his guard, took his hand away from the saber, and never asked why Yu Qiu appeared in his study.
Although he never asked, he seemed to acquiesce in the fact that Yu Qiu was not an extraordinary person, and he was not surprised that Qiu could make all the guards ignore him every time. Anyway, even if he should be surprised, he should be surprised that Yu Qiu hasn't changed his appearance for so many years.
When Yu Qiu was around, Xiao Chunmian would have a few words with him during the break. Of course, Xiao Chunmian didn't have much time to rest, and most of the time he was immersed in the memorial of the Manshu An, or other things of the Manshu An. And Xiao Chunmian was very thoughtful, even when talking with Yu Qiu, he always liked to hide something behind the words.
But Yu Qiu still likes to look for him, and he also seems to welcome Qiu's arrival.
It's just that Yu Qiu doesn't often find the opportunity to go down the mountain, almost once every three to five years. For Yu Qiu, who had already established his foundation at that time, three years and five years passed quickly, almost in the blink of an eye, but every time he saw Xiao Chunmian, he could see more and more white hair on Xiao Chunmian's head .
When we first met, Xiao Chunmian was probably in his twenties, and the second time he was just in his thirties, and after that, it was already passing by. And every time Yu Qiu saw him, he was either buried in his desk or drinking.
Until one time Xiao Chunmian coughed up a mouthful of blood from his throat, so he spent more time lying on the hospital bed.
But Yu Qiu came to him again and found that he was still drinking.
Yu Qiu dropped his jug, but he was not angry, he just looked at Yu Qiu and smiled, and when Qiu turned around, he immediately found another jug of wine. The wine is not strong wine, it tastes sweet, but it can't stand him drinking like this.
Even if you are not drunk, it is too hurtful.
As he approached the age of fifty and knew his destiny, Xiao Chunmian finally got sick.
Yu Qiu came to see him again, and saw that he had more white hair than black hair, and his face was as white as paper, and he was very weak. There was no time to feel sad, but anger welled up first. Especially when he saw that he was clearly ill like this, and he set up a desk next to the hospital bed, and there was a jug of wine next to the piles of memorials on the desk, this anger couldn't help but burst out.
Xiao Chunmian listened to his loud reprimand, looked at him quietly, and said after a while, "Don't be so noisy."
Yu Qiu was almost pissed off.
"Don't be so noisy." Xiao Chunmian smiled again, "That's it... When I look at you, my heart will always be quieter."
This sudden sentence made Yu Qiu a little bit at a loss, and after a while he continued to say angrily, "What's the use of being quiet, can't you treat yourself better?"
Xiao Chunmian lowered her eyelids, "You really care about me."
"You don't need to worry so much." After a while, Xiao Chunmian suddenly said again, "I have many wives and concubines."
Yu Qiu was choked to death for some reason, and gritted his teeth, "What's the use? They should take care of you the most at this time, but you drove them away, and I don't think you like them very much. "
"Of course I don't like them." Xiao Chunmian looked up at Yu Qiu, "But I don't like any of them."
Yu Qiu heard the meaning of the words and shook his lips.
"It's just that you are different from them, you can calm me down." Xiao Chunmian looked at him, smiled and asked, "What about you, what are you trying to do?"
"What do you mean?" Yu Qiu said angrily, "What do you think I am greedy for?"
"I don't know, I just know it's not me." Xiao Chunmian looked away.
Yu Qiu raised his eyes in astonishment.
Xiao Chunmian smiled, "Do you think you like me?"
Yu Qiu was silent for a while, and gritted his teeth.
Xiao Chunmian has always been an indirect person, but now he is so direct, I am afraid it is due to the destiny.
"No, we are too far away..." Xiao Chunmian murmured, "Too far away..." Yu Qiu didn't know how many times he was assassinated in the year he ascended the throne, and the deepest one is still engraved on his chest. Yu Qiu didn't know that he kept a book under his pillow all year round, recording all the sins of his life. Yu Qiu didn't know how difficult it was to sit in this position. He forced people to choose between human life and human life all the time. He had to choose the lesser of two evils.
Even more because he is not orthodox, even if he puts his best efforts into it, he will have both good and bad reputation.
However, Yu Qiu also didn't know, even if there were so many such things, how happy his life was.
"I did the best I can." Xiao Chunmian smiled.
Seeing that the vitality in his body has flowed away like running water, Yu Qiu felt anxious and couldn't help pulling his arm, "Come with me, I can find a way to save you."
Xiao Chunmian smiled and shook her head, her voice was hoarse and tired, "I've been waiting for this day for a long time."
Yu Qiu gritted his teeth.
"However, this is the path I chose, and I have no regrets in this life." Xiao Chunmian looked at him with a smile.
Yu Qiu finally let go of his hand.
"Don't show such an expression." Xiao Chunmian reached out to touch his face, "I'm not the person you see from me, don't be so reluctant."
The hand finally fell down, and the vitality was completely cut off.
Yu Qiu quietly disappeared, squatted down in the suddenly noisy palace, covered his face with his hands, and cried into tears.
In the midst of crying, this world has gradually become a bubble.
In fact, Yu Qiu knew a long time ago. As early as the encounter in Zuixianglou, he discovered what he lacked in so many lives he had already lived, and knew that this life still does not belong to him, but he Reluctant to give up.
He wondered what life that boy would have had, and wept over it.
After a long time, Yu Qiu wiped his face and stood up from the darkness.
Many light clusters in the darkness are still floating in it, but Yu Qiu doesn't need to touch one of them anymore. He finally remembered everything and was no longer confused.
"... Guess how long I've been waiting for you." A white figure appeared beside him, speaking helplessly.