"Didn't you also say I'm a rotten person?"
Lu Yong heard Shen Wenqiu say.
Lu Yong's complexion changed drastically, as if he had been slapped in the face.
He said something like this. When Shen Wenqiu first came here, Shen Wenqiu was still full of thorns, and said to him: "I am not the person I was ten years ago, and I am not anymore. You still Think I'm a nice guy?"
What did he answer? Oh yes, he said, "I didn't think so. I know you're a sucker."
He is always unable to lie, he wants to be honest with Shen Wenqiu. At that time, Shen Wenqiu was a little annoyed, he chased after the explanation, and left it alone, thinking that the matter would be unraveled like this, but in fact it was just planting a mine.
Shen Wenqiu at that time was not soft at all, his soul was pierced with sharp thorns one after another by many setbacks and pains, if someone asked if it was because of this that he couldn't hug him, he would say in a bad voice: " I don't want to hug you, so don't be sentimental and think that hugging me will hurt you."
That's how it is sometimes.
In a word, the person who said it meant this, but the person who listened to it understood it as that.
Lu Yong was so anxious that he took a deep breath, wanted to talk to him face to face, explained solemnly, and quickly walked in front of him. Just as Lu Yongcai raised his foot, Shen Wenqiu ran away immediately when he heard his footsteps, Lu Yong finally caught up, Shen Wenqiu turned around and didn't want to look at him.
Lu Yongfei wanted to get close to him, if there were outsiders around at this time, they might be able to see the two of them circling around in circles.
They are clearly by their side, but one hides and the other chases them, so they can't face each other anyway.
Lu Yong no longer lost his temper, and now he is a little bit angry. He knows that Shen Wenqiu is sick...he should be more patient! Can't force Shen Wenqiu! Be gentle, be gentle, he was originally a gentle person.
But now I can't be more gentle.
Every time it was Shen Wenqiu who took the initiative first, and every time Shen Wenqiu patted his butt after sleeping and refused to admit it. He wanted to be responsible and had no place to take responsibility, Shen Wenqiu refused to give him a title! !
Lu Yong was so annoyed that he grabbed Shen Wenqiu's arm firmly, dragged him over abruptly, straightened him, and faced him.
Shen Wenqiu turned his face away, he clasped the wrists of Shen Wenqiu's hands with his left hand, cut behind his back, pinched Shen Wenqiu's chin with his right hand, forced the person to lift his face, and said in a low voice, "Look Look at me, Shen Wenqiu."
Shen Wenqiu closed his eyes.
Lu Yong was really furious.
He bowed his head and kissed directly, he didn't know what was going on with him, he seemed to have learned how to kiss without a teacher, or maybe it was just instinctively invading-plundering-plundering, the evil thoughts in the dark part of his personality took advantage of the situation again Then, the madness raged.
Shen Wenqiu was a little afraid of being kissed.
He could hardly breathe, and his face turned red.
Lu Yong's character is very extreme, he is clearly such a weak and dull person, even if someone ridicules him, he can remain calm and indifferent, as if nothing in the world can make him angry, and it is rare to see Lu Yong angry .
But once he gets angry, Lu Yong will be like a different person, and anyone who sees him will be afraid.
Like last time in a casino.
For example now.
Shen Wenqiu even had the illusion that Lu Yong wanted to tear him apart, and the anger on Lu Yong's body seemed to be steaming hot, hot and frightening. In fact, Lu Yong does this occasionally, like a dark temperament that inadvertently flows out.
It happens in bed like zuo/ai with a wild beast.
Shen Wenqiu was dazzled by the kiss, and even more absurd thoughts emerged tremblingly, Lu Yong... Lu Yong would not want to force him here, would he? His current mental state was already sensitive, and he couldn't help shivering.
Lu Yong let him go with a dark face.
While hugging him fiercely, pressing Shen Wenqiu's face into his own arms, he was stroking Shen Wenqiu's trembling back stiffly, still not calming down: "I didn't mean to scare you, baa... "
"You always can't listen to my explanation, and I don't know what to do."
They had never done intimate things before, and when this happened, he could only hold back his anger. Now that they have done what they should and should not do, then he has more options to communicate with each other better .
Give someone a kiss before talking.
Lu Yong said extremely depressed: "You were in that state at that time, should I still lie to you, are you a good person?"
Sure enough, Shen Wenqiu wanted to cry again, he wanted to break free and said, "I know, I don't need you to remind me."
But Lu Yong's arm is too strong. When Lu Yong only had one hand, he could still get rid of Lu Yong. With Lu Yong's prosthetic limbs, he had two hands. He couldn't escape at all, and was held down by Lu Yong. in arms.
Just like that day in the river.
No matter how self-defeating he is drowning in the swamp life, Lu Yong will try his best to pull him out.
Lu Yong said paranoidly and frantically: "I love you, Shen Wenqiu. I love you, I love you, I love you more than you can imagine."
"I love you, I love you, I love you..."
It seems that there is no end to how to say it, such as love words, such as curses.
Shen Wenqiu stopped slowly, gave up struggling, and let Lu Yong hug him.
Lu Yong's head is hot, he has no ability to organize words at all, he is expressing his thoughts that he has suppressed for many years out of instinct: "I don't want to be like this, like a lunatic, like a pervert, it will scare you, I know you are timid, and I don't want to scare you."
"That's why I never dared to tell you."
"I love you, I love you. - You are a good person and I will love you, and you are a bad person and I will love you."
"You know I'm stupid, I don't know how to deal with feelings, I can't get along well with people, and I don't know what love is. But I'm sure I love you more than your teenage optimism Kind and gentle, I also love your timidity, inferiority and paranoia. Because it is in you, so I love it."
"You are good Shen Wenqiu, that would be great. If you become a bad Shen Wenqiu, I also like it. Why do you think I have never had a boyfriend or girlfriend in these years, because I like you, I can't like you Someone else. I only like you, and you are the only one I like!"
"I'm such a despicable person."
"I know you are out of loneliness, out of pathological reasons, that's why you have sex with me, you want to feel alive in the world from zuo/ai, and I just can't refuse you, I despicably took advantage of it Your loneliness."
"I want you, I want you so much! I want you to be crazy, maybe I have been crazy since I was sixteen years old, and I haven't been cured until now. So I can't convince myself to let go Pass!"
Shen Wenqiu pushed him, but still didn't break free, his face was full of tears from crying, his cheeks were flushed, and the hair on his sideburns was messed up, with strands of tears sticking to his face, he was extremely embarrassed, Shen Wenqiu's eyes were red, his teeth were clenched, and his cheeks hurt so hard, he stared at Lu Yong viciously, and asked stiffly like a clam for a long time: "You said you like me? Then why haven't you come to me for ten years? "
Lu Yong stared at Shen Wenqiu with deep eyes.
Shen Wenqiu felt that Lu Yong was holding him in the palm of his hand condescendingly, and also like a devout believer kneeling in front of him: "Because you hate me, you tell me not to appear in front of you, as long as it is what you say, I will Follow. My rules are in your hands, you can break them, but I can't. I don't want you to hate me more."
How ridiculous.
But Lu Yong was serious.
So he told Lu Yong not to show up, and Lu Yong could bear not showing up for ten years, even though he still loved him; so he called Lu Yong at the police station, and with just one sentence, he was able to summon Lu Yong to leave the others behind, Go straight to thousands of miles to come to him.
"Shen Wenqiu, I want you to be happy more than anyone else in the world, and I want you to have the best life."
"I don't think I'm the best, so I don't want to appear in front of you. I can only wait for you to want me. If you are still the young son of the Shen family, with so many friends and so many people who like you, who are they? They are all better than me, first of all they are physically sound, and one is better than the other. How can someone like me deserve to chase you?"
"I can't deny that you were a bad person when we reunited. If you hadn't become like that, and no one wanted you anymore, how could it be my turn?"
"I don't know what it is like to them, but to me, Shen Wenqiu is Shen Wenqiu, and what I love is Shen Wenqiu herself."
"I know you don't like me, I'm just your helpless, desperate choice."
"In the future when you recover from your illness, really cheer up and choose someone better than me, and I will respect you. I just want you to know that I love you."
"Lu Yong loves Shen Wenqiu, Shen Wenqiu without any attributive words. Even if you hate me."
Shen Wenqiu's eyes were sore, his throat was dry, and his heart was throbbing with pain. He wanted to cry and was happy at the same time, and said slowly: "...how could I hate you? Don't slander me."
Shen Wenqiu really wanted to cry, he was so unmanly, he sniffed, and said in a crying voice, "Why do you think I didn't study abroad in the end?..."
…
Lu Yong, the person who seemed to be the closest to Shen Wenqiu, turned out to be the last person in the small group centered by Shen Wenqiu in the high school class who knew that Shen Wenqiu was likely to go abroad to study.
It was probably because he didn't have a good relationship with anyone except Shen Wenqiu, and he might not be able to say ten sentences in a semester, but they were all nonsense like "good" and "oh". Xu talked a lot.
But not a good word.
Sheng Xu loves to take aim at his yin and yang.
Sheng Xu accidentally slipped this matter out in private.
Lu Yong was dumbfounded at the time, and Sheng Xu understood from his overly blunt reaction that Shen Wenqiu didn't tell him, so he was quite happy: "So Xiaoba didn't tell you? Haha, we all know, I'm going to go with him Go to study abroad. The procedures are almost ready, and the school will definitely be able to apply."
"You can ask him more about it yourself. I thought Shen Wenqiu liked you more, but he didn't even tell you that?"
It's so sad.