Secretly, Secretly; But Unable to Hide It

Chapter 28: secretly

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Graduation ceremonies are held in the gymnasium.

But before the time came, most people stayed outside to take pictures. Duan Jiaxu's popularity was exceptionally good, and he had a good temper. He was dragged by many people to take pictures, and he didn't have much time to take care of Sang Zhi.

Sang Zhi didn't intend to influence him, and wanted to go back to find his parents, but because there were so many people, he didn't know where they went.

Duan Jiaxu was afraid that she would get lost, and that she would be crowded by the crowd. In the end, he simply pulled her to his side and told her to follow him and not run around.

I don't care that she's also in the camera.

Sang Zhi felt like he had become his little tail. Still a little tail with long eyes who can't help but peek at him.

Duan Jiaxu was wearing a uniform black academic uniform and a large robe today, which made him look thinner and taller, with a noble and indifferent temperament. His complexion is cold and white, his facial features are sharp and clear, and his smile is inexplicably a little provocative, so that people can't take their eyes off him.

Sang Zhi could feel that many girls were looking at him.

Perhaps because it was uncomfortable, Duan Jia Xu didn't wear a bachelor's hat, but just held it in his hand at will. Later, he noticed that the sun was too strong, so he put his hat on Sang Zhi's head.

The bachelor's hat is a bit big, it always falls down, and it collapses in front of Sang Zhi's eyes, blocking her vision.

Seeing from the corner of his eye, Duan Jiaxu immediately helped her straighten, and said with a smile, "What are you thinking, help yourself. Otherwise, do you want my brother to help you?"

Sang Zhi snorted and adjusted the position of the hat by herself.

But it still kept falling, she simply took off the hat and handed it back to Duan Jia Xu: "Brother, I don't wear it anymore."

"Huh?" Duan Jiaxu looked down at her, "Aren't you going to bask in the sun?"

"Sun." Sang Zhi pointed to his head, his tone was a little depressing, "But it keeps falling off."

"Stand in front of brother."

Sang Zhi obeyed obediently and said hesitantly, "Why?"

Duan Jiaxu raised his hand to fix the hat and chuckled, "Brother will help you."

"… "

"You can't expose our little Sangzhi."

People, one big and one small, stood in tandem, surrounded by all kinds of people wearing academic uniforms.

Duan Jia Xu was holding the bouquet of flowers that Sang Zhi brought, and the bachelor hat that was supposed to be on his head was put on her head.

When someone asked, Duan Jiaxu replied with a smile, "This is my sister."

In this way, Sang Zhi appeared in most of Duan Jia Xu's graduation photos as a "sister". She hadn't seen any trace of those photos, and was embarrassed to ask him.

Sang Zhi was suddenly a little fortunate.

Luckily I wore a nice dress today.

After the graduation ceremony, Sang Zhi went home with her parents.

Sang Yan and Duan Jiaxu went out to dinner with their friends. That night, Sang Yan didn't go home until nearly twelve o'clock, and brought back Duan Jia Xu.

Strictly speaking, it should be said that Duan Jia Xu sent Sang Yan back.

Sang Zhi was already asleep at the time, and when she was woken up by passive silence, she got up and looked suspiciously.

As soon as he left the living room, he saw Sang Yan sitting on the sofa, obviously drinking too much. Sang Rong scolded Sang Yan while talking to Duan Jia Xu.

Li Ping is cooking sober soup in the kitchen.

Noticing Sang Zhi, Sang Rong looked over and said, "Only, did you wake up?"

Sang Zhi rubbed her eyes and shook her head silently.

"Look at your brother, how much did you drink to drink like this!" Sang Rong frowned, "By the way, only. This brother sleeps at our house today, you go find him a new towel and toothbrush."

Duan Jiaxu immediately declined, "I won't bother you anymore."

"What are you bothering about?" Sang Rong patted his arm, "Go and wash up, I'm tired from tossing around today, so don't go out to live."

The next moment, Sang Zhi walked up to him and said, "Brother, come with me and I'll get it for you."

Duan Jiaxu didn't refuse any more, he nodded, "Then I'll be bothering you."

Sang Zhi took Duan Jiaxu to Sang Yan's room, pulled out a set of pajamas for him, and suddenly stopped, "Brother, I don't know where to put my panties. I'll ask my mother?"

"..." Duan Jia Xu said, "Just get your brother a towel and a toothbrush."

"Oh." Sang Zhi took him to the toilet again, and pointed to the cabinet above, "There is a new one in that cabinet, you can just take it yourself."

"Um."

"Brother," Sang Zhi walked out of the toilet and suddenly turned around and asked, "Have you been drinking?"

Duan Jia Xu: "I didn't drink."

"Did you really not drink it?" Sang Zhi stared at his face and hesitated, "If you drink it, I will ask my mother to make you a hangover soup too."

"I really didn't drink." Duan Jia Xu smiled, "Brother doesn't drink."

After thinking for a while, Sang Zhi walked back to the toilet and pointed to the things on the table: "Brother, this is shampoo, conditioner, this is body wash, and this is facial cleanser, and there are razors here— You can use it."

Duan Jiaxu rubbed Sang Zhi's head, his eyebrows narrowed slightly, and the corners of his lips curved.

"Okay, brother got it. Thank you Xiao Sangzhi."

Sang Zhi nodded and left the toilet.

Seeing that Sang Yan was alone in the living room, Sang Rong went into the kitchen to help Li Ping.

Thinking of what happened just now, Sang Zhi jogged to Sang Yan's side and pushed his arm: "Brother."

Sang Yan struggled to open his eyes: "Why?"

"Go to your room to find a new pair of underwear." Sang Zhi whispered, "Brother Jiaxu is taking a shower, go and get him a pair."

"… "

"hurry up!"

Sang Yan perfunctory: "In the small cabinet in the closet, go and get it to him."

Sang Zhi's expression was uncomfortable: "...How can I take this."

Sang Yan closed her eyes again and ignored her.

Seeing Sang Yan's distressed appearance, Sang Zhi didn't say anything. Looking at the empty water glass on the table, she poured him another glass of warm water: "Brother, drink water."

Sang Yan didn't say a word.

"You remember to drink." She stood up and muttered, "Why drink so much alcohol when you have nothing to do..."

Sang Zhi ran back to Sang Yan's room, opened the small cabinet he mentioned, and took out a new pair of underwear. She scratched her head, walked to the toilet door, and knocked on the door.

The sound of water inside stopped immediately: "Did someone knock on the door?"

"Brother, I... I hung the door for you. You can take it yourself."

After speaking, Sang Zhi immediately returned to her room.

After that, she didn't go out again, and she could hear movements outside the room. After about an hour, Sang Zhi gradually fell asleep again amid the rustling sound.

When she woke up again, she was awakened by thirst.

The sky is still dark, the vision is pitch black, and the world is quiet. Sang Zhi got up and planned to go to the living room to fill up a glass of water to drink.

Afraid of disturbing her parents, she made little movement, so she planned to go back to the room after filling the water. When passing the living room, she suddenly noticed that there seemed to be a person on the balcony.

Sang Zhi's footsteps stopped.

It was immediately discovered that that person was Duan Jiaxu.

He was sitting on a chair on the balcony, with the floor-to-ceiling windows closed, smoking a cigarette. He didn't notice Sang Zhi's existence, raised his head, his Adam's apple slowly slid, and the smoke lingered in the moonlight.

Sang Zhi couldn't see his expression clearly.

Inexplicably, he felt that he was in a bad mood.

Sang Zhi hesitated, but walked over.

Soon, Duan Jiaxu noticed out of the corner of his eye, turned his head to look over, raised his eyebrows, and immediately smiled, "Why haven't you slept yet?"

Across the floor-to-ceiling windows, his voice was low.

Sang Zhi carefully pushed open the floor-to-ceiling windows, and asked in an airy voice, "Brother, can't you sleep?"

Duan Jiaxu put out the cigarette butt, and said lazily, "Well, brother is a little bit aware of the bed."

"You can lie down for a while and then you can sleep." Sang Zhi said, "Otherwise you will sleep on the sofa in my brother's room. I remember you used to sleep on it."

"Okay." Duan Jia Xu's expression was gentle, "It's very late, go to bed."

Sang Zhi didn't move, and asked in a low voice, "Brother, are you in a bad mood?"

Duan Jia Xu hummed, "A little bit."

Sang Zhi was silent for a few seconds, without asking why: "Then let me pour you a glass of water."

She had just taken two steps when Duan Jia Xu, who was behind her, suddenly made another noise.

Maybe it was because of this night that he had the desire to talk.

"Little Sangzhi, brother, let me tell you a little secret." Duan Jiaxu looked up at her, his peach blossom eyes curved into a beautiful crescent moon, "Brother has a lot of creditors."

"..." Sang Zhi paused and turned around, "Did you owe a lot of money?"

Duan Jiaxu smiled and said, "It's not money."

He thought about it for a while, and then said, "It can also be said to be money."

"A lot?" Sang Zhi didn't know what to say, so she could only whisper, "Brother, don't worry, I will make money to help you pay it back when I grow up."

Duan Jia Xu was stunned for a moment, but he soon laughed out loud and let out a shallow breath.

This time, Sang Zhi could clearly feel that his mood seemed to be better.

After a long time, he pinched Sangzhi's face dotingly: "Thank you, Xiao Sangzhi. But these are not my brother's debts, and I don't need Xiao Sangzhi to help my brother repay."

"… "

"The money Xiao Sangzhi will make in the future," Duan Jia Xu said, "is going to buy himself a nice dress to wear."

The next day, Duan Jiaxu took the earliest flight back to Yihe.

Sang Zhi thought, this is probably the last time he will come to Nanwu. Because he had no other reason to come here, he completely left the campus and completely integrated into the society.

All continue to live step-by-step lives.

At the beginning of July, Sang Zhi's high school entrance examination results came out, and she was successfully admitted to the No. 1 Middle School. Before school started, she received a new schoolbag from Duan Jiaxu.

As a reward for her admission to a high school.

In fact, Duan Jiaxu was far away from her.

But sometimes, it made her feel that he seemed to be everywhere.

After the first year of high school, Sang Zhi found that Fu Zhengchu was also admitted to the first middle school, and happened to be in the same class as her. The two hadn't spoken for a long time. She remembered Fu Zhengchu's previous confession, and was too embarrassed to take the initiative to talk to him.

But it was Fu Zhengchu who came over to say hello to her, without any grievances.

Sang Zhi also breathed a sigh of relief.

High school winter vacation.

Fu Zhengchu asked Sang Zhi out for the reason of coming out together to do homework, and confessed to her again. This time, the little boy is no longer as confident as last time, but he is still nervous.

"Sang Zhi, I like you. You can be my girlfriend now. If you don't, I'll ask again in three years."

When he heard this, Sang Zhi was a little lost.

The first reaction was actually to recall Duan Jiaxu who suddenly appeared after being confessed by Fu Zhengchu when he was thirteen years old, and taught her that paragraph.

- "It's normal to have these thoughts at the beginning of adolescence. But you don't want to hurt others. You can thank the other party for your liking first, and then reject it."

There was silence for a while.

"Thank you for liking me." Sang Zhi stared into his eyes and said seriously, "But I have someone I like, so I can't accept you."

"… "

"You are a very nice person, thank you."

Fu Zhengchu scratched his head and exhaled: "I knew I would be rejected again."

Sang Zhi was a little embarrassed.

"I didn't plan to continue liking you." Fu Zhengchu said, "but I can't find a girl who is more beautiful than you. What can I do."

"… "

"Forget it." Fu Zhengchu thought about it and asked, "Can I ask who you like?"

Sang Zhi shook his head silently.

Fu Zhengchu: "You look as handsome as me?"

Duan Jia Xu's sentence "Don't hurt others" came to mind again, Sang Zhi waved his hand and said vaguely, "Don't ask."

"… "

Sang Zhi thought it would go on like this forever.

Her crush will last forever.

Then, as long as she works harder now, she should be admitted to Yihe University, and three years later, she will go to the city where Duan Jiaxu lives.

But life is always variable.

Everything doesn't necessarily go as it should.

During the first semester of high school, during the Qingming holiday, Sang Zhi got a piece of news from Sang Yan.

She was about to go to the toilet, and when she passed by Sang Yan's room, she heard him talking to a friend on the phone, and said casually, "Fuck, Duan Jiaxu has a partner?"

Sang Zhi's footsteps stopped immediately.

But after that, Sang Yan didn't hear Duan Jiaxu's name again.

Her mind went blank, and she stood there for a long time.

Sang Zhi didn't go back to the room, went to the living room, pretended to be watching TV, and then while Sang Yan came out, pretended to ask casually, "Brother, is Brother Xue dating?"

"Ah?" Sang Yan took an apple from the refrigerator, "I guess so."

Sang Zhi's eyes were fixed on the TV, and she hummed slowly, but said nothing.

When Sang Yan returned to the room, she turned off the TV and returned to the room. Sang Zhi picked up the phone on the table, opened WeChat, and found Duan Jia Xu.

She pursed her lips and typed a line very slowly.

—Brother, I heard my brother say you are in love

Sang Zhi stared at it for a long time, and finally deleted it. She lay down on the bed and looked sideways at the dolls that were given by Duan Jiaxing. The tip of her nose was sore.

really.

Must be fake.

Sang Zhi looked at the photo of Yihe University that she had posted on the wall, rubbed her eyes forcefully, reluctantly forgot about it, and got up to study.

She told Duan Jiaxu.

If you find a girlfriend, you have to show her first.

He agreed.

He will tell her.

Although Sang Zhi thought so, she couldn't take her class seriously for the next few days. She would always think of Sang Yan's words, and when she saw the couple getting close, she would also think of Duan Jiaxu.

I wonder if he is like this when he is in love.

Such a gentle person must be very good to his girlfriend.

But Sang Zhi did not dare to ask.

She was afraid of getting an affirmative answer.

The longer the time goes on, the more such a state accumulates.

At the end of April, Sang Zhi did the most outrageous thing in her sixteen years of living.

That day, Sang Zhi ran home after school and dropped the piggy bank she had prepared for Duan Jiaxu. She took the money and went to her parents' room to steal her ID card.

Afterwards, Sang Zhi went to a ticket sales point near her home to buy a ticket to Yihe at noon the next day. The next day, she put on her schoolbag, said goodbye to her parents as usual, and went out.

But Sang Zhi didn't get on the bus that he usually got on. She went to the nearby KFC to change into her school uniform, then took a taxi and went to Nanwu Airport.

This is Sang Zhi's first time on a plane alone.

For the first time, I have traveled so far by myself.

Three hours later, Sang Zhi got off the plane.

Before coming, Sang Zhi didn't check the weather. The temperature in Yihe was much lower than that in Nanwu. She only wore a long sweater, and she was shivering from the cold. She switched on the phone.

Saw dozens of missed calls.

It's all from family members.

Guilt and fear, Sang Zhi found Sang Yan's number and called back with her heart in hand.

The other end picked up immediately, accompanied by Sang Yan's anxious voice: "Sang Zhi?"

Sang Zhi hummed.

Sang Yan: "Where did you go? Your teacher said you weren't at school. What time is it?"

"Brother." Sang Zhi said slowly, "I'm in Yihe City."

"… "

Sang Zhi lied: "My former online dating partner, asked me to come here."

"..." The other end fell silent, as if forcibly suppressing the fire. After a long time, Sang Yan said word by word, "Where are you in Yihe now?"

"Airport."

"You find a place to stay, and I'll let Duan Jiaxu go first." Sang Yan said coldly, "You dare to go find your so-called online dating partner, if you come back, I won't beat you to death."

"understood."

Sang Zhi lowered her eyes and entered the airport.

She found a seat and sat down, her eyes staring at the void, a little dazed. Knowing what you're doing is wrong, knowing what you're doing worries everyone.

But she just couldn't help it.

Sang Zhi answered Sang Rong and Li Ping's phone calls one after another, listening to their anxious and angry voices, but didn't scold her any more, just asked her to pay attention to safety.

After an unknown amount of time, the phone in Sang Zhi's hand rang again.

This time, Duan Jiaxu's number is displayed.

She picked up in silence.

Duan Jiaxu: "Where is it?"

His tone was also clearly angry, indifferent and cold.

Sang Zhi looked around and whispered, "The chair by the exit of T3."

Soon, Sang Zhi saw Duan Jia Xu appear in her field of vision.

After all, I haven't seen each other for nearly a year. He looked more mature, with no expression on his face, wearing a shirt, suit pants, and a coat draped over his arms.

Obviously came in a hurry.

Sang Zhi looked away and saw a very beautiful woman following him.

She lowered her eyes immediately.

Duan Jia Xu glanced at her and saw her at a glance. He exhaled, walked over quickly, squatted down in front of her, then wrapped his coat around her without saying a word.

Sang Zhi was also speechless, and out of the corner of his eye he could see the woman's bright red high heels.

Duan Jia Xu's Adam's apple rolled and he laughed angrily, "An online dating partner?"

"… "

"Can't remember what I said to you before?" Duan Jia Xu's tone was cold, "Sang Zhi, now that you've grown up? How dare you go that far alone?"

Sang Zhi raised her head and looked at Duan Jiaxu, then turned to look at the beautiful woman. She wanted to say something, but she couldn't say anything.

She wanted to ask.

Did you really have a girlfriend

Have you really become someone else's

Didn't you say you would tell me

It doesn't matter if I'm young, you think it's okay to lie to me.

Did you lie to me.

But Sangzhi didn't dare.

Duan Jiaxu: "Speak."

The woman next to her couldn't help but say, "Appreciate, don't be so cruel to the little girl."

Duan Jiaxu didn't hear it, and still stared at Sang Zhi.

Sang Zhi endured the choking in her throat and said slowly, "I'm sorry."

Duan Jiaxu asked, "He asked you to come here?"

Sang Zhi: "I want to come here myself."

"Have you seen someone?"

"Well." Sang Zhi said softly, "He thinks I'm too young."

"..." Duan Jiaxu's brows loosened, "The person has left?"

"Um."

"Sang Zhi, what he did is right, you are still too young." Seeing her pitiful appearance, Duan Jiaxu's anger gradually dissipated, "This is not appropriate, you know?"

Sang Zhi looked at him, her eyes gradually turning red: "But I will grow up."

She murmured, "I'll grow up..."

"Then wait until you're older, okay?"

"Then he will," Sang Zhi burst into tears and said while holding back her tears, "he will like others."

No matter what she did, she couldn't stop it.

Sang Zhi suddenly remembered the scene where he smoked on the balcony of her house a year ago. At that time, he looked so lonely and hopeless.

And now he was standing next to another person.

Shouldn't she be so selfish.

He is such a good person.

It should and deserves the company of others.

Why should he wait for her.

Two years later, he is also twenty-five years old. If he meets the right person, is he thinking about getting married? You can't be alone for so many years.

Wouldn't he be a little happier in this way

Seeing her like this, Duan Jia Xu couldn't let out any anger. He didn't know how to comfort her, so he just touched her head: "When our little Sangzhi grows up, we will meet better people."

Silence for a few seconds.

Sang Zhi pulled the bag aside, took out a box, and moved her lips.

With the words "brother" as intimate as she got older, she couldn't say them anymore. Sang Zhi lowered her head and whispered, "Brother Xu."

"… "

"The birthday present I prepared for you." Sang Zhi said, "I'll bring it to you by the way."

Duan Jiaxu was stunned, "Thank you."

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry to trouble you, I won't do this again." Sang Zhi's tears were dripping, resisting the trembling in her voice, "...I want to wait here for my brother to come over."

Secret love is probably the sweetest and most painful thing in the world.

Sang Zhi suddenly remembered the two dreams she had written in her second year of junior high school.

Stroke stroke by stroke, the little girl wrote down the dream she felt she could achieve when her feelings were the purest and most passionate.

So she worked hard for it and kept walking towards that goal.

Then she found out.

It turned out that the dream, and the possibility, could not be realized.

When she was in love, she secretly discovered a treasure.

Regrettably.

But he couldn't be the treasure hunter.