Secretly, Secretly; But Unable to Hide It

Chapter 36: secretly

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out of the ward.

Duan Jiaxu turned his head to look at her. He changed back to his clothes today, an army green short jacket with a white sweater and slim black trousers.

The beard was shaved, and he looked a lot younger, like a college student.

He leaned down slightly and looked at Sang Zhi. He seemed to think it was very fresh to hear such words from her mouth, he curled his lips and teased: "Get married as soon as possible?"

Sang Zhi also stared at him without blinking: "Isn't this the one you brought first?"

Noticing that she was in a really bad mood, Duan Jia Xu raised his eyebrows and stood up straight: "Are you angry?"

Silence for a few seconds.

"I'm not angry. It's just, brother," Sang Zhi stopped and said seriously, "Don't make jokes like this in the future."

Even if you know it's a joke.

But because she knew this very well, he wouldn't really like her.

So, she didn't find it funny at all.

He can openly take this as a joke, and when he says those words, his expression is not unnatural. It was also like she was using such a method, unknowingly, to treat her small mind, her careful hiding, as a joke.

Sang Zhi lowered her eyes and wanted to say something, but she still didn't say it. She was suddenly discouraged and continued to walk: "Come on, I have something to do in a while."

Duan Jiaxu restrained his smile, slowed down and followed her: "Are you really angry?"

"No."

"Brother has been in the hospital for too long, so I'm a little nervous." Duan Jia Xu rubbed the back of his neck with his palm, and said, "Brother, do you want to apologize?"

"No." Sang Zhi whispered, "Just don't do this in the future."

Seeing her mind so much, Duan Jia Xu's brows twitched, feeling somewhat indescribable. After a long time, he seemed to feel angry and funny, and suddenly said: "Brother isn't that bad, right?"

"… "

"Can you make Xiao Sangzhi so unhappy?"

Hearing this, Sang Zhi turned to look at him with no expression on his face. The corners of his eyes are slightly raised, the peach blossom eyes are deep and charming, and his tone is half-joking.

Seeing this, she inexplicably wanted to block him.

Sang Zhi said earnestly, "I can."

"… "

"Brother, I don't mean anything else, I'll tell the truth." Sang Zhi said coldly, "After listening, I went back and cried all night."

"… "

Duan Jia approved his illness, and the company gave him half a month's vacation. After being discharged from the hospital, he can rest at home for a week to recuperate.

After leaving the hospital, the two took a taxi to Duan Jiaxu's house.

Duan Jiaxu only has one pair of slippers at home.

He glanced, bare feet, put the slippers in front of Sang Zhi and put them on for her.

Sang Zhi didn't feel embarrassed, and put it on directly. She asked Duan Jiaxu to sit on the sofa for a while, then threw all the clothes he brought back into the washing machine and put the other things back to their original places for him.

The slippers were so big on her feet that she walked slowly.

Afterwards, Sang Zhi sat next to Duan Jia Xu and took out a stack of post-it notes from her bag.

Duan Jiaxu was lying on the sofa, playing games lazily.

Sang Zhi turned on the phone, searched the precautions on the web, and added the doctor's instructions. She looked at it, then lay down on the coffee table and copied it down one sentence at a time.

Noticing her movement, Duan Jia Xu looked over and asked, "What did you write?"

"Just the precautions after being discharged from the hospital." Sang Zhi lowered her eyes and explained, "I'll put it on the refrigerator for you after I finish writing. You have to pay attention when you eat."

Growing up so much, Sang Zhi didn't take care of anyone. So she's not very good at it, and she can't remember many things very well, so she looks up on the Internet.

Duan Jia Xu's movements stopped and he made a light hum.

"By the way, don't sit all the time, move around more." Sang Zhi said while thinking, "Then don't hold heavy objects, do strenuous exercise or something."

"Row."

"Also, if you have anything you need, you can tell me, and I will buy it for you when I have time." Sang Zhi said calmly, "Then I might not come here very often."

"… "

"Take care of your body by yourself."

"Um."

"I've left a lot of homework lately, and it's the end of the semester, so I have to prepare for the exam." Sang Zhi looked up at him, "The meal that I wanted to invite you to, I'll talk about it when you get better."

"No need to invite Xiao Sangzhi." Duan Jiaxu chuckled, "Brother invites you to eat."

Sang Zhi blinked: "We'll talk about it then."

She put the pen down, stood up, and stuck the post-it note on the refrigerator. Afterwards, Sang Zhi returned to the living room and put on his coat: "Then brother, I'll go first."

Duan Jiaxu stood up, "I'll take you to the car."

Sang Zhi shook her head: "You better take a rest, you just came back from the hospital."

"… "

"It's not too far from the subway station. I know the way." Sang Zhi went to the entrance to put on her shoes and waved to him, "Goodbye, brother."

After he finished speaking, Sang Zhi went out without waiting for him to speak.

With a bang, the door was closed.

The room suddenly became quiet.

Duan Jiaxu still didn't react. He quit the game directly, took the jacket on the side and put it on, opened the door and walked out. But Sang Zhi was nowhere to be seen.

He pulled the corner of his lower lip and returned to the room.

Duan Jiaxu walked to the refrigerator and glanced at what she had written.

After so many years, her handwriting is obviously beautiful and neat. Unlike in the past, writing is done one stroke at a time, and it takes more than an hour to write a 500-word weekly diary.

Duan Jiaxu's expression was a little sloppy, and he reached out and rubbed the pulp of his finger.

He inexplicably remembered when he was in the hospital.

The deaf man on the next bed kept praising Sang Zhi in front of him, and regarded her as his daughter-in-law.

- "How handsome you are, and he can take care of people."

After a long time.

Duan Jiaxu walked back to the living room and laughed inexplicably.

In December, the temperature in Yihe City has reached a few degrees below zero.

Departmental activities have been suspended because of the weather and the upcoming exam week. Sang Zhi was too cold to move. In addition to class every day, I just sit in the dormitory to draw pictures and make videos.

Duan Jiaxu didn't ask her any more help.

Occasionally looking for her, I just tell her that it is cold and let her take care of herself.

Sang Zhi changed Duan Jiaxu's WeChat remarks to "Big Brother No. 2" and addressed him as he did when he was a child, only calling him "Big Brother".

Toughly, he made his identity in his mind the same as Sang Yan.

Sang Zhi suddenly felt that this was fine.

Work hard to cut off your own mind and end this impossible, unfinished secret love. No longer digging into the horns, no longer thinking that in this life, you can only love one person.

Sang Zhi even started to look forward to it.

One day in the future, when she completely loses her mind.

He brought a woman in front of her and told her that this was his girlfriend. She wouldn't feel bad anymore, and the only thought she might have was that he was finally no longer alone.

He could even call the woman "sister-in-law" without thinking about it.

The last night of 15 years.

The other three people in the dormitory went out to celebrate New Year's Eve with others. Sang Zhi was not interested in this kind of ceremony, and declined the invitations of several people.

Going to order takeout, take a shower, watch a movie, and get some sleep.

The night is over.

Before her plan was implemented, Duan Jiaxu called her.

Sang Zhi bit the potato chips and picked them up.

Duan Jiaxu's languid voice came from the other end, and there was always a faint smile in his words, "What is Xiao Sangzhi doing?"

Sang Zhi glanced at the time and said casually, "I'm going to order a takeaway."

"What kind of takeaway?" Duan Jia Xu smiled, "Come and celebrate with brother."

Sang Zhi's cheeks stopped, and quickly said, "I don't want to go out."

Duan Jiaxu said casually, "Then come and have a meal with my brother."

"… "

"Huh? Why don't you talk." Duan Jia Xu spoke slowly, "Aren't you going to invite me to dinner? Do you want to default on your debt?"

Sang Zhi threw the potato chips back into the bag: "How could I have missed a debt, you didn't mention it before."

Duan Jia Xu: "Then come out now, I'm outside your school."

Sang Zhi couldn't help but say, "You said before that I don't need to invite you."

Duan Jiaxu paused, as if he couldn't remember, "I said something like that?"

"… "

This man is strange.

When the festival comes, I will definitely find her.

As if she felt that she was here alone, and it would be very pitiful if she was alone for the holidays. On Christmas Day, he also looked for her, but when he heard that she was with her roommate, he didn't say much.

Sang Zhi hung up the phone, got up and quickly changed into a suit. She put on the scarf, looked in the mirror, and felt that her face was not very good. After hesitating for a while, she put on a thin layer of lipstick.

After leaving school, Sang Zhi was about to give Duan Jiaxu a call.

When I raised my eyes, I just saw his car, and also saw him in the driver's seat.

Sang Zhi walked over, got into the passenger seat, obediently called out "Brother", and then fastened her seat belt on her own.

Duan Jiaxu looked at her, "Why don't you go out to play?"

"Cold." Sang Zhi said truthfully, "I don't want to go out."

"Why do you live like an old man at this age?" Duan Jia Xu laughed and started the car, "What do you want to eat?"

Sang Zhi had nothing in particular to eat: "You decide."

Duan Jiaxu: "What about hot pot?"

Sang Zhi nodded: "Yes."

"I'm here to choose a location?"

"Um."

Duan Jiaxu drove his car to a commercial circle a few kilometers away, near the community where he lived. But this location is closer to the city library.

It is not far from Yihe University.

This hot pot restaurant is a chain, only four or five in Yihe, and it is very popular. So there are not many people sitting in line on the chairs outside.

Sang Zhi had never eaten this place before, and at this time, she was also interested in smelling the fragrance, so she went to get a number.

The two waited for a while to be seated.

Duan Jiaxu gave her the menu and asked her to order.

Thinking of Duan Jiaxu's illness not long after, Sang Zhi ordered clear soup, and then ordered some meat dishes and vegetarian dishes according to normal people's tastes. When she saw the fat cow, she struggled for a while, but ordered one.

Soon, Sang Zhi handed him the menu: "Brother, let's see what else to eat."

Duan Jiaxu glanced casually, picked up the pen, crossed out the fat cow she had finally decided to order after struggling for a long time, and changed it to cuttlefish balls: "That's it."

"… "

Sang Zhi glanced at him, then swallowed and lowered her head to play with her phone.

Duan Jiaxu poured some tea into her cup and asked, "When is the exam?"

"Starting on the 11th of next month."

"When will you go home then?"

"Let's finish the test." Sang Zhi recalled, "It should be the 20th."

Duan Jiaxu: "Remember to book tickets in advance, tickets before the New Year are not easy to book."

Sang Zhi nodded: "I know."

The two were chatting together.

Soon, the people at the next table finished eating, and after the waiter cleaned up, he brought in two young women. The soup base just came up too.

Sang Zhi put down the phone and raised her eyes.

I noticed that one of the women looked familiar, but she couldn't remember where she had seen it for a while.

That woman seemed to know Duan Jiaxu. Seeing him, her gaze stopped, and the smile on her face disappeared instantly. She let go of her friend's elbow and walked over with a particularly domineering tone: "Duan Jiaxu."

Duan Jia Xu was still talking to Sang Zhi.

Hearing this voice, his expression froze and he raised his eyes.

Sang Zhi also took advantage of the situation to look over.

The woman is not good-looking, at best she is beautiful, with delicate makeup on her face. Her expression was extremely gloomy, and her eyebrows looked mean: "If I hadn't seen you here, I would have thought you were dead."

As soon as she got close, Sang Zhi could smell the perfume on her body.

Sang Zhi's memory was stimulated all of a sudden.

It seemed to be the woman she saw in the elevator last time she went to Duan Jia Xu's house.

Sang Zhi retracted her gaze and subconsciously glanced at Duan Jia Xu.

He has also retracted his eyes, not looking at the woman. As if he didn't hear her words, he picked up the teapot sloppily and poured tea into the cup.

The woman said again: "Didn't you see me calling you?"

Sang Zhi pursed her lips and suddenly felt a little embarrassed sitting here. She tried her best to reduce her sense of existence, and took out her mobile phone to play.

"Did you call me?" Duan Jia Xu picked up the phone next to him and glanced at it, then slowly raised his eyes and smiled softly, "Ah, I blocked it."

"You block me?" The woman exploded instantly, "What qualifications do you have to block me?! Fuck you! You should be a bull and a horse for me all your life!"

Her volume was high, shrill to the ear.

Sang Zhi suddenly looked at her again, a little frightened.

The woman's friend grabbed her and seemed to have no idea what was going on. She looked inexplicable: "Xiaoying, what's the matter? Who is this?"

The next moment, Sang Zhi saw that the woman broke away from her friend's hand and suddenly picked up the water glass filled with water on the table, like she was very angry, and splashed it hard on Duan Jia Xu's face.

He was defenseless, unable to dodge.

Just had time to close my eyes.

Slightly hot water drenched him. It slipped from his hair, down his forehead, the bridge of his nose, and down his lips, converging on his chin.

Drop after drop.

Embarrassed.

Sang Zhi was stunned, staring blankly at his current appearance.

For a moment, his head seemed to be congested with blood, his blood gushed upwards, and all his reason was gone. Sang Zhi clenched her fists, stood up instantly, also picked up the water on the table, held it on top of the woman's head, and poured it down.

The woman's attention was all on Duan Jia Xu, and she didn't react at all. She screamed and shouted: "Who are you! What are you getting nervous?"

Hearing this movement, Duan Jia Xu opened his eyes.

He didn't seem to have thought that Sang Zhi would make such a move, staring at Sang Zhi's back, his eyes a little stunned.

Like a guard.

Sang Zhi stood in front of him and asked, "What's wrong with you?"

"Can you manage it?" The woman obviously wasn't as aggressive as she was in front of Duan Jia Xu when facing the others, "You know why I threw him..."

"I don't care what your reasons are." Sang Zhi interrupted her and said word by word, "Auntie, if you do something, who would be interested in reasoning with you? Also, don't talk about splashing water, if you dare to hit him, I will Will definitely call back-"

"… "

Her tone was extremely cold: "I definitely don't think your hands are dirty."

The woman was a little embarrassed, her face flushed instantly, and her hands were raised all of a sudden.

Noticing her move, Duan Jia Xu immediately stood up and pulled Sang Zhi behind him. He stared at the woman with a cool look in his eyes, but still smiled: "That's not good."

"… "

"I'm rather dirty."

"… "

The manager of the hot pot restaurant came over at this time and persuaded the frame in a good voice.

Woman is dragged away by her friend. She also seemed to feel ashamed, she did not insist on staying there, but her eyes were fixed on Duan Jia Xu.

Like a ghost.

The atmosphere suddenly relaxed.

The eyes of the people next to him are still looking this way from time to time.

Sang Zhi's momentum instantly disappeared. She couldn't eat any more, went to the front desk to settle the bill, and then dragged Duan Jiaxu out of the hot pot restaurant. He pulled out a tissue from his bag and handed it to him.

Duan Jiaxu took it, but there was no other movement. His eyes were fixed on Sang Zhi, his eyes were a little dark, and he couldn't see his emotions.

His movement made Sang Zhi a little anxious. She simply took out a few tissues and helped him wipe the water off his hair with her feet.

This was the first time Sang Zhi encountered such a thing, her eyes were red with anger, and her tone was dull: "Who is that person?"

"An irrelevant person." Duan Jiaxu regained his senses, bent down, and thought for a while, "Strictly speaking, he is my dad's former creditor, right?"

He heard the word "creditor" for the second time from his mouth.

Sang Zhi glanced at him subconsciously, but didn't ask in detail, "Last time I went to your house, I seem to have seen her too."

After thinking about it, she asked again, "Does this happen every time she sees you?"

Duan Jiaxu was silent for a few seconds, "Almost."

"That's too scary." Sang Zhi took out another tissue, wiped the water off his forehead for him, and muttered, "Does she have a problem with emotional regulation? After a few words, she suddenly started to use it. …”

Duan Jiaxu smiled, seemingly unintentionally saying, "Maybe I have done something to really feel sorry for her?"

Sang Zhi looked at him: "Didn't you say that you are your father's former creditor?"

"Huh?" Duan Jiaxu said in a light tone, "I don't know if it counts as 'before'."

"Your father's creditor," Sang Zhi stopped, thought about her thoughts carefully, and then said seriously, "It doesn't matter if you go forward or not, it is also your father's creditor. It has nothing to do with you."

- "It has nothing to do with you."

Duan Jia Xu's heart skipped a beat, and his expression finally changed. He suddenly raised his eyes and stared at her.

Sang Zhi's demeanor was serious, holding a tissue and wiping down his forehead. Fortunately, the tea was left for a while, and although his skin was a little red, it didn't look like he was scalded.

She continued to speak: "Anyway, I only saw her come up and splash you with water inexplicably. My brother said, I can't bear to be bullied and come to the door-"

Before he finished speaking, Sang Zhi's eyes moved down.

Suddenly stopped talking.

Duan Jiaxu's gaze remained unmoved.

It just hit her eye.

at this moment.

It's like I'm back, when I was in the hospital before, when she helped wipe my face.

That time, facing the intimacy, I looked at each other closely. Inexplicably, he took the initiative to look away.

It's like being defeated.

This time, the distance between the two was even closer than last time.

Her eyes were extremely beautiful, clean and clear, with a bright lustre.

No aggression in front of him.

It was completely different from the way he stood in front of that woman just to protect him.

In fact, she has not changed much compared to before. The baby fat on the face has faded, and the facial features are also delicate and beautiful, and the word "child" is indeed not related at all.

He didn't care much, and directly ignored those changes.

But it seems, indeed, that it is not the same.

Duan Jiaxu could see the thin fluff on her face, her skin was as white as transparent, and her lips were rosy and full. And her breath, gently and regularly, breathed on his face.

Some itchy.

They stared at each other for a long time.

It seemed only a few seconds, but it seemed like a long time.

Duan Jia Xu's Adam's apple rolled slowly.

Sang Zhi suddenly regained his senses, and withdrew his hand: "Brother, wipe it yourself."

Duan Jiaxu was quiet for a while, and then replied softly, "En."

Afraid that he might feel that his reaction was a bit sudden, Sang Zhi hesitantly explained, "You are too tall, I have to bend over to wipe you."

After she finished speaking, she handed him the tissue: "Give you the tissue."

But I haven't seen him take it for a long time.

Sang Zhi raised her eyes again and met his eyes again.

Duan Jia Xu's eyes were deep and narrowed, and there was a small drop of unwiped water on his eyelashes. He stared at her blatantly, as if he was discharging electricity. He stood up straight, his eyes were straight, and there was no intention of restraining.

He looked thoughtful, not knowing what he was thinking.

It was a little uncomfortable to be stared at by him, but Sang Zhi didn't feel like he had exposed anything. She was a little embarrassed and angry, and her voice became higher: "Why?"

"It's nothing." Duan Jiaxu paused for a few seconds, then coughed lightly, with a hint of spring in his eyes, "Forgot to say, thank you Xiao Sangzhi for protecting brother."

Sang Zhi reluctantly said, "No need."

She glanced around and suggested, "Would you like to buy some clothes nearby to change?"

Not hearing his response, Sang Zhi turned her head again and met his gaze again. She frowned, wondering if there was something on her face, and said at a loss, "Why are you staring at me all the time."

"Is that so?" Duan Jia Xu retracted his gaze and said with his lips bent, "Then I won't watch it."

Sang Zhi's eyes were strange, and she pointed, "Then go to that house?"

Duan Jiaxu smiled, "Okay."

"Why are you laughing all the time?" Sang Zhi couldn't help but say, "Have you been fooled by being splashed with water?"

"Well, it seems so."

"… "

It may be because of an illness that made his brain less clear; it may also be because the uncle in the next bed was brainwashed day and night during that week; it may also be because of this glass of water, Dazed his mind.

at this moment.

Duan Jiaxu suddenly wanted to be a beast.