Secretly, Secretly; But Unable to Hide It

Chapter 44: secretly

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"… "

Sang Zhi snorted, looked away, and nodded dully.

He bowed his head pondering what this meant.

She thought he had forgotten about it long ago, or that he didn't take it seriously at all. Moreover, Sang Zhi never saw him talk about his girlfriend, nor did he show her.

Who was that at the airport before

Sang Zhi looked at him again and couldn't help but ask, "What about the previous one?"

Duan Jia Xu: "Which one?"

"That's right," wondering if it would seem weird for him to suddenly mention something so long ago, Sang Zhi played with his fingers and pretended to ask casually, "I came to Yihe when I was a freshman in high school and came to the airport with you."

"When were you in high school?"

"..." Sang Zhi struggled for a few seconds, and could only say more precisely to strengthen his memory, "The time I came to find my online dating partner."

Duan Jiaxu remembered, "My boss."

Sang Zhi pursed her lips, bit her head, and continued to ask dryly, "Then why did she come over with you?"

"I didn't know how to drive at that time," Duan Jiaxu recalled the incident from three years ago, "and it seemed that I had to work overtime all night, so I felt a little uncomfortable."

"… "

"When your brother called me, she just heard it and took me there." Duan Jiaxu looked at her sideways and added, seemingly unintentionally, "Everyone has gone to elementary school."

Sang Zhi's thoughts were a little empty for a while, and she suddenly remembered the extremely difficult time for herself, and all the memories that she hid in the box and sealed up.

Reminds me of her deliberate estrangement.

I remembered the secret love that she started unilaterally and ended unilaterally.

Sang Zhi nodded silently and asked absently, "Then why haven't you been looking for someone?"

Duan Jiaxu said casually, "Didn't your brother also look for him?"

"..." Sang Zhi recalled the roommate's words and said with a complicated expression, "Then you can't be waiting for my brother all the time..."

Duan Jiaxu laughed, "What did you say?"

Sang Zhi whispered, "I just find it strange."

"I didn't have time when I first graduated," Duan Jiaxu said casually, "I have been introduced several times by my boss in the past two years, which is not suitable."

Sang Zhi snorted and didn't ask any more questions.

The plane took off and the stewardess handed out blankets.

Sang Zhi asked her for one and put it on her head, pretending to be sleeping. Her head was turned to the side of the window, her eyes closed and opened, and soon closed again.

Like thinking about something.

half an hour.

Sang Zhi lowered his head slightly.

The places that used to be scars are now inexplicably filled with honey. She pursed her lips hard, and the corners of her mouth, hidden in the blanket, still curled uncontrollably.

No sound.

The plane arrives in Yihe City.

Before getting off the plane, Sang Zhi heard that Yuan Lang asked Duan Jia Xu for contact information. The two found a place to settle down for lunch, and then Duan Jiaxu sent Sang Zhi back to school.

It was just a little later, and there was only Ning Wei in the dormitory.

Sang Zhi's dormitory has no elevator and lives on the third floor. Duan Jiaxu helped her carry the suitcase to the dormitory, and didn't stay too long. He politely greeted Ning Wei, and then gave Sang Zhi a few words, and left quickly.

When he left, Ning Wei asked curiously, "In what capacity did he send you here?"

Sang Zhi squatted on the ground, opened the suitcase and started packing: "Senior."

"..." Ning Wei said, "Are you still an elder?"

Sang Zhi was silent for a few seconds: "Actually, I don't know."

Hearing this, Ning Wei immediately leaned over and said with a blink of an eye, "What happened?"

"I can't tell the difference right now," Sang Zhi thought for a while, his tone a little hesitant, "because I feel like he used to speak like this."

"what?"

"But it doesn't seem to be the same."

"Did he say anything to you?"

Sang Zhi stopped and whispered, "He just told me that he hasn't been in a relationship in the past few years. He said he couldn't find a suitable one."

"Wait a minute, has he ever been in a relationship before?" Ning Wei was shocked, "No way."

"I don't know." Sang Zhi said, "I can't ask so many questions."

"Then what do you mean when you say you can't tell the difference?"

"He used to talk like this when I was a kid. For example, when he took me home, he would say that I was laughing secretly, or that I would blush when I saw him." Sang Zhi scratched his head, "He's quite a shameless person. ."

"… "

"He recently, I feel a little bit more aggressive." Sang Zhi exhaled and said slowly, "I can't tell the difference, you know. It may also be that I am self-indulgent..."

Ning Wei: "Do you think he might like you a little too?"

"No." Sang Zhi denied immediately, "No."

"… "

Noticing Ning Wei's expression, Sang Zhi looked at her for a few seconds, and suddenly became discouraged: "Okay, it's a little bit."

Ning Wei: "Why don't you even dare to say this idea, your conditions are not bad."

"Because I don't think it's possible. Besides, I know a little bit about it myself." Sang Zhi whispered, "Because I like him, because I have such thoughts, so some of his actions seem normal to him. , may also be misinterpreted by me."

"… "

Sang Zhi laughed: "I'm quite experienced."

secret crush.

narcissistic, but arrogant.

"Also, this relationship is not easy to change." Sang Zhi lowered her eyes and continued to pack her things, "If he was a stranger, I would probably go after him now. If he can't catch up, if it's a big deal, we won't contact him. Nothing to be afraid of."

Ning Wei didn't quite understand her feelings, so she sighed and asked, "Before you came to Yihe, how many years did you see each other?"

"I feel like I haven't seen each other much since the second year of junior high." Sang Zhi added, "After the second semester of junior high, he was very busy, and then he returned to Yihe."

"How old did you know him?"

"First semester."

"Do you think he watched you grow up, and he couldn't have that thought?"

"more or less."

"In that case," Ning Wei said innocently, "you haven't seen him much since the second year of junior high, and you didn't see him again until the first year of freshman year. How can it count as watching you grow up."

"… "

Seems to make sense.

Sang Zhi didn't know what to say for a while, and hesitantly said, "I've seen it a few times during this time."

"Be reasonable." Ning Wei said, "During the summer vacation of my senior year, my dad brought a dog back to raise him, and that month the thief stuck with me. When I go back this winter vacation, it doesn't even recognize me."

"… "

"Even a loyal animal like a dog is like this. You've only seen each other a few times in the past few years, so it's not like watching you grow up." Ning Wei said, "At most, it's the brother I knew when I was a child."

"But he gave me a gift." Sang Zhi said, "and usually asks about my studies."

"Oh." Ning Wei said, "It's barely a netizen."

"… "

"I just say what I think, just listen to me. My brother is also in junior high school. If he has a friend, I know him and treat him as a child." Ning Wei said, "When he grows up, if he grows up He's pretty handsome, come after me."

Sang Zhi looked at her.

Ning Wei smiled and said, "I'm sorry, but it's really possible... hehehe..."

"Then what do you think," Sang Zhi said eagerly, "what should I do now?"

"Let's just go with the flow." Ning Wei said, "Don't always think that he is older than you, just get along normally. If he flirts with you or something, you will flirt back?"

Sang Zhi was a little depressed and nodded.

"By the way, what do you mean by getting tougher?" Ning Wei asked curiously, "Do you think the previous way of getting along is better, or is it better now?"

Sang Zhi thought for a while: "I think the most recent, a bit, I don't know how to describe it..."

She inexplicably remembered Sang Yan's "love story that is so scummy", and was embarrassed to say it, so she could only vaguely say: "The original is pretty good."

After returning home, Duan Jia Xu glanced at WeChat.

Yuan Lang, who had just met him on the plane, sent him a friend verification. He glanced at him casually, and withdrew without agreeing.

Duan Jiaxu took a change of clothes, went to the toilet to take a quick shower, then went back to the room and lay down on the bed to make up for some sleep.

The phone rang at this moment.

Duan Jiaxu glanced at the caller ID and picked it up.

Qian Fei: "Have you arrived in Yihe?"

Duan Jiaxu: "Yes."

Qian Fei was a little sad: "Once you go this time, how long will it take us to see each other again."

Duan Jiaxu laughed and said lazily, "If you weren't married, I would have thought you had a crush on me, listening to your tone."

"What?" Qian Fei said, "I'm thinking of you moving faster. When I get married this time, you can bring the girl you like over and let the brothers meet."

Duan Jiaxu: "It's so fast."

Qian Fei complained: "Didn't you say you did a good job?"

"..." Speaking of this, Duan Jia Xu raised his eyelids and sat up. He was a little inexplicable, and coughed softly, "Let's not mention this."

"how?"

"You said that this little girl likes such a strange type." Duan Jia Xu was speechless until he laughed, "I have never seen such a person."

"what?"

"Brother." Thinking of the elder brother called Sang Yan and Sang Zhi's reaction these days, Duan Jiaxu's brows twitched, "Although it's quite interesting, I really—"

"… "

"It feels absurd."

"..." Qian Fei said, "Can you fucking stop making me mad?"

Duan Jiaxu was no longer sleepy, got up, sat in the living room, and took a pack of cigarettes from under the coffee table. Lighting the cigarette butt with a lighter, he thought for a while, then smiled: "It's a bit difficult."

Qian Fei was going crazy: "What!"

"That girl told me about the type you like." Duan Jia Xu was biting his cigarette with a lazy expression, "I've learned a bit during this time."

Qian Fei said incredulously, "Are you all right? What do you learn from others?"

Duan Jia Xu smiled lowly, "Isn't this taking a shortcut?"

Qian Fei: "Useful?"

Duan Jiaxu raised his eyebrows, "It's really useless."

Qian Fei: "Then what are your plans?"

Duan Jiaxu: "Let's talk about it."

"Aren't you afraid that the girl will see someone else?"

"This is not a normal thing." Duan Jiaxu twitched his lips and said indifferently, "Just meet someone better."

"How can you live like a monk?"

"… "

Qian Fei said bitterly, "Don't you get it when you come here normally? Is there any difference between what you learned and substitutes? Brother, it's not that we are in poor conditions, and we have to please people like this?"

Duan Jiaxu sat up straight and tapped his fingertips to shake off the cigarette ashes. He was silent.

Qian Fei: "By the way, what type is that girl talking about?"

This time Duan Jia Xu didn't hide it: "Male fox spirit."

"… "

"According to my understanding, it is probably," Duan Jiaxu paused for a few seconds, then said leisurely, "The coquettish, rambunctious, and shameless combination."

Qian Fei couldn't help but said, "Isn't that what you are talking about?"

"..." Duan Jiaxu choked on the smoke and coughed a few times, "What are you talking about?"

"I'm asking you something," Qian Fei thought for a while, and said sincerely, "After all, I haven't seen the girl you're talking about. Think about it for yourself, is it possible that she's talking about you?"

Duan Jia Xu's expression froze.

"Women are always duplicitous." Qian Fei looked like someone from the past. "You can't believe what she says. You have to observe it yourself. She said there is this person, have you seen it?"

Duan Jiaxu put out the cigarette butt, looking thoughtful.

Qian Fei: "I used to be a spare tire when I was in college. Brother, do you remember? The one from the foreign language department came to me as soon as she broke up with her boyfriend. After getting back together, she asked me if there was anyone I liked. She gave me advice. , I made one according to her character."

half an hour.

Duan Jia Xu said, "It's unlikely."

"… "

After a few seconds, he murmured again: "But it's also possible."

"Forget it, I'm too lazy to tell you, my wife called me." Qian Fei said, "Also, let me remind you, you are already like that, so don't do it on purpose."

"… "

"Otherwise, it will be a little too hard."

"..." Duan Jiaxu said, "Wait a moment."

"what."

"Have you told anyone about this?"

Qian Fei chuckled: "No, isn't it too late?"

"Don't talk about it." Duan Jia Xu said slowly, "It's rare to tell you something sweet, but I always tell others—"

"… "

"It's quite sad."

"… "

After hanging up, Duan Jia Xu sat in the living room for a while. He thought about what Sang Zhi said when he was drunk, and then he began to think about the things that he should point forward.

But it's been a while, and the memory has faded a lot.

I stayed up late last night and woke up early today. Duan Jiaxu's temple was tense and painful. He stood up and stopped thinking about it.

Duan Jiaxu went back to the room, and when he heard the phone ringing, he glanced again.

I found that another friend verified, and the note said: I am Jiang Ying.

He put the phone on, lay down on the bed and closed his eyes.

What woke him was a series of phone rings.

Duan Jiaxu sat up and saw that the sky was dark outside, the room was dark and only the phone screen was lit.

The caller ID is an unfamiliar number in Yihe City.

Duan Jiaxu stared at it for two seconds before picking it up.

Jiang Ying's cry sounded instantly in the receiver, as if she had been drinking, and she sounded confused: "Duan Jiaxu, you finally answered my call... I have to use someone else's number to find you."

"… "

"I heard Yuan Lang say that you are chasing a woman... is it true?"

Duan Jia Xu's tone was not emotional: "Are you busy?"

"I've been like this, why do you think nothing happened?" Jiang Ying said, "I... I forgive you, okay? We, we... "

"I'm asking you something, Yuan Lang said we're going to get married? Did you say it?" Duan Jiaxu interrupted her, and he said, "Is it possible that you want me to marry you?"

Silence fell for a few seconds.

Jiang Ying whispered: "Can't you?"

Duan Jiaxu's lips curled up, and he hung up the phone. He stood up, found the tool, pulled out the calling card, broke it, and threw it in the trash.

His temples throbbed suddenly, and so did his stomach.

Duan Jiaxu went into the toilet.

As if feeling extremely disgusting, he bent down and spit out a few mouthfuls of sour water inexplicably. Duan Jiaxu turned on the tap, rinsed his mouth, and washed his face with cold water.

a long time.

Duan Jiaxu raised his eyes and looked at himself in the mirror.

He smiled suddenly.

Do you believe

This year, some people think that.

Charges are something that should be held together.

There are obviously many more classes in the first semester of college. Sang Zhi's class schedule is full, and there is not much free time during the week except on weekends.

Years later, Duan Jiaxu seems to be busy with his work, working overtime day and night.

The two have their own things, and communication is basically through WeChat.

Even though Ning Wei said that, Sang Zhi's relationship with him still hasn't changed much from before. Maybe it's because of the screen, he didn't say some inexplicable words like before.

In a blink of an eye, the month of March has come to an end.

The two agreed to have dinner together on Friday night. After class, Sang Zhi went back to the dormitory to put her things away. Just as she was about to go out, Duan Jiaxu called her.

Sang Zhi picked it up, took out the lipstick from her bag, and smeared a thin layer on her lips.

"Where are you now?" Duan Jia Xu said, "Suddenly, the group said they wanted to have a dinner party."

Sang Zhi stopped and guessed, "Then I don't have to go out?"

Duan Jiaxu said loosely, "I'm not here to ask your opinion. If you don't want to eat with them, don't go. Let's eat something else."

"It's alright." What to eat is not to eat, Sang Zhi doesn't mind, "Go ahead."

"Then come out." Duan Jia Xu said, "I'm at the door."

Sang Zhi hung up the phone and straightened her hair. She glanced at herself in the glasses again, and quickly went out, heading towards the school gate.

Duan Jiaxu's car was parked outside the school.

Sang Zhi sat up and greeted him, "Brother Jia Xu."

I haven't seen each other for a month, Duan Jia Xu's hair has grown a little longer, slightly covering his eyebrows. His face was cold and white, with a layer of blue-gray under his eyes.

Duan Jia Xu hummed, glanced at her, and started the car.

Sang Zhi: "Have you set a place for the dinner?"

Duan Jia Xu: "Just go back to that hot pot restaurant last time."

Sanji nodded.

She didn't know what to say, so she just lowered her head and played with her phone. After a while, Duan Jia Xu took the initiative and said, "A lot of classes recently?"

"Yes." Sang Zhi said, "The class schedule is full from Monday to Friday."

"Pay attention to rest."

"Oh."

After a while, Duan Jiaxu asked slowly, "Are you still looking for that male fox?"

"..." Sang Zhi didn't know how to answer, "Why are you asking this?"

Duan Jiaxu smiled, "Let's chat casually."

Sang Zhi didn't say a word and continued to play on the phone.

Duan Jia Xu: "The person you mentioned is from your school?"

Sang Zhi said honestly, "No."

"Then who else do you know?"

"..." Seeing that he was going on and on, Sang Zhi was a little afraid that he would reveal his flaws, so he turned off the screen, and stumped and made up lies, "Well, I met him outside of school."

Duan Jiaxu: "That's it."

Sang Zhi breathed a sigh of relief and looked out the window.

Duan Jiaxu asked again, "How did you meet?"

"… "

suffocated.

Where did he get so many questions.

Sang Zhi bit the bullet and said in a well-mannered manner, "I met when I went out to play."

Duan Jiaxu: "Where did you meet?"

"It seems, it seems," Sang Zhi hesitated, "the bar, the bar near my school..."

Duan Jiaxu looked ahead, thinking that he would meet her again outside the small door of KTV. He suddenly raised the corners of his lips and slowly released a bait: "Really? How come I heard that you met at KTV when you were drunk."

"..." Sang Zhi was stunned.

Did she really say anything

she! real! drink! break! piece! !

Sang Zhi was too scared to speak. She didn't dare to look at him, licked her lips, and said, "Oh, it seems that it is indeed KTV, I remembered it wrong."

There was silence for several seconds.

Then, Sang Zhi heard Duan Jia Xu laugh suddenly.

Sang Zhi immediately looked at him, feeling a little guilty: "What's the matter."

Duan Jiaxu was still smiling, with a light breath. He seemed to be in a very good mood, his peach blossom eyes were bright and bright, and he raised a little: "It's nothing."

"… "

"Suddenly," Duan Jia Xu reluctantly restrained his smile and whispered, "You brother Qian Fei is quite smart."

"… "