It was completely accidental to see Hu Xiaoyan. On this day, when Hu Xiaoyan came to the hospital to see a doctor, Qin Bing happened to be looking for Yang Ruolin.
As a result, I ran into Hu Xiaoyan in this gynecology clinic.
The atmosphere was a bit awkward.
But Qin Bing didn't see anything secretly, it was Yang Ruolin's inspection.
"It's okay. Pay attention to hygiene. Your uterine erosion is very serious. In the future, you will do less things like that with men. You do it too often." Yang Ruolin said truthfully.
Qin Bing was also there at the time, and Hu Xiaoyan's face was red and blue, embarrassing to death.
Hu Xiaoyan didn't deny it either. It seems that she also acquiesced in this matter.
"We haven't seen each other for a long time. It's still early to go home anyway, let's go, brother will take you to the restaurants in town." Qin Bing greeted warmly.
"Just go to the restaurant, go to the century-old wonton in the center of town, right?" Hu Xiaoyan said, alleviating the embarrassment a bit.
Hu Xiaoyan was also a childhood playmate, with a young hair, but unlike Liu Xinyi, Liu Xinyi is much older and not of the same age.
Hu Xiaoyan is the same age as Qin Bing, is a half-relative, and a friend from childhood to adulthood. The most important point is that she is the best friend of Qin Bing's first girlfriend Hu Jiandan.
This century-old wonton shop is really Qin Bing's memory. It tastes good. In her memory, she was only a few years old and went out with her parents. She ate this shop in this town halfway through. It was the taste of hometown, the taste of childhood.
"It's still that smell, fragrant." Qin Bing was also happily eating.
"Our group of people haven't been together for many years, so I'll be together with everyone while I'm at home this time." Qin Bing said, as if thinking of something again, he sighed again.
"Are you not married yet?" Hu Xiaoyan asked.
"Not suitable." Qin Bing replied.
"Do you still think about Hu Jiandan?" Hu Xiaoyan asked tentatively.
"What do I want her to do? She is a bad-hearted woman, I can't even hate it?" Qin Bing smiled bitterly.
After hearing this, Hu Xiaoyan was silent.
For a long time she asked: "Because of the breakup?"
Qin Bing didn't answer, he would never forget the day when Hu Jiandan cheated, betrayed himself, and brought his new boyfriend to insult him.
"I can see that you still love her, right?" Hu Xiaoyan asked.
"No." Qin Bing denied.
"You two are really funny. You obviously love each other, but no one admits it." Hu Xiaoyan couldn't eat his wontons anymore.
"Don't say that, you are blasphemy. People have been soaked away by Zhao Liang now, and they are still living with him. What kind of stuff? I'm okay!" Qin Bingpo took a sip.
Hu Xiaoyan's eyes suddenly reddened, and she was speechless, and logically speaking, it had nothing to do with her. Why was she sad
"What are you sad about? Because I scolded your good friend?" Qin Bing said sarcastically.
Hu Xiaoyan wiped his tears and said, "Don't you know yet?"
"what do you know?"
"At the time, she didn't betray you. At that time, her mother was seriously ill and needed 100,000 yuan for surgery. The boy had money in the family and promised to give her 100,000 yuan, provided that she was his girlfriend. Did you know? After Hu Jiandan broke up with you, I cried for a whole month, crying every night. I asked her to tell you, she said, no, she is no longer qualified to love you." Hu Xiaoyan explained.
Qin Bing's heart trembled suddenly, his eyes were wet: "Are you telling the truth?"
"She has not looked for any other man in the past ten years. Zhao Liang is not her boyfriend. That bastard threatened her. Zhao Liang said that if you don't be his girlfriend, he will stabb you to death and poison you. To kill you, and she poisoned her mother. She was scared. She knew that Zhao Liang was the kind of person with a deformity in his heart, and he did it." Hu Xiaoyan continued to explain: "She said, I can see you again. It is already God's greatest favor to her."
"Despicable." Qin Bing hates Zhao Liang or is disgusting. At the same time, he is more or less guilty because of the high school student, but after hearing this, he began to hate Zhao Liang.
Qin Bing is a clear love and hate person.
"Where is Hu Jiandan now? I can't reach her on my mobile phone." Qin Bing said.
"Do you want to see her?"
Qin Bing did not answer.
"Unfortunately, it's too late." Hu Xiaoyan's eyes flowed down with tears.
Qin Bing had an unknown premonition. When he thought of the last meeting with Hu Jiandan, he felt her abnormality and always felt like parting.
"What do you mean?" Qin Bing asked urgently.
"She is dead." Hu Xiaoyan said word by word.
The bowl in Qin Bing's hand fell suddenly and broke, and the wonton rolled out.
Qin Bing's heart suddenly stopped, it was not just pain, grief, it was pain of grief.
"This is impossible. I saw her a month ago," Qin Bing said.
At this time, Hu Xiaoyan took out a letter from his bag and handed it to Qin Bing.
Paper letters, in the era when mobile phones were popular, but poor students did not have mobile phones.
It was a yellowed envelope. Qin Bing was familiar with it. It was a love letter he wrote to Hu Jiandan.
Qin Bing opened the letter cautiously. Yes, it was a love letter he wrote when he was pursuing Hu Jiandan and communicating with her.
The imprint of the love letter era has turned yellow. He turned it over and wrote a paragraph on the back of the letter paper:
Qin Bing, when you read this letter, I am no longer alive. The time spent with you as a student was the most beautiful and beautiful time in my life, and I will always remember it. It hurts you and makes me riddled with holes. In the afterlife, I hope I can be in a good family, so that maybe I can love someone with confidence. Hu Jiandan. Finished on December 24, 2018.
After reading this passage, Qin Bing's tears could no longer stop streaming.
"What's wrong with her?" Qin Bing asked.
"Liver cancer, advanced stage. She had hepatitis B since she was a child. Her father died of liver cancer, her mother had cirrhosis, and she herself was born as a carrier of hepatitis B virus. There was no money for treatment, and she missed the best period of treatment. There is no cure," Hu Xiaoyan explained.
"Ah—" Qin Bing let out a long roar towards the sky, and said to himself: "I should have noticed her abnormality, I am a bastard!"
Qin Bing cried. Men, like women, are made of water, but they are not sad.
Qin Bing could not accept this reality for a long time.
"Why don't I even know the funeral?" Qin Bing asked.
"She doesn't want you to come. At the same time... Actually..." Hu Xiaoyan stopped talking.
"What are you hiding from me."
"Actually, there was no funeral. She left, went to a place where no one would ever find it, and died quietly. She gave up treatment. I don't even know where she went, including her parents. She told me , Don’t need to go to her, because she is already a bone when she finds her. She likes the sea, I think she should be with the sea forever.” Hu Xiaoyan explained.
After Qin Bing heard this, he felt more painful. He blamed himself and blamed himself very much: "I hurt her. If I had money at that time and could help her, maybe my life and her life would be different."
"Don't blame yourself. At that time, we were still students. We were all students from poor families. It is a miracle to live without a pause."