He didn't speak, he stood stiffly in front of her, and after a while, he opened the door, and Lin Qingqing pulled the luggage and pushed the door out.
She moved into the dormitory, officially applied for resumption of classes, and rarely went back. However, Yi Zeyan often came to see her. Sometimes she came alone, sometimes she brought her children, and every time she came, she would buy her a lot of things, food, supplies, clothes, jewelry, many, many, and she refused. Many times he still wanted to give it away, but she had no choice but to accept it. The food was distributed among the people in the dormitory, and the clothes and jewelry were given to my sister.
She was afraid that others would know about his relationship with Yi Zeyan. Every time they met, they were in his car, and then he would let people drive around the school, but even so, there was still another kind of relationship with her in the school. The rumors said that she was taken care of, but Lin Qingqing didn't care.
The days went by like this, she kept herself busy, she didn't want to see him and the child very much, so every time he came to her, she avoided it if she could.
She came back from the library that night and walked through a small forest. There was no one in it. It was very quiet. The quiet environment calmed her heart. She sat down and took out a cigarette to smoke.
She just took a sip and stretched out a hand to take it away from her without hesitation. She looked up and saw a tall man standing beside her with a bad expression.
"Why are you here?"
"When did it start?"
"It's none of your business."
After Lin Qingqing finished speaking, she turned around and left, but as soon as she turned around, she was caught by the wrist, only to hear the man behind him say, "Today is Xiao Yuan's one-year-old birthday, won't you go back to accompany him?"
One year old... Time flies so fast.
The child is one year old, but he hasn't figured it out yet, and he still doesn't want to divorce her.
Lin Qingqing threw his hand away, but she didn't look back, she said coldly: "I said, he has nothing to do with me, he is your child, not mine."
As soon as he finished speaking, the man behind him suddenly hugged her. He hugged her from behind, and Lin Qingqing smelled the smell of alcohol on him.
His heat and the smell of alcohol on his body swept his nostrils in an instant. Lin Qingqing only felt that she was about to suffocate. As if she had been stabbed, she hurriedly broke away from him and took a few steps back. She frowned and looked at him with an angry face. "What are you doing? Why are you hugging me?"
He walked towards her step by step, a steady and atmospheric man, his aura could not be covered by the night, but he said in a hoarse, pleading voice, "I miss you Qingqing, I miss you so much. really miss you."
Lin Qingqing turned around, not wanting to see his expression, "You go, I don't want to see you again." After she finished speaking, she left in a hurry, not knowing what happened to him later.
After that, she avoided him even more, didn't want to see him again, didn't want to see the child again, and she almost never went back to that home. As soon as she graduated, she had no plans to go to graduate school and started looking for a job after graduation.
However, the job is not easy to find, and in a month, she almost hit a wall.
That day, she just came out of a small studio, and she failed the interview. She went to the interview without having breakfast. When she came out, she was so hungry that she bought a sandwich at a nearby bakery.
There is a building opposite the bakery. There is a large LED screen upstairs, but the news is being broadcast on the big screen. Yicheng Group has completed a new round of acquisition plan and officially entered the film and television industry.
At the ribbon-cutting ceremony, the man was surrounded on the red carpet, surrounded by countless elites, but he was still so dazzling among a group of elites, handsome and handsome in suits and shoes.
The representative of the film and television company he cooperated with was walking beside him. It was a woman with a high ponytail, also wearing a suit, with high heels on her feet, but she was able and high-quality.
The two walked side by side on the red carpet, Yi Zeyan finished cutting, and then took a group photo together.
Lin Qingqing looked at the man, who seemed to cross a galaxy across a screen. This man was her husband. He was very good, really good.
The person standing beside him should be as comparable to him as that woman.
Only equally good women can be worthy of Yi Zeyan.
Lin Qingqing returned home to her sister's house. For several days, she was working on her resume and submitting her resume. Most of them were sinking into the sea, but a few of the replies asked her to be the little girl who served tea.
It is really difficult for art students to find jobs in related majors, unless she is very good, and Lin Qingqing, who changed her major temporarily, is not a leader in her major at all, so it is difficult to find a job.
When Lin Qingqing was submitting her resume, her sister came up and told her that Yi Zeyan had come to look for her.
"He said he wouldn't leave if he didn't see you."
She had avoided him several times, and this time it seemed that she could not dodge.
Lin Qingqing went downstairs, Yi Zeyan was indeed in the living room, and when he saw her coming down, he said, "Go somewhere with me."
"Where?"
"You'll know when you go."
Lin Qingqing thought about it, and finally went with him. The car drove to the Xinjian District, and he took her to a newly opened commercial building.
Lin Qingqing looked at the words "Qingqing Studio" in front of him and looked at him with a puzzled expression. Yi Zeyan called someone to open the door, and she and he went in one after the other.
"This is the studio I prepared for you. You don't have to look for a job anymore. I can help you when the studio needs to recruit people."
This is a large music studio with two floors, but only the first floor is equipped with equipment. Lin Qingqing glanced at it. The equipment is very advanced, and many of them are imported from abroad.
He gave her the studio.
When she was desperate, he held such a studio in front of her and told her, Lin Qingqing, you don't have to ask for help, you can be your own boss.
She knew that he was always trying to please her, no matter how she refused or how dismissive of what he gave her, but he still worked tirelessly and brought what she needed and what she liked to her.
like now.
After being rejected by countless people, he gave her such a gift when her heart was very low.
It is impossible to say that there is no feeling, she even wants to cry.
Yi Zeyan, why do you want to do this? why
I don't deserve you at all! You deserve better, and the people with you shouldn't be like me.
She held back her tears, turned her back to him, and adjusted her breathing for a long time. When she turned around again, she raised the chair expressionlessly and smashed the mirror of the recording studio, and then she smiled at him indifferently, "Yi Yi said. I don't need your kindness, sir."
Just like she threw his mind to the ground again and again before.
She thought he would be angry. She trampled on his good intentions so much. He should be disappointed, no matter what. Her good intentions were trampled again and again.
However, he just stared blankly at the glass that was smashed by her, just like every time she rejected his kindness before, his eyes dimmed, and his expression was faintly lost.
"What's wrong with you? I'll do it again."
Lin Qingqing is really about to collapse, because of her cruelty, because of his pity, she is really about to collapse.
"Don't you understand, Yi Zeyan, I don't love you at all. You make me sick, make me sick, disgusting! I don't want your things, do you understand?" The sourness on the nose, "So, hurry up and divorce me, you know?"
"Five years have not come."
She didn't dare to talk to him anymore, she didn't dare to face him anymore, she was really afraid that she would collapse, she bent over and kept calming herself down until her emotions were almost recovered, and then she said, "I'm leaving. Now, don't come to me in the future."
But he grabbed her hand and said, "Go back, okay? Go back and live with us. The child can walk and call people now. Would you go back and see him?"
Lin Qingqing wanted to get rid of his hand, wanted to run away quickly, wanted to be more cruel to him, but in the end she didn't do anything, she went back with him.
Obuchi could really walk and call her inarticulately.
"Mama, mama, mama."
He is so cute, with big eyes, chubby flesh, and tender whiteness. Every time she sees him, she wants to hug him. But she knew that she would leave one day, so instead of letting him and her suggest that she would be reluctant to give up at that time, it would be better to let him not like her mother.
She's a bad person, she doesn't deserve to have children, she told herself.
So, she avoided him and didn't want him to get close, and he was very good. He would be far away from her, but where he could see her, he would play with his toys, and then sometimes he would raise his head and scream sweetly. She said "Mama."
Finding a job didn't go well, so she started to compose and submit her own music, but every time she made a submission, she was rejected, she couldn't sing anymore, she didn't have a job, and her talent wasn't appreciated by others. Could it be that she couldn't achieve anything without Yi Zeyan
How on earth is she going to catch up in his footsteps? His company is getting bigger and bigger now, he has become a man of influence in Beicheng, he has become the best young entrepreneur, he has gone further and further, but she is still standing still.
She can't catch up with him, maybe she can't catch up with him in her life.
Looking at the rejected manuscripts scattered all over the place, she really felt so powerless. This sense of powerlessness forced her to suffocate. She fell in love with drinking and the feeling of being paralyzed by alcohol, but she always hid in the room. People drink, don't want to be seen by children, and don't want to harm children's body by smoking, so she hides and is always depressed by herself.
However, that day, he pushed open her door. She had already drank a lot of alcohol and her head was a little dizzy. She saw the little guy walking towards him step by step with an unsteady step.
"Mama, Mama don't cry, Mama Xiaoyuan loves Mama."
He came over and spoke to her inarticulately, and then he stretched out his fleshy little hand to wipe her tears.
Lin Qingqing didn't want him to see her like this, she wanted to push him away, but she forgot that she still had a cigarette in her hand, and her head was dizzy after drinking, and when her hand shook, soot fell on his arm .
It was too late until Lin Qingqing realized that his hand was scalded, and it hurt so much that he burst into tears.
Looking at the scar on his arm, she collapsed in an instant, but she was at a loss, she cried in pain, but she didn't know what to do.
Yi Zeyan hurried in when he heard the voice. He was also frightened when he saw the scene in front of him, but he was calm. He ordered Aunt Hui to send the child to the hospital, and he stayed to appease Lin Qingqing.
The child was taken out, and Lin Qingqing fell to the ground. She blamed herself and was in pain. She lowered her head and cried so hard that she could hardly breathe.
Yi Zeyan squatted beside her. He stretched out his hand to appease her, but he was hesitant when he reached over. In the end, he just patted her on the back and said, "It's alright."
It's okay, how could it be okay, he cried so sadly, he was still so young.
Lin Qingqing saw the cigarette butt on the ground. The cigarette butt had not been extinguished. She picked it up and poked it directly into her arm. However, Yi Zeyan saw her motive and grabbed her hand when she was moving. Lied, the cigarette butt was on his chest.
He was wearing a thin polo shirt, and the cigarette butt had burnt a hole in his shirt, all the way into the flesh.
When she heard him groan, she got annoyed, pushed him away suddenly, and asked him angrily, "What are you doing?!"
"What are you doing?" he asked back.
He took off his clothes, patted the burned area a few times with his hands, and patted off the ashes that had been burned into the meat.
"Yi Zeyan! Why on earth do you want to do this?! Why don't you get a divorce?!!" Looking at the wound on his chest, she yelled at him hoarsely, "Are you satisfied with this?! Why do you keep a woman like me? At home? Why?!"
Different from her excitement, different from her emotional collapse, he sat down beside the bed very calmly, he looked at the wound on his chest, smiled lightly, did not blame, and did not even take the injury seriously .
"Why do I do this..." He looked at him with gentle eyes, "remember when we first met? At that time, I was seriously injured and had a closed rib fracture to form a pneumothorax. Although I had surgery, my recovery was uneventful. No, my lungs are inflamed, and the situation is getting worse. That night, the doctor came to check and determined that I might not survive that night. The doctor gave up on me, and the people who followed me to death also gave up on me, and my mother also gave up. Everyone thinks I can't take it anymore, even I feel too much pain and can't take it anymore, do you know what I was thinking at that moment? I think it's okay to die like this, to live What do you mean? The first half of my life has been spent in the struggle for power and profit. For the sake of profit, even father and son can turn against each other. I was taught to be a power and profit machine since I was a child, and I lived my whole life only for power and profit. Chasing fame, fortune and power is full of desire, but at that moment, I was actually tired of it, that kind of life was too hard and tiring, it was really meaningless, so even I gave up on myself at that time…”
"But there is a person, there is a little girl thousands of miles away from me, and she has never given up on me. When I was the most difficult, the people around me felt that I was going to die and gave up. When I left me, she gave me I called, she kept encouraging me on the phone, she sang to me, she sang a lot of songs, her voice was really nice. She also told me that there are many delicious and fun things in this world, when I get better , she took me there. She cried and begged me not to die, begged me over and over, and sang to me over and over again. At that moment, I realized that there is such beauty in life besides fighting for power and profit, and there is still such beauty in this world Kind and lovely person, at the moment when I was about to give up myself and go to sleep, I suddenly had the consciousness that I want to live, I want to live, I want to find those delicious and fun places she told me, I want to find her ."
His eyes reddened and his voice changed, "It was she who made me fall in love with this selfish and ruthless world, it was she who accompanied me through the most difficult dark times of my life, it was she who brought me back to life, my life She gave it to me, and I just want to live for her for the rest of my life."
"Why am I doing this, do you understand now?"
He got up and walked towards her, "Qingqing, I can do anything for you."
Lin Qingqing had long since stopped crying. She stepped back step by step, shook her head and said, "But, I have no voice anymore, my good voice has been ruined, and you can no longer hear my singing."
"It's okay, I don't care."
"I am no longer the kind Lin Qingqing, everything has changed, I am no longer that beautiful little girl. I have become very scary, really scary, my classmates at school are afraid of me now when they see me, No one dares to provoke me, because as long as someone provokes me, as long as I feel sorry for me, I will do whatever it takes to get revenge. I have become very bad, and I have become afraid of myself. So Yi Zeyan, everything is It's different, I have nothing left, I can't go back."
He stepped forward and held her shoulders, "I'll make you better, trust me?"
She pushed his hand away and shook her head, "It's useless, I've already drawn the dungeon as a prison, and I can't get out."
"Qingqing..." he called her softly.
"You go out, you go out! I want to quiet down alone, you go out."
He finally said nothing and turned to go out.
Lin Qingqing leaned against the wall, as if all her strength was exhausted, she fell to the ground little by little.
"Zeyan, Zeyan."
She called him softly, but it was ugly, her voice was really ugly.
The work still hasn't been implemented, and the music drafts that have been submitted are still sinking into the sea, but her heart has gradually calmed down, and Yi Zeyan still does not agree to the divorce after several troubles. Lin Qingqing began to travel, as if she was escaping something, and seemed to be looking for some kind of answer.
Yi Zeyan didn't care about her. He let her travel when she wanted to travel. Apart from not getting a divorce, he did give her the freedom she wanted.
It's just that she saw Yi Zeyan's figure in the crowd several times when she was traveling outside, but when she looked closely, she realized that it wasn't him. She thought she might be crazy and had hallucinations that he was following her.
Until that time when she traveled to the snow-capped mountains, she saw him again in the crowd. At that time, they were a group of people, climbing up the snow-capped mountains all the way. The weather was bad and everyone walked very slowly.
Lin Qingqing originally thought it was his hallucination, but when he looked back several times, he saw a familiar figure of him. To be sure, she fell down on purpose and let the people behind her go first, and when he saw her fall, he finally couldn't hide. He walked up to her quickly and asked her, "Are you all right?"
"What are you doing with me?"
His face was taken for granted, "The snow-capped mountains are very dangerous, I'm not very worried."
He squatted down and rubbed her feet, "Did you twist your feet?"
She wanted to take her foot out of his hand, but he was too tight, she couldn't take it out, she didn't know why he was so stubborn, he had to do it to the end after he identified one thing, he was so busy, and things in the company were so stubborn. Duo, why did you have to follow her to the snow-capped mountains
Why didn't he want to let her go
Lin Qingqing was angry and angry for a while. For so many years, she has been hiding and he has been chasing. She is so tired and exhausted. She wants to rest, but he will not let her stop.
She grabbed a handful of snow and hit him, angrily saying, "Go back quickly and stop following me."
He took off the gloves and stretched his hands into the boots to help her rub her feet. Lin Qingqing struggled a few times but still couldn't break free. She grabbed the snowball and kept hitting him, and he didn't hide, letting the snowball hit him.
Randomly grabbed the snow from the ground and smashed it at her. She didn't notice that she caught a stone, just when he lowered his head and rubbed her feet, the stone hit him on the head.
She heard him groan, and Lin Qingqing realized that it was a stone thrown at him just now.
She seemed to be in a trance when she saw him, and wanted to hit him hard. Then she saw blood running down the spot she smashed, flowing down his cheeks, down his chin, and quickly onto his blue jacket, where it condensed into ice.
She was stunned by this picture, but he seemed to be fine. He helped her put on her boots, squatted down, and picked her up. She saw his blood dripping down her chin, and she was so The dreamer woke up and reminded: "Yi Zeyan, you are bleeding."
He seemed to realize that he was injured. He glanced down and saw that the blood on his body was dripping on her clothes. He put her in a place with few people and hurriedly used his sleeve to help her remove the stain. The blood on the clothes was wiped clean, the blood had coagulated and it could not be wiped clean.
He turned to her and said, "Sorry, I stained your clothes. I'll buy you a new one when I go back."
She thought he was crazy. At this time, what he thought was that her clothes were stained with his blood, and he was going to buy her new ones.
Sorry for getting your clothes dirty.
I'm sorry you stained your clothes with your blood.
Why is this, Yi Zeyan, why is the excellent Yi Zeyan like this.
She was very sad and angry with him. She pushed him away and said coldly, "Go back to me, go back quickly, and stop following me."
Not knowing if she was too excited to see her, he hurriedly said, "Okay, I'll go back."
Having said that, he still stood up straight for a while before turning around and leaving.
She watched the figure walk away gradually, the cold wind mixed with the snow blowing, making her face hurt.
He is such a fool, why is he so stupid.
It seemed that she couldn't escape, no matter how she resisted, no matter how she ran, she couldn't escape the circle he drew for her. After a long walk, she still found herself in the circle.
She couldn't escape Yi Zeyan, and she couldn't escape her heart.
She didn't want to admit that she had already fallen in love with him.