Love him, so feel inferior, love him, hope he can have better, he is really good, she is not worthy of him, she is too inferior, all she can do is run away from him, run away .
But no matter how she escaped, she still couldn't escape, she was still surrounded by him.
She used to draw herself a dungeon as a prison, and she thought she would be imprisoned in this prison forever. She walked alone in her own darkness, and she didn't want anyone to come in to disturb her. But one day she found that Yi Zeyan had barged in. He came in and brought a beam of light to illuminate the deep darkness in front of her.
He held her hand and kept walking, finally taking her out of the dark dungeon.
She once wanted to be a bad person. When her kindness was trampled again and again, when she was hurt by her good intentions again and again, she felt that being a bad person would make her life easier.
So she abandoned her kindness and became cruel.
However, she couldn't become an absolute bad person after all, she couldn't be absolutely cruel to Yi Zeyan, because of his existence, she still had a trace of kindness in her heart.
This trace of kindness was finally awakened by him, and she finally recognized herself.
Lin Qingqing, with Yi Zeyan here, you will never be a bad person in your life.
She took this trip for a long time, the weather was cold, but her heart was clear and bright, she figured it out, she figured out everything, and she would not travel alone in the future.
The weather was fine the day she went back, and neither Yi Zeyan nor the child were at home. She climbed to the attic and sat on the roof of the attic, where the view was wide and she could have a panoramic view of the villa's courtyard.
About a year ago, they moved to this villa area, where her favorite grapes and strawberries were grown in the yard.
She saw the car coming in from the door, and then Yi Zeyan and Xiaoyuan got out of the car together.
Xiao Yuan has already gone to kindergarten. Although she avoided him all these years, she silently watched him grow up. He was very good and would always sit far away from her and tell her stories.
She looked at his innocent smile, it was too late, it was too late to start loving him now.
Xiao Yuan came over and quickly found her sitting on the roof, Yi Zeyan next to her also saw her, but saw that the smile on Yi Zeyan's face suddenly froze, and then he quickly ran into the door, and after a while appeared on the roof. Lin Qingqing, who was sitting on the roof of the attic, was half a floor away from him. Yi Zeyan walked over slowly and cautiously said to her, "Where are you climbing for? Come down quickly."
Lin Qingqing didn't know why he had this expression, did he think she was going to commit suicide by climbing here
Yi Zeyan stretched out his hand to her, "Come down quickly, if you have anything to say, come down and talk."
Lin Qingqing looked at the man in front of her and was a little speechless, but she was also afraid that he would be worried, so she didn't explain that much, got up and walked over, but at the moment she was all focused on the man in front of her. After so many days of travel, she already wanted to understand Now, she finally got out of her inferiority complex, and finally stopped forcing herself to be a bad person, she wanted to be with him well.
She wants to become a good person for him, even if it is difficult, even if it will be long, but she wants to give it a try.
She misses him very much, really misses him, and she doesn't know if the wound on his head is healed. When she sees him, her eyes can't help but focus on his face.
This distracted her. She didn't notice her feet. The roof of the attic was built to look like a small bungalow, so it was not very dangerous to stand on it, but she didn't pay attention to her feet. When she was about to jump down, her feet slipped. Without stabilizing his body, he fell directly below.
Yi Zeyan's eyes were quick and his hands were quick, so he hurriedly reached out to catch her, but the movement was a little off. She escaped from his hand, fell to the ground and rolled around a few times. When she stopped, her head hit a flowerpot on the roof, probably A hole was made, and blood immediately flowed from the top of the head.
Yi Zeyan hurriedly ran over and was frightened when he saw her bleeding on her head. He stretched out his hand to help her, but he suddenly shook his head, knelt on the ground and coughed a few times, spitting out a mouthful of blood.
Hit her head, Lin Qingqing's head was a little dizzy, she was very worried when she saw him vomiting blood, she wanted to ask him what was wrong, but her eyes gradually blurred, she heard him call her a few times, and then she lost consciousness.
**
In the yard behind the hospital, wax plums are planted, the wax plum blossoms are blooming, and a faint fragrance hits. Lin Qingqing stands under the wax plum tree, and gently touches the budding flower bones with his fingers.
Yi Zeyan has been by the hospital bed these days. He went out to make a phone call early this morning, but when he came back, he saw that there was no one on the bed. Why wasn't she there? Without his permission, no one dared to move her. Could it be that she woke up
Yi Zeyan was excited in her heart, but she was also vaguely worried. Yi Zeyan went to ask the nurse on duty, and the nurse told her that she saw Mrs. Yi going to the backyard of the hospital, and Yi Zeyan hurried to the backyard.
After walking through a winding corridor, he saw her standing in the yard, and Yi Zeyan finally breathed a sigh of relief.
"It's so cold, why did you just come out with those clothes on?"
Lin Qingqing heard the voice and turned her head to look, the man slowly walked towards her, and there was worry in his slightly frowning brows. Lin Qingqing looked at him, the scenes from the past were replayed in his mind, and a sour feeling ran up his nose.
This man is her favorite and the one she owes the most.
The moment before she lost her memory, she thought about accepting his kindness to be with him, but she was uneasy in her heart, having experienced so much damage to him, can he really accept her? Can they really be together
But after so many days of getting along with her, she understood that they could really love each other, that he could really be with her regardless of everything in the past, as long as she was willing to take a step ahead of him, he could take those ninety-nine steps.
Yi Zeyan... She really thought he was stupid.
He stepped forward, took off his coat and put it on her, and asked, "Is it better? Is there anything else uncomfortable?"
Lin Qingqing shook his head, "No, it's all good."
"Go ahead and let the doctor examine you."
"it is good."
Lin Qingqing followed him in, and the doctor checked her again. Except for the skin trauma on her head, which was not healed, there were no major problems.
Since there was no big problem, Lin Qingqing didn't want to stay in the hospital anymore, so he asked Yi Zeyan to discharge her from the hospital.
When the two came out of the hospital building, Lin Qingqing saw that someone was stopped at the gate. As soon as the person saw the two, he suddenly pushed the two who were blocking her away, and staggered and ran in.
She ran close to Lin Qingqing to see her face clearly.
It was Lu Wenqian, but how did Lu Wenqian become like this
Every time Lu Wenqian appears in front of people, her face is radiant, and her whole body shows a kind of delicacy and superiority, which makes people know at a glance that this person must be a well-born top lady.
But now, she saw her hair was disheveled, her face turned upside down, and her clothes were wrinkled, as if she hadn't changed in days.
She ran over and knelt down in front of Yi Zeyan with a thud, her eyes were red from crying, and her eyes were full of despair.
"Where did you get my brother, can you give him back to me? I will obey your words, and I will never do anything in the future. Give my brother back to me, give it back to me!"
To be honest, if she didn't look carefully, she really didn't recognize the person in front of her as Lu Wenqian, this spoiled and charming young lady, even Yi Zeyan's mother didn't take her eyes off her, she was always arrogant. But at this moment, she was kneeling in front of Yi Zeyan, completely lost her arrogant and domineering look in the past, she was so humble, and every word was pleading.
Yi Zeyan looked at her with no pity in his eyes, "I already warned you, but you didn't listen, you should have known about me, and the things I have decided will not be changed. "
Lu Wenqian's tears kept streaming down, and her voice became hoarse, "Is my brother dead? Tell me, is my brother dead? Yi Zeyan, I only have my brother, can you give me back my brother? Only him."
Yi Zeyan didn't want to move too much, so Lu Wenqian walked to Lin Qingqing on her knees. She kept kowtowing on the ground, "I was wrong, I was wrong, I was wrong." After kowtowing three times, Lu Wenqian hugged Lin Qingqing's leg again. : "Zeyan listens to you the most. Can you help me beg him? I really know I'm wrong. I won't do anything to hurt you again. Can you help me beg him?"
Lin Qingqing is really surprised that Lu Wenqian has become like this. She has changed so much. Before that, she was the eldest lady who would do anything to achieve her goals and collude with her brother to deal with her. Being so embarrassed, she even kowtowed and begged her without regard for her dignity.
What happened during the few days she was in a coma.
Yi Zeyan motioned to the bodyguards to pull her away, the bodyguards stepped forward and pulled Lu Wenqian away, Yi Zeyan said again: "Your brother will not come back, everyone has to pay for her mistakes, you made a mistake , this is the punishment you deserve."
"No! No! No Yi Zeyan! Give me back my brother, give me back my brother, I promise not to be here again, I will walk far away from him, you give him back to me! give me!"
She spoke hoarsely, crying as if she was almost out of breath.
"I told you once to keep you calm. You didn't listen to advice. I gave you a chance, didn't I?"
After Yi Zeyan finished speaking, he hugged Lin Qingqing and left, and the two gradually walked away, but behind Lu Wenqian was still crying and begging, each more mournful than the other.
After getting on the plane, Lin Qingqing asked him, "Where did Lu Xiuyuan go?"
"do not know."
"… "
"I really don't know, I just know he won't come back here again in the future."
Lin Qingqing did not ask any further questions.
They were on Yi Zeyan's private jet. The luxurious and spacious cabin was just the two of them. It was very quiet. Lin Qingqing held his hand and leaned against him. She didn't want to worry about anything, as long as he was by her side. Just fine.
The two first went to their sister to pick up Xiao Yuan. When they arrived at the Peace Hotel, it was in the afternoon, and it was not until dinner time. There was no one in the shop. .
The chair is very big, and the little guy looks more and more small. He is sitting right at the door, and he can see the two people who come in at a glance. When he sees his parents, the little guy is happy. His eyes are bright and small. Running on short legs.
Lin Qingqing walked up and picked him up, the little guy put his arms around his neck and called sweetly, "Mom."
When he forgets everything, Lin Qingqing can focus on loving him, but when he has memories, he remembers the relationship he had built with him when he was pregnant with him, the pain during childbirth, and the big mouth when he was very young. She gulps her milk, thinking about her cold treatment of him over the past few years.
At this moment, my heart is very heavy, very heavy, and she wants to cry when she smells his body.
Lin Qingqing held back her tears and did not cry. She hugged him for a while and then put him down. Lin Zhenzhen also stepped forward and asked, "Why did you go so long this time?" She saw a piece of gauze wrapped around her head and asked again: "injured?"
Xiao Yuan also saw the wound on his mother's head, and looked at her with big eyes with a worried look on her face. Lin Qingqing rubbed his little face and said, "It's a little bit of skin."
Lin Zhenzhen breathed a sigh of relief.
Lin Qingqing said to Yi Zeyan: "You and Xiaoyuan wait for me downstairs for a while, and I will talk to my sister."
"Okay." Yi Zeyan didn't ask more.
Lin Qingqing and Lin Zhenzhen went upstairs, but Lin Zhenzhen was still worried and asked, "What's the matter with the injury on your head?"
"It's really nothing, just skin trauma."
"How did you do it?"
"Accidentally knocked on it."
"..." Lin Zhenzhen didn't ask again, "What do you want to say to me?"
Lin Qingqing lowered her head and pondered for a while before saying, "Actually, I have always had a question, why was I here when I woke up in the first place. Are Zeyan and I not husband and wife? Yan's house, why is it here?"
"Why did you think of asking this?"
"I'm just curious."
Lin Zhenzhen avoided her gaze and said, "You missed me, so when I came back to play for a few days, I accidentally fell and knocked my head. Of course I woke up here."
Lin Qingqing knew that her sister was lying to her. After she lost her memory, she and Yi Zeyan concealed a lot of important things together. For example, they never told her that her vocal cords were injured because she went to save people from the fire, and they never told her. She and Yi Zeyan had a relationship because they were drugged.
She guessed that they didn't tell her, probably because they were afraid that these things would touch her memory, because these two things were the reason for her distorted character. They didn't want her to think about the past, because everything in the past was too heavy and painful for her.
"You don't have to lie to me anymore, I remember it all."
Lin Qingqing said it lightly, but when she heard her words, Lin Zhenzhen was obviously shocked. She suddenly turned her head to look at her, and after a while, she said, "You said you remembered?"
"Well, I remembered."
Lin Zhenzhen held her shoulders with a worried expression on her face, "Are you... alright?"
Lin Qingqing smiled at her, "I'm fine, I just want to know something, so I'm asking you."
"Does Zeyan know what you remembered?"
"he does not know."
"… "
Lin Zhenzhen didn't speak. She frowned and walked in place for a while, then asked her, "Aren't you going to tell him?"
"Not at the moment."
Lin Zhenzhen sighed heavily and sat down on the chair, "At that time, your head was injured. The doctor checked that you were fine, but you were still in a coma. Zeyan thought you were going to commit suicide. He was afraid that you would wake up. He couldn't think about it any more, so he decided to divorce you at that time. Later, thinking that you were fine, he asked me to bring you back directly. When you woke up, he would bring the divorce agreement for you to sign. He thought you woke up and saw I'd be happier if I wasn't in that home."
Lin Qingqing nodded, almost as she had guessed.
"I remember when I fell and he seemed to vomit blood. Is he okay?"
"The doctor said that the shortness of breath and the heart attack caused the vomiting of blood."
Anxious? Lin Qingqing smiled bitterly, it seemed that she was really angry with him on weekdays.
"What did the doctor say at the time? Is it a big problem?"
Lin Zhenzhen said: "At that time, he was all about you, but I still persuaded him to have a checkup. I checked everything, but the problem was not big. The doctor prescribed medicine, and there was no problem after that."
Hearing this, Lin Qingqing breathed a sigh of relief.
After Lin Qingqing got downstairs, he went back with his father and son in the car. Yi Zeyan didn't ask what she and her sister said along the way, and Lin Qingqing also behaved very calmly, no different from usual.
After arriving home, Yi Beiyuan took out a storybook and said to Lin Qingqing, "Mom has been away for a long time. The story I told last time has not been finished yet. Can I tell my mother?"
Lin Qingqing nodded, "Okay."
Lin Qingqing sat on the carpet, and Yi Beiyuan took out his storybook, sat cross-legged in front of her, opened the pages, and pointed to the words one by one with his fingers.
Xiaobuchi was enlightened very early, and he could recognize some ordinary characters.
"Yes, one, heaven, one, only, little, fox, fox..."
Word by word, not very smooth to read.
He used to like this too. Sitting at a distance from a distance either told her stories or played with his building blocks. Knowing that his mother didn't like his approach, he obediently stayed away, but he still wanted to stay with his mother, just one. People sat obediently far away.
At that time, she was lying on the bed with her back to him, listening to him struggling to read the story he was going to tell her word by word.
"Is it because Xiao Yuan is not doing well enough? Why doesn't my mother like Xiao Yuan?"
He had asked her that. On her birthday that day, she personally made a small gift for her. She had mixed feelings in her heart, but told him not to make these for her in the future, and then he asked this question.
Her heart was full of guilt, her heart seemed to be grabbed by a hand, and the pain made her uncomfortable.
Too many feelings came up all at once, she couldn't hold back, she reached out to pick him up and let him sit on her lap, Obuchi didn't know why, and told her, "Mom, I haven't finished reading yet."
"It's okay, I'll read it later."
He heard her voice change tone and asked her, "What's wrong with mom?"
She hugged him and kissed his face, tears rolling down her face.
"Do you know Xiaoyuan, when my mother gave birth to you, I was really happy. I gave birth to such a lovely child. You were so young and tender at that time, and my mother suddenly wanted to be a warrior. A warrior who can protect Xiaobuchi. Mom wants to keep you in her arms all the time. Mom really loves you, really loves you. But later, my mother experienced some things, my mother was stimulated, and my mother became so inferior , so inferior that she felt that her mother was not qualified to be Xiaoyuan's mother. Because she was too inferior, her mother wanted to stay far away, and her mother thought that sooner or later she would have to leave. His mother, mother was really stupid and stupid back then."
Lin Qingqing held her son's face, "Why would you hurt your child in this way? Mom is really stupid."
The little guy looked at her dumbfounded, and called out uncertainly, "Mom?"
Yi Zeyan was sitting on the sofa drinking coffee, when he heard her words, his hand shook, the coffee cup fell to the ground with a clatter, and the white carpet was instantly stained with brown, but he didn't realize it. Like being struck by thunder, he looked straight at Lin Qingqing and stood up subconsciously.
Lin Qingqing's words continued, she held her younger son's face and kissed him lightly on the forehead, "I'm sorry, it's my mother who did it wrong, it's my mother who is too stupid, I'm sorry Xiaoyuan, I'm sorry, please forgive my mother, okay? Forgive mom, okay? I’m really sorry, mom never didn’t love you, it’s mom’s way is wrong, mom shouldn’t keep thinking about staying away from Xiao Yuan, mom should always stay by Xiao Yuan’s side, sorry, sorry, sorry…”
It was probably Lin Qingqing's turbulent tears that frightened him. Xiaoyuan hurriedly helped her wipe her tears, but couldn't help crying, "Mom don't cry, mom don't cry, Xiao Yuan doesn't blame mom."
She remembered that time as well. He walked towards her with unsteady steps, and said to her in an inarticulate and tender voice: "Mama don't cry, Obuchi loves Mama."
Tell her Obuchi loves Mama over and over again, and comfort her over and over again not to cry, thinking that these tears are becoming more and more uncontrollable.
She buried her head on her son's shoulder and held it back, for fear that she would burst into tears in the next moment.
Yi Zeyan didn't know when he walked in front of the mother and son. He looked solemn and stared at the woman without blinking.
Why did she suddenly say this
Lin Qingqing sensed Yi Zeyan's approach, she slowly raised her head to look at him, he stared at her with a complicated expression in his deep eyes.
In fact, she didn't want Yi Zeyan to know that she remembered it. The way they get along is very good now. If he knows, she doesn't know how to face him.
But just seeing Xiao Yuan and thinking of the past, she couldn't help it.
He probably already guessed...
She wiped away the tears on her face, forced a smile at her, and smiled bitterly, "Yi Zeyan, I remember it all."