Gu Ningzi didn't want to delve into Chi Nuan's ambiguity. With the countdown to the monthly exam, Chi Nuan didn't seem to have any time to take care of Gu Ningzi's thoughts. The two sat in the same classroom, but the distance between their hearts seemed to be thousands of miles apart. water.
Gu Ningzi didn't reply to Chi Nuan's good night messages like completing a task every day before going to bed.
In the cold war, the two did not break up, but the relationship regressed to a level worse than that of ordinary classmates.
After the last exam of the monthly exam, Chi Nuan went home with Chi Qingchuan.
I hired a part-time worker at home, because it was recommended by an acquaintance. He worked diligently, cooked and cleaned, and even helped take care of Xiao Wutong when he was free.
"Aunt Lu." Chi Qingchuan gave her two bunches of Hong Tiyun that he brought back, "Give it to your children."
Aunt Lu smiled and said, "Mr. Chi is always so polite."
"It's been hard for you today." Chi Qingchuan entered the living room, Yue Yun was thinking about the makeup in Lin Shen's "Capturing the Dragon", Chi Qingchuan asked her, "Where's Xiao Wutong?"
Yue Yun said, "I'm sleeping."
Chi Nuan walked into the room lightly, Xiao Wutong raised her hands above her head and slept soundly.
After dinner, Xiao Wutong also woke up. When Chi Qingchuan was giving him a bath, Yue Yun's mother played a video. She went on a cruise with Lulu's parents and mother, and the video was connected, and crackling first praised the itinerary, and then invited Lulu's parents to visit Xiaowutong.
"Playing with water, ah, eyes are eyes, nose is nose, do you look like Yunyun?"
"My son looks like my mother, and I think it looks like Yunyun." Lulu's father said.
Yue Yun greeted Lulu's parents, and Lulu's mother's hearty laughter crossed the screen: "Yunyun, when our trip is over, you will come back to live, and I and your mother will help you bring the little sycamore, then It's time for Lulu to return to China, so you guys just got together!"
Yue Yun and them video, Chi Qingchuan washed Xiao Wutong, Chi Nuan opened the soft cotton yarn blanket, wrapped Xiao Wutong, and carried it to the bed stiffly.
Xiao Wutong opened her eyes and looked around, rubbed her mouth with her little hand, and Chi Nuan said to Chi Qingchuan who followed up, "It's so cute."
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National Day and Mid-Autumn Festival, on Mid-Autumn Festival, Chi Qingchuan and Chi Nuan wrapped wontons together. The three of them were eating wontons around the dining table. Xiao Wutong was lying in the cradle babbling and making sounds. The TV was on.
After dinner, I usually do cleaning, and after all my work is done, I went to see Xiao Wutong again, and I took a shower and went back to my room to do my homework.
The fountain pen ran out of ink, Chi Nuan opened the drawer to get a new pen, and chocolate candy appeared in his field of vision.
She looked at Candy, and after a while, she realized that the phone screen was on.
Gu Ningzi's phone number.
Chi Nuan looked away and didn't answer. She took out a new pen and closed the drawer to continue her homework, but the handwriting on the exercise book gradually became blurred, Chi Nuan looked at it strangely, and she didn't know she was crying until the first tear fell.
Second drop, third drop...
Chi Nuan was lying on the desk, her shoulders were shaking, and there was a slight sob in the room.
When Gu Ningzi made the second call, Chi Nuan was holding the phone in her hands, staring at the screen. She meditated until five and connected.
"Chi Nuan." Gu Ningzi said.
"Yeah." Chi Nuan replied.
Gu Ningzi asked her quietly, "What are you doing?"
Chi Nuan: "I'm doing my homework."
Gu Ningzi: "Aren't you going to ask me?"
Chi Nuan raised her head, blinked her eyes to hold back tears, and asked obediently, "Then what are you doing?"
Gu Ningzi: "I'm downstairs in your house."
"..." Chi Nuan got up and opened the window of the room. It was raining at some point outside. Gu Ningzi held a black umbrella and stood in front of the flowerbed downstairs.
The windows of each household were lit with lights, the rain was dripping, and the ground was soaked. Gu Ningzi moved the umbrella to reveal her face, looking up at Chi Nuan.
Chi Nuan: "You..."
There was silence in the receiver, Chi Nuan took a breath: "Wait a minute."
She hung up the phone, opened the door, practiced her expression in front of the mirror, changed her shoes, and went downstairs to pick up Gu Ningzi.
When Chi Nuan went down to the first floor, Gu Ningzi had already put away her umbrella and stood in the doorway. She heard footsteps and raised her head.
The two looked at each other across several stairs, Chi Nuan resisted the urge to run towards Gu Ningzi, walked up to her as usual, and asked her curiously, "It's Mid-Autumn Festival today, how can you Come?… Didn’t go home, or go to Grandpa’s place?”
Gu Ningzi looked at her silently.
Chi Nuan nodded: "Go up."
The two entered the door, Chi Nuan put away Gu Ningzi's umbrella, and Gu Ningzi stood in the living room: "I haven't had dinner yet."
Chi Nuan looked at the clock on the wall to determine the time, it was almost ten o'clock. The sourness was raging, and she suddenly had a feeling: "Did you stay downstairs for a long time?"
Gu Ningzi did not speak.
After a long while, Chi Nuan asked, "Do you want to eat wontons?"
Gu Ningzi: "Well."
Chi Nuan went to the kitchen to serve her wontons. After the soup was prepared, the wontons were ready, and Chi Nuan sat at the dining table with Gu Ningzi.
The cry of Xiao Wutong came from the master bedroom, Chi Nuan looked at the door, the cry was getting closer, Chi Qingchuan came out holding Xiao Wutong, Chi Nuan got up to make milk powder.
"Xiao Gu is here?" Chi Qingchuan was used to Gu Ningzi's arrival, greeted him with a smile, and coaxed Xiao Wutong, who closed his eyes and cried, to wait for Chi Nuan.
The milk powder was ready, Chi Nuan shook it well, and as soon as the pacifier was stuffed into Xiao Wutong's mouth, he hummed and sucked.
There was only a small light on in the living room, and the light was dim. Chi Qingchuan sat on the sofa holding Xiao Wutong. After drinking the milk powder, Xiao Wutong also fell asleep.
Gu Ningzi ate the wontons slowly, Chi Nuan thought it was not to her taste for a while: "Isn't it delicious?" she asked.
Gu Ningzi said, "It's delicious."
Chi Qingchuan returned to the room with Xiao Wutong. After Gu Ningzi finished eating and washing up, he went to Chi Nuan's room.
Chi Nuan was doing her homework, and Gu Ningzi didn't bother her, she sat on the edge of the bed and waited for her to finish.
Chi Nuan was unable to concentrate and wrote pretentiously, but the efficiency was about zero. Near 12 o'clock, she finally put the cap on.
After turning off the lights, the two lay down together, and Gu Ningzi asked, "Can I hold your hand?"
Chi Nuan said, "No more."
At times like this, Chi Nuan is always duplicitous, but Gu Ningzi knows that when she said no this time, she really didn't.
An unspeakable atmosphere spread throughout the room.
"Can you tell me the reason for your abnormality recently?" Gu Ningzi asked directly.
Is it now? Chi Nuan was grateful to the darkness, so that she didn't have to take the effort to disguise her expression. After a long period of contemplation, she said, "Gu Ningzi, I'm sorry."
Gu Ningzi looked at the low ceiling.
"I... Actually, I don't know how to express it properly," Chi Nuan said in a slow or slow tone, "I don't know what's going on... At the beginning, I thought I liked you, and I was very happy with you. It's fresh... You look good, you're good to me, and being liked by you can satisfy my vanity... But after meeting your sister, you suddenly mentioned the future, and I just... I... I'm very anxious, I don't know if the future I want is like this, it seems like I suddenly have pressure."
Gu Ningzi said, "You lied."
With three simple words, Chi Nuan's eyes immediately became wet, but she still insisted: "I can't tell, sometimes I really think I like you, when you ignore me, I will think To be close to you, let your eyes notice me; when you are playing a lot of attention, I will think of such a powerful Gu Ningzi, she pretends to be me... But once you get close to me, I will... I can't bear it Stop being upset, I'm afraid that others will see our relationship... With girls, I've never done such a rebellious thing... But because the other party is you, you're so good to me, I can only force myself and try to hint myself , I like you, but... I pray every day before going to bed, and I pray that when I wake up the next day, I can be a little more moved for you instead of resisting... Gu Ningzi, I don't know, I don't know what I want to say What, I don't know."
Gu Ningzi reached out and stroked Chi Nuan's eyes.
"You're crying." Gu Ningzi said, "You lie, it's not like that."
Chi Nuan choked and said: "I'm sorry... Gu Ningzi, I'm sorry, I also blame myself, but... Compared with love, I prefer the period before the summer vacation, I have no burden, I am attracted to you involuntarily... We still have the possibility Back to that time?"
Gu Ningzi's breathing became rapid, she got up and went to the ground, Chi Nuan also sat up from the bed: "I know it's selfish to say this, Gu Ningzi, I care about you, even if I can't tell if it's that kind of you. Like, I care if you're real."
Gu Ningzi suppressed her emotions, and she whispered: "Can't tell? Chi Nuan, is the happiness I had during this time all my own imagination!?"
"Don't be angry, Gu Ningzi, I'm sorry, don't be angry, it's all my fault..." Chi Nuan wanted to hug her, but Gu Ningzi waved her hand away and stood beside the bed, her voice trembling: "You're afraid of exposure. , we can keep our distance at school; if you are afraid of burden, we can ignore the future, just look at the present... But, I like you, Chi Nuan, I treat you as a serious girlfriend, but you just want to play with me No need for responsible ambiguous games?"
Chi Nuan bit the back of her hand, afraid that she would cry too loudly and make a noise to Chi Qingchuan and Yue Yun.
Gu Ningzi: "I can't accept it. It's not like this, you're not such a person, tell me, Chi Nuan, you lied to me, right?"
Chi Nuan opened her swollen eyes and pulled Gu Ningzi's hand: "Are you disappointed in me?"
Gu Ningzi: "I like you!"
Gu Ningzi said: "I can accommodate you a lot, I will, as long as you tell me, what you said before is all a lie to me. ... You also like me, right?"
After Gu Ningzi asked this sentence, she stood there for a long time. She searched all over her memory, but no, Chi Nuan never said that she liked her, not even once.
"… Is that why you never said you liked me?"
Chi Nuan didn't answer her directly, but just pressed her lips against her lips and sobbed. I shouted in my heart: Yes, Gu Ningzi, I am lying, the words you want to hear, I have written in your palm.
It seemed to be raining heavily outside, crackling against the windows.
Gu Ningzi opened the door and left Chi Nuan's house in the early morning when it was raining heavily.