The old movie finally came to an end.
This is the torture called "justice", the price of the ideal he longs for.
Father, someone who was like a mother to me, was even taken away from me, even the right to feel the blood on my hands and to remember them.
Kiritsugu could never recall the people he loved, their voices, their figures with a peaceful heart.
They will forever torture Kiritsugu in nightmares, and will never forgive Kiritsugu for abandoning them and strangling their lives based on ruthless judgment.
But he had no way to stop, and he couldn't stop.
The moment he stops, everything he pursued before will become in vain. The price he paid and the sacrifices he accumulated will all lose their value and collapse.
He could only bear all of this silently, whether it was curses or resentments, but he just hoped that when his tears dried up in the future, there would be a day when his wish would be fulfilled.
This was Kiritsugu's first half of life. The "Magician Killer" that many magi feared was born at this moment.
Because of Xia Lei, he began to weigh his life on the scales.
Because of his father's death, he embarked on an inhuman and bloody path.
Because of the death of his adoptive mother, he almost lost all his humanity and turned himself into a machine.
These two experiences also became a cage that imprisoned the second half of his life, and everything he did could not escape the shadow of the first half of his life.
Because he saw the shadow of Natalia in Hisau Maiya, after saving her, he agreed to let her stay with him and become his assistant, just like Natalia did to him back then.
Because he didn't want such a tragedy to happen again, he traveled around the world looking for a "miracle". Therefore, he accepted Einzbern's invitation, became Irisviel's husband, and disappeared from then on.
Because Irisviel's innocence was somewhat similar to Xia Lei's, Kiritsugu couldn't help but pour his feelings into her, instead of simply treating her as a tool as Yahad said.
Time and again, he could not help himself, which added new brightness to Kiritsugu's originally dull life, and his originally cold heart regained its human warmth.
However, this touch of brightness and warmth could not offset the shadow of the first half of his life. In the end, he still had to make another cruel choice and had to sacrifice his wife in order to save all mankind.
What's even more cruel is that after sacrificing his family, lover and all the important people, all he got in return was nothing. There is no way to save humanity at all.
The man who realized this finally had a great enlightenment. He threw away all his obsessions and allowed his past self to collapse.
With the help of a visitor beyond his destiny, he escaped the tragic fate of waiting for the end of his life with a broken body and soul, carrying the curse of no redemption - the miracle failed to save all mankind, but saved his last family.
From then on, Emiya Kiritsugu lived not for all mankind, not for justice, not for redemption, he only lived for his family and himself - he finally walked out of the shadow of the first half of his life, walked out of his own prison, and ran towards a better tomorrow.
However, just as he gradually forgot the past and concentrated on enjoying the present, the shadow of the first half of his life and the shackles that once made him breathless appeared before him again. No wonder he lost his composure like this.
"Impossible, impossible, impossible, impossible - this must be a dream, it can't be real. Natalia... Xia Lei..."
He held his head and grabbed his hair frantically like a wounded beast.
"I didn't expect a cold-blooded kid like you to show such an expression."
The female Dead Apostle in a black windbreaker took off her hat and sunglasses, revealing her light blue hair and a face that hadn't changed at all since they parted.
"Kelly, this is all real, you are not dreaming."
The dead apostle in single clothing also took off his gloves, revealing the handsome face that had appeared in Kiritsugu's dreams countless times, sometimes making her miss him, and sometimes tormenting her.
"If I'm not dreaming, then it's an illusion! Who are you? Why are you using their appearance to deceive me?"
Kiritsugu roared in a hoarse, low voice, and the pistol that had been put back into his waist was once again in his hand.
"They can't be alive!"
"Can we still be considered alive like this?"
Natalie shrugged, pointing to her pale skin, then to her red eyes.
"Vampire!" Kiritsugu instinctively raised his gun and was about to pull the trigger.
A hand reached out from the side, grabbed his wrist, and took the gun away from him before he could shoot.
"Shinji, what are you doing!?"
"I was going to ask you what you were going to do? Have you forgotten what I just said? Without them, your wife and daughter would have died! I'm a professional vampire hunter and I didn't even yell for war and killing. Why are you so anxious? Where's your usual calmness?"
"Kiritsugu."
"dad."
Irisviel and Illya held Kiritsugu's hands, one on each side, and his out-of-control emotions gradually calmed down.
"Anyway, let's sit down and have a good chat. With us here, even if they are the 27th Ancestor in disguise, they won't be able to cause any trouble. I think your wife and children are also very interested in your past affairs."
Shinji deliberately laughed maliciously, trying to ease the atmosphere. Unfortunately, it had little effect. The only effect the Emiya women had was Sakura's curiosity.
This harem is so harmonious that it’s terrifying. I don’t know if it’s because Kiritsugu has a unique way of reconciling things, or if it’s just that everything has its limits and after all the suffering comes happiness.
The young man, who was also very popular with women, was envious and completely forgot that this extreme truth and the sweet after bitterness were created by him.
"First, we need to verify whether these two Dead Apostles are Kiritsugu's old acquaintances. Although I already believe it, this person has not witnessed your heroic performance with his own eyes, so he still has doubts - so please think of a way to dispel his doubts."
"This is easy. I'll go first." Natalia said, "The kid will think I'm dead because he shot down the plane I was flying. Judging from the feeling of the explosion, it should be a British 'Blowpipe'; - even now it is not easy to get something, you must have spent a lot of effort."
"..." Kiritsugu remained silent.
"It's my turn now." Xia Lei took over the topic, "When I first became like this, I asked Kelly to kill me, but Kelly didn't agree, and the result was..."
"That's enough! Stop talking!"
The old scars were opened again, bleeding and heart-wrenching. This pain was the best proof.
At this moment, the man who was about to be driven crazy just wanted to figure out two things.
How did they survive a situation that meant they would die? And why did it take so long for them to show up