[Dosa].
Once a person feels uncomfortable, it will inevitably affect the whole body, from the stomach to the legs, and when I get on the bed, I just feel top-heavy, and I won't move any more.
Shen Xu's backpack doesn't look like much, but it has everything. I can see him taking it out one after another through the gap in his eyes, in an endless posture. I even found that he also brought a pack of stomach and digestion tablets, hawthorn flavored, I used to love to eat.
"You even brought this." I spit out angrily, Shen Xu didn't realize what I was talking about at first, after looking around, his eyes stopped on the Xiaoshi tablet, saying that this was not eaten when he was sick, and Throw it away.
"Shen Xu, do you have the ability to read minds..." I buried myself in the pillow, and my voice became muffled, "How do you know what I'm talking about?"
The sound of rummaging stopped, Shen Xu didn't answer, and then there were a few crisp collisions - water flowed into the container, closed the lid and connected the plug, and after a few minutes it was boiling, the footsteps approached, but were weakened by the carpet, I was like It was because he was trapped in the viscous liquid, unable to move by himself, and let Shen Xu play with it.
"Hot." I leaned against the pillow halfway, and the tip of my nose was scalded by the steam. I subconsciously thought that the water was not too hot to enter my mouth. Shen Xu took a sip in front of me, "It's not hot."
"Would it be cool for a while?" I shrank down and continued to curl up.
Shen Xu looked at the water in the glass, took another empty glass, poured the water back and forth alternately until the steam was no longer hot, and then gave it to me and the medicine to drink.
"Thank you." The warm water flowed into the stomach, making it a little more comfortable, the pills took a little time to work, I slid back into the quilt, leaving two hands to pat on it, "My phone—"
"Here." Shen Xu got up slightly and put a square object in my palm. I turned to unlock it, operated the phone with difficulty, and initiated a video call request on the page full of green dialog boxes.
Although that person ignored me, I missed him so much.
The ringing on the connection was cheerful, and I took the phone closer and stared at the ellipsis that appeared in circles until it dimmed, reflecting my own messed-up face.
I went back to the previous page, dialed it again, and again, I didn't want to cry in front of others, that would make me seem humble and weak in this relationship, but the tears still couldn't stop flowing, on the pillow against my face It was a small beach, I bit my lip and wanted to make another call, telling him that I am not feeling well, that I feel bad, express my anxiety, and say something nice to comfort me, but the call hasn't been dialed yet. The phone screen was pressed down, replaced by Shen Xu's authoritarian face.
I was a little anxious, I used all my strength to break his fingers, what if I took it this time, what if
"You give me back... Shen Xu!" I begged him with a crying voice, but Shen Xu still looked at me indifferently.
"Call your boyfriend?"
"Um."
"Stop calling." Shen Xu confiscated my phone.
"Don't." I wrapped my arms around his arm tightly, "I won't call, I won't call, you give me back the phone..."
Like being torn out a bloody hole, I almost begged him in a very low tone, maybe my posture was too unbearable, which caused the speed of Shen Xu's farewell to start too fast, so I couldn't see the look on his face clearly. Instant heartbreak.
So no one has a cell phone.
"If you have anything, you can tell me." After a long stalemate, Shen Xu gently returned the phone to me, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have robbed you of your phone, because I saw you cry just now... I'm very worried. "
I took my phone back and held it against my chest. The quilt was pulled high, and I could smell the quilt cover disinfectant when I lowered my head.
"He used to be very good to me." I don't know what I'm talking about after tossing it up to now. I stretched out my left hand from the quilt to show Shen Xu, "He made this for me."
"Do you like it very much?" Shen Xu glanced at the bracelet.
"like very much."
"Do you like it now?"
"Yes, I still like it."
"Is it a little too big?"
Shen Xu suddenly looked at the string of beads with scrutiny. I lost some weight in the past few months. The beads were resting on the protruding wrist bone, which did not look harmonious. I took it back and took it off. He held it in his palm, "No matter how old you are, you will get used to it. I have worn it for many years. My boyfriend made it for me when he was in school. He knocked out an ore sample from every survey place, and his car became a necklace, but The size of the mold I bought was wrong, and it hung around my neck like a sand monk, so I had to take it down and change it. I picked the best colors and strung it into a bracelet... Look at the white one in the middle, it is Stones on Jade Dragon Snow Mountain."
"What about this one?" Shen Xu nodded at one of the brown beads.
"Gobi, Gansu." I said firmly.
Shen Xu smiled, "Remember so clearly."
I pressed the bead hard until it embedded in the meat.
"Are people still suffering?" Shen Xu asked me.
I shook my head, and as soon as I was distracted, the colic in my stomach eased.
"What about this one?" Shen Xu lit a red bead, which was smaller than the other beads and looked newer because it was added later.
"Carnelian, it's a gemstone, it's called 'flesh' in Latin." I looked at it and felt a suffocation pain. This gemstone was given to me after he proposed to me. The material is not high-end, but please When a skilled master grinds it into a perfect circle, the value rises, and it is strung between two malachite stones.
The red cardboard was stamped with a radish stamp. This is a private decision for life. He kissed me in my school studio and said that we must be the first to get married among high school classmates.
"Of course!" I sat down on his lap, wrapped my arms around his neck and continued to kiss him. It was still bright and the door was not locked, but my lips and teeth could be entwined unscrupulously. In fact, since the first kiss, we have challenged the limits of our lips every time we kissed, even if the kiss was tingling and painful, we were reluctant to stop.
He learned how to kiss faster than me, how to tease, how to kiss from the lower lip to the neck at the right time, the tip of his tongue has a sweet taste that makes people eat the marrow, like he is playing a trick on me, and advise me not to have it Excessive satisfaction, otherwise you have to take it from him when you want it.
After the tossing kiss, he squinted his eyes slightly, looked satisfied, and looked like he would be obedient to me, so I would take the opportunity to make some requests, such as making him my portrait model.
"Are you sure? I have to sit still for a long time." I suddenly felt uneasy, "I draw very slowly, but I have to hand in my homework the day after tomorrow."
"The day after tomorrow, did you start writing today?" His tone was helpless, but his expression was very willing. He sat on the chair in the most comfortable position, with his long legs spread and one arm on the back of the chair. He used to teach me to do the questions. The habitual way of sitting indicates that his patience balance is sufficient.
"It's too late, I've calculated the time." My control of the dead line reached a state of perfection. Looking at my boyfriend who had entered the state of a wooden man, I sighed: "Why are you so good to me."
"I'm good to you, can you love me a little more?"
He suddenly said such a sentence, his voice still trembled a little, I was puzzled: "I have always loved you, I don't know how to love you more."
"Ask," he said, rubbing his nose awkwardly, then realizing that he couldn't move, and quickly returned to his original position, I started the draft as quickly as possible, but the more I thought about it, the more puzzled I became, "... . . . .. Are you afraid that I don't love you enough?"
"No."
That is, I saw his expression, and it was obvious that he denied me so quickly because he felt that his problem was trivial. Love or not, who loves who, who loves who's debate seems to be more common among sentimental girls.
However, he obviously has the best appearance and the intelligence of the analogy, and there will be no less people chasing him from childhood to adulthood. In contrast, I am the one who should be worried if I am not so outstanding in all aspects. Knowing that he has been entangled in this issue, the mood is very complicated.
If it really is what I think, his kindness to me in the relationship will change in nature. It is not from the heart, but tends to ask, which is close to pleasing.
"By the way, do you know that our high school classmates misunderstood you before?" I absently checked the proportions. This step is not important. I can draw his appearance with my eyes closed.
He suddenly laughed and said he knew.
"Huh? I thought you didn't know." I said, "I've been thinking about how to ask you for a long time."
"I did it on purpose." He lowered his eyes casually.
"on purpose?"
"Yeah." He sat like a statue in the evening light, "They call me 'the great god', they say they like me, they say I'm a good person, I just try when I don't behave so well to them Will they still like me when they want?"
I was dumbfounded, for his motives were too naive.
The clumsy temptation, which he could have demonstrated in a milder way, might have turned out differently, I thought. But I didn't say it, because I suddenly discovered that a boyfriend who is so outstanding in the eyes of others and in my eyes is a very inferior person in his bones.
He sat quietly, and when he was a model, he couldn't read or do quizzes. I felt sorry for him, so I helped him put on the earphones, but he took them off after just listening for a while.
I painted longer than usual, and I was not satisfied with the final color draft, which revealed heavy hearts everywhere, but the teacher liked it very much. Maybe it was my boyfriend's face that reflected the twilight and the afterglow added a lot of points to the picture. think so.
The selected works will be exhibited in a collective exhibition. I was inexplicably reluctant to sneak into the teacher's office on a dark and windy night for a month - stealing the homework.