"I remember when you were in Heiyuan Valley, every morning, you would run to the pool to take a picture to see what you looked like."
Shi Feng pulled Chen He to his side and sat down. Instead of comforting him, he talked about the past.
His fingers picked up the hair that was hanging down on his younger brother's forehead, and Shi Feng met a pair of dazed eyes, and couldn't help but gently stroked the small red mole at the corner of Chen He's eyes.
Shi Feng used to hate this deeply. Many years ago, he heard that fate was doomed, and fate was destined.
Even if the kinship in this world is thrown away, the wound still exists.
Traveling the world with Nan Hongzi, in addition to the monks, it is inevitable that in the market place, there will be two physiognomists who are somewhat capable, so Shi Feng always uses his hair or hat to cover it, and he doesn't want anyone to mention those In the past, he used to think that he was completely free of bad luck, until the wound was torn open again.
Shi Feng had never seen Venerable Li Yan in his previous life, but it did not prevent him from feeling joy in his heart after hearing that the Tao of Heaven had retraced the time.
"You're fine."
Chen He was so stiff and motionless, he only felt his brother's cool fingers caressing his cheek.
"I was very happy when I heard the truth from the King Gu and the little Taoist priest of the Heluo faction and guessed the truth." Shi Feng looked at Chen He deeply, and finally slowed down and said word by word, "You haven't forgotten. If I tell you, you live better than anyone else..."
"That's what you thought!"
Chen He suddenly stood up and stared at Shi Feng fiercely.
The atmosphere suddenly became solemn.
Shi Feng was a little surprised, and withdrew his hand and looked at his junior brother, but did not answer.
Chen He was originally angry, he never—even thought to get angry with his senior brother, but just now he really couldn't help it. Hearing Shi Feng said that Venerable Li Yan lived very well in his previous life, it was like being slashed by a knife. At one point, it was piercing pain, and anger.
"You don't need to do that at all!"
Chen He's emotions were out of control. He spoke very quickly, not giving Shi Feng a chance to refute at all.
"You don't need to sacrifice your life to inherit."
There was a faint bloodshot in Chen He's eyes, and the stranger didn't seem to be like him. Those words he was going to hide for a lifetime just blurted out, "You can take me back to Heiyuan Valley, the magic cultivator can't soar, and I don't want to become immortal! Just like us Like this world, why don't you live?"
Shi Feng wanted to say something, but he didn't say anything.
"The fire burns Yunzhou, and the cause and effect are entangled. After I die, these troubles will affect me from generation to generation until the Wangchuan River washes away the calamity again and again with the reincarnation."
When Chen He said this, Shi Feng's expression changed and he couldn't bear it.
Without waiting for Shi Feng to speak, Chen He immediately said: "But people always die. You left the Beixuan inheritance that day. Did you really expect me, a monk of the devil's way, to be able to soar?"
Shi Feng slowly shook his head.
"You just don't want to live!" Chen He said loudly, the reddish corners of his eyes becoming more and more obvious.
Shi Feng almost thought his junior brother was about to cry, but Chen He didn't.
There was no sign of tears at all, the back was straight, the corners of the mouth pursed, the anger far outweighed the sadness. It is completely different from the obedient and intelligent junior and senior who liked to rely on himself in the past.
This kind of unfamiliarity made Shi Feng lose his mind and think that the junior and junior brothers have really grown up and can be alone without himself.
"I'm just an excuse you just happened to encounter, so that you don't have to continue suffering in this world!" Chen He took a step back, closed his eyes, and tried to restrain the churning anger in his heart, but with little success.
A hand reaches out.
Chen He subconsciously wanted to avoid it. Shi Feng changed his hand and held his junior brother firmly in his arms. The latter struggled for a while, but finally succumbed to the familiar aura.
He was reluctant.
Even if he was so angry that he couldn't contain it, Chen He was reluctant to push Shi Feng's hand away.
—Because this is the warmth that Li Yan could never get, ask for, or reach in his entire life.
Seeing that Chen He was no longer struggling, Shi Feng quietly hugged his junior brother for a long time, and when Chen He's hurried breath calmed down, he said, "You're right, at that time, I probably didn't want to live anymore. ."
Chen He opened his eyes and was about to say something, but Shi Feng covered his mouth and could only stare at his senior brother.
"No one will have too many feelings for a strange child." Shi Feng didn't want to deceive Chen He, and because he couldn't deceive his younger brother, he maintained a peaceful voice and said, "There may be pity, but more self-injury, No matter what, I give you the inheritance of the Northern Profound School, I hope that child can live well, he should not die."
Chen He was speechless, but his body was shaking slightly.
Shi Feng didn't let go, and continued: "I consciously did a lot of wrong things, which eventually caused me to lose everything, but after thinking about it carefully, I don't know where the mistake was, why it became like this. I no longer exist."
Chen He looked up at Shi Feng, and finally there was obvious sadness in his eyes.
Yes, this is the truth.
Li Yan could guess, and Chen He actually knew it, but he didn't want to think about it.
- No matter how much Li Yan loves the person who has been dead for many years, for Shi Feng, the child who was shivering with fright in the Chifeng Desert cannot be the meaning of Shi Feng's life.
It doesn't matter.
No matter how unrepentant Li Yan is, under Jiuquan, Shi Feng will not care.
Venerable Li Yan can ascend on the way of heaven, and maybe he can win a place in the heaven in the future, but as long as he cannot stand in front of Shi Feng for a day, he will never be able to change this cruel and embarrassing fact.
Because it all ends before it begins.
In a trance, Chen He heard what Shi Feng said, but his mind was buzzing, watching Shi Feng's lips open and closed, he couldn't respond for a long time.
Shi Feng was helpless and deplored his junior brother, so he had no choice but to let go and bow his head to kiss.
After a while, seeing Chen He struggling to regain consciousness, Shi Feng said in the ear of his junior brother: "But now, you are my whole meaning in this world."
Chen He's breath stagnated.
"What you see today, or I am still here today, is all because of you, because twelve years ago, the Lord of Heiyuan Valley handed you into my hands."
"Brother..."
Chen He naa, something seemed to be choked in his throat, and he couldn't say a word.
"I once told you that you are more important than Beixuan's secret treasure. In fact, you are more important than everything in the world combined." Shi Feng slowly stroked Chen He's face, as if he wanted to see more clearly, and seemed to be nostalgic. unwilling to leave.
"Cut off the seven emotions, have no heart and no love, don't care about anyone, don't trust anyone... The words I leave you are too harsh, I can't do it myself."
"Senior brother!" Chen He backhanded and hugged Shi Feng tightly.
In Li Yan's life, there should be very few tears. Therefore, Li Yan hates it, and even rejects it.
In fact, Chen He, who was the same person as Li Yan, didn't cry when he questioned Shi Feng, but when he heard Shi Feng admit that he couldn't care about Li Yan, he still didn't cry.
"That's why I said, you're fine. You did what I expected and what I couldn't do."
Shi Feng patted his junior brother's back lightly, pretending to appease him: "This makes me understand that no matter who you are, you are my proud junior brother. Last time, I chose death easily, and I didn't get along with you, and I didn't get along with you. Being together, this is my mistake, and I have no luck, that's why I miss my junior brother."
Chen He buried his head on Shi Feng's shoulder and refused to move.
"But thinking about it, I'd rather miss-"
Hearing this, Chen He instinctively raised his head and glared at Shi Feng.
What is this, Li Yan has suffered for hundreds of years in his previous life in vain
"You fell off the Sky Cliff and grew up in Heiyuan Valley. The fire in the stone didn't burn Yunzhou, and you didn't bear the burden of cause and effect. Even if you were trapped in the fragments of the small world, you still have long eyebrows." Shi Feng said patiently. , "Although I don't know how you were in your past life, but a child with a psychotic disorder and a troubled past from our Beixuan Sect, it is too difficult and too bitter for him to live and eventually become the venerable leader of the devil's way. "
Chen He blinked hard, trying to say something with a stern face, but the tears he finally restrained fell silently after Shi Feng's last words.
"...Senior brother is very fortunate that all this can be done all over again, and I have given my junior brother everything better."
Chen He buried his head on Shi Feng's shoulders again, thinking in his heart that Li Yan once loved Shi Feng so much, let him hide it like this, otherwise it would be a tough life for the senior brother to find out.
"The deceased is gone, the past can't be traced back, Junior Brother, don't think about the past again."
"Do not."
In order to open up the topic and change the mood that made him sad, Chen He said in Shi Feng's arms, "Do you know why I fell off the cliff?"
Shi Feng paused for a while, thinking about this too.
Did this never happen in the previous life, or did the Heiyuan Valley owner not hand the child to him when he sent the child back
"I didn't know it before. When I saw the memory of my past life, I woke up and re-arranged my memory of this life. Only then did I find out what my cousin Chen Shu said before he died." Chen He seems to be happy and sarcastic, "He is also a person with memories of his previous life. In order to prevent the Chen family from eventually turning into ashes, when I was six years old, when the whole family went to Qiuye Temple for incense, he kidnapped me out. Pushed off the cliff."
"… "
"He's really my good cousin!"
Chen He said with a weird expression, "It's a pity that his bones have been turned into ashes, otherwise I would have to go to worship him. Thanks to his kindness, I can meet my brother early."
Shi Feng didn't want his junior brother to show such an expression, so he interrupted: "Then you have to thank everyone in Heiyuan Valley, because they were too lazy to go out, so they put you in me."
Chen He didn't change his appearance in Yuan Ying period, which made him angry, his face still bulged involuntarily, and even his nose wrinkled.
"I know, only senior brother wants me."
As Chen He said, he made another note in his heart for "people in Heiyuan Valley who are too lazy to go out".
"Aren't you angry anymore?" Shi Feng tapped the tip of his nose.
Chen He lowered his eyes and turned his head crampedly.
"Since you're not angry, why are you hiding something from me?"
"I want to teach those guys who don't give up a lesson..." Chen He thought that Shi Feng was talking about Zhao Weiyang and others, so he murmured reluctantly.
"Who cares about those people?" Shi Feng closed his smile and asked with a cold face, "A few days ago, when you were in a daze, you dragged me tightly and didn't let go, and when you woke up, you hid it and didn't say anything. Is there anything wrong?"
"Oh." Chen He was listless.
"say!"
"Senior brother, I was wrong."
Shi Feng stared at him, and suddenly sighed, "No, it was my fault. I didn't expect that just that one time, that sentence would also make you fall into a sea of misery and unhappiness."
Chen He was shocked and raised his head suddenly.
"Because you are obsessed, that sentence, I gave it to you together with the sect inheritance, never thought-"
"It has saved me many times!" Chen He said decisively, he interrupted Shi Feng, just wanting to ask the truth, "Li Yan... I like senior brother, how do you know about senior brother?"
"You are so angry at me, yelling, just resenting my easy choice of death?"
Shi Feng looked at his younger brother helplessly, Chen He was excited and put a lot of effort into holding his hand tightly, but Shi Feng did not break free.
"You complain the most, you are unhappy, and you are glad that this time is different, not so rude." Shi Feng was very meaningful, he knew his junior brother, how could he be easily deceived, "You listened to my words carefully, the calamity of love and sin. , what else can it be on? In the end, it's the senior brother who is sorry for you, sorry... him."
Chen He wiped his eyes indiscriminately, forced a smile, and said deliberately dissatisfied: "Senior brother is so complacent, do you think I will like senior brother every time?"
Shi Feng kissed away the tears from the corners of his eyes, and followed Chen He with a good-natured answer: "That's right."