[Does life exist for 'happiness' or for 'meaning'?]
The multiple galaxies, the bloody battle galaxies, in a secret private void settlement within the Amos Royal Court.
The former Captain Mycroft, Krelle stood in front of the huge training warehouse in front of him, thinking about this question that only smart people who are impatient to live and have nothing to do except daydream would think about when they are in a sage state.
In front of him was a squirming mass of flesh and blood.
This is a huge container made entirely of translucent biological crystals. It is filled with a scarlet solution that sparkles with fluorescence. Floating in this scarlet solution are large, distorted and swollen pieces of flesh with weird runes shining all over the body. .
It can be seen that these flesh and blood exuding a faint golden light have blood vessels spreading like roots, and around the blood vessels, there are silver eyeballs one after another. These eyeballs are beautiful and holy, like the most thrilling and perfect eyes. A flawless gem, but when it is embedded in these internal organs and bodies that seem to only appear in nightmares, it looks strange and beautiful.
Suddenly, the flesh and blood began to spasm, and a large amount of foam arose in the scarlet solution. It could be vaguely seen that the strange runes originally covering it began to spread again, and even penetrated deep into the flesh and blood.
But Kreller watched this scene with very soft eyes. He operated on the equipment on the side and seemed to add something to the solution. Then he turned his head and said: "How is it, Elma, how does it feel?" Feeling better?"
"I have adjusted the concentration of the extraordinary barrier solution to 80%. Do I need to continue to increase it?"
"... Very good, no need." After a while, the weird runes on the flesh and blood began to fade away, and a tired voice communicated with Kreiler through mental transmission: "Thank you for your hard work, Kreiler, you You did a great job, you were able to master the laboratory operations in just a few days... Your talent is really amazing!"
The strange flesh-and-blood aggregate in the crystal container was clearly Elma—or rather, the core of Elma. She made a sigh of relief: "You know, even if a professional Amosian comes to learn, It takes a week or two to get started, and you learned all the steps in a few days. It seems that it is not difficult for you to take over my inheritance."
"...Maybe." Krelle couldn't deny it. He couldn't explain for a moment how much he wanted to help Elma, and how hard he worked and devoted all his efforts to study... He rubbed his tiredness With his eyes open, he whispered: "Hold on a little longer, Elma. If you wait a little longer, maybe the medicine to solve the extreme virus will be developed? Don't think about inheritance and things after death right now. .”
"Well, I'll wait."
The obviously mutated flesh and blood spoke out in a rational female voice. She readily agreed, but it couldn't make Kreiler feel at ease at all.
The two of them were silent for a while, and the entire experimental hall fell into silence, with only the sound of the solution rising and falling in the culture chamber.
"… does it worth?"
"Is it worth sacrificing yourself like this, becoming a monster, and maybe even dying like this?"
In this silence, staring at the mutated flesh and blood in the warehouse, Kreller wanted to speak out several times and ask Elma what she thought - he wanted to know how this familiar woman felt about his behavior. Without cognition, does she know what the meaning of her actions is and whether it is worth giving up her life
However, I couldn't say it.
Because even Krelle knew that Elma's actions when the extreme virus spread again saved at least tens of billions more Amos people.
—After obtaining the 'blocking potion' developed by the natural teacher, Elma used her own blood as an experiment as quickly as possible to prepare a blocking potion suitable for the Amos people. Then she worked non-stop, relying on her hard work just now Having met Emperor Amos, he hinted that his actions were behind the emperor's back. He also used himself to kill extreme creatures and saved a large number of thinking individuals. He directly contacted the upper echelons of related industries and began to rapidly produce blocking agents.
This series of operations is running smoothly and cannot be faster - with the opening of the transmission network, batches of blocking medicines are sent to the entire royal court, allowing most people to block, at least those who are aware of the intrusion of the extreme virus. This allows for better treatment and isolation. It would not be an exaggeration to say that Elma’s actions saved tens of billions of people. She could even say that she saved the entire Amos Court of this generation.
In this regard, the emperor did not say a word. He did not deny or admit that Elma used his name. He did not stop or help Elma's actions against his will to fight against the extreme virus. .
He just watched with interest as the ant in his palm struggled hard, sacrificed himself hard, realized his own meaning at the cost of his life, and then nodded thoughtfully.
It's precisely because Kreller knows this that he wants to ask, is it worth it
This sentence was not spoken, but in the spiritual network connecting the two, thinking is equivalent to talking.
Faced with Elma, who seemed to want to say something, Kreller's thoughts were revealed to her unabashedly.
"I know that for you, Elma, saving tens or even hundreds of billions of Amos people at the cost of infecting yourself with the extreme virus is a very cost-effective thing. This kind of sacrifice is noble and respectable. Countless people pass on your name, inherit your favor, and live for the future you bestow. This spirit is simply a legendary epic destined to be sung to the next era.
However, I am a cold-blooded, ruthless guy who looks down on foreigners. I am a stranger and it doesn’t matter if I die in front of you. I can even eat happily if I die miserably. But if someone I know is hurt and uncomfortable, I will almost die. It’s vulgar. A selfish villain.
To me, compared to you, the tens of billions of fanatical and xenophobic Amos people are simply dust, and you are the sun. I really can’t accept that the sun is willing to extinguish for the sake of dust—but I understand, For you, there is nothing worth it, because you can do this. If you are willing to rebel against the emperor for the Amos people, you will naturally sacrifice your life for the Amos people. This is probably what you mean, I You feel it, you even feel happy about it. "
-Happiness is both 'spiritual' and 'material' satisfaction.
—Meaning is the process of 'realizing' and 'following' one's own will.
At this moment, Elma, even though she was fighting against the erosion of the ultimate virus and transformed into a flesh and blood monster, no one could say that she was unhappy now and that her life was meaningless.
Because she received both material and spiritual satisfaction, she realized and followed her own will and carried out her own aspirations.
However, the flesh and blood in the culture chamber squirmed slightly, as if shaking its head.
"Kreller, you can't say that."
Gentle mental fluctuations came, as if he wanted to enlighten the other party: "Let's use an analogy - when a group of people were playing in the forest, they were suddenly attacked by wild beasts. Everyone ran away in panic, but according to their speed, there was basically no Maybe someone could escape.”
"And at this time, suddenly there was a person who stayed and chose to fight - in her heart, maybe there was no such thing as 'sacrifice for the Amos people'. She might just be just out of anger, simply unwilling, and angry at the crowd. Why didn't the guardian in the middle take action? Why is his fate like this?"
"So, if he didn't take action, I would take action - that person fought and temporarily repelled the beast, allowing most of the people to leave, but he was about to die... Others who escaped with their lives and those who were watching were moved. Say it’s noble self-sacrifice, but it’s not.”
A golden tentacle stretched out from the flesh and blood. It seemed to want to touch the tearful face of Crelle through the crystal wall of the culture chamber. Elma said calmly: "Sacrifice is not so cheap. … But sacrifice may be so cheap. After all, we are all selfish beings. As long as it is for our own will and self-meaning, we are willing to sacrifice even if it is for ourselves.”
Elma herself is a top scholar in related supernatural biology. She can even deduce artificial bodies that fit the soul from the soul adaptability of aliens without any consultation.
You must know that when Kraler was in the Soul Abyss Ball, he had no physical genetic factors, only his soul. However, with some simple information, Elma was able to use the characteristics of Kraler's soul to create his body. Seven, seven, eight, eight, roughly the same.
After receiving consultation from a natural teacher who teaches you step-by-step how to make blocking potion rather than information, she was able to quickly make a blocking potion suitable for Amos based on her own body. It is not difficult even for the most professional. It is impossible for the experimenters to be faster than her, and if she had not met the Emperor frequently and was the hero who killed the ultimate life, her subsequent series of instructions pretending to be the Emperor would not have been effective, let alone being mobilized so quickly. The entire production system saved so many Amos people.
Therefore, Elma knew that the person who did all this must be herself. No one else could do it but herself. This was something that only she could accomplish.
"...Ah, I'm sorry, Krelle, I lied."
After a long silence, suddenly, the flesh and blood in the scarlet solution began to twist, boiling heat came from it, and the strange runes spread again, and this time, Elma's voice was not so relaxed, she suppressed Hearing the pain, he smiled and said: "I underestimated the extreme virus... I originally thought that with my strength, I could suppress it for a while, but it turned out that it was far stronger than I thought..."
Under Kreller's shocked gaze, strange flesh and blood began to proliferate in the training chamber, and countless distorted faces began to appear on the golden flesh and blood - they were faces, faces in the shape of Elma Amos, Elma's human-like face, and other faces of various, completely unclear creatures.
These faces are not scary, they can even be called beautiful. After they appeared, they began to howl and merge with each other. Soon, they were about to merge into the flesh and blood to form a flawless face. Although they were not human beings, they were human beings. You will still feel the beautiful, sublimated face, and with the appearance of this face, cocoon threads begin to appear, and begin to wrap around the distorted flesh and blood that has begun to gradually shape, and a perfect curve can be seen.
"I'm going to die."
Until the end, a very calm and indifferent voice came, even with a hint of relaxation and relief: "This stage seems to be called the death of new life? I will die now, and then be born from 'me' To create an extremely selfish creature... Ah, it really doesn't work. I can't accept selfishness alone. Why can't its core idea be to become stronger, for love, for beauty and harmony?"
"No, hold on a little longer!"
At this point, Kreller didn't even have the extra heart to be shocked or sad. He just gritted his teeth and hurriedly ran to the control panel of the culture chamber, and vigorously entered the control code to increase the concentration of the extraordinary blocking agent: "There is definitely hope. —Wait a little longer, wait a little longer!”
"Kill me, the password is '-0302?0101?1001?0304?0502?0105?0501?0902?0501?0301?0102-'."
Elma's tone was very calm. She seemed to have already thought about what she would do when she died: "I prepared this myself. I will destroy all the codes immediately if there is an abnormal situation. Even if I become an extreme creature, I can still Kill it immediately, after all, this is an annihilation circle that I hired a general to strengthen."
"Crele, even if you don't press it, it will start automatically later, but I want to die in your hands. As an Amosian, please grant my wish."
"No!"
With the Wrath Hammer on the console, Kreller's eyes widened, filled with bloodshot eyes caused by the exhaustion of taking care of him all night long. He turned his head and shouted to Elma: "To the marshal--Joshua Van Radcliffe, pray to this name!"
"As long as you pray to the Marshal, a miracle will definitely happen! I don't understand, why are you just unwilling?!"
"No." Elma's voice became cold only on this rejection, but you could hear the shame hidden behind that tone: "Absolutely no."
"The people of Amos are the enemies of Mrs. Michael. In that war, many of you died, and many of us also died. It can even be said that your body was destroyed in that battle. Go."
"The death of the Amos people is a good thing for Mrs. McCrow - for you. As you said before, you only care about me, not the Amos people... and I have saved so many The enemy of Mrs. Micro, your marshal, that lord, may be broad-minded and agree to your prayer, but I was the first to betray the contract and use Mrs. Micro's technology to save the Amos people. despicable ones…
I received the favor of that Lord and was able to survive the battle with the extreme creatures, and I won victory and glory, and then had the opportunity to save many Amos people. However, I was unable to repay the favor, and even made some mistakes to Mrs. Mycroft. As for the bad things, I can't stand the fact that I am so selfish, so I would rather die than live with shame. "
Facing Kreller, who didn't know what to say and could only beat the crystal in the incubator, Elma's tone became gentle again: "And don't label my death as a tragedy without authorization."
"I am very happy to be able to realize the meaning of my life. This is my real wish, my real desire. The meaning of 'Elma's birth in the world has been found and even realized. I have created a future for my race so that they can go further, so even if I die now, I will have no regrets."
"Compared to these, 'self' and 'life' are insignificant little things. I am willing to abandon my life for the meaning of self to prove my love for the Amos people and my shame for Mrs. McCrow, even if it is This sacrifice will grieve you, and I will never agree to it.”
"After all, I am a selfish guy, a selfish Amosian. My sacrifice is just to comfort my own life."
"Damn it, Elma! Do you think you are the only one who is selfish?!"
Really unable to bear it, Kreller roared and stretched out his hand, pressing it on the golden belt around his waist. He shouted loudly: "You want to sacrifice? I don't want to! Selfish lives are competing for each other - this time, I I must take your life back from your hands!"
"Load the extraordinary plug-in—Shadow Gold!"
[Loading completed—Are·you·ready?]
"Wait, Krelle, what are you doing?!" At this time, Elma's voice sounded a little panicked. She didn't expect that the other party would actually do such a thing: "You..."
But at this time, Krelle had no time to listen to the other party's words. He responded loudly: "Wear armor!"
The deep shadow lightning was confused, and then shrank again, turning into a set of armor with dark golden marks, covering Kreiler's body.
[The special installation version of Qiao's system is launched... The crisis management system is linked and modular processing is started... The extraordinary armor·Yujin Flame is fully activated]
[lurking, attacking, and eradicating the roots, we are all the flames in the shadows!]
"Activate, 'Shadow Desolation'! Use the black body space to swallow the entire training warehouse!" Waiting for the power to penetrate his body, for some reason, Krelle felt that the power of this armor was inexplicably much higher than before, but This was a good thing, so he didn't think much about it: "Turn off the means of harm, and I will completely suspend all energy activities in it to ensure the stability of the life state in the black body space!"
—A long time ago, I was a guy whose life was unhappy, meaningless, and worse off than dead.
-But, ever since I met the marshal, ever since I became the captain, ever since I met you, Elma, I have understood that my whole life exists for all of this.
-For my own happiness and my own meaning, I can give anything. As you said, compared with all these, life is nothing but a trivial matter.
[Tip: The energy level of the swallowing target is too high. This operation will put a huge load on the crisis management system loader and may lead to death. Do you want to proceed?]
"yes!"
Kreiler had no hesitation.
As a result, the moving shadow space swallowed up the shocked Elma and the entire cultivation warehouse.
And outside the settlement.
Two huge wills are confronting each other in the void.
"Do you want to stop me from retrieving our Lady Macro's people and his trophies?"
The silver-white will of the world is like the deepest cold steel, hard, stubborn, indestructible, and unshakable. His sight swept across the void, calming the storms of time and space: "Amos, the me before, maybe you You can still stop it, but you can’t do it with me now.”
"Don't talk too much, Joshua, I can see that you are hurt a lot."
Like a galaxy, the spiraling will sneered: "Ten years from now, you will still be a little convincing when you say this, but now you are really not good at it."
"Is your body in the abyss, eroding towards the whirlpool of creation? It is indeed a good path. If you succeed, you can completely control the lifeblood of the entire world's galaxy. The Thakur people are indeed invincible in terms of individual strength. you"
The silver-white will of the world regarded the other party's rebuttal as nothing: "But I can, you are far from successful yet, far from reaching the border of the saint, but I have already touched it, so, Amos, get out of the way. "
"She is from Amos and she is mine."
The spiral galaxy did not give in at all. He shook the void and scattered the light of the demonic tide: Moreover, it is really interesting that such an individual can appear among the Amos people - self-sacrifice, there is still life This possibility? It's really unimaginable that I can't give her up to you. "
"It may be difficult to imagine just life and beasts, but we are different. We are civilized individuals, so there is always something more important and noble than life. And it is precisely because life is extremely precious that sacrifice has its meaning. .”
The silver-white will of the world gradually revealed a hint of eagerness to try, but he still warned: "Do you want to fight, Amos? I really don't want to kill a strong man like you before the tide of evil gods comes."
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