Spare Tire is Gone

Chapter 61

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The doctor blogger who posted the blog is a real doctor, who is certified and has encyclopedia information. He has been operating on Weibo for many years and is one of the most authoritative and most popular doctor bloggers on Weibo.

His long text is divided into three parts.

The first part, according to all the inspection reports that Qi Cong has published, organizes and analyzes the overall course of Qi Cong's illness in the past three years from the beginning of his illness to his sudden recovery in the near future.

The second part, according to Qi Cong's past and present psychological assessment reports, analyzes the meaning and possible reasons behind Qi Cong's abnormal words and deeds after his illness.

The third part analyzes the negative impact of Jiang Zhaoyan on Qi Cong's condition in combination with all Qi Cong's inspection reports.

In the first part, the blogger recognized all the doctors' diagnosis of Qi Cong's condition in the past, denied the speculation about Qi Cong's split personality on the Internet some time ago, and then focused on two places - Qi Cong's abnormal dependence on Jiang Zhaoyan after amnesia , and Qi Cong's sudden recovery of memory after suicide, and the forgetting of Jiang Zhaoyan alone.

He analyzed these two points carefully.

Dependency first.

Qi Cong's reliance on Jiang Zhaoyan came about under two preconditions - Qi Cong lost all memory of the past, and Qi Cong only remembered Jiang Zhaoyan, remembering that Jiang Zhaoyan sent him to the hospital with high fever, and was his savior.

In other words, to Qi Cong at that time, the whole world was unfamiliar, and only Jiang Zhaoyan was the only existence that represented safety.

A person who knows nothing about the world is psychologically no different from a newborn. It is quite normal for him to instinctively rely on the only person who knows and saves him.

This is a different kind of chick plot. The young bird will unconditionally rely on and trust its mother, and will feel safe to stay with her mother. Qi Cong, who has amnesia, does the same to Jiang Zhaoyan.

Here, the blogger highlighted the foundation of this kind of dependence—Qi Cong felt that it was safe to stay by Jiang Zhaoyan’s side, and that Jiang Zhaoyan could make him trust and take care of him.

Then the doctor began to analyze Qi Cong's sudden recovery.

Qi Cong’s recovery was after suicide, and Qi Cong committed suicide because Jiang Zhaoyan’s words and deeds pushed him into a desperate situation—the tools of survival were taken away (forced to leave), emotionally abandoned and denied (Jiang Zhaoyan concealed He was engaged to someone else), and the nest in which he lived was no longer safe (by Jiang Zhaoyan and his family who frequently broke in and had their personal belongings thrown away).

That is to say, when he got here, the foundation of Qi Cong's dependence on Jiang Zhaoyan—the sense of security, trust, and protection—was all broken by Jiang Zhaoyan himself when he decided to commit suicide.

He no longer trusts Jiang Zhaoyan, no longer thinks it is safe to stay by Jiang Zhaoyan's side, and no longer thinks Jiang Zhaoyan will protect him. On the contrary, he may have realized that Jiang Zhaoyan will only cause him harm.

The blogger said that, combined with the previous analysis, he believes that Qi Cong's sudden memory recovery and forgetting Jiang Zhaoyan alone should not be regarded as the result of physical suicide, but should be regarded as psychological "suicide". the result of.

The so-called psychological "suicide" means that when Qi Cong decided to die, the psychological protection barrier and spiritual world formed by relying on Jiang Zhaoyan as the foundation due to amnesia, has collapsed and died with Jiang Zhaoyan's "betrayal" and various hurtful behaviors. .

This "suicide" is not active, it is passive, it is the product of injury. And it was this passive psychological "suicide" that prompted Qi Cong's memory recovery and Jiang Zhaoyan's forgetting.

There's an old saying, don't break, don't stand. When the temporary protective barrier in Qi Cong's heart caused by amnesia and illness is broken, out of the instinct of self-preservation, the human body will automatically awaken another more stable protective barrier in the subconscious, which is the one in Qi Cong's heart who is deeply affected by amnesia. Buried healthy normal protective barrier.

After the normal protective barrier is awakened, the past memories that are the cornerstone of the normal barrier will naturally be restored. In order to better stabilize this barrier, the human body will automatically clean up the "garbage" that will harm and affect this barrier, that is, the temporary protective barrier created by Qi Cong's reliance on Jiang Zhaoyan when he lost his memory.

Now that the "garbage" has been cleared, the memories and feelings contained in the "garbage" will naturally disappear along with it.

This analysis is a bit confusing, but the truth is basically the truth.

Here, the blogger also made a metaphor for the convenience of everyone's understanding.

He said that everyone can regard Qi Cong, who was not ill with memory loss before the age of 21, as a normal computer, and regard the high fever that caused Qi Cong amnesia at the age of 21 as a computer failure.

This failure caused a problem with Qi Cong's memory system and operating system, and then at the first moment of the problem, an inappropriate repair program, Jiang Zhaoyan, appeared by coincidence.

Having lost his memory system, Qi Cong, who didn't know how to properly repair himself, instinctively grasped Jiang Zhaoyan's repair program at the first time, and tried to repair himself through this repair program.

But an inappropriate fix is, after all, an inappropriate fix. Maybe it can temporarily appease the collapse of the system, but it is impossible to really restore Qi Cong to health.

The bug fixes run day after day, taking Qi Cong farther and farther in the wrong direction, and then one day, the bug fix retreats in a way that hurts Qi Cong, and Qi Cong barely runs on the bug The three-year-old system was directly paralyzed and collapsed.

There are two endings to a crashed computer - scrap it, or salvage it.

Qi Cong's computer managed to rescue itself.

He instinctively activated the correct patch that came with the computer after the crash, restoring the system to the point before the failure. And in order not to crash again, the system immediately cleaned up Jiang Zhaoyan's erroneous repair program and the traces it left as a virus, blocking his path to a comeback.

At this point, the first part is the end of the analysis. The blogger finally concluded, so Qi Cong's amnesia and personality change is not a split personality, but a "malfunction", a psychological "malfunction" based on amnesia.

Later, the blogger followed this emphasis and opened the second part of the analysis - the meaning and possible reasons behind Qi Cong's abnormal words and deeds after his illness.

With the analysis of the first part as the basis, the analysis of this part becomes much simpler.

And the blogger mentioned one point before officially starting this part. He suggested that everyone should not use the standard of measuring the words and deeds of normal people to look at what Qi Cong has done in the past three years, because in the past three years, Qi Cong has actually been sick all the time.

Even if he looks extremely healthy on the outside, his spiritual world may have been in a state of extreme restlessness, sensitivity, unhealthy and incompleteness.

After mentioning this point, the doctor began to analyze some of Qi Cong's behavior after being sick one by one, and some of Qi Cong's words and deeds that the public paid more attention to during this period, such as Qi Cong's temperament changed greatly, Qi Cong's excessive reliance on Jiang Zhaoyan, Qi Cong's excessive reliance on Jiang Zhaoyan, Qi Cong's In the face of Jiang Zhaoyan and Jiang's family, the almost cowardly obedient and submissive, Qi Cong's neglect of his parents, the neglect of his studies, the disorder of property management, etc.

These analysis are very simple, because the reason for these words and deeds is the same - Qi Cong lost his memory, fell ill, and his condition has not been properly guided and treated. The support for the operation of his inner world at this time is Jiang Zhaoyan. In order to prevent himself from collapsing, he will instinctively revolve around Jiang Zhaoyan, seldom caring about others.

Probably couldn't bear to dig Qi Cong's scars for the public to see again. This part of the bloggers said it briefly, without going too deep into the analysis, and it was soon passed.

After the second part, the doctor's tone suddenly became serious. With a stern sentence, he opened the last part of this long blog post-analyzing Jiang Zhaoyan's negative impact on Qi Cong's condition.

He wrote: "I've always known that it's not just the disease that kills the patient, it's the heart. But this is the first time I have really seen such a human heart.

After saying this, he posted a form.

In the table, he divided Qi Cong's disease course into three stages, namely the initial reversible stage (the period when Qi Cong just lost his memory until he left his parents), and the middle lost stage (after leaving his parents to go to Jiang Zhaoyan to the time he left Yan Huang) ), the later stage of collapse (after leaving Yanhuang to suicide).

After these three stages, the blogger explained the possible state of Qi Cong in each stage and how to properly treat him in simple and easy-to-understand language.

In the early stage, bloggers believe that although Qi Cong at this stage is emotionally unstable due to amnesia and has a sense of dependence on Jiang Zhaoyan, the situation is not serious.

If his family can help him get rid of the uneasy state caused by amnesia as soon as possible during this period, let him establish emotional connections with people other than Jiang Zhaoyan as much as possible, bring him back to a familiar environment, and help him get in touch gradually The memory of the past, then his unbalanced mental state due to amnesia is very likely to return to the right track.

Speaking of midterms. During this period, Qi Cong's reliance on Jiang Zhaoyan had begun to become deformed. There are no people around him who are familiar with him, and there are no things he is familiar with. He is completely separated from the past, completely isolated and helpless. The only person around him who can be trusted is Jiang Zhaoyan.

If Jiang Zhaoyan can give Qi Cong a stable and safe environment during this period, can take Qi Cong to contact family members who are familiar with Qi Cong's past and go to the hospital for medical treatment, or just treat Qi Cong in a gentle and tolerant way, then Qi Cong's situation Still getting better.

And then later. At this stage, Qi Cong's mental state was completely deformed. He was trapped on a high tower named Jiang Zhaoyan and could not find a way out of trouble.

If Jiang Zhaoyan can take the initiative to let Qi Cong leave during this period, then Qi Cong may not come to an end.

At this point, the blogger has not forced Qi Cong to get better and healed. His best expectation for Qi Cong is that he will not come to an end.

Under the table, the blogger began to analyze what Jiang Zhaoyan did in these three stages, and how his behavior affected Qi Cong's condition.

When analyzing the first stage, the blogger objectively did not accuse Jiang Zhaoyan too much.

He said that because he didn't know the details of Jiang Zhaoyan's relationship with Qi Cong at the time, he was not sure whether Jiang Zhaoyan had deliberately guided Qi Cong to guard against his family, so he tentatively believed that Jiang Zhaoyan was indeed cooperating and helping Qi Cong's treatment at the beginning.

He believes that Qi Cong's condition deteriorated in the first stage, and Qi Yin's responsibility may be greater.

If he insists on picking on Jiang Zhaoyan's faults at this stage, then he can only say that Jiang Zhaoyan's intentional and insincere companion therapy, as well as his daily dealings with Qi Yin's hypocrisy, may have invisibly aggravated Qi Cong's feelings towards his parents. Distrust and inner unease.

When the analysis reached the second stage, the blogger's accusations against Jiang Zhaoyan no longer converged.

He wrote bluntly: From the second stage, everything Jiang Zhaoyan did to Qi Cong was leading Qi Cong to the end.