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Chapter 10: Monologue Ling Yan

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The first time I saw Chen Chen was actually not that night, it was the first day when I went to the school to register, and Chen Chen also brought Chen Ning to register that day.

Chen Chen looked very unhappy. Although he didn't show any impatient expression, I just felt that he must be impatient. His eyes fell on the grass, as if in a daze.

It may be that my eyes are too straightforward, he looked at me with the eyes that looked at the grass, but I think he looks at me and the grass is the same.

Even so, I still felt like I fell into those eyes, but actually, I didn't believe in love at first sight back then.

I think I hate Chen Ning because he pulled Chen Chen's hand away, causing Chen Chen to shift his eyes to him. Perhaps, I found that Chen Chen looked at Chen Ning in a different way, different from the way he looked at me. Grass, look at other people's.

But at that time I just looked away too, as I said, I don't believe in love at first sight, so after a few days I forgot about those eyes, and that day, and now it seems that I was like A stubborn child can even lie to himself in order to cling to what he has lost.

Lin Lie and I are childhood friends, oh, and Wang Yun, Wang Yun is actually Uncle Wang’s illegitimate son, and so is Wang Zhao, we will play with Wang Yun and Uncle Wang will take care of us. When Uncle Wang was young, he was flirtatious and kept children everywhere. He was not accepted until he met the current Sister-in-law Wang. Sister-in-law Wang is a strong person. If she knew that Uncle Wang had an illegitimate child outside, it would only be a divorce.

Uncle Wang didn't dare to let Mrs. Wang know. I think Uncle Wang asked us to take care of him, or even monitor him.

Otherwise, we wouldn't have played with him, but even so, when Lin Lie and I chatted, he could only drink on the sidelines, and he couldn't get in the conversation. Later, he came to drink, to drink Drunk we put him in the hotel, that's it.

Maybe it's the same. When Lin Lie showed his dislike for Chen Ning, I also showed the same behavior, even though I thought these actions were silly. But Wang Yun smiled at Chen Ning naturally and stood beside us, which made me feel that this was Wang Yun's silent resistance, or maybe I was thinking too much.

I saw Chen Chen at the entrance of KTV again, this time I didn't fall into his eyes, but he fell into mine. He still didn't look at me, but he glanced at me, then looked at Chen Ning, and then the two left happily, I even felt that Chen Ning regarded himself as his boyfriend, which made me feel that Chen Ning was more dazzling.

After that, I went to that alley to collect materials. In fact, there are many places like this, but I chose that one. Chen Chen could live in other places, but he lived here. I took it as fate at that time, but Now I don't want to be an ostrich anymore. Before the day I went to collect materials, I drove by and watched Chen Chen walk into the alley. At the moment Chen Chen rescued him, my first thought was, what he wants, what can I give him.

Then the thought was ignored by me the next moment.

Then he was also ignored by me. I think I had such inexplicable stubbornness at that time, so I ignored him.

But I still went to investigate Chen Chen's birth. There was no reason. I saw an old man in an alley. I went to find that man. He might be the oldest. I think he should know something, or, the man's eyes and Chen Chen's look is so similar that I almost think that these two are relatives.

Then I saw this kind old man with a fierce look and nostalgia in his eyes. This must have nothing to do with Chen Chen, I said to myself.

Now, I dare not say it anymore.

I still didn't go to Chen Chen, with a fear of not knowing.

Until I met him again at the school gate, this time I could finally say that it was fate, instead of thinking about whether it was another premeditated plan.

Later I saw him and transferred him to be my driver. In fact, I didn't need these things, but I should have resigned to my fate at that time.

So when the software was stolen, the game software that I developed and played by myself was also stolen. When I only told Chen Chen about this, I was surprisingly calm. Perhaps, my subconscious mind had already predicted such a result.

I slowly figured out a way to get along with Chen Chen, just to change my attitude, I think Lin Lie saw something strange, but he just opened his mouth, but didn't say anything.

In Chen Chen's eyes, I was finally different from grass. Since then, I have been developing small game software for Chen Chen to steal by myself, because those big ones can no longer be stolen.

But then, it has never been stolen.

Until later, I asked him to live with me, and he readily agreed.

I didn't let him meet Chen Ningna, he didn't hesitate.

Even, I asked him to accompany me to climb the mountain during the rest time, and he immediately said to leave after seeing Chen Ning, and he did the same.

I got so carried away that I actually thought that my status in Chen Chen's heart was higher than that of Chen Ning.

Get carried away.

After Chen Chen quietly listened to me, he asked, "Will he be angry?"

I will suddenly be surrounded by a kind of sadness, both for Chen Ning and myself, I think if I say yes now, then he will go back immediately, and then, he will not care whether I am angry or not.

So I said no.

Chen Ning pretends to be Chen Chen's boyfriend in front of us, but it's just in front of us.

I don't know what happened after Chen Chen went back. Afterwards, he refused all my appointments outside of work. Look, it's exactly what I thought it would be.

But even so, I still have this hope that I don't know, so when my father found out, my first reaction was: call him.

I thought I'd turn back.

But after hearing the conversation between him and his father, I was still surrounded by anger, but even so, I still didn't slap him in the face. There was a cold calm after that, just look I knew it, said another voice.

I thought I gave up, so I didn't resist, the phone was confiscated, and I accepted the engagement, but I was wrong again.

After knowing that he was caught, I was still impulsive, even if I didn't do anything, after I got the red rope, I stopped paying attention to his news.

How I wish I hadn't checked his life experience, I hadn't explored his heart in order to deepen my position, otherwise I wouldn't know.

He is saying, give you rebirth.

Or, everything before that doesn't count. I thought I wouldn't cry, didn't I already know that.

However, the tears still fell disobediently.

I started to ignore him again, and the news that Lin Lie's house caught fire and no one survived.

I've mastered this skill.

I locked the notebook in the safe, and there was a check in it, the one Chen Chen received that day, and all my emotions.

I finally decided to leave this place and go to a place where no one knows me and I don't know anyone - USA

Maybe I'll meet another fate, but more likely, I can't accept being with someone else, I thought, and I got on the plane.

leading to America.

The author has something to say:

I just saw that there was a scene repeated before, so I changed it, only part of it, you can read it if you want to see it, it doesn’t matter if you don’t want to see it, then it’s really over ^O^/