When I returned to my long-lost residence on the 13th floor in the West District, the exhaustion I had been feeling was finally released.
After taking a hot shower, I lay down on my bed.
Nie Zun, who had been leaning against the wall as before after changing his clothes, still looked sleepy and lazy.
I yawned and turned over, looking for the long-lost sleepiness.
Nie Zun's lazy voice sounded next to his ear: "I want to ask you a question."
"You say." I closed my eyes and hummed these two words from my nose. I was so tired.
"You persuaded so many people to resist together, in order to leave No. 13 of the forbidden zone, what about you? In your heart, do you really decide to go back?"
Nie Zun's voice had a kind of demagogic magnetism. When I opened my eyes, it was suddenly dark outside.
The night came again.
Obviously, he should be able to answer him immediately, but why can't he open his mouth suddenly
I want to go back, and I also want everyone here to wake up and go back.
But if that day really comes, will I really choose to go back
"You don't have a heart of self-sacrifice, Li Shen." At some point, Nie Zun had already walked to my bed, and he sat on the outside of my bed, staring at me sideways and said to me.
I was stunned, self-sacrifice... why self-sacrifice
"Forget it, anyway, no matter what you think in your heart, you and I can't be separated, and I will always know." Nie Zun's eyes flashed a gentle light, and I stared at him in disbelief. he.
"How are you today..." I hesitated.
"Is there something I haven't told you?" Nie Zun said suddenly.
I couldn't understand more and more what he wanted to say: "What's the matter?"
"I saw you before I came to the Forbidden Zone." Nie Zun's voice filled my ears.
My eyes widened immediately: "When? Where?"
Seeing my eager expression, he blinked slightly: "In a barber shop, you dyed your hair red."
I frowned, barber shop? Dyed red
Oh, by the way, I dyed my hair red before, during that time... ..
Hehe, what an unbearable memory... .
However, why don't I remember seeing Nie Zun at all
"Also, when your senior Gao Qi entered the hospital." Nie Zun added.
She suddenly raised her head and stared at him, never thinking that he would say such a sentence.
"You..." I opened my mouth.
Nie Zun's deep pool-like eyes flashed like water waves: "At that time, many people sent him to the hospital, and you followed behind."
Sitting up in a hurry, he grabbed his arm with both hands. He was slightly surprised by my strong reaction, and looked down at my fingers that were already turning white while holding him.
I locked his eyes tightly: "You saw me? I was sober? I don't remember the process of killing Gao Qi at all. What happened? I was in the hospital when I woke up. A doctor gave me a needle, and then I came to the Forbidden Zone!"
Nie Zun gently broke free from my restraints, and pressed my arm with his backhand: "Don't worry, I'll tell you slowly."
I still looked at him without blinking, anxiously waiting for his answer.
"What I saw at the time, I think, should not be you. Or, it's not you now." Nie Zun smiled at me faintly.
My palms began to break out in cold sweat, and a sense of uneasiness enveloped me, as if I was about to hear some terrible secret.
"You mean... What you saw, was she?" I raised one eyebrow, and the slight trembling at the corner of my mouth revealed my uneasy emotions.
Nie Zun's eyes flickered: "Yes, it should be her. At that time, you were not what you are now, with a completely different temperament. Maybe it was your second personality."
"What did she say?! What did she do?!" I became emotional.
Nie Zun moved his lips: "She didn't do anything, she came after Gao Qi who was sent to the hospital, with blood on her body."
Snapped!
I patted him off my arm and stared into his eyes: "It's her! It's her who killed him! Why didn't you stop her? Since you know me, why didn't you stop me?!"
Nie Zun didn't expect me to be so excited, his originally beautiful eyebrows tightened slightly at this moment: "How can I stop it, I don't know you, and when you came, he was already stabbed."
With his arms down, he was right, how can I blame him, it's not his fault.
"Did she tell you anything?" My red lips trembled.
Although I never remember the ins and outs of that incident, I always knew that I killed him. Even though I knew that I killed him, but because I never thought of that process, I didn't really recall the pain.
Until today, someone told me in my ear that he saw me stained with blood and sent him to the hospital.
Nie Zun was silent for a long time, and finally opened his mouth: "No."
As if my whole body was weak, I slowly fell behind me and lay down on the bed again.
Looking up at the upper bunk in front of me, I said to Nie Zun, "Why did you tell me at this time."
Nie Zun moved his body slightly, turned his head, turned his back to me and said, "It's nothing, it's just that when I saw her, she was really different from what you imagined. I don't think she is a vicious demon." , maybe you have always been prejudiced against her..."
"Enough!" I sat up again, and because I was a little anxious, I was dizzy when I sat up.
"Nie Zun, you are enough! You said it all, you saw her covered in blood! She took him to the hospital with the blood?! If she is not a devil, who is? If I am not a devil, who is? That is human life ?! Even if you want to comfort me, you won't speak against your conscience!"
My voice trembled, and my fingers grabbed the bed sheet under me vigorously.
Nie Zun didn't turn his head, and still kept his back to me: "I did see a lot of blood stained on her body, but I didn't see her kill someone. You can't remember that, but you insist that it's her. The cruel process of existence, in fact, is that you don’t remember, and you still can’t remember, and I haven’t seen it either.”
I bit my lip slightly: "What are you trying to say?"
"Don't you understand? I mean, maybe things are not what you imagined at all. You have also seen this technique performed by Master Fan. Gao Qi is still alive. Maybe everything was an accident at the beginning?"
I smiled wryly: "It's my fault, I should at least tell you. Master Fan left the last message, it's not a space transfer technique, it's a sealing technique. What I see is not necessarily the real real world, Maybe it's just a world I imagined in my heart."
"You also said, maybe, not necessarily, so, it's still possible, right? I heard what Master Fan told you. Did you forget that my consciousness at that time was in your body? What did he mean? It's really hard to understand, but I think what he said, the world in your heart may also coincide with the real world, after all, so many people met the person they wanted to see in that surgery."
"What about you, have you seen your sister?" I didn't answer him, but asked instead.
Nie Zun's back facing me seemed to be slightly stiff for a moment: "My consciousness is in yours, so naturally I can't see her."
My heart suddenly throbbed.
Sighing softly: "Nie Zun, what is your relationship with her, so that your fate is so tightly tied to me...why..."
"Hehe, Yuanyuan? Don't you finally think that she and I have something in common?" He suddenly turned his head and looked at me with a smile.
But his smile was a little bit bitter.
I lowered my eyes: "Are you the same as her, I don't know, sometimes I feel, Nie Zun, I really don't understand you at all."
After waiting for a while without receiving a response, I secretly raised my eyes and glanced at him.
Nie Zun was looking out of the window, his eyes still had the same damp loneliness that I couldn't read.
I took a deep breath: "Nie Zun, do you think the me you saw won't kill people?"
Nie Zun didn't look at me, his eyes were still so calm and scattered in places near and far away.
He just nodded slightly.
I reluctantly twitched the corners of my mouth: "But I know that I really killed someone. Although I don't remember it, and I still can't remember it, but my own body, my brain, my fingers, my Everything tells me that I am very sure that I did kill someone, and that it was my lover. People who have not committed crimes will not understand that feeling. Therefore, I have never expected redemption."
After a pause, I continued: "Maybe it's like what you said, maybe what Master Fan showed me is not only the world I thought in my heart, but also the real world, maybe Gao Qi didn't die. But, then How? Whether he died or not, can't erase the fact that I killed him."
"I will always be an unaccepted child in that world, and now I am a murderer. Will I be redeemed like this? If you repeatedly ask me if I want to go back, then I want to ask you, I will go back What about after death? Even if I want to go back, won’t I have to face my sins after I go back?”
"Then are you going to escape here?" He suddenly turned his head and stared at me.
I also looked at him intently: "No, I have decided not to run away anymore, I will lead everyone to find a way to go back, but I admit, I still don't know if I can go back."
Deep pain appeared in my eyes: "You won't understand me, I know my parents are still waiting for me, and I don't want to embarrass myself, but I just can't find the feeling of relief, this pain , I have suffered for too long."
He suddenly smiled wryly, with heavy sadness in his eyes. He stretched out his left hand in front of me, and then pulled off the dark glove on his left hand with his right hand.
"I don't understand you? Do you think your so-called not being accepted can be compared with this?" His slender right fingers pointed to the empty palm of his left hand without a trace of palm print.
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