His words suddenly aroused my interest, and I raised half my eyebrows:
"Oh? You mean, my tolerance to you many times is because I confused you with Gao Qi?"
Gao Qin Jiuye's eyes darkened slightly: "At least, some of your emotions towards him, some of them, were imposed on me without asking me if I would like to."
I sneered: "You think too much. First of all, since you think so, it means that even you know how many times I have tolerated you. Even after knowing that you are the God who brought me here I still chose to be tolerant. Secondly, I want you to be clear that you and Gao Qi, the two of you, are completely different and have nothing in common. Therefore, no matter what, you can’t trigger my feelings for him."
Gao Qin Jiuye suddenly laughed, and an inexplicable tide rose from the depths of his dark brown pupils:
"There is nothing that makes me happier than hearing that I have nothing in common with him. The person you Li Shen loves and protects with your life, I am Gao Qin Jiuye, but I don't think about it at all. as same as him."
For some reason, the words carried another meaning in my ears, and this inexplicable meaning disturbed me.
"You know him?" I don't know why I asked myself.
But I always have a feeling that Gao Qin Jiuye doesn't like Gao Qi.
Even maybe, it's not just as simple as not having a good impression, maybe, there is a kind of hatred.
I was taken aback by my sudden thought, how could it be possible, Gao Qin Jiuye is a Kanzaki, it is impossible for him to have any intersection with Gao Qi, why does he hate Gao Qi
Sure enough, I was too tired, so I started to think about all kinds of possibilities.
But, don't I also not know what Kanzaki is
What should I do if the day when the secret of Kanzaki is revealed and there is a connection between the two of them
"Are you afraid that I will know him?"
I lowered my eyes looking at Gao Qin Jiuye's eyes which kept changing from bright to dark.
"Gao Qin Jiuye, you are good to me, just don't use him to provoke me and beat me. I admit that I am not strong enough about his problem. If I am strong enough, even if others focus on him If you attack me, I can still speak eloquently, so I, Li Shen, won’t be still in this Forbidden Break Zone.”
With a wry smile on the corner of my mouth, I looked up at him again.
He was a little taken aback.
"You are such a helpless person." Suddenly, he smiled in relief, and leaned back towards the back again.
With a dull voice, he threw his back back to the ground, and said to me in the same lower tone:
"Tell me about your love for him. It doesn't matter where you start. Or, just why you started."
I never thought that there would be such a day when Gao Qin Jiuye and I would talk face to face calmly about my feelings for Gao Qi who had the same body as him.
However, perhaps it was this new idea that I had never thought of before, which made me want to talk about it for a while.
I just don't know where to start.
"If you feel that you don't know where to start, then you might as well just let me ask and you answer."
"Can you promise to answer honestly?"
Facing Gao Qin Jiuye's question, I chose to smile slightly:
"I can."
Gao Qin Jiuye closed his eyes, like a murmur after a deep sleep:
"What do you love about him?"
The answer that I wanted to answer immediately and thought it was not difficult suddenly became blank, and when I suddenly realized this, I was stunned.
Yes, all the time, for so long, what on earth do I love about Gao Qi? Although in the eyes of the world, there is often no reason for liking and love, and no reason is needed. But in fact, for us, even love that no longer needs a reason, there is always a starting point. What attracted you to him, why did you notice him, and what kind of reason made you gradually change from your initial curiosity and attention to him to your unswerving love until death.
That is, what kind of reason.
"At that time, everyone around me knew that I had schizophrenia, and they separated me into two worlds, but Gao Qi..." I suddenly didn't know what to say.
Gao Qin Jiuye suddenly opened his eyes, seeming to be looking at the black hole above his head, or not:
"But, did you find the same kind of smell in Gao Qi?"
"No, no! Gao Qi is different from me. He likes his girls very much. I don't know how many of them are famous hot guys in school. How can he be like me when he is so good!" I suddenly lost control of my emotions Yes, retort loudly.
Probably because I used a lot of strength when I was speaking. After I shouted this paragraph, I felt that my breathing was a little uneven, so I took a few big breaths.
"He is excellent, warm and kind. Everyone likes him, so you like him too. What do you think?"
Obviously Gao Qin Jiuye's question is normal, but why do I feel that he is being aggressive
At the beginning, I really felt that Gao Qi who suddenly cared about me, Gao Qi who cared about me on that sports field was very warm.
But, did I really fall in love with Gao Qiren because he was so warm and unstoppable
"After I came to the Forbidden Zone, I lost a lot of memories about Gao Qi, so, so I..." I tried to explain, but was interrupted by Gao Qin Jiuye.
"How can it be possible to forget the feeling of loving someone just because you lose part of your memory? No matter how much you forget about the things between the two of you, at least you still remember that the person you love is him, right? Then how could you forget? Reasons to love him?"
But in fact, I seem to have really forgotten.
Yes, what is the reason to love him.
"Li Shen, admit it, the senior Gao Qi you love wholeheartedly is not what you see at all. More importantly, it's not that you don't know his true face, it's because you know his true face that you love him He, you just can't believe that you fell in love with a devil yourself, you are running away, that's why I took the opportunity to bring you here."
Gao Qin Jiuye yawned suddenly, and seemed to continue casually:
"No one knows you better than I do."
I looked at him immediately.
"What did you say?"
"Nothing." He smiled quietly.
Hehe, you said no one knows me better than you? Are you kidding, how long have I known you
A terrible feeling suddenly enveloped me.
"You, what is your relationship with Gao Qi?"
But Gao Qin Jiuye completely ignored me and closed his eyes again.
The turbulent emotions in my heart made me unable to calm down. I crawled to his side with my hands and feet, grabbed his collar, pulled him up from the lying position, and sat face to face with me.
Gao Qin Jiuye's eyes were sullen: "Li Shen, can you act like a woman?"
"What is the relationship between you and him? It's not a coincidence that you two have exactly the same appearance, right?"
My voice was trembling slightly. In fact, this has always been a question I wanted to ask, but now it seems that I can’t do it any more. There are too many secrets and too many puzzles. Let’s continue like this I'll go crazy if I go down. (Passerby A: You have been crazy for a long time... You have been diagnosed by the hospital... Me: Without hesitation, I grabbed Passerby A and kicked them back and forth!)
Gao Qin Jiuye suddenly stared at me with great interest:
"What if, is there really a relationship? What if I told you that I am him, or that we have an inseparable relationship? Li Shen, what should you do, will you love me like you love him?"
"Don't be funny, you're not him, how could you be like him." Almost subconsciously blurted out, but just when he said it, he felt Gao Qin Jiuye's eyes turn cold instantly.
"Indeed, I am not him, so if you don't ask me what is the relationship with him, no matter what connection I have with him, since you said, I am not the same as him, I am not him, and you can't Love me as you love him, and you'll never ask who I am!"
"Anyway, you never cared, did you?"
My heart was suddenly wrapped in a tide-like icy feeling.
His voice seemed to carry a layer of irresolvable, cold sadness.
I looked into the eyes of Gao Qin Jiuye in front of me, and suddenly I didn't understand.
I don't understand why he is like this, why he has such eyes, why he says such words.
What kind of relationship do I have with him, he and me, he and him... .
Looking at my confused eyes, the anger in Gao Qin Jiuye's eyes seemed to be stronger, and he suddenly approached me:
"Li Shen, why are you lying to yourself? It's so boring. Others don't know, do you think I, Gao Qin Jiuye, don't know?"
The implication of this sentence is like: I am the one who brought you here, so I don’t know what happened to you before your death
I looked at him in a panic: "You know my missing memory? You, can you tell me...."
"Hehe," he suddenly smiled, his smiling eyes looked bright: "What am I telling you? You are asking for him, right?"
"Li Shen, you know very well what kind of person Gao Qi is, and you also know what kind of person Nie Zun is, but you still love them without hesitation. The only thing you don't know is that you don't know who you are. What kind of person, the girl you exclude is actually yourself that you don't know. You also don't know what kind of person I am. "
It's a very complicated sentence, but my eyes got wet when I heard it for no reason.
"Li Shen, I won't save you, because in my opinion, you are very sad. You clearly know this, but why do you always refuse to face it? How come you, who died once, are worse than you when you were alive? , are you still cowardly?"
A very vicious emotion suddenly and completely enveloped me, as if my soul was splashed with ink and dyed black in an instant, I looked at him coldly: "You are so much stronger than me? You If he had done better than me, Si Luo wouldn't be like this today, maybe Duyue wouldn't be like this, and I wouldn't be like this either."
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