"Nie Zun, what are you thinking?" Suddenly I felt someone waving in front of my eyes.
In an instant, my mind was dragged back from when I was thirteen years old. In front of me was my personal psychiatrist--Jiepa.
Jiepa is still wearing the Chinese tunic suit that does not belong to this era, wearing a pair of heavy old big-frame glasses, and combing a straight and straight mountain hair.
I laughed evilly: "Doctor Jie, you always go out in such an outfit, no wonder you can't find a girlfriend."
Jiepa smiled awkwardly: "Don't tease me, Nie Zun, how are you doing, do you still have that dream?"
I smiled lightly: "I guess it can't be cured."
Jiepa solemnly pushed the heavy glasses frame on the bridge of the nose: "You have to believe that since Nie Xuan entrusted you to me, I will definitely try my best to cure you."
In fact, Dr. Jie, it doesn't matter whether I can be cured or not.
When I was thirteen years old, three people died and two were seriously injured in an accident because of the people I touched with my hands. I was called a monster by the people in the small town of my hometown.
They said that although my grandfather was suffering from Alzheimer's disease when he died, but the last sentence he said "Nie Zun should not let others touch his hand after the age of thirteen" seems to be absurd now. It is the reflection of the light that has become true.
And that year, my father, who was working hard outside, rushed back to see me because he heard the rumor. On the way, the motorcycle failed for no reason and caused the car to crash. They also blamed it on me. dead.
Later, after tossing and turning and moving, our family suffered all kinds of white eyes and isolation. After five years of hard work in that small town, I finally reached the age of eighteen. But when I was eighteen, my mother died of a heart attack when she finally saved enough money to take me and my sister Nie Xuan out of that ancient town.
Then, another rumor arose again, I am eighteen years old, I am not an adult, but a monster.
Since that year, I have been wearing black gloves and not letting anyone touch my hands.
Except Nie Xuan.
Nie Xuan always said to me: "Zun'er, you are not a monster, they are all superstitious, don't believe their lies, they are lunatics, I hold your hand every day, don't I live well? The early death of a family member is already hurting you as a young child, so why should they blame you for the source of the hurt?"
Nie Xuan is like this, she has been so optimistic since she was a child, sometimes she would be startled, sometimes she would cry because of the dead cat and dog by the roadside, she always wore a high ponytail and smiled like a flower.
When I grew up, I stopped calling her sister, let alone Xuan'er, I always called her: Xuan.
"Come back to the clinic with me, and try hypnotherapy today." Jappa said as he flattened the corner of his clothes that was slightly turned up on one side.
I shrugged casually, "Okay."
Jiepa's private clinic is opened on a small street in the corner of the city. There are a few simple words on the black sign: Jie's Private Psychological Clinic.
"Am I the only customer in your store?" I teased.
Jiepa pushed the big-rimmed glasses and smiled slightly: "I am a down-and-out freelancer, and you are my patient, so stop laughing at each other.",
I blinked: "Doctor Jie, I didn't laugh at you, but I feel like an exclusive doctor, as if rich people have private doctors and private drivers at home, don't they?"
Jiepa took off the big bag on his back and put it on a stool in the room: "You are just a talker. Since your sister entrusted you to me, you have to open your heart to me, Nie Zun."
I blinked again: "Dr. Jie, I have always opened my heart to you, but I don't want to treat you today. I'll take you to change clothes."
Jiepa glanced at me with a faint smile: "Why are you like your sister, who likes to worry about other people's basic necessities?"
I whistled lightly: "Doctor Jie, do you want to be so gentle when you talk about Xuan? If you really like her, you should change your clothes properly. Come on, you still don't believe me?" Is it her brother's eyes, let's go."
I pushed Jiepa to the door, and Jiepa blushed slightly when I said it: "Your sister actually said that you are autistic and not talkative, but I think you have always been talkative."
The corner of my mouth was slightly hooked: "Then who should be divided?"
He took Jaipa to the mall, chose a well-fitting suit for him, and changed him into fashionable glasses.
I circled my hands and looked at Jippa up and down. It was obviously the first time Jippa had changed into such clothes, and he was very reserved.
"What's wrong..." I looked him back and forth again.
Suddenly, I snapped my fingers: "That's right, it's the hairstyle, let's go."
Jiepa was slightly frightened: "No, no need to change your hairstyle, Nie Zun."
I hooked my lips into a smile, and pulled Jiepa forcefully into a barber shop on the street.
"Give him a trim on this side and this side, and leave his bangs so long, he has to look like a gentleman." I motioned to the barber, who smiled and nodded, indicating that it was all right.
Jappa looked a little frightened, as if to resist.
I smiled narrowly: "Doctor Jie, believe it or not, after you change into this outfit as I said, my sister will definitely look at you differently?"
Therefore, the words that might have been intended to resist were finally held back in his stomach.
I walked around the barber shop in my spare time, and finally sat in the corner with a magazine, yawned, spread the magazine on my face, and fell asleep leisurely.
When I woke up, Jappa looked completely new as expected.
Looking at the uncomfortable Jiepa in front of me, I nodded in satisfaction: "Handsome Jie."
Jappajun blushed.
"Wow, what a gentleman and handsome guy, take a quick look." Two girls happened to enter the door, pointing at Jappa and whispering.
Jepa blushed even more, I checked it carefully, well, the suit, glasses, and hairstyle are all decent.
"That handsome guy in black sitting over there is so handsome too."
"But it's not cold this season, why is he wearing black gloves?"
I looked down at the black gloves on my hands and smiled lightly.
Jiepa seemed to have heard these words, and he pushed his glasses: "Let's go, Nie Zun, come back with me, there is still something to do today."
Knowing that my doctor Jieda wanted to signal to me that the treatment could not be stopped, I shrugged: "ok"
Just as Jiepa was carrying the huge bag that never left his body, and I was about to step out of the small shop with him, another girl came in at the door of the small shop.
I think it was probably the first time in my life that I was attracted by a girl.
This girl has long black hair with a shawl, is wearing a red jacket, a pair of red pants, and a pair of red women's pointed-toe shoes on her feet. She is very thin, and her thin chin is pointed, so she doesn't look very beautiful overall.
But I couldn't help but keep staring at her.
her eyes. Her eyes are indifferent and lonely, as if nothing can enter her eyes.
She didn't even glance at me when she walked past me, not just me, she didn't seem to look at anyone, she just said to the barber in a voice that I can hardly hear even my sensitive five senses: "You can dye me red hair?"
Before I heard the barber's answer, I heard the girl who praised Jaypa handsome just now exclaim: "Why did she come here? After graduating from high school, she thought she would never see her again. Why is she so unlucky?"
Another girl also said loudly without any concealment: "Yes, yes, this weird person is mentally ill. Let's go. It's really unlucky to meet her after graduation. Don't cut your hair here."
So, the two girls held hands and quickly ran out of the store.
Seeing this scene, Jepa also stopped, probably because as a doctor, he was extremely sensitive to the word mental illness, which made him want to see what happened.
I looked back at the girl, who didn't change her expression at all, but opened her mouth and said to the stunned barber in a slightly louder voice, "Can you dye my hair red?"
The barber seemed to be still remembering what the two girls who had left said just now, so the nodding gesture seemed a little silly.
Seeing the barber nodding, the girl in red went straight to the chair in front of the mirror and sat down.
From the beginning to the end, she never looked at me and Jiepa, even when she sat in front of the mirror, she never cast any curious and fresh eyes on the mirror, but her face was calm and indifferent, and her eyes were full of no waves. Pale light.
weirdo
Thinking of those two girls' evaluation of her, I don't know why, but I feel a little better. Hey, I am really a devil. Seeing others being treated differently, do I want to be so happy
I curled my lips into a smile, and finally had no interest in looking at it any more. I looked down at my hand, and then said to Jiepa, "Let's go, Doctor Jie."
"Oh, oh good." Jepa came to his senses, and quickly followed my footsteps.
"Nie Zun, you don't need hypnotherapy today, otherwise you will always think of those things in that dream. I repeat, you must first be clear in your heart that your parents and your former neighbors It was not killed by you. What your grandfather said before he died was just because of insanity. You must first tell yourself in your heart that your hand without palm prints is just a superstition, which is unscientific of."
Jappa is only right when it comes to treating my illness.
I yawned as I walked towards the clinic with him.
"Nie Zun, don't always listen to my words. I know that in your heart you have always felt guilty and blamed yourself for the deaths of these people, but do you know that these things were just a coincidence, and others insisted on superstitious belief in your destiny? , Maybe you don’t believe it yourself, but the death of these people makes you feel guilty, and this kind of psychology will urge you to believe that you are a demon, and you repeatedly hint to yourself in your heart. real."
I smiled wickedly: "Don't be so serious, Doctor Jie, I don't think I'm a devil...."
I raised a hand with a black glove, and looked back and forth playfully: "I'm just an incomplete product with a little palm print missing."
Jiepa suddenly stopped very solemnly, looked at me and said: "There is no palm print, it doesn't mean anything, it's your physical defect, you can't turn it into your personality defect, Nie Zun, you are complete Yes, you have me and your sister with you all the time."
have been... have you been with me...
I smiled lightly and looked up at the sky.
been... ..
In this world, I will be with you all the time. In this case, can I really believe it
"Let's go, accept your treatment." I smiled gently at Jaypa.