"No, no, no!" She shook her head in horror, not believing it no matter what. "Impossible! I'm not pregnant, I just have a stomachache!"
Her elder sister hugged her tightly, no longer as calm as before: "Don't worry! Since I left you in the capital, I will find a way to let the Cheng family take you back in a grand manner!"
Didn’t her sister tell her to stay and live in the small farm with peace of mind
Didn’t you say you would find someone else for her to marry
Why did you suddenly change your mind
She was filled with panic and pushed her sister away: "No, I won't go back! I don't want to marry Cheng Xu! I don't want to be called a whore! I don't want to have to face the cold eyes of the servants! I don't want to be pointed at all for the rest of my life..." As she spoke, she looked down at her belly. It was flat and nothing could be seen. The doctor's words sounded like a lie, a joke, "I don't want this child either..."
"But," the elder sister said worriedly, "after all, this is the child of the Cheng family, and the first child of Cheng Xu, the eldest son..."
Cheng Xu, the child... broke her tense mood.
She jumped up with a sharp scream, interrupting her sister's words: "Why are you all bullying me? Why are you like those people, helping Cheng Xu? You are not my sister! You are not my sister!" She didn't even have time to put on her shoes, and ran out barefoot, "I won't go back! I will never go back even if I die! I won't give birth to this child..."
Her elder sister chased after her and held her in her arms: "Shaojin, Shaojin, listen to me..."
"I don't want to hear anything!" She struggled and kicked her sister like a madman. "You can only ask me to endure it, accept my fate, and give up. Why should I endure it? Why should I accept my fate? Why should I give up? Is it because I am a girl? What did I do wrong? Why does God punish me like this?"
"No, no! It's my fault. I didn't take good care of you. I failed mother and made you suffer..." Her sister's tears were like hot water drops, falling on her neck one by one and scalding her heart.
But is this my sister’s fault
Why should my sister tolerate her unreasonable behavior
Just because her sister is the one who loves her the most
And what's the difference between her, who makes her loved ones sad and her enemies happy, and Cheng Xu who hurt her
She was completely exhausted and collapsed to the ground.
"Shaojin, Shaojin," her sister turned pale with fear and threw herself on her. "What's wrong with you? What's wrong with you?"
"I'm fine." She murmured, feeling hopeless, "Sister, help me get to the bed..."
Maybe this is her fate!
She has no choice but to accept her fate!
"Second Miss, Second Miss!" Fan Liu knelt aside, crying like a tearful person.
But she couldn't shed a single tear.
Her fate had changed from the moment she agreed to go for a walk in the garden with Cheng Ji.
If she wants to blame someone, she can only blame herself for being stupid.
She does whatever others want her to do.
If anyone is to blame, it's her own uselessness.
When Cheng Xu bullied her, she could only cry and beg for mercy.
She grabbed something and tried to stand up, but her legs were so weak that she had no strength at all, so she had to crawl towards the bed.
Her sister grabbed her and said in a sad voice, "Don't do this, don't do this."
But she turned a deaf ear to him and said, "Sister, please send me back to the house I rented! The Cheng family will definitely come looking for me soon... Even if they don't want me anymore, they will find me and then cancel the engagement... Don't worry about me. If the people in the Liao family knew that I had such a thing, they would definitely laugh at you... It's okay for me alone, I can't drag all of you into this... I only ask sister to take in Mother Fan. If they find me, they will definitely not let Mother Fan go... It's a pity that she took care of me, but ended up like this... It's also because of me..."
"Second Miss, please don't say that! Please don't say that!" Fan Liu also rushed over, "I took you away. Yes, it was my idea. I instigated the second young lady to look for the eldest young lady. It has nothing to do with the second young lady! It's all the fault of this evil slave of mine..."
My sister looked at them, but her eyes slowly turned cold.
"Shao Jin," her elder sister held her shoulders, her eyes swept across her belly, then she looked into her eyes and said solemnly, "Do you really not want to go back to the Cheng family? You should know that if you choose to stay in the capital at this time, you will never be able to return to the Cheng family again. You have to think it through!"
She already has an idea.
Hearing this, he just shook his head indifferently and said, "Sister, please take me back to my rented place. I don't want to go through this anymore."
Her sister looked at her for a long time before she got up and helped her onto the kang.
She grabbed her sister's sleeve and said, "Sister, you promised me that you would help me take care of Mother Fan. You must keep your word."
My sister nodded, tears glistening in the corners of her eyes, and said, "Sister, your words are trustworthy."
She doubted her sister for the first time and asked her to swear: "Swear in the name of mother..."
There was a flash of pain in my sister's eyes, and she swore seriously.
She smiled at her sister and said, "Sister, I feel weak all over. Ask someone to stew an old mother with ginseng for me!"
Her sister stared at her, as if afraid of missing any subtle expression on her face, and after a while she said softly, "Okay."
She closed her eyes.
When the chicken soup was served, she drank it obediently and continued to sleep.
Her sister has been watching over her.
But after the third watch drum sounded, my sister, exhausted, began to doze off. A quarter of an hour later, she fell asleep on the bed.
She opened her eyes.
After such a scandal happened, for the sake of her reputation, my sister was so cautious that not only would she not bring anyone here, but she would also send away the people who served her on the farm. Otherwise, my sister would not have stayed by her side alone.
She pondered in her mind, listened to the noise, quietly got up, and tiptoed out of the inner room.
It was indeed quiet outside and no one was seen.
She walked silently along the winding corridors of the small farm.
It should be the fifteenth day of the lunar month. There was no wind or snow. The moon was like a round jade plate, hanging quietly in the sky. The withered and twisted branches in the courtyard grew randomly and disorderly, leaving a mottled shadow on the ground.
She walked forward, shivering with cold.
The woods, the woodshed where farm tools were stored, the well... She lingered for a long time.
When she tried to open the corner door of the backyard kitchen, her sister rushed out.
"What are you doing?" Her elder sister pinched her wrist tightly, which made her feel heartbroken. She never knew that her elder sister was so strong. "Do you know that you are the only flesh and blood left by your mother in this world? How could you do this? What would your father think? What would your mother in the underworld think? What would I tell my mother when I see her a hundred years from now? How can I face worshipping my mother every Qingming Festival and Dragon Boat Festival? You, you disappoint me so much..."
As my sister spoke, her eyes gradually turned red.
"Sister, am I useless?" She looked dull and muttered, "I want to die, but I can't even find a place to die. If I hang myself in the woods, people will find me dead in your house and think you killed me. I want to find a place that is not easy to be found, but it is still your house and you can't find it. Why is there no lake in your house? It would be great if there was a lake. I could tie a stone and jump in to feed the fish without anyone noticing. Or a small river would be good too. The water flow is a little stronger and the body can be washed to other places, so that I can be a lonely ghost..."
Her sister slapped her on the face.
It took her a while to feel the slightest pain, and then her tears could not stop falling.
"Sister!" She threw herself into her sister's arms.
But her sister pushed her away and said, "Are you really not going back to the Cheng family?"
At that moment, my sister's gaze was as cold as the moonlight and as eerie as the mottled shadows of the trees.
She stood there in a daze.
The elder sister strode forward, stared into her eyes and asked her again: "Are you planning to never return to the Cheng family?"
She nodded stupidly.
Her sister gently stroked her cheek - she didn't know that finger marks had appeared on it.
"That's fine!" said the elder sister calmly, "One life for one life, just consider it as paying back their life. From now on, we have nothing to do with each other!"
She didn't understand, but her sister said, "Let's go back! I'll help you with this matter."
She still doesn't understand.
My sister said, "Don't worry, I won't hand you over to the Cheng family. You can stay in the capital with me."
But, it will be difficult for my sister to do this!
She shook her head.
The elder sister smiled and asked her, "Do you still believe in me?"
She nodded hurriedly.
Her elder sister held her shoulders and walked back: "Then trust me again, I won't let the Cheng family take you away!"
Of course she believed her sister. If she didn't believe her sister, who else could she trust
She followed her sister back to the room obediently. Her sister fed her a tranquilizer pill and said, "Have a good sleep. Everything will be fine when you wake up."
She closed her eyes.
But I just couldn't fall asleep.
She could only feel strange and incomprehensible lights and shadows everywhere. She even heard Fan Liu's crying and her sister's voice: "You have been in the capital for more than a month. If the Cheng family wanted to find you, they would have come long ago. It is obvious that they think they have Shao Jin's life in their hands, and they don't worry that she will not go back obediently. Now it is their Cheng family's fault. Yuan Shi can still do this. If Shao Jin goes back, I am afraid that she will be tortured to death in two years! What's more, this child's birth month is wrong. Others can understand the reason if they think about it carefully. Shao Jin will really be like she said, and she will never be able to raise her head in her life... What's more, anyone can humiliate her when they think of her... Rather than losing her life like that, it is better to take a gamble... If there is any retribution, it will be on me, and it has nothing to do with Shao Jin..."
Don’t involve my sister in her affairs!
She wanted to speak loudly to her sister, but the lights and shadows rushed towards her again. Her mind was in a mess and she quickly put the matter behind her and fell into a deep sleep.
Later, Fan Liu made her a bowl of medicine, which she drank for three days. On the fourth day, the child was gone and she was bleeding heavily. Her sister brought a mean-looking old woman with a plaster on her temples to take her pulse. At dawn, the bleeding had stopped, but she didn't even have the strength to breathe.
In a daze, she heard her sister talking to Fan Liushi: "… Send that piece of flesh and blood to Xinglin Hutong, to Cheng Xu, personally deliver it to him, let him know how he lost his wife and children, let him know what his mother did… It doesn't make sense that we are the only ones to suffer for the evil they did…"
That voice was filled with hatred.
But she was just thinking, now that Cheng Xu was in the capital, he would never bother her again, right
As if a huge stone was lifted from her heart, she heaved a long sigh and fell asleep peacefully.
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After reading the messages from my sisters, I would like to thank you all for your support for “Jinling Chun”. The reason why I haven’t posted anything for almost a year is because I was too busy with work. I really can’t update more. I can only hold on and keep updating... Please forgive me!
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