The cool breeze of the summer night brushed my face, and it seemed to relieve my irritability. The sky was dotted with stars. Standing on the porch, I could see the sound of pine trees on the mountain and the twinkling fireflies. The Second Lady asked people to go out and watch out for the children, not to let them go into the woods. At the same time, she blushed and pleaded with Fang: "After all, the child is immature, and she is a little pitiful..."
Fang knew why the second lady said that. Among the young girls in the Wei family, Wei An's age was neither too old nor too young, just in the middle, and was not taken seriously.
Her biological parents are far away in Yuzhang, there is no elder in the fifth room, and the old lady of Dingbei Hou is too old to take care of her. Even if this little girl is dressed in fine clothes and fed with delicious food, she still looks lonely and sad.
Fang sighed and held the second wife's hand, gently and kindly: "Why are you crying to me? There is no reason to make a fuss about this matter. I am not like Hu Si who is reckless and tells everything. It's just..." She frowned her beautiful willow-shaped eyebrows. She really felt that Wei An's problem was not good: "But it's not a good idea to go on like this. After all, the child is still young and needs guidance..." As she spoke, she complained: "How can you be blamed for this? You are just an aunt, not her biological mother. Speaking of which, how could Changning be so cruel that she treated all the other children as treasures, but only the eldest daughter as a weed?"
The Second Madam's eyes were moistened: "That's right, I'm not saying anything about Fifth Brother's wife. There's no mother like this. An An is still young after all." She held Fang's hand and said softly: "Don't think that I scolded her harshly just now. In fact, I can't blame her in my heart. This child was like this in the first few years. She was delicate and could talk. Her eyes were like black grapes and you could see through them. She smiled when she saw everyone. How lovable was she? But in recent years... There is a gloomy look between her eyebrows and eyes, and sometimes people who see her feel uneasy. But this is not the child's fault. I really don't know what Fifth Brother's wife thinks. We are all mothers. We are all flesh and blood. Can't we treat them equally? All the other children, even the illegitimate children, are brought by their side, but An An is the only one left alone. What's the reason?"
The more Fang listened, the more she felt sorry for the child. At this time, she even advised the Second Madam: "Forget it, don't mention this to the old lady when you go back. You sound so pitiful."
It was really pitiful. The Second Madam shut up and didn't want to say anything more. Finally, after thinking for a while, she said, "Then I'll ask her to come and apologize to An'er. If she did something wrong, I won't blame her, but she should apologize." At the same time, she couldn't help but say, "It's so unbecoming!"
The word "decency" has followed Wei An for almost her entire life. In her not-so-long life, names like thief, unwanted by her parents, and unlucky star have been like dark clouds hanging over her head all the time, making her be looked down upon wherever she goes.
She was never stupid, nor was she a generous person. Her parents were not around when she was young, and she had to rely on herself for everything. This made her sensitive and suspicious. She was never willing to take an extra step or say a word. Her sisters alienated her and laughed at her. She didn't say it to their faces, but she always had some tricks to embarrass them in secret. In fact, Peng Lingwei was not wrong to scold her in her previous life. She was insidious and dark-minded. Later, when she was eleven years old, she went to live with her parents in Yuzhang. Because of the indifference of Princess Changning, her longing for her husband finally disappeared like ashes. Since she had given up, she was dull and could not please others.
Princess Changning was the only daughter in the family, so she was not very good at being a mother when she was born. It was said that when she was little, she cried and refused to sleep, so Princess Changning got so annoyed that she pinched her face with her hands and scratched it.
When the adults in the Dingbei Marquis Mansion in the capital talked about these things, they always said in a joking tone that it was probably the fate of Wei An to be born without parents, because after the birth of the second daughter, Princess Changning seemed to have become a different person, becoming gentle and meticulous. Even if her sister Wei Yulong yawned, Princess Changning would stay by her bedside without taking off her clothes, for fear that she would have a high fever at night.
When adults say this, they never consider how sensitive and fearful children are, they just think it is a topic of conversation.
Wei An grew up listening to these words. When she arrived at Yuzhang, Princess Changning did not treat her as close as she treated Wei Yulong, and she was not even as natural and casual as the illegitimate daughter Wei Yupo. Her already broken heart became even more uneasy, anxious and sad. Once when she went out, the wives of officials in Jiangxi did not know that the prefect Wei Yangqing and Princess Changning actually had an eldest daughter. She stood alone in the surprised eyes of everyone, as if she was stripped naked and thrown into the street, with thousands of arrows piercing her heart.
Thinking about the past always makes people sad. Wei An knelt down and leaned in Nanny Wang's arms, but he did not bite his lips in pain as usual.
Tears are the most useless thing. She knew this truth from the moment her family was broken up.
She had never shed a tear since her daughter's death. What she thought about most was how to get along well with the princess from the Jing'an Marquis's Mansion, how to get close to the princess as the second wife without being disliked by her, and how to send everyone in the Jing'an Marquis's Mansion to hell step by step. She was busy with so many things and had no time to cry.
After going through so many things, what is happening right now can't even be called a big deal.
She just had countless things she couldn't figure out.
Although the gossip was unpleasant to hear, it was never groundless. Her mother, Princess Changning, treated her in a way that was indeed not like a normal mother.
Her brothers and sisters were good, but her mother's deliberate neglect, indifference and even occasional hatred made her childhood extremely difficult.
She didn't understand why Princess Changning hated her. Was it really because she had a bad reputation in the capital that made Princess Changning feel ashamed and lost her status
She also didn't understand why Princess Changning treated her so coldly at ordinary times, but when she really did something wrong and became a knife in Peng Caichen's hand, and was bewitched by Peng Caichen to steal her father's seals and letters, Princess Changning let her go even though she found out later.
In the end, Princess Changning jumped off the city wall with Wei Yulong, Wei Yupo and Wei Min, but left a letter only, telling her to stay alive, to pretend that nothing had happened before, and to live a good life with Peng Caichen.
All those who were favored at the beginning died, except for her, who was the least like a member of the Wei family and the one who should not be alive, but she survived.
The chirping of cicadas and birds outside the house stopped suddenly, and the sound of footsteps mixed with the summer lights came passing by. Wei An raised his head.
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