Stabilizing Madness

Chapter 86: journal

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Xu Qingran moved the fingers of his hands on his legs.

Not panicked by Mu Mingrui's words.

Shen Tingyu had helped him deal with several difficult matters involving members of the royal family before.

Especially the case of Mu Ziyu, so it was normal for Shen Tingyu to mention him in front of Mu Mingrui. However, after calling him over, the first sentence he said in front of him was such a content, which was quite intriguing.

Xu Qingran's eyes turned and asked, "Your Majesty, are you inviting me to the palace in this way because of Shen Tingyu?"

This is a very poker-like approach.

Mu Mingrui frowned and coughed twice without saying anything, which was considered as his tacit agreement with the answer.

Xu Qingran chuckled: "Then your majesty thinks highly of Shen Tingyu."

Mu Mingrui's mouth didn't move much, but he could clearly hear him laugh and said in a hoarse voice: "Who doesn't like an excellent child?"

There seemed to be a hint of unspeakable regret in his tone.

Xu Qingran was thinking, and saw Mu Mingrui sitting upright: "But, I didn't ask you to come here entirely because of him."

"Your reputation is very great. I can hear your name from many people even when I stay in the palace."

At this point, he pointed in the direction of the door: "Even the guards and maids passing by my study were discussing you."

"So I'm very curious about what kind of person you are."

Mu Mingrui's gaze fell on Xu Qingran without any scrutiny.

It seemed that just from those few glances, I already had a general understanding of him.

Xu Qingran replied: "I'm just an ordinary person."

"If you really want to look into it, he is just an ordinary person who doesn't like to follow the rules."

Mu Mingrui nodded: "I see."

"Very good." He said, his eyes fell on the corner in front of him, a little unfocused, "The people in the empire are too well-behaved. At least everyone is maintaining the superficial rules."

"Tianlong's matter has been delayed for so many years. You have done a good job on this matter..."

Mu Mingrui spoke more and more quietly.

I couldn't tell if she was commenting on his answer or just mumbling to herself.

Xu Qingran looked at his condition.

I always feel that this physical condition is worse than expected. No wonder the management of Silver Dragon and Golden Wing has been so anxious recently. With all these actions, the old emperor really looks like he will die at any time.

Mu Mingrui asked him: "Colonel Xu, do you have any opinions on the current management of the empire?"

Xu Qingran hesitated.

Why did you throw such a rigorous yet casual question to him right at the start

He thought for a while and remembered what had upset him the most recently: "First of all, I suggest that the rule that personnel from the two camps cannot cross star systems be abolished."

"You guys are really preventing me from meeting my lover."

The room fell into silence for a few seconds.

One was confident and righteous, the other remained silent, and neither of them felt embarrassed.

Mu Mingrui nodded: "This matter can indeed be adjusted."

“Many government officials’ plans have indeed been delayed because of this.”

After that, Mu Mingrui asked again: "What do you think of the current management of Silver Dragon and Golden Wing?"

"Perhaps it's time to decide on a suitable successor." He murmured, "You see things very clearly. I would like to hear your thoughts on my two children for reference."

Xu Qingran raised his eyebrows and replied, "Excuse me for being blunt."

"Either way, it's as bad as shit."

system:"… "

Host, are you trying to save your life?! This is the king of the Kaian Empire, how dare he do this!

Xu Qingran not only dared to say it, but also dared to extend his evaluation: "Mu Ziyu, stupid and bad, but he doesn't have any good intentions."

"But his ambition and talent are not in state management. If we leave it to him, he might lose the empire to others in no time."

Mu Mingrui lowered his head slightly and narrowed his eyes, as if he was listening and thinking carefully.

I didn't get angry with him.

Xu Qingran thought for a while and then said, "Mu Ziyue, a mentally ill pervert."

"If you pass the reins of the empire to him, it will be the same as passing it to me—he could kill you at any time."

In summary, none of them are reliable.

The room is very quiet.

"I'm more curious about what Your Majesty thinks." Xu Qingran suddenly spoke.

"I'm also curious, why can someone like Mu Ziyue, who has such a terrible personality, be allowed to take revenge on his own, such as using his power to show off in the evil tower and lynching people who have committed no crime?"

"Ah, speaking of the evil tower." Xu Qingran laughed, "I was lucky enough to be invited in once."

“It’s also a rotten place.”

Mu Mingrui looked up at him, and after a long while he said slowly, "What can I do?"

"I only have these few ugly kids left to me. I can't let the succession to the royal family end in my hands."

Before Xu Qingran could reply, there was a knock on the study door.

The attendant who had brought him here just now came in with a tray. There were many kinds of medicine and a glass of water on it.

"Your Majesty, it's time to take your medicine."

Mu Mingrui raised his eyes and glanced at the medicines handed to him.

His eyes were dark and heavy, as if he was annoyed and helpless with them, and he refused: "Can't you see I'm talking to Colonel Xu?"

"Take it out, I don't want to eat it today."

The attendant did not leave, but continued to bend slightly to remind: "The Queen has instructed that Your Majesty must take medicine on time every day."

Mu Mingrui had a cold face and did not move, and the servant also maintained the same posture and refused to leave.

Until the bystander Xu Qingran let out a low laugh.

They both looked towards him and saw that he was supporting his face with one hand, his posture somewhat casual, as if he was sitting in his own home and relaxed.

"You are really weird."

"Your Majesty has said that he doesn't want to eat anymore, shouldn't you just obey?"

Xu Qingran raised his eyebrows and looked at Mu Mingrui again: "It seems that the rules of this palace are not strict."

"Otherwise, how come the Queen's order is more authoritative than His Majesty's words?"

Mu Mingrui then glanced at the person beside him with a chilly look and said in a low voice: "Did you hear that?"

"I'm not dead yet, and I still have the final say in this palace!"

The servant's fingers, which were holding the two sides of the tray, turned white from pinching them. Seeing that Mu Mingrui's attitude was particularly tough today, he could only lower his head and leave.

Xu Qingran was not helping Mu Mingrui.

He just wanted to watch the fun. Besides, the queen said that she was Mu Ziyue's biological mother, right? Since she was related to Mu Ziyue, don't blame him for not knowing right from wrong.

The study door was closed again.

The topic was suddenly interrupted, and even though Xu Qingran and Mu Mingrui were the only ones left in the room, they were both speechless for a moment.

Although Xu Qingran had never seen the queen.

However, judging from the current situation, Mu Ziyue's personality and power, he should be a very strong person.

System explanation: "It seems so."

"The queen's family, the Su family, seems to have a great influence in the Golden Wing Camp. Now that there are other families pulling in, things are a little better. In the early days when she just married Mu Mingrui, the Su family had a lot of say in the Golden Wing Camp, and their influence was huge and powerful."

"The competition for the crown prince position during Mu Mingrui's time was much more difficult than it is now for Mu Ziyu and his group. There were 20 to 30 brothers and sisters, and each of them was equally talented. Mu Mingrui was able to obtain his current position thanks to the support of the queen's family back then."

Help him to overcome all obstacles and clear them away.

Just like that, he was made the monarch, and their daughter successfully became the queen, ensuring the current status of the Su family.

—No wonder Mu Ziyue can do evil in the Golden Wing Camp.

"What do you think of Shen Tingyu?" Mu Mingrui's question came suddenly.

Very jumping too.

Xu Qingran even suspected that he was trying to test their relationship.

—I don’t know what Shen Tingyu said when he mentioned him to the old emperor.

Although Xu Qingran was puzzled, he still replied: "To me, he is a very good person."

"Anyway, there is no one more to my liking than him."

This answer is quite straightforward.

There was no confusion or surprise on Mu Mingrui's face.

He just nodded and said, "He is indeed excellent, but it's a pity... he is not among the royal family."

"Otherwise, he might have a chance to grab the throne today."

Xu Qingran stared at Mu Mingrui for a few seconds, tilted his head slightly and smiled: "Seize the throne, and then like you, spend the rest of your life in this gorgeous and ridiculous cage, marry three wives and four concubines to fill the harem, and give birth to thirty or forty children?"

Mu Mingrui was silent.

Xu Qingran sneered, stood up and said, "Thank you for your invitation today, Your Majesty. If your majesty's main point today is to chat with me about these family matters, I'm sorry I can't keep you company."

"I'm not very interested in your royal family's affairs."

"Anyway... if the heir is not very good, I don't think he will be able to stay in the position for long."

After saying this with a half-smile, he left Mu Mingrui's study without looking back.

Mu Mingrui did not stop it and did not send anyone to intercept it.

He just sat there motionless, and after a long time he let out a long sigh.

Then he murmured to the empty room: "He is a special child..."

"Forget it, what qualifications do I have to ask for?"

When Xu Qingran came out of the palace, he found that Mu Ziyu and Feng Yao had not left yet and were waiting for him outside.

As for Mu Yesha, it is said that she rushed back to the laboratory after receiving a call.

When they saw him coming out, the cousins rushed to him with the same look in their eyes, and asked curiously and worriedly, "What did His Majesty talk to you about?"

Xu Qingran thought about the process and replied, "Nothing."

"Just chatting about family matters."

This is the truth.

Mu Mingrui was also puzzled. He originally thought that he was going to discuss some national affairs with him, but after entering, they didn't talk about any important topics. His mental thoughts seemed a bit messy, his words didn't make sense, and the topic jumped quickly.

As the monarch of the empire, how could Mu Mingrui's health be so bad

At his age, in this world, if he is healthy, he should still be able to fight on the battlefield, right

Mu Ziyu rolled his eyes and said, "If what you said is true, then I can't think of any other reason except that you are really my father's illegitimate child."

Xu Qingran didn't know how to refute his doubts.

Thinking about it carefully, Mu Mingrui went to great lengths to call him to the palace to meet him today, and his attitude was indeed quite suspicious.

Perhaps it was because Mu Ziyu had been nagging him too much, he inexplicably felt that Mu Mingrui was just looking for an excuse to see him and chat with him to get a basic understanding of his personality.

Why would he do this if there is no blood relationship

Could this matter be related to Shen Tingyu

Thinking of this, Xu Qingran teased: "Isn't your choice of words inappropriate for the royal family?"

"Your father has so many wives. If you say so, then except for Mu Ziyue, who was born to the queen, all your other children are considered illegitimate children."

Mu Ziyu: "... Shut up."

Xu Qingran chatted casually with the two of them outside.

Feng Yao also took the opportunity to take out his phone and recorded a short video of the three of them meeting. After recording, he said happily: "A video with Colonel Xu! If I post it today, it will definitely attract a wave of traffic!"

Mu Ziyu was not convinced: "In terms of popularity, I should be the one who contributed the most among the three of us, right?"

Feng Yao ignored him.

Mu Ziyu: “…”

Since the aircraft that picked them up were in different places, they all left separately in different palace carriages.

When Xu Qingran returned to the aircraft, the white dog, who had just woken up from a nap, yawned at him.

The temperature inside was just right and the oxygen supply was sufficient, so it slept very comfortably.

It took Xu Qingran another two or three days to return to Bishui Villa.

It was evening now, and the house was no different from before he left.

He turned on the air conditioner and went upstairs to take a shower. When he came out, he saw the windows of the room were crackling with rain again.

It's a good weather for sleeping.

Xu Qingran hadn't slept for several days and planned to go to bed after taking a shower.

He dimmed the lights in the room.

The desk lamp was on, and he stood there blowing his hair, looking down at the phone on the table.

The screen stopped at the chat box between him and Shen Tingyu.

The last message was the words "soon" without any emotion. After that, Shen Tingyu never sent him a message after he came back from his trip to the Celestial God System.

Xu Qingran pursed his lips.

Really busy.

He finished blow-drying his hair in a depressed mood. When he was putting away the hair dryer, the plug of the electric cord accidentally caught on something on the table and dropped it to the floor.

What fell down was the box of things that Wang Jian had given to Qi Shengxue before.

He brought them back from Tianlong, but hasn't had the time to properly organize his collection.

The scattered items in the box were scattered all over the floor.

He squatted down, carefully reorganized and put them away, and finally grabbed an A5-sized cowhide book from the corner of the desk. It was lying there open with the cover facing up.

Xu Qingran picked it up and glanced at it casually.

The pages were marked with dates and weather, so it was obviously a diary.

What a coincidence, it was today 27 years ago.

March 16th.

Today's mood: Terrible.

The diary only contains one sentence:

"Today, she told me she was pregnant..."

Xu Qingran paused.

I flipped through several pages, but couldn't find the name of this 'her'.

In fact, this was just something I grabbed at random.

Logically speaking, he shouldn't be interested in the contents of a girl's diary.

But when he flipped forward, he saw some very interesting records.

September 18th of the previous year.

"Today we met for dinner, and she confessed to me that she had someone she liked.

I heard that they have been secretly dating for several months and their relationship is very stable.

Although she was very secretive and didn't want to tell me the other person's identity, I was sincerely happy for her when I saw her excitedly describing how good the other person was to her and how compatible their topics of interest and hobbies were!

Fortunately, she met another compatible partner.

What I'm worried about shouldn't happen, right? After all, that woman is so fierce, I really can't afford to offend her. 』

October 13th.

"Oh my! She actually refused to go out for afternoon tea with me today because of a date!"

Well, then I can only pester A Jian to go with me hh. 』

November 28th.

"She cried today and pulled me out to drink a few glasses of wine with her.

The reason was that her brother opposed her relationship with her boyfriend and forced them to separate.

The situation got so serious that they even threatened to sever ties with him.

I wanted to delve into the reason why her brother refused, but I couldn't drink much and I passed out before she finished crying.

I heard that in the end, she helped me call A Jian and asked him to pick us up home, haha. 』

December 9

"how come… ?!

Their compatibility data had clearly been modified, so why did they still meet and fall in love!

Is the attraction of souls really uncontrollable

The thing I was most worried about finally happened. 』

January 27

"We had a long lasting argument.

She said she couldn't accept it, and even I was advising them to break up.

I said I was afraid of losing her.

She taught me that love conquers all.

Can we really win? 』

February 6th.

"She left home."

I still try to pull her back from her mistake. 』

Xu Qingran flipped through a few diaries that were related to "her".

Then there is the one about pregnancy on March 16th.

Something happened during this period that caused Qi Shengxue to have a mental breakdown, and she wrote her diary much less frequently.

Then, around mid-May, I wrote another short article.

"She disappeared."

God, please keep her safe.

After that, Qi Shengxue seemed to have lost contact with the "she" in the diary.

Whenever someone mentioned her, they were saying that there was no news about her yet.

It seemed like the person had just disappeared, and I didn't know if he was safe.

This diary seems to be used specifically to record the interesting stories between Qi Shengxue and her little sister.

After her little sisters disappeared, she didn’t write much.

There was only one page written abruptly between the blank pages in the last part.

Looking at the date, almost ten years have passed. By then, Qi Shengxue should have been married to Xu Yan.

July 7th.

"I haven't been in a good mental state recently.

I always dream about the happy days when she and I used to go out and play.

I really miss you.

Is she okay

I hope she won't blame me.

I hid the secret under the peach tree in the backyard of the villa in Bishui Villa.

Discovered or not discovered, it probably doesn't matter anymore. 』

Xu Qingran slowly stood up holding the diary.

He glanced at the heavy rain outside and thought that he definitely couldn't go and see it right away.

I can only put the diary and other things in a box for now.

While sorting, he accidentally saw the small stack of photos again. There were photos of Qi Shengxue with many people, who seemed to be friends she knew during school, and the girl with blue eyes accounted for the largest number of them.

Shen Qianning.

Shen Tingyu's aunt.

Xu Qingran casually pulled out another one.

It was a photo of two people celebrating their birthday. In the photo, Shen Qianning was wearing a birthday hat that didn't match her temperament at all. Qi Shengxue next to her deliberately dipped his fingers in cream and playfully drew kitten whiskers on her cheeks, then laughed with success.

Shen Qianning's expression was both embarrassed and indulgent.

There was a helpless smile in his eyes.

This beautiful scene was captured by the person holding the camera.

Xu Qingran subconsciously turned his gaze back to the old diary.

Come to think of it, didn't Wang Jian say that Shen Tingyu's aunt had disappeared before he was born? This seems to... make sense

However, Qi Shengxue actually did modify the degree of soul compatibility.

But she seems to have a good relationship with her little sister, so there should be no reason to harm her.

It's raining heavily outside.

Xu Qingran put all the things into the box without changing his expression, planning to go to the backyard tomorrow to look for the peach tree and see what "secrets" he could dig out.

Before going to bed, he picked up his phone again.

After unlocking, it is still the chat interface with Shen Tingyu.

She sent him a message in a bad mood: "Shen Tingyu, how dare you not contact me for more than two days?"

The message fell into oblivion and there was no response.

Xu Qingran ignored him, turned off the desk lamp, and went to bed.

Xu Qingran, who was very tired, did not sleep well in bed.

He had a lot of dreams.

The dream was full of things related to Shen Tingyu. I wonder if it was because he was thinking about him before going to bed.

"Shen Tingyu, you are a monster!"

When Shen Tingyu was five or six years old.

The scene might be in some aristocratic kindergarten. The children around him treated him as if he were the god of plague and threw pebbles at him.

Because at their age when their mental pools hadn't even fully developed yet, he was already able to use his mental power to beat up those who tried to bully him and send them to the hospital.

She is obviously very powerful, but because she is different from the people around her, she is treated as an alien.

At this age, he is lonely.

He stood quietly in the corner, looking at the group of children opposite him with a cold look that was inappropriate for his age.

The pictures in the dream are gray and colorless.

Only after he beats someone and makes them injured and bleeding can you see a bright red.

The dream switched to the evil tower again.

As a teenager, Shen Tingyu had to accept various extremely painful punishments in the evil tower every day. They called this obedience training for extremists, and it was used to make those extremely violent and antisocial E-types become obedient and sensible, and no longer hurt others recklessly.

Xu Qingran had no objection to this kind of punishment being used on a perverted murderer like Minghai.

But for someone like Shen Tingyu, even though he was trying very hard to endure, there were always people who took the initiative to provoke him. It was like knowing that it was a tiger, but still wanting to tease him. If the tiger fought back and scratched the person, wouldn't it be natural

He rarely provokes others, but everyone targets him like a monster. Isn't he allowed to fight back

The punishment system of the Evil Tower is really problematic.

Rather, it was the evil taste of some of the staff who had collapsed into psychopaths.

The scene switches again, entering a new dream.

But he hasn't escaped from the evil tower scene yet.

In the dream, Xu Qingran was slightly stunned as he looked at the increasingly mature figure.

According to the information Xu Qingran has obtained so far, Shen Tingyu found an opportunity to escape from the pain after being tortured in the evil tower for three years and went to the outer tower. Since then, he has never entered the terrifying 1st and 2nd towers again, but left directly and went to the military academy for development.

If I am correct, he was only fifteen or sixteen years old at that time.

However, in this dream, the man tied to the chair was obviously about twenty years old.

His appearance is not much different from his current adult appearance in reality. His right eye has been severely injured and blind, and he can only wear a white gauze all day long.

But he has not yet escaped from the evil tower.

Several researchers in white robes stood around him, holding various medicines in their hands, testing them on him one by one. Those medicines did not seem to be ordinary life-saving medicines, and each had a fixed effect.

Sometimes, the person who received the injection would become red and hot all over.

Sometimes, it hurt like countless ants biting his body, so much so that he had to hurt himself.

Sometimes, it was temptation that forced him to resort to self-harm to stay awake and not let his will be distracted. Because his willpower was strong enough, they increased the dosage over and over again, wanting to see where his limit was.

Finally, Shen Tingyu was forced to snatch the spiritual weapon from a guard and fired a shot at his own spiritual pool.

The look in his eyes before he took action was so decisive and crazy, without a trace of hesitation.

Xu Qingran was stunned again.

The scene before my eyes seemed to overlap with that day in the West City Underground City.

Sometimes, in these scenes, Mu Ziyue's cold and arrogant figure would appear.

Standing aside, he watched the person he hated the most being tortured.

Fortunately, Shen Tingyu in the dream escaped.

He did not become a mental patient, nor did he become mad and crazy, but unfortunately he had to continue to face the torture that was unique to him in the evil tower.

Probably a few years later.

He finally went mad and forcibly detonated the power of the spirit pool at the cost of injuring 800 of his own while injuring 1,000 of the enemy. After seriously injuring many people, he found a chance to escape from the evil tower.

Everything Shen Tingyu had said to him seemed to come true in his dream.

The man in the dream was experiencing all the days of wandering outside without enough food and clothing, and of living in hardship and hiding.

In each frame, Xu Qingran also saw several familiar faces.

Among them was a restaurant that Shen Tingyu had taken him to before, where the chef and owner was said to be his good friend. This owner was indeed unsuccessful, but he had taken Shen Tingyu in for a while when he was wandering.

Cook for him.

I would talk to him about my dream of opening a restaurant.

Later, when Shen Tingyu was discovered by pursuers, he took the initiative to cover his escape.

And there is the old couple in West City.

When Shen Tingyu was stranded on Taiyue Star, he was very skinny and looked like a poor man who had suffered from hunger for many years.

It was they who helped him when he was about to starve to death.

Xu Qingran was like a bystander.

Unable to intervene, he could only watch these dreams change one after another before him.

The last dream stayed in the Tianlong system.

Mu Ziyue and his men found Shen Tingyu who was hiding here.

He took the ultrasonic device he had someone develop, which could emit ultrasound waves that would cause pain to people with damaged mental pools, and continued to torture Shen Tingyu.

The powerful E-type who should be able to kill everyone present can only lie on the ground with his body stiff and at the mercy of others because of this.

"I heard that there are a lot of wild dogs in the North City."

"You've been here for so long, have you picked up their habits?"

Mu Ziyue laughed wantonly.

He kicked him and said, "Just bark like a dog a few times, and I'll make things easier for you."

Shen Tingyu is a tough guy.

Even though he was in so much pain that he felt like dying, he kept his body tense and didn't say a word.

The smile on Mu Ziyue's face gradually disappeared.

The torture on him intensified.

Even if the tortured person is in so much pain that he can't stay conscious and his face turns pale, he still won't surrender.

Not a single syllable was uttered.

Mu Ziyue was about to take action when a wolf-howling sound suddenly came from the nearby mountains.

Then countless wolfhounds rushed out from all directions, and the one leading the way was a white dog that was snow-white and slightly stronger than the others. Its two icy eyes were filled with overwhelming hatred, staring at Mu Ziyue.

Xu Qingran then realized that the scene in his dream took place in the Tianguang Mountain area of the northern city.

And that white dog seemed to be his white wolf.

It was the first time he saw such a ferocious expression on its face.

It seemed to have a deep hatred for Mu Ziyue. Every time it charged forward, it went straight to Mu Ziyue, but was stopped by the guards around Mu Ziyue every time. It attacked people standing on Mu Ziyue's side indiscriminately, and many guards were bitten off by it.

Someone hurried to Mu Ziyue's side and said to him: "Your Highness, this seems to be the pack of dogs of the wolfhound we killed a few years ago... They may be here to seek revenge."

"The situation in North City is serious. It is inconvenient to stay here any longer."

"Besides, the dogs are making such a big noise, the North City's guard organization and army will probably come over soon. We don't have enough people and may not be able to defeat them..."

Mu Ziyue glanced at Shen Tingyu.

Seeing that he couldn't move, he sneered and said, "Retreat."

"Feeding the dog before dying means your death is worthwhile."

Mu Ziyue evacuated safely under the escort of the guard team.

The wolfhounds chased him down the mountain and watched him leave in a flying vehicle, and could only howl in anger.

The white dog stared at the aircraft as it flew away, and only withdrew his gaze unwillingly when the shadow disappeared completely.

She turned around and saw the man lying on the ground, staring at him for a few seconds.

In the end, he did not take action, but instead commanded the dogs to return to the mountains.

The wind is howling.

The grass and trees swayed slightly.

Xu Qingran walked up to Shen Tingyu and squatted down, looking slightly surprised.

Some people can't distinguish between reality and dreams.

The black-haired, blue-eyed man lay there for a long time.

Even though he was in such a mess, and his skinny appearance was not as delicate and good-looking as he had imagined, his blue eyes were still so beautiful. Even though they were covered with a layer of dark gray mist, they were still as resolute as ever.

Just like his unbreakable pride.

Xu Qingran looked at him across the dimension and subconsciously reached out to touch him.

But the palm went through his body.

Not until the shackles on his body disappeared and his fingers were able to move did he apply force and slightly retract his fingers on the ground, leaving deep scratches.

He opened his mouth slightly, a weak sound coming out of his voice.

"Ah."

That brief chuckle seemed to be filled with his boredom and hatred towards this world.

After a while, he said another sentence.

"It hurts."

The voice is faint.

In the big villa of Bishui Villa.

Xu Qingran was still sleeping.

Suddenly, there was an extremely loud thunder outside the house.

It was as huge as if it had hit the roof.

The person on the bed then opened his eyes and sat up with a confused look.

He stared at the dim room, motionless for a long time.

Until a warm feeling seemed to slide across my cheek.

He suddenly raised his hand and touched his face, feeling wetness.

At the same time, an inexplicable sadness exploded in his chest.

The tears in his eyes seemed to have burst out, completely out of his control, and continued to flow down.

The system was shocked: "Huh?!"

"... Host, what's wrong with you? Why are you crying?"

The system exists in Xu Qingran's head.

But I can only sense his thoughts and ideas, and see the images of soul memory fragments with him, but I cannot see his dreams.

So I just asked him out of concern: "Did you have a nightmare?"

Is it a nightmare

It must be a nightmare.

Before Xu Qingran could recover from his dream, the doorbell rang downstairs.

Then there was a knock on the door.

He wiped the embarrassing water stains on his face, got up and went downstairs, and saw the white dog who was also woken up in the living room.

When the weather is cold, it likes to rest next to the heater in the living room.

The white dog looked at him and showed no rejection of the smell outside the house.

Xu Qingran turned on the light and walked to the door in a daze. He didn't react at first as to how the visitor, who should have been isolated outside the gate, could knock on the door of the house at the same time.

—Unless the other party has access to the house.

He opened the door and it was still raining lightly outside.

The person at the door looked extremely similar to the face in his dream just now, which made Xu Qingran stunned again.

An umbrella was lying diagonally next to the pillar under the eaves.

Water is still dripping from it.

Even with the umbrella protecting him, Shen Tingyu still got a little wet from the rain, even his hair and cheeks were wet from the wind and rain.

Just staring at him blankly.

After a moment, a drop of water slid down from the corner of his eye.

I can't tell whether it's a drop of water that just happened to fall or a tear.

But I saw that his eyes were slightly red, and his voice was slightly hoarse with a hint of sobs, and he asked: "... Why are you crying?"

Xu Qingran was stunned again.

Indeed, Shen Tingyu, who had signed a partnership contract with him, seemed to be affected by his mood.

Thinking about it, Xu Qingran gradually realized the problem now: "... Why are you here?"

Has the Empire already opened up cross-faction permissions

But considering the time it took to get from the Sirius to the Serpentine, even if Shen Tingyu drove to the limit, it would be impossible for him to be that fast

·

It's warm in the room.

Shen Tingyu was sitting on the sofa in the living room. Xu Qingran was standing in front of him, drying his hair with a towel.

He subconsciously grabbed his wrist, looked up and asked, "Xu Qingran, you haven't answered my question yet."

When he said this, his voice trembled unconsciously.

Shen Tingyu feels so uncomfortable now, and his heart is about to explode.

It was as if someone had hollowed out his chest and stuffed countless sorrows into it, filling it so full that it was suffocating.

This is just because of the connection between souls.

How miserable must Xu Qingran be? What happened to him that made him so miserable

Upon hearing this, Xu Qingran stopped what he was doing.

My thoughts returned to the dream.

After a while, he replied: "I had a dream."

"It's a nightmare."

Shen Tingyu seemed surprised by this answer: "What kind of dream can make you..."

So badly injured.

Xu Qingran remained calm: "I dreamed that my boyfriend was hanging out with other people during the few days when he didn't reply to my messages."

It's not like he hasn't thought about telling the truth.

But he found he couldn't.

I can't bring up these things and ask Shen Tingyu whether he has really experienced them or whether he is a reborn person.

Every problem is so painful.

Shen Tingyu: “…”

He was so angry that he laughed again.

The depression in my chest seemed to be dispelled a little.

He took out his turned-off phone and restarted it while answering, "I can't help it. I've been breaking the rules these past few days to come see my boyfriend. I can only try to keep my phone and communicator offline to prevent the Imperial military and police from tracking me down."

Xu Qingran paused, remembered something, and slightly opened his eyes: "… So the news reports these days said that the suspected Type I high IQ offender who broke several checkpoints was you??"

Shen Tingyu smiled: "If there are no other crazy people like me, then that should be it."

Xu Qingran was silent.

I thought to myself, how dare that bastard do that

—How dare I run towards him in both directions like this.

Xu Qingran's mind was in a mess today. He felt like he had discovered some incredible secret, but he didn't know how to sort it out or face it.

Thinking of the bottle of wine Mo Chengfei had given him before, he went to the kitchen and took it out, and said to Shen Tingyu: "You came just in time, I can give you a taste."

He felt that he needed something to get him high and let him do whatever he wanted.

Shen Tingyu hesitated: "... Then do you want to drink?"

Xu Qingran said confidently: "Why? You want to keep all the good wine for yourself?"

Shen Tingyu: "That's not what I meant."

I'm just worried that he'll get drunk and start doing bad things again.

Today there is no screen separating them, and he hopes that his rationality will not be shattered and disintegrated by Xu Qingran.

Xu Qingran really can't drink much.

Probably inherited this body from his mother Qi Shengxue.

Shen Tingyu watched him as his eyes started to become dazed before he even finished his glass.

I don't know what she was thinking, but she looked at him with an ambiguous yet particularly alluring and affectionate look, which made him feel very uncomfortable and uneasy.

I always feel that Xu Qingran is up to something again.

Moreover, he seemed really strange today. I was being particularly gentle when I spoke to him just now.

Shen Tingyu put down his wine glass and decided to send Xu Qingran upstairs before he became too unconscious: "Go and rest first. I'm sorry to disturb your sleep by coming here so late at night."

In fact, he originally wanted to wait until dawn, or make sure Xu Qingran woke up before knocking on the door to surprise him.

I just felt uncomfortable for some reason, so I decided to come and take a look.

Now it seems that there is really nothing wrong.

Xu Qingran was rarely obedient, and his eyes looked quite clear.

Follow him upstairs to the room.

Shen Tingyu sent him into the room and wanted to leave.

As a result, before he could leave, Xu Qingran kicked the door and closed it, blocking his retreat.

Shen Tingyu: “…”

His eyelids just twitched when he was suddenly hit against the wall by a weight.

Xu Qingran rarely took the initiative to hug him.

She leaned her head against his shoulder, took a long breath, and asked in a faint voice: "Shen Tingyu, do you dislike me?"

"… Do not say silly things."

Shen Tingyu is very patient with Xu Qingran.

The person leaning against him still had the faint scent of shower gel on her body.

Mixed with the sweet aroma of wine, it makes people feel inexplicably dazed.

In a trance, I heard Xu Qingran whisper, "I miss you."

"Why didn't you kiss me today?"

Shen Tingyu: “…”

That’s why I said that Xu Qingran really can’t be allowed to drink.

Can Shen Tingyu refuse Xu Qingran's request

No, he couldn't refuse at all.

In the dimly lit room, two people leaned against the wall, kissing each other passionately.

In this atmosphere, Xu Qingran was particularly active and attractive today, and Shen Tingyu, who had also missed him for a long time, couldn't help but feel a little emotional.

Xu Qingran noticed it.

With a triumphant smile, she asked him, "Aren't you uncomfortable?"

Shen Tingyu's eyes were firm: "It's not uncomfortable."

Seeing him like this, Xu Qingran suddenly felt depressed again.

No wonder Shen Tingyu's determination and endurance are so amazing.

Having experienced such extreme pain in his previous life, what were these little things to him in this life

Xu Qingran lowered his eyes.

Shen Tingyu suddenly sensed his unhappiness again.

When I was hesitant and about to speak, the back of my hand was suddenly gently covered by another warmth.

"Shen Tingyu, I won't force you."

"You are just worried that I will get hurt after contact with your spiritual seal."

Xu Qingran raised his eyes and looked at him: "So I thought of a way."

"As long as I hold your hand, without any direct contact with your private parts, can't I achieve the same pleasure?"

Shen Tingyu's eyelids trembled when he heard this.

His eyes were filled with shock. He probably never expected that Xu Qingran could come up with such a 'loophole' in order to do something.

"Shen Tingyu."

The person in his arms raised his head slightly and leaned into his ear, his warm breath carrying the sweet smell of alcohol.

The lazy ending tone was very alluring, as if it was a deep temptation from the Garden of Eden, floating gently past his ears.

Say to him, "Get me dirty, okay?"

(End of this chapter)