After everyone was gone, the woman trembled when she saw me staring at her, and asked timidly, "What do you want to do to me?"
I shook my head.
"What do you want?" The woman was struggling constantly on the operating table, her hands and feet being pushed by the handcuffs on the operating table and dinged.
I took a breath and looked up at the assistant next to me. The assistants glanced at each other, turned and walked out. I pulled a chair and walked up to the woman and stared at the woman. At this time, the sun came in from the window and reflected on the woman's skin. For many days, she hadn't eaten anything. The woman's skin became more crystal clear and her facial features became more three-dimensional and long. The long eyelashes are like a butterfly flapping its wings, which makes people's heart beating.
It suddenly occurred to me that I had never touched this woman, but I... loved her so deeply. I raised my hand and stroked the woman's face. The woman shivered again, her face full of fear, and she said:" Do not touch me."
I suddenly laughed. This was a joke in the imperial army's position, like the scream of a lamb falling into a wolf den.
The woman seemed to realize the stupidity of her words, and immediately changed her words: "I... can you please let me go? I saved your life somehow."
This is indeed the case.
I hesitated and told the truth: "You are caught by them. It is impossible to escape. Have you ever seen a woman who escaped from the imperial army?"
When the woman heard this, the fear in her eyes grew stronger, and finally she bit her lip and said, "You...Kill me."
I suddenly smiled and stretched out my hand to gently stroke her face. Her body trembled, her eyes were closed, and her eyelashes kept trembling.
"I will kill you, do you hate me?" I asked softly.
"Don't hate." She shook her head, tears snaking down from the corner of her eyes: "If you don't kill me, I will suffer even more."
I sighed: "That's it, so I am going to kill you, but what I want to tell you today is-I love you."
This was said in blunt Chinese, but it did not reduce the sincerity in the words at all. I think this world is really a wonderful world. I haven’t known this woman for many days and have not held hands. It’s just that we talk like this every morning. Actually fell in love with her and wanted to protect her with my life. Now, what I want to do is another thing. Before this thing is implemented, I must ask her wishes-no one has the right to decide other people's. In life, since I fell off the cliff, the only change I have changed is from a ghost to a human being.
"Now, what do you think of this war?" I changed my posture and looked out the window. The sun was shining, Yangliuyiyi, and spring flowers were blooming. This peaceful and beautiful world was actually a hell.
"War..." The woman said this with difficulty, blinked, and shook her head: "I don't know."
I smiled and found that this way of chatting was inappropriate. After thinking about it, I changed my question: "Oh...Do you hate us Japanese?"
The woman trembles a few more times when she hears the three words "Japanese". She looks up at me with infinite nostalgia in her eyes, but there is a bit of sadness in her eyes. I know what she means, and smiled bitterly: "Yes, I am Japanese."
"I know." The woman seemed to be hurt, she closed her eyes and whispered: "I shouldn't save the Japanese. My mother-in-law once persuaded me that this is my retribution and my retribution." After speaking, she tears. It flowed down again, her long eyelashes trembling non-stop.
"It's retribution." I admit.
The woman gave a "um" and stopped talking, and we were silent again, such silence and familiarity, like every morning when I was recuperating, there was light coming in, and I was drinking gruel. While talking gossip, I remember most of myself was talking about the situation when I was in the country when I was a child, and when I was following my grandmother, while she talked about trivial things about the mountain dwellings, and smiled at each other, as if there was a heaven in this world.
however…
Where is the shadow of heaven in this world where there are no distinctions between humans and monsters, black and white reversed? It's all a dream.
"You don't like Japanese people, do you?"
After a long silence, I broke the silence.
"Yes." She nodded very simply: "They are very bad. I heard many people in the village tell their stories. They are as scary as ghosts."
"Well, you hate... I mean, you hate the Japanese invading you, don't you?" I asked with a gesture.
She blinked, a bit of hatred gradually emerged in her eyes, and nodded and said, "Of course, they killed my uncle and uncle."
"So do you want revenge?" I asked immediately.
She stared at me with wide eyes, as if she didn't recognize me, and finally smiled bitterly: "Me? How is it possible?"
"I can help you." I said softly.
"You help me... revenge?" She seemed to hear the most absurd thing in the world and kept shaking her head; "How is it possible?"
I won’t say any more, but just stood up and unfastened all the handcuffs on her limbs. After being handcuffed for a long time, she actually sat up very lightly, rubbing her wrists and tilting her head curiously. Looked at me and asked: "You... Why do you want to avenge me?"
"Because I realize that this war is sinful." I said softly.
The woman suddenly pursed her mouth with a somewhat scared expression on her face. She looked around and asked, "You... are you not afraid that others will know?"
"Not afraid." I shook my head, staring into the woman's eyes and said: "I am ready."
"Ready?" The woman wondered: "How prepared?"
"Be prepared to be killed by you." I said lightly.
The pupils in the woman's eyes enlarged. At that moment, the fangs in her mouth suddenly appeared, and her eyes became blood-red, but they disappeared quickly, showing a scared expression: "What are you talking about? How am I? Shouldn’t I kill you... the other way around?"
I smiled silently and stared at her. She was so impatient with me that she frowned and said, "Why do you always look at me."
"Because there will be no chance in the future." I sighed softly.
"Why do you say that?" There was a sad expression on the woman's face. It was obvious that she still loved me.
She still loves me. This feeling filled me with courage. I hesitated, stretched out my hand, and took her hand. She trembled, then stopped struggling, and lowered my head.
Her hands are different from the skin on her face. The skin on her face is crystal clear, but her hands are very rough due to a lot of farm work. They feel like sand on the beach, but they feel very comfortable. I hold them tightly. Holding her hand, she asked in a low voice, "You said that your uncles and uncles were killed by the Japanese. Then I ask you, do you want to eliminate the Japanese?"
The woman was startled, and suddenly shook her head in fear, "How could I..."
"If it's possible?" I rushed to the white tunnel.
The woman hesitated, bit her lip, nodded slowly and said, "That might be..."
"There is a chance here." I stopped her and sighed: "There is a chance to destroy them, but you need your life as a price. Are you willing?"
The woman listened in a daze, and finally said: "Want my life?"
"Yes, I want you to die as a price." I stared into the woman's eyes, saying every word.
The woman quietly, for a long time, sighed and said: "If you want, then you can do it."
"It's not that I am willing, but are you willing?" I shook my head and said, "These are two different things."
The woman's face suddenly showed a shy blush, as if asking good or bad during a blind date, she lowered her head and whispered for a long time: "Is this kind of thing worth asking me?"
"Need." I said categorically, "Because I respect life."
These words actually reflect the life of the past few years and can be seen as a joke, but it is different. I think it has been completely different since I fell off the cliff. I have the ability to start a new life and I am sure!
The woman seemed to be moved by what I said, her eye circles slowly reddened, and after hesitating for a while, she nodded and said, "I'm happy."
"Are you really happy?" I asked again with certainty. Of course, women have no good answers at all. In the current situation, quick death is already the best choice for her, but I still have to ask, I want her To answer clearly, I want to respect every life's choice so as to atone for the sins of the past.
The woman lowered her head, draped her long hair on her face, and swayed gently for a long time. Finally, she raised her head and looked at me firmly in her eyes, and nodded: "I am willing, but... this can save you. ?"
"Can you save me?" When I heard this, I wanted to laugh a little, but suddenly a kind of moved came up. This woman loves me, sincerely, loves me with her life, so...
"No." I shook my head: "No."
"What's going on then?" The woman frowned.