"Then... I'll go first."
At the class meeting, I stood up and bowed farewell to everyone. Everyone was pushing cups and changing cups. Not a few people paid attention to me. Only the tablemate next to me patted me on the shoulder and burped alcohol. Asked: "Why don't you sit for a while?"
"No." I smiled and shook my head, looking at my classmate who was too busy to pay attention to me, shook my head, stood up, turned and walked straight out of the hotel, there was a little rain outside, hitting the stone slabs tick by tick. At the end of summer and early autumn, the cold wind blew passers-by, and the sky was ginger black, as if polluted with dust rags. I raised my head and opened the umbrella in my hand.
The restaurant is very close to the house. Although it is raining, there is no need to take a ride. There are rushed pedestrians on the road. There are not many people on the street. Alone holding an umbrella, walking silently along the side of the road. They are all wet. These sandals are very expensive. I bought them at the counter. It is a small brand of two thousand. So I walked very carefully and tried not to let rain splash on the heels. Unfortunately, it was still wet. I sighed. , Took out a handkerchief from the city and carefully wiped the pearls on the shoes. I heard that these pearls were strung out of real beads. They were originally carefully prepared for this class reunion, however.
However
Thinking of the perfunctory faces of my classmates just now, I couldn't help but feel sad, and slowly stood up, thinking about how proud I was back then. I was also the goddess of the male classmates in the class anyway, but what
When the classmates heard that I was a housewife, they had no expressions anymore. In fact, I really want to tell them that my husband is a director in a company anyway, and it’s also a personal thing. We bought it in the center of the city. The house and house loans have been paid off very hard over the past few years. Although the deposits have not been saved much, does the house have everything? It's a school district room, it's really a school district room. In the future, if you build a few more schools here, you will be promoted several times, and we have inquired that there will be subways here in the future, you know? From now on, here will be the subway room and the school district room, the house will be very valuable, very valuable...
Thinking of these unspoken words, I suddenly stopped and looked at the street in front of me. This is a very familiar street scene in the past few years. Here is a supermarket, there is a vegetable market, and on the opposite side is a street lamp, under the street lamp. There is a fruit vendor. The price is one-third cheaper than in the supermarket. But apart from tomatoes, the other vegetables are not very fresh. So I come here on time every day to buy a catty of tomatoes. Oh, yes, it’s There is a morning market, and the vegetables in the morning are very cheap. Everyone likes to pay attention to color, so I can always buy fresh fruits and vegetables, and this is also the proud work of my life as a housewife.
"Jingle Bell"
Suddenly, the phone rang. I changed my phone and took out the phone. It turned out that it was Ah Bing, who was at the classmate meeting.
"A Bing." I yelled innocently, because being a housewife all the time makes me somewhat social phobia, which is very different from my previous style. When I saw my old classmates call, I didn't know what to say.
"Ah, Xiao Li, what's the matter with you? I just left. As soon as I turned around, I disappeared." A Bing asked anxiously.
"It's nothing, my husband is about to get off work, I have to go back to buy vegetables on time." I explained with a smile.
"Oh oh oh, this way, understand, understand." A Bing paused after saying this; "Xiao Li, how are you doing recently?"
"Okay?" I seemed to be anxious to prove something, and quickly said: "I have a very good life, very contented, very happy, really, you see, my husband loves me very much, the house we bought in the school district I have finally paid off my mortgage. Next I save money to have a baby. You know, my life has been safe and smooth. I am very happy. I am content. Really."
"Uh, uh, that's fine." Over there, A Bing seemed as if I was scared by this robbing, and hurriedly wanted to retract my head, and said hurriedly: "I know you are very happy, you are happy, huh, huh. , That's it, thank you."
A Bing hung up the phone with a "patter". I took the phone and stared outside. At this time, the rain was getting smaller, and the wind was blowing from somewhere, whizzing in from the outside of the umbrella and hitting it bit by bit. When I got up, I looked down at my high heels, and suddenly felt unbearable. I picked up the phone and called again: "Hello, A Bing, A Bing?"
"Ah, what's the matter with you?" A Bing said in surprise when he heard this, "Xiao Li, are you all right? Are you not far from home?"
"No."
I shook my head and didn't know how to drop it. I felt uncomfortable, but I didn't know what to say for a while, biting my lip and said, "A Bing, what do you want to say?"
"Say what?" A Bing asked in surprise, "What's the matter with what? Xiaoli, what's the matter with you?"
"I mean, you seem to be a little surprised at me, after all, we haven't seen each other in three or four years." I stammered.
"Oh, oh, let's put it this way." A Bing paused for a while. It seemed that he disliked the loudness of the external voice. He stood up and walked straight to a remote place. He heard the sound of water over there, probably in the bathroom. Suddenly the hustle and bustle fell silent, and I heard Ah Bing’s voice saying: "Oh, how do you say, Xiao Li, you know, when you were in school, you were a goddess-level figure, right? At that time, I felt you were unique* *, I once told me that I wanted to be a traveler or something, but then... I feel like seeing you now, it's a bit too calm, maybe life is going too smoothly, right?"
"Deadly." I repeated this.
"Oh, it’s okay, maybe I’m too eager, don’t think too much, I’ll just say so, hehe, yes, I’m leaving now, the outside is gone, I’m far away from home, Hurry up and get a ride, or there will be no more car." After Ah Bing said this, he hung up his cell phone with a "patter".
I stood quietly on the street, watching the busy traffic on the street, the rain was infiltrating in with the wind little by little, hitting my body, and I was hitting my heart a little bit colder, "Hey, elder sister, here you are. There are tomatoes that have just come down here. I’ll keep them for you.” Suddenly there was a voice, and when he looked up, it was the familiar vendor, a young man in his twenties, and the round face of the big sister with thick eyebrows. , A familiar smile appeared on his honest face.
I blinked and stretched out my hand to pick those tomatoes proficiently. I was so used to it. When I woke up, the tomatoes were already weighed and handed to me. The honest face waved to me and said, "Ming. Come again, eldest sister"
"What do you call me?"
I used to hear this name before, and I didn't feel it was caring, but now it sounds very harsh.
"Big sister." The vendor scratched his head and looked at me in surprise: "What's wrong? Big sister."
"I'm five years older than you, so I actually became your eldest sister." I suddenly laughed, but tears fell. I didn't know why I was crying, so I cried. "
"Eldest sister? Elder sister? Ah, no, no, miss." The vendor saw me crying and hurriedly came over to comfort him: "What's wrong with you, eldest sister? Oh, no, what's wrong with you, miss? Excuse me, I …"
I shook my head, put the tomatoes on his fruit stand, wiped my face, and walked home holding an umbrella.
The rain stopped suddenly for some unknown reason, but the ground was already wet. There were pools of water stains, one after another. Because I no longer cared about the high heels, I walked fast, and soon I arrived home, returned home, put down my umbrella, and took off. I replaced my shoes and put on my usual nightdress. I was going to cook, but I didn't move. I just sat there and looked at everything around me.
Well, this home, this house, this coffee table, stools, chairs, sofas, and everything on the ground that I renovated seems to be the result of my hard work in the past few years. How have I spent the past few years? I stroked my face, and then I ran to the mirror and stared at my face. Actually, I am not very old. My eyebrows and nose are still beautiful. It’s just because I didn’t dress up, I looked very old. No wonder that The vendor called me eldest sister.
I looked down at my nightdress, which I had been wearing all the time. There were some stains on it, and I didn’t bother to change it. Then I looked up at my jacket. The gray plaid looks very solemn, but when I was at a party, In a group of glamorous tricks, they looked like their mothers, no wonder the men refused to look at me more.
"You look dead."
Ah Bing's words suddenly came to mind, are they dead? I stared at myself in the mirror, then looked back at everything in the house. What have I been doing these years? Keep saving money to pay off the mortgage, right? For this, I became an accurate mathematician, and I can keep all the money accurate to every second. The only thing I am proud of is that I bought the school district house. The school district house is very valuable, right? If it is sold... Of course, this is impossible. In the future, if you have a child, it will not be possible for your child to go to school, right
So it is very valuable and useless. The only useful thing is that I have a school district room and a school district room. This is how my youth has been in the past few years.
and then
and then
Suddenly I grabbed my hair and was thinking hard. Suddenly, a dingling text message rang, and I took a look at it. It belonged to my husband, with the usual words written on it-"Busy tonight, don't go back now."
Staring at the text message, I didn't know what was going on. Suddenly, I called the lady at the front desk of their company and asked, "By the way, Xiao Zhang, our Lao Li has to work overtime tonight?"
"Working overtime? There is no one in the office? I was the last one to leave." Xiao Zhang said in surprise.
I hung up the phone with a "patter", I huffed and gasped, looking at everything in front of me, this sofa, this house, this decoration, everything here... Suddenly I became unbearable, and I was mad with the car key. I rushed out, drove my car in the underground garage, and drove straight out. Actually, I didn’t know where to go. I just drove the car in such a boundless way, slidging along the road, and the classmates would go up one after another. Face, I can’t say that they are successful in their careers, but they feel very energetic. I used to... I was like this. I was a student council seat in college and my husband was classmates. He chased me. I had many thoughts before. When a travel writer came, my husband also thought about starting a network technology company, but after graduation, he decided to "stabilize first and talk about it."
Such a stable situation is almost seven or eight years. He hurriedly entered a small company and became a small leader in the company. As for me, I became a housewife peacefully, and my life was not salty. It seems that there is only one thing wholeheartedly-repay the mortgage, and then you can have the child, save the money, ask for the child, and the school district room again, the child goes to school, after school, save money to go to college, after college, say his wife After you get married, you care for the elderly, and then you get sick and die. This seems to be a regular subject in life, and you can know how to go with your eyes closed.
It's all dark outside, and the street lights on the roadside are like necklaces from the sky, welcoming them one after another. Probably because of the rain, there are not many people on the road, occasionally one or two, just like lonely ghosts. I usually swim past, unspeakably desolate, and after a while, the car drove into the downtown area, watching the clumps of lights and the dim fireworks, it felt a lot warmer.
Well, youth is not considered wasteful, anyhow there is a school district room.
I comforted myself in my heart, slowing down the speed of the car slowly, like a swimming fish, shuttled in the crowd, just at this moment, suddenly, a couple kissed and crossed their car to the opposite side. When I walked to the hotel and squinted, the man was actually his husband Li Cheng!
"what?"
I covered my mouth and looked at the man with my eyes widened. That's right, this is the man I have loved for five years, and the man who has been married for five years. Next to him is a charming and beautiful woman, wearing a black dress, leaning against her charmingly. Husband.
A kind of coldness slowly emerged from the soles of the feet, and gradually froze the whole body. Sitting on that seat, I suddenly thought that my youth only had a school district room.