Shen Tang admitted.
Ning Yan could arouse her affection and curiosity with just a few words, and also made her realize the other side of women in this world.
She is not the girl from an aristocratic family who is raised in a secluded place and trapped in a certain world, and can only plan her future with limited knowledge and means, such as Shen Zhi; she is not the innocent girl who, unless there are unexpected changes, will have to follow the life arranged by her family and grow up step by step, such as Lin Feng; nor is she the farm girl who struggles hard in the mire of the bottom of society and has exhausted most of her energy for survival, such as Bai Su; nor is she the girl who has seen all the darkness, struggled through hardships, and became familiar with the ways of the world too early, such as Yu Zi.
Ning Yan is mature, steady, determined and confident.
There is a light called "ambition" flashing in his eyes.
Shen Tang never thought that "ambition" was a derogatory word.
I also vaguely guessed Ning Yan's intention behind this.
but-
If Ning Yan came to seek refuge as the "widow of Yan An", Shen Tang would be willing to give her a place to stay for the sake of friendship. If it was Ning Yan's personal identity... she would see the other person's value. After all, capitalists who should hang street lamps don't support idlers.
Hearing Shen Tang address her as "Madam", Ning Yan's emotions were stirred, and she said firmly: "I will repay you as a national hero."
Shen Tang was stunned, as if he had not expected Ning Yan's straightforwardness.
Question: “Just because I’m a girl?”
Ning Yan shook her head and nodded again: "It's not just because Mr. Shen is a girl, but also because my late husband Xingning recognized you. He once said that he regretted meeting you so late. On the way here, I also thought that if he could have met Mr. Shen earlier, maybe it wouldn't be like this."
Her eyes dimmed visibly, and she took another deep breath, revealing a gentle and firm smile: "If that is Xingning's regret... then, I am standing in front of Shen Jun at this moment, perhaps he is guiding me in the dark..."
If I hadn't seen Xu Jie on the other side...
If Xu Quan's letter had not been delivered in time...
Perhaps she would realize many, many years later, when she was old and gray-haired, that there really was such a light in the world! Ning Yan could feel the suffocating regret just by imagining it.
"It's not too late to be thankful."
After hearing this, Shen Tang was silent for a long time.
"Yeah, it's not too late."
Ning Yan and Yan An are similar yet different in spirit.
It must be said that these two are worthy of being husband and wife.
Jiang Sheng counted the crops and put them all into the warehouse. He was very happy when he came back. If the spring ploughing can go smoothly, the pressure of this year will be much less. But before he could be happy for a while, he saw his master sitting on the roof, looking at the moon with his chin in his hand.
"My lord, you are in a good mood."
Jiang Sheng dodged and jumped onto the roof.
Shen Tang was only a few steps away when the latter reacted.
"It's Xiandeng, are you done with everything?"
"Everything is settled." Jiang Sheng was surprised that Shen Tang was actually distracted. "Today is a day of joyous events. Why is the lord not happy?"
Shen Tang patted the eaves beside him to signal Jiang Sheng to sit down, and said, "It's not that I'm unhappy, it's just that something is blocking my heart."
Jiang Sheng was surprised when he heard this.
He has known Shen Tang for quite some time.
What kind of personality does the latter have? She is serious when she should be serious, but she is also innocent when she is free. She is always energetic, as if she doesn't know the sorrow of the world. When is there something that she cares about and can't figure out
"Because of the lady from the banquet during the day?" Jiang Sheng only knew that Ning Yan stayed, but he didn't know that she stayed as his colleague.
Shen Tang nodded: "Yeah."
Jiang Sheng asked: "Can you explain in detail?"
It’s time to cue Gu Chi again.
It's really troublesome when he's not around.
Shen Tang: "Of course it's convenient."
She told about the conversation between her and Ning Yan during the day.
Jiang Sheng said with a smile: "Just because of this?"
Shen Tang was a little depressed: "Isn't this the first time I've encountered this? Although she said it was because of Yan Xingning, it was more because of my gender. People came for my gender, not other characteristics of me. I am a little..."
Jiang Sheng listened quietly.
Then I heard the next sentence: "… a little uncomfortable. Because gender is the easiest to replace, and also because of her recklessness. There may be another, or a few others like me in this world… Will she regret her rash choice in the future?"
Jiang Sheng didn't know the real meaning of Shen Tang's words, and only analyzed it based on the literal meaning: "My lord, you must believe that you are unique. Even if this lady came for your gender, she will sooner or later be impressed by your other qualities."
Shen Tang asked back: "What if I can't?"
Although she is confident, she is not so confident that everyone likes her. She knows her shortcomings best.
Jiang Sheng smiled and said, "A wise bird chooses the right tree to roost in."
Literary men actually have no moral integrity.
If this lord doesn't suit your taste, just change jobs.
It's not like you'll be hanging on a tree for the rest of your life.
Unexpectedly, Shen Tang sighed again.
"I'm afraid she can't choose..."
Jiang Sheng didn't know what "can't choose" meant at this moment, nor did he know how decisive Ning Yan would be once she made up her mind. On the second day, Ning Yan was not seen.
All I saw was the young man Ning Yan brought and her daughter.
Kang Shi changed his attitude. He held the spoon in his right hand and the porridge in his left hand, and coaxed the girl to eat a few more bites in a soft voice.
That voice...
It sounds so sweet.
"Come on, dear girl, have another bite."
"I can't eat anymore."
"How about one last bite?"
It turns out that Kang Shi is not trustworthy. He coaxed the girl into finishing the whole bowl, and at the end he took out a handkerchief to wipe her mouth carefully. For some reason, Kang Shi seemed to particularly like the girl to call him "Uncle Kang".
The child called him.
The corners of his mouth stretched to his ears, like teeth.
"Uncle Kang, where is my mother?"
How would Kang Shi know
"She must be busy. Just stay with Uncle Kang today, and he will take you to broaden your horizons..."
"Still looking at the piglets?"
"Let's not look at the piglets today. Let's look at something else."
For example, see how he works.
This child is really well behaved and easy to take care of. His gentle and adorable appearance is really likable. Whenever Kang Shi sees this child who looks a bit like his friend being so well behaved, it always touches some secret pleasure in his heart...
only-
I didn’t see Ning Yan for more than ten days.
It's like he disappeared from the face of the earth.
When asked about the matter, the lord was also very secretive and only used the excuse of "she was on business". Kang Shi keenly noticed that something was wrong. What business could Ning Yan have that required her to disappear for so long? Most importantly, the little ancestor could no longer be coaxed!
After not seeing her mother for more than ten days, the sensitive girl finally couldn't help crying secretly in the middle of the night. Kang Shi and the boy were taking care of her. The boy was still an ordinary person and slept soundly, but Kang Shi was awakened by the crying.
"What's wrong? Is it a nightmare?"
Kang Shi followed the crying sound and found the child in the corner outside the house.
"Mother... wuwu, did mother go with father... did she not want Nannan anymore..." She remembered that father was like this too, he suddenly disappeared one day. She missed him terribly, but whenever she mentioned father, mother would cry.
Although she didn't understand death, she knew that her father would never come back. After that incident, she never dared to mention her father again.
Now-
My mother is missing too.
She buried herself in Kang Shi's arms and cried sadly.
But she dared not make a loud sound and could only sob quietly.
Kang Shi laughed and said, "How could that be? Your mother is really busy with work. Uncle Kang promises that she will come back to see Nannan in a few days. If she is not sure, Uncle Kang will..."
Before he could finish his words, a shadow fell over his head.
He was half squatting.
Seeing this, he looked up.
It was indeed Ning Yan herself. After not seeing her for a while, she seemed to have aged a lot, but her face was pale, even more bloodless than the moon in the sky. She suddenly appeared in the middle of the night, making people worry whether she was a living person or her ghost.
"Jishou, give it to me."
Hearing the familiar voice, the daughter broke free from Kang Shi's embrace and threw herself at Ning Yan. Her force was not strong, but Ning Yan gasped in pain and her face became even paler.
"But do you miss your mother?"
She held her daughter up steadily.
When Kang Shi stood up, he vaguely saw a familiar thing hanging around Ning Yan's waist. He also had this thing.
Wenxin, monogram.