Stigma (Yi Cong Yin)

Chapter 124: confusion

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Jun Jingxing took a breath and recalled what Sui Yan said a few days ago that he sometimes seemed to be unable to distinguish between dreams and reality, and tentatively said: "Master Hou, you are now... awake and no longer dreaming."

He put his hand on Sui Yan's icy face and said warmly, "It's warm, can you feel it?"

Sui Yan looked at him blankly and murmured, "Am I awake?"

Jun Jingxing grabbed Sui Yan's hand, pricked the pulp of his finger lightly, and said, "Does it hurt?"

Sui Yan shook his head, his voice trembling: "It doesn't hurt, one, it doesn't hurt at all, you're lying to me..."

Jun Jingxing looked back and was sure that there was no will, so he pinched the back of Suiyan's hand and said, "So what?"

The tingling pain spread from the back of his hand down his arm to his mind, Sui Yan was stunned for a long time before gently burying his face in his knees.

Jun Jingxing patted him on the back and comforted: "Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, just wake up and forget it, don't worry."

Sui Yan just shook his head.

Jun Jingxing said: "Sometimes people who are trapped in nightmares will not be able to distinguish between dreams and reality when they first wake up. This is not a very serious symptom. It will be cured after a while, you don't have to think about it."

Sui Yan's shoulders trembled slightly, and after a while he whispered, "I've been sitting here for an hour."

Jun Jingxing was stunned for a moment, his expression a little horrified.

Sui Yan raised his finger and pointed at the candle on the table, his voice trembling: "I watched it burn up little by little, I will never forget it."

The candle slowly slid down the body of the candle, and Sui Yan could even remember how many drops of wax tears fell in total.

Jun Jingxing looked at him with a dazed look of despair on his face. He didn't know how to comfort him, and he didn't dare to leave, so he lit the candle again, dragged the quilt to the inner room, and planned to sleep on the ground tonight.

Sui Yan kept holding his head and shrunk his face into his knees, trembling slightly from time to time, as if his whole body was shrouded in fear.

Jun Jingxing went to support his shoulder and whispered to comfort: "Don't be afraid, you can sleep with me here."

Sui Yan looked at the quilt on the ground, and for a long time he grabbed his sleeve begging and said, "Are you going to leave?"

Jun Jingxing promised: "I won't go anywhere, just call me whenever you want."

Sui Yan stared at him in a daze, only to let go after Jun Jingxing promised him to be on call.

But when Jun Jingxing turned around and was about to leave, he immediately grabbed his sleeve.

Jun Jingxing was not impatient, turned around and said again, "Don't be afraid, it's alright."

Only then did Sui Yan release the strength of his fingers one by one, retracted into the quilt and lay down.

He was like a frightened bird, curled up into a small ball, his eyes full of fear.

But Sui Yan had been seriously ill before, and he was very lethargic since then. He fell asleep again tiredly without holding on to a stick of incense.

Jun Jingxing waited for his breathing to stabilize before sighing lightly.

Early the next morning, Jun Jingxing took the quilt back, heard movement in the bed curtain, and quickly opened the curtain to go in.

"Master Hou?"

Sui Yan didn't know when he woke up, and stared blankly for a long time.

"I woke up?"

Jun Jingxing hurriedly said, "Yes, yes, wake up, it's dawn, look."

He hung the curtains of the bed on the golden hooks on both sides to let Sui Yan see the light outside.

Sui Yan looked at it for a long time before nodding: "I-I see."

Ever since Sui Yan remembered what happened in the dream the night before yesterday, Jun Jingxing has always felt strange. It was okay to have Duan Mingchong when he woke up yesterday, but today Jun Jingxing has seen some clues.

Sui Yan really couldn't tell what was reality and what was dream.

This kind of change should not happen overnight. It should be that after he woke up from a dream last time, he cried for no reason and began to have the most frightening nightmares in a loop, but he couldn't remember. I don't feel so scared to collapse.

Over time, Rao is a normal person. Every night, he is in a place that is so lonely that it is maddening, and it is impossible to tell whether it is reality or not.

Jun Jingxing tentatively said: "The prince should be here soon, so why don't you talk to him."

No matter how Jun Jingxing probed his pulse, he couldn't find any clues, and it seemed that nothing like this happened when Duanming Chongsu was here the night before. A large piece of security, so that he no longer has nightmares.

But when Sui Yan heard this, he immediately grabbed Jun Jingxing's wrist and shook his head desperately: "No, I can't tell him!"

Jun Jing Xing frowned, "But if you endure like this, what will you do if something happens in the future?"

Sui Yan supported his sore hand to get out of bed and get dressed, and said softly, "In short, you can't tell him."

If the Crown Prince knew, nine out of ten he would be sent out of the capital.

Although Sui Yan cherished his life, he always felt that this kind of nightmare could not kill him directly, so he always had a fluke mentality, and it could be delayed one day at a time.

Jun Jingxing: "But..."

"No but." Sui Yan hooked the clothes on the side and draped it over his shoulders, forcing a smile on his pale face, "Don't tell him, I'm fine, nothing at all."

Jun Jingxing looked at his forced smile and hesitated.

Sui Yan put on his clothes, lightly supported the Buddha beads on his wrist, and said, "It's already this hour, is the medicine ready?"

Jun Jingxing was stunned for a moment, then looked at him like a monster.

This is the first time since he knew Sui Yan that he heard him take the initiative to ask for medicine.

Jun Jingxing frowned: "Does it look like you're all right? Even when you were sick before, your face wasn't that ugly."

Sui Yan still said, "It's okay."

This is so hidden.

Duan Mingchong would come to Hou's Mansion every day to see Sui Yan, and at first he could see that Sui Yan's face seemed ugly, but Sui Yan insisted that he was fine, and when he was asked in a hurry, he depended on Jun Jingxing's decoction too bitter.

However, Jun Jingxing was repeatedly ordered by Sui Yan not to tell Duan Mingchong this nonsense, so he had to forcibly endure it, gritted his teeth and took the blame.

Duan Mingchong still had doubts and asked the servants of the Hou residence, but he couldn't come up with a reason, so he had to give up.

It has been half a month since the fiefdoms of Duan Zhisu and Duan Ruwang were settled.

Duan Zhisu was assigned to Rongcheng, an extremely prosperous place, while Duan Ruwang was sent to Yongcheng, where Duan Zhisu stayed for seven years in his previous life.

Duan Zhisu didn't care much, he would go wherever he was assigned, and he was very at ease with the situation.

Before going to the fief, Duan Ruwang stood abruptly outside Duan Lishu's palace all night.

Duan Mingchong had already replaced all the guards in Duan Lishu's hall. Even if Duan Ruwang waited until he died, he would definitely not be able to wait for Duan Lishu to come out to see him for the last time.

Early the next morning, he didn't say goodbye to anyone, he was full of dew, and set foot on the road to Yongcheng.

The emperor once asked him: "Do you hate me?"

Duan Ruwang didn't answer the question, just looked at him indifferently, feeling that this king who had been high for decades, but was now so old that he could barely walk, was ridiculous and pitiful.

But when he left the bustling capital, he suddenly felt that the person who deserved pity was himself.

He has lived in this prosperous capital all his life, and because of hatred, he has turned himself into a lunatic who is not a man or a ghost, and even the only person who truly treats him is pushed away by him.

And at the end, he didn't even dare to ask Duan Lishu a "do you hate me?"

Not even seen one side.

Duan Ruwang sat in the swaying carriage, pulling up the curtains to look at the gradually drifting capital, and after a long time he reached out his hand to cover his eyes.

In this life, it's up to you to blame yourself, you can't help yourself.

It was not until Duan Ruwang left the capital that Duan Mingchong breathed a sigh of relief.

It was already night when he received the reply from the guard. Duan Mingchong was silent for a moment before picking up the cloak beside him and saying, "Prepare the horse and go to the Hou's Mansion."

The palace servants had long been used to running to the Hou residence when His Royal Highness had something to do, so he was not surprised, and immediately went to prepare the horse.

Duan Mingchong rushed out of the palace before the palace gate was locked, and went straight to the Hou residence.

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Hou House.

After nightfall, Jun Jingxing stayed in Suiyan's room as usual, the bed curtain was only halfway down, and when he looked up, he could see the scene on the bed.

Sui Yan lost a lot of weight in the past few days, and was a little absent-minded during the day.

Jun Jingxing repeatedly promised that he would not go anywhere, as long as Suiyan called him, he would appear immediately, and Suiyan hesitantly lay down and fell asleep.

Jun Jingxing went to bed earlier than Suiyan, and read the medical book under the lamp for more than half an hour before hearing the sound of bangers outside.

He put the book on the desk, and was about to go to sleep when he heard Sui Yan's rapid breathing from the bed curtain.

Jun Jingxing was startled and quickly got up to see Sui Yan.

Sui Yan seemed to be having nightmares again, and his breathing was so rapid that he almost thought he was going to die in the next moment.

Jun Jingxing rushed up and pressed Sui Yan's shoulder, and said in a hurry, "Master Hou!"

The sleeping Sui Yan suddenly opened his eyes.

Jun Jingxing breathed a sigh of relief and said, "Master Hou, you have been..."

Before he could finish speaking, Sui Yan gasped slightly and murmured, "Why didn't you come?"

Jun Jingxing was stunned: "What?"

Sui Yan struggled to sit up, and a beam of light poured out from the half of the bed curtain that was not tied up, illuminating his pale face.

Jun Jingxing's pupils shrank slightly.

Sui Yan had long hair loose, and his handsome face was full of despair. He looked at Jun Jingxing with even some resentment in his eyes.

Jun Jingxing was a little surprised: "Master Hou..."

Sui Yan said coldly, "Why didn't you come..."

Jun Jingxing stretched out his hand towards him and murmured, "You..."

Sui Yan shook off his hand and let out a crisp "pop".

Jun Jingxing was stunned, he was about to speak, but saw Sui Yan, who was still indifferent just now, as if he had been punched, suddenly came back to his senses and looked at him in astonishment.

He stared blankly at his hand, and then at Jun Jingxing, before he rushed forward in panic, grabbed the hand that he had just opened, and said anxiously, "Yes, I'm sorry, I didn't mean it, I didn't fight. You, I won't hit you if I hit myself, please..."

Jun Jingxing tried his best to keep his voice soft, and stretched out his hand to hold Sui Yan's shoulder.

Sui Yan was still shaking his head, his eyes were red, and he murmured, "Please don't go, I only found you, don't go..."

Jun Jingxing only felt that his whole heart was about to be pinched by this little ancestor, and after bursts of pain, he took a deep breath and said softly, "I'm not leaving, I've told you many times, I'm not going anywhere. Don't go."

Sui Yan murmured a few more times before raising his head, with panic and despair in his eyes.

Jun Jingxing pressed his shoulder and said word by word, "Forgetting to return, you are awake now, no one has left you, I am true, Suixun is true, and so is the Crown Prince."

Sui Yan looked at him blankly, as if he didn't know what he was talking about.

Jun Jingxing had to repeat it again.

Sui Yan's face became even more confused.

"Yue Jian, what nonsense are you talking about?" Sui Yan's lips trembled, "Isn't my second brother already dead?"

Jun Jingxing was stunned.

Sui Yan said: "Prince, wasn't he also poisoned to death seven years ago?"