The night before, when Fu Cheng and Xu Tingsheng had listened to the story of the female singer of "Blooming Flowers", they walked out of the small bar. Because he found out that Xu Tingsheng had shed tears at some point, Fu Cheng said, "Now, are you going to West Lake City?"
Xu Tingsheng shook his head and said, "I won't go, let's just end it like this. What's good for Apple is also good for me."
Fu Cheng thought that Xu Tingsheng's tears were because of the story of the female singer in the bar, which reminded him of Apple, but in fact, Xu Tingsheng only heard "three years" and "I'm still waiting for him to come back".
It was a story belonging to Xu Tingsheng and Xiang Ning.
Helpless, Fu Cheng no longer insisted on his opinion.
On the streets of Shenghai after one o'clock in the morning, two half-drunk people decided to walk the rest of the way back. A story that happened by accident turned into a dilemma for both sides in the end, and it seems that it can finally end here...
If Xu Tingsheng hadn't received Song Ni's call this evening.
Song Ni said: "Xu Tingsheng, will you come tomorrow? I just asked Apple, but Apple didn't say anything. I'm now in West Lake City, with Apple's assistant. Will you come tomorrow?"
Xu Tingsheng said, "I'm not going."
Song Ni said: "But, but Apple is not doing well right now."
Xu Tingsheng said: "I know, after this period, she will be fine."
Song Ni said: "No, you don't know, what you don't know, it's not just those things, Apple's situation is really bad. So... I'll ask Apple's assistant to tell you."
Apple's assistant took the call. Xu Tingsheng remembered that it was a slightly fat girl. That time in Jiannan, when the Apple company sent a car to pick her up, Xu Tingsheng had seen this girl and her kind smile.
"Hello," she said.
"Hello." Xu Tingsheng said.
"I think Apple is depression, and it can be serious." She said directly.
On the street at midnight, Xu Tingsheng suddenly trembled slightly.
Depression may sound less terrible than those terminal illnesses, but in fact, it is the second killer of human beings after cancer, and millions of people die of depression every year around the world... Some industries with high pressure are the hardest hit .
What Xu Tingsheng heard now is that Apple has suffered from depression, and it may be very serious.
Xu Tingsheng tried his best to adjust himself, and said in a trembling voice, "Why? I mean, how did you judge? Have you been to the hospital for diagnosis?"
"No, I persuaded Apple to see a psychiatrist, but she didn't listen and lost her temper... In fact, she is very good to me, we are like sisters and sisters, she never lost her temper with me.
But, what I can really judge, is depression. Over the past two months, she has changed from being lively and noisy at the beginning to rarely talking, and she hardly sleeps, and only eats a little. She has lost more than 20 catties.
Once I went into her room in the morning and found that she had taken off the sheets and quilt covers and tore them into neat strips. She tore them all night, her nails were broken, and her hands were bleeding. She was still tearing when I went in.
Also, the last time the boss asked her to ask you for a song, she didn't say a word from the beginning to the end. It was the same when the boss was there, and it was the same after she came back. She just sat, didn't sleep, and didn't say a word. Now when I call her, it takes her a long time to respond. "
"I..." Xu Tingsheng didn't know what to say, because the assistant's description was almost conclusive.
"Believe me, I'm really sure," the assistant said eagerly, "because... because, her current situation is very similar to a singer I used to be with, almost exactly the same. She is depressed, and she no longer sings .”
"What's the singer's name?" Xu Tingsheng asked.
"..."
The assistant said the name of a female singer surnamed L, who was once very popular in the mainland. What the assistant said was that she doesn't sing now, and Xu Tingsheng... In his previous life, he saw the news that this female singer finally committed suicide by jumping off a building due to depression.
Since the assistant said that the situation of the two is almost exactly the same, and she herself is the person who gets along with them the most on a daily basis, Xu Tingsheng actually already has the answer.
"I see, I will contact you tomorrow morning."
Xu Tingsheng hung up the phone and sat down along the street with a dull and depressed expression.
"What's wrong?" Fu Cheng asked cautiously.
"Apple suffers from depression." Xu Tingsheng looked up, and after saying this, he kept opening his mouth, but didn't say anything more.
"How is it possible that Apple is so lively, mischievous, rogue, goblin, shameless..." Fu Cheng tried hard to find adjectives about the former Apple. He wanted to find more, because these words are so positive at the moment, so precious.
Indeed, she used to be such a person.
Xu Tingsheng still remembers how she was so smug at the beginning, trying to get close to him with all kinds of tricks, remembering that she was so easy to be satisfied and happy, loved to laugh, play around, and "molested" himself, like a full-fledged evildoer.
The happiest day in her memory was the day when Xu Tingsheng started his university term. She came to send him to school, and then called "husband" and "husband" all day long and messed around all day.
After getting along with each other, even if Xu Tingsheng put on a bad face and said cruel words, she could easily take it over, saying that when you fall in love with me, I will torture you to death. Even if she is sad, she will run into the heavy snow, imitate Bao Meizi's Taekwondo posture, and say "ha".
"But, it seems that I haven't seen that Apple for a long time." Fu Cheng said suddenly.
This sentence reminded Xu Tingsheng that he really hadn't seen that Apple for a long time. I don't know when, Apple stopped messing around with her Xu Tingsheng, and never said naughty things anymore.
She started talking and doing things carefully, and she always ended the conversation with "um" that she didn't really understand.
Fu Cheng sat down beside Xu Tingsheng and said, "Is it serious?"
"It's serious." Xu Tingsheng said.
Seeing his tears, Fu Cheng said, "Don't blame yourself too much. In fact, you can't blame you. The main thing is that circle, and her agency. She is a little girl, and she can't finish it all alone. commercials, the prospect of no chance, possibly some nasty stuff, intrigue, oppressive blows, and…”
Fu Cheng's "and" originally wanted to say that Xu Tingsheng gave the song to Tianyi this time, but seeing Xu Tingsheng's state, he didn't say it.
"Actually, if you really have any responsibility, it's not the responsibility of your feelings. After all, no one can force you to do anything about your feelings. It's just that you didn't give her a window during this time, and you took away her inner support. That's You." Fu Cheng said.
"Actually, everything is because of me, really, everything is because of me." Xu Tingsheng said looking up to the sky.
Fu Cheng thought that Xu Tingsheng was just blindly blaming himself in a state of extreme guilt, so he didn't answer.
No one in this world can truly understand the true meaning of Xu Tingsheng's words. Because that is the truth, it was Xu Tingsheng who changed Apple's original beautiful life trajectory and pushed her to where she is today.
Even unintentionally, the fact is that he caused all this.
In the reborn life, Xu Ting lived very hard, not only for himself, but also for others, so everything seemed to be getting better.
The fortunes of the Xu family turned around and got better and better.
The friends around me also got better results. Song Ni avoided the tragedy, Huang Yaming found the direction, even Fu Cheng and Fang Yunyao, although they are far apart now, still avoided the tragedy of the previous life and had a good time.
Wu Yuewei and Xiang Ning, at least they seem to be better than their previous lives.
Even his roommate Zhong Ming from the previous life avoided a disaster because of Xu Tingsheng.
All of them have become better because of Xu Tingsheng, and maybe they will be better in the future because of Xu Tingsheng.
There is only one person, Apple, only Apple's fate has become so bad, and it is getting worse... because of Xu Tingsheng. Xu Tingsheng ruined her originally beautiful life, and then what? Leaving her alone to face the endgame
Xu Tingsheng owed someone to Xiang Ning in his previous life. I owe one person in this life, Apple.
Xu Tingsheng stood up and stood on the side of the road to stop the car.
"You..." Fu Cheng asked.
"Now I'm going to West Lake City. From now on, I'll take care of her." Xu Tingsheng said.
"What about Xiang Ning?"
What about Xiang Ning? This is a question that Xu Tingsheng can't face: "...Let's listen to the arrangement of fate, maybe there is me, maybe without me. Maybe without me, she will be better."
Fu Cheng will never understand Xu Tingsheng's last words, such as "There is still me".