The three of them sat in the garden downstairs and drank a few cans of Tsingtao beer that Xu Tingsheng bought on the way, even though the wine table that they paid for was full of good wine.
"By the way, when did you figure it out?" Fu Cheng asked.
"When you both hide things from me and don't tell me," Huang Yaming clucked the empty jar and said, "When both of you are in a situation where you know it but don't say it, such as Fu Cheng, you would rather tell me Even after a fight, I didn’t want to speak out. I knew then that I would never go that far.”
Brothers painstakingly persuade you, and they feel that they have no way to persuade you... These are two completely different concepts.
"Why don't you ask me, when and what happened to see it through?" Huang Yaming said again.
"Then when and what did you see through?" Xu Tingsheng cooperated.
"When a person really doesn't love another person, no matter how hard he tries and how careful he is in acting, he can't act well." Huang Yaming first said something cloudy with emotion, and then said:
"As you all know, I often get drunk, and I am sent home, throwing up all over the place. Chen Jingqi used to take care of me, but later, when Tan Qingling came, she left, and Tan Qingling took over to take care of me for a while...
Three days, three days after Tan Qingling took over, the difference came out.
In the past, every time I was drunk, no matter how late I was sent home or helped upstairs... I could always feel that one of the hands and shoulders supporting me was a woman's hands and shoulders, that was Chen Jingqi. When I get home, no matter how late it is, whether I need it or not, she will come downstairs to pick me up and help. Sometimes there are two security guards who take me home, and she takes over from one of them. You say how stupid she is, how can she be as strong as a security guard
Later, three days after Tan Qingling took over, I no longer felt a woman's hand supporting me. I am very drunk, but I know that she must stand far away, because I am dirty and smelly, because there are bar security guards who will send me up anyway.
Also, I have never felt that Chen Jingqi wiped my face before. It was not until Tan Qingling did it a few times that I still felt so painful even if I was drunk, I realized how careful she was before, how gentle and gentle .
Also, I used to wake up clean the next day. Later, sometimes my vomit still stuck to my clothes, and sometimes my neck...
Therefore, when a person really doesn't love another person, no matter how hard he tries and how careful he is in acting, it's actually not good to act. Especially since I don't seem to know anything. "
After finishing the conversation in detail, Xu Tingsheng and Fu Cheng probably understood what Huang Yaming meant. Acting, in fact, can never act out a truly distressing effect, especially in those details that are not obvious and unknown.
It's just that Huang Yaming's expression of nostalgia at this moment and the sourness in his eyes are a little hazy, but he doesn't know whether it's because of Tan Qingling's fake or Chen Jingqi's real.
"That's good. If you don't stay and don't chase after, Chen Jingqi is too wronged. You hurt people too much." Fu Cheng said.
"I just hurt her too much, and I'm afraid of more... I seemed to have no choice, so I thought, why not let her go." Huang Yaming said.
"Then you change it." Fu Cheng said.
"Dogs can't change eating shit." Huang Yaming said so.
Fu Cheng was helpless for a while.
Then he said, "Then have you asked Chen Jingqi? What does she think, maybe she just wants to?"
Huang Yaming stood up and said, "Then I'll ask."
…
Maybe it's his state of mind tonight, let him know how rare and important it is to have someone who loves him so much, Huang Yaming made this decision.
The time was tight, and the car was speeding at full speed on the highway under the night.
"Drive slowly, aren't you afraid of getting into a car accident?" Fu Cheng sat in the back seat and said nervously.
"I'm really not afraid of a car accident," Huang Yaming said, "I'm just afraid that no one will take care of me while lying on the hospital bed."
"Let me do it, you can catch up." In a rest area, Xu Tingsheng grabbed the driver's seat.
When the car arrived at Xihu City Airport, there was still more than half an hour before the plane took off, and Chen Jingqi and her party had already passed the security check. Xu Tingsheng called and called him out...
Chen Jingqi saw Huang Yaming, the two were separated by the security check area, more than ten meters away, she stopped going out.
"I'm not engaged." Huang Yaming looked at her and said.
Chen Jingqi smiled and nodded, not knowing what to say, but she didn't seem surprised.
"In fact, I have always known who is really good to me." Huang Yaming continued.
Chen Jingqi nodded, and began to cry, silently, the tears rolled down one by one.
"Why don't you stay and let's try again?" Huang Yaming finally asked.
Chen Jingqi was taken aback.
At this moment, as if the plot of a TV movie was staged on the spot, the passengers at the airport were excited, and they stood up to watch, whistling and booing, "Stay, stay..."
Chen Jingqi shook her head: "No."
Like the stubbornness of a child, it is simply a word of bravado.
Huang Yaming struggled for a while, and said, "I try to change it?"
Chen Jingqi shook her head: "You won't. Huang Yaming. Why didn't you come to me before?... Was it to get revenge on her?... In fact, you are so smart, I know you know everything and can see through it, so I will wait for you to choose.
It's not waiting for you to choose her or me, it's waiting for you to choose, care or not, my pain.
But you still didn't find me. Even if it's just to expose her and take revenge on her, you have to know that you still made a choice in the process, no matter what the reason is, you chose to hurt me after all. "
"I… "
"I would rather you give up revenge, if you really care about my pain. But you didn't... Among the people you would rather sacrifice in order to accomplish something, including me. Without asking me, you help me choose I was sacrificed. Even if it is only temporarily, it is enough to explain a lot."
What Chen Jingqi said was right, Huang Yaming, who was wronged, stopped talking.
Today, he is no longer the former Huang Yaming who can make her happy with a care and concern.
She is no longer at his mercy.
Once, this woman really loved him very much, she obeyed everything and tried her best. He had an escape, she didn't pursue it, he hurt her, she still loves him, he made a mistake, she chose to believe it again...
Unfortunately, the result remains the same.
There is a type of girl who is willing to endure grievances, hurts, and try her best to please someone because she loves someone, and she is unwilling to let go no matter what. Often such a girl, once she gives up completely, never looks back... because she never dares again.
Huang Yaming opened his mouth.
"You know? The happiest time for me was when you were in the hospital and later in the recovery period. At that time, you couldn't move and you couldn't hurt anyone. You became very cute and obedient. I'm smoking, what's the matter, you always look at me pitifully... pleading."
Huang Yaming said just now, "I'm really not afraid of a car accident, I'm just afraid that no one will take care of me lying on the hospital bed." Now Chen Jingqi said that her happiest time is when she takes care of him lying on the hospital bed.
Chen Jingqi was smiling when she said these words, but the smile disappeared soon, and she said:
"Unfortunately, you are harmless only in that way. The rest of the time, as long as you move, no matter what you say or do, the end result will always hurt people, not just me.
Maybe this kind of you is destined to be very successful, but I am just a very ordinary girl. It is enough for someone to love me and not hurt me, so you are really not suitable for me. "
"Please, don't hurt me again."
Chen Jingqi turned and left without pausing or looking back.
If someone doesn't know what it means to give up. A person who clearly loves, reads, and remembers...but no longer has expectations and longings for the future, no longer has the courage to try...thinking, but not daring, is the real and most thorough giving up.
Huang Yaming walked out of the airport, smiled, and said, "It should be, she is right."
Gu Tong Gu.
The original meaning of Gu is "punishment according to ancient customs", and it is translated as "crime, criminal".
Gu, so alone.
Not all mistakes can be forgiven, and you can look back again and again.