There will be many moments in a person's life that are completely shrouded in certain emotions, such as shame, anger, pain... In fact, if we can face and think with a mentality after years, these emotions will be reduced a lot.
For example, you once hated a classmate so much that you gritted your teeth and filled your heart with anger, but after two or three years, you graduated and separated... This hatred will fade, or even disappear, and transform.
The only thing that does not conform to this logic is nostalgia.
Some people, after you lose them, the number of times you think about him or her will increase countless times. You obviously don't want to think about it, but because of any inadvertent touch, you are completely powerless to stop her (he) from appearing in your heart...
Even if it hurts when you think about it, and you dream when you fall asleep, even if you try your best, you still can't control yourself.
It's been a year since Xu Tingsheng left, and there has been no news, as if the world has evaporated... As far as Xiang Ning is concerned, those unresolved pains are no longer unforgivable, but the beauty, like wine, is getting better and better. concentrated.
Eighteen-year-old Xiang Ning looks back on everything that started when she was fourteen. From the time that person appeared, everything was so beautiful that it didn’t even feel so real... It was like the most illusory and beautiful dream of a girl. Unforgettable, but once you wake up, you no longer have it.
But that was clearly not a dream!
Xiang Ning would walk through the Ning Garden every day, and would see the lights on Xiaoman's waist. She always passes through the places they used to go, and she goes back to the old house and sleeps in his bed. His clothes are still in the wardrobe next to the bed, neatly folded, and his breath is still everywhere in this house.
In fact, the pain gradually became less painful, Xiang Ning's personality has been determined, and she will try to think in a better direction.
Think of him in the distance, think of him by his side.
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July 23, 2008. clear.
I want to tell you a piece of good news. After a year of hard work in the third year of high school, Miss Xiang has been admitted to Yanda University.
The notice is right next to me.
In fact, the principal’s grandfather called me to tell me about this many days ago, but at that time, I was recording songs at Apple sister’s place, so I didn’t have time to tell you. Because I was really nervous to record the song, and I couldn't sing well, and I even cried when I sang... It's so embarrassing.
If you hear me, don't laugh at me. Because Sister Apple and Sister Yuewei didn't laugh at me.
By the way, if you saw that MV, the other two people in the sand painting at the end are the two of them. They want you back too. Don't worry, I'm not jealous now. But when you really come back, I don't know.
I just miss you so much.
From now on, I am waiting for you at Yanzhou University.
Until you come back, the shadow you left there will stay with me.
When the headmaster gave me the admission letter, he asked me why you didn’t go back to school to have a look, and he said, now he is relieved, as long as Yanda detains me, you won’t be afraid of running away .
The principal grandpa also said, welcome me home. Rock University will always be your home, and therefore mine. I'm there and don't have to worry about anything.
I will sit where you sat, read the books you read, walk the road you walked, cross the bridge you crossed... I will listen to the lectures of the old professors who taught you, and listen to them talk about when you were at Rock University , what it looks like.
And what you look like by my side, only I know.
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August 7, 2008. light rain.
It's raining a little today, before it rains, do you know where I am
I went to Riverside Park with Dongdong.
Remember that time you came to save me when I got into trouble because of dongdong
Now, Dongdong is even more mischievous, except that he seems to be afraid of Sister Du Jin, and he is not afraid of anyone. But it is so afraid of Sister Du Jin, so strange... probably because it knows that Sister Du Jin is very powerful.
I took it to the park again, because, I really want to fight...
Then you will show up, right? I know you will.
But, once again, I don't want you to be beaten because of me again.
I want to protect you, uncle.
Are you suffering
are you sad
Xiang Ning wants to hug you, coax you, and protect you.
I now go to the training school to practice taekwondo every day.
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August 19, 2008. Cloudy to sunny.
Today, Huang Yaming and Brother Fu Cheng came to our house.
In fact, they were very kind to me during the time you were not around. I also often go to Teacher Fang's house for dinner. Nian Nian is even more beautiful now, and she has a small mouth, so she can talk.
That is, I want her to call me godmother, but she always calls me sister. So sad!
Sometimes we ask her, do you want to be a godfather? She would look up and say, think, want to be a godfather.
You see, we all miss you.
By the way, let me tell you something secretly.
Can you guess who came to our house the most during this time
You must not guess it, because it is that very fierce guy!
It's Huang Yaming.
Speaking of which, among your friends, he should be the one who hates me the most. Actually, I don't like him a little bit, but the main thing is that I'm afraid, I'm really afraid of him... because he's not only fierce, but also always looks like he really hopes you don't want me.
He still doesn't like to talk to me.
But I know that when you are not around, he is secretly protecting me.
thump thump thump...
The most powerful thing happened.
Hush!
Sister Du Jin seems to like Huang Yaming.
I'm not talking nonsense, I observed carefully, and found that the way sister Du Jin looks at Huang Yaming is completely different from how she looks at you, and it is different from how she looks at anyone... She will be nervous, shy, and Will accidentally look engrossed.
Anyway, with Sister Du Jin, your charm is much worse than that of Huang Yaming.
She always looks like she doesn't care about you, she doesn't even talk to someone as nice as Fu Cheng, but she always sits with Huang Yaming and talks a lot.
To be honest, I am a little worried, because Huang Yaming is so flamboyant, I am afraid that sister Du Jin will be hurt.
No, I almost forgot, Huang Yaming can't beat Sister Du Jin, right? So don't worry.
Tell me, does Huang Yaming also like Sister Du Jin a little bit
I guess there must be something, otherwise, he would not always come to our house... Several times when I came back from outside, he would talk to sister Du Jin in the living room. The two looked embarrassed when they saw me.
In the end, Brother Fu Cheng said that his wedding with Mr. Fang will not be held until you come back.
Then Teacher Fang told me, let him come back soon, if it is later, I will be old.
Come back soon.
My sister, teacher, hasn't even held the engagement ceremony yet, so they must wait for you.
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August 27, 2008.
Received two calls today.
The first call was from Xiao Jinshan. He made me laugh for a long time, but when he finally said he missed you, I could tell that he was crying.
When he was crying, he asked me to tell you, Uncle Xu, where are you now? I'll bring someone to kill you to help you. What's the matter? Thousands of people can't fight with a knife? Is there anyone that our uncle and nephew can't kill
Look at him, he just doesn't learn well, he's only very young, he just looks like a bastard emperor.
You're not here, so the little carp can control him occasionally.
The second call was from Uncle Hu and Uncle He from Star Technology. Oh, they are so annoying, they always say, there is one thing, another thing, in short, there are so many things, and they all say that they must ask my opinion.
But where do I know those things? !
So I thought of a way and recruited a new employee to be my chairman's agent.
Guess who
Yes, our university bully, Sister Yuewei, has graduated from Qingbei University.
She was going to go abroad, but later gave up. As for the reason, let me let you go, let's not talk about it first.
Anyway, I have already tricked her into coming to the stars.
With her here, you must be at ease, right
Me too, very relieved.
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September 2, 2008. clear.
Today, uncles and aunts (parents-in-law), and Qiu Yi (should she be called sister or sister?), they came to see me.
My aunt said that I was going to college soon, and she wrapped me a big red envelope.
They are still going to buy me a car, what should I do? I won't even open it.
By the way, for lunch, uncles and aunts eat with my parents. It was my parents who knew they were coming and ran over to make the meal. They had a great chat.
Guess what they were talking about
Ha, I'm not telling you.
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September 7, 2008. rainstorm.
It's raining heavily today, and I want to hide in your raincoat.
just like before.