Xie He looked at Han Wenqian with tears in his eyes, tightly grasped Han Wenqian's wrist with both hands, and tremblingly said: "Brother..."
Han Wenqian stared down at Xie He's hands. They were very beautiful hands with slender fingers with well-proportioned joints and round nails with pearl-like luster. At this moment, he held his wrist tightly, until the knuckles turned white. The color in Han Wenqian's eyes became darker and darker, suddenly he grabbed Xie He's hand and pressed him directly on the sofa, gently kissing the delicate and beautiful fingers.
Xie He was so weak that he couldn't resist Han Wenqian at all. He was so painful that he was about to lose his mind. He didn't even know what he was doing...
"Help me, I'm going to die..." Xie He raised his neck, breathing rapidly, desperately trying to catch Han Wenqian.
Han Wenqian smiled, he bowed his head and kissed Xie He's eyelashes, a faint smile appeared on his lips, "Don't be afraid, I won't let you die."
Because killing you directly would be too cheap for you.
Han Wenqian's eyes fell on Xie He's faintly exposed neck and collarbone. There were still unfaded traces on Bai Yu's flawless and delicate skin, which were left by him... He couldn't help but think of the young man crying under him at that time. The scene, the color of desire appeared in the eyes again.
He lowered his head and bit Xie He's lips hard!
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Xie He was in a daze, he felt as if he had a very long dream, the beautiful dream faded a little bit... In the end, the severe pain relentlessly tore the remaining illusion, and made his consciousness regain his consciousness little by little.
His hands are tightly grasping the sofa, which is the sofa in Han Wenqian's bedroom... Then who is the person who violated him at this moment, the answer is obvious.
Xie He had a look of deep pain in his eyes. He didn't really remember how he got here. He just couldn't stand it and felt like he was going crazy, but he couldn't find anyone to help him, so he could only find him My brother, always love and protect his brother.
This is the person he has always respected, loved and relied on as an older brother...
But like those men, doing such cruel things to him, Xie He couldn't help but feel sick again when he thought of the nightmarish experience before.
So disgusting... so dirty, why...
Why do those people treat him like this, why...even the people he trusts and relies on the most have to treat him like this...
Han Wenqian's actions made him feel more painful and desperate than those people.
The pain caused by the betrayal and injury of those close to him is far more painful than those who originally harbored malice towards him.
Xie He turned over and rolled off the sofa with the remaining strength!
Han Wenqian didn't expect Xie He to resist suddenly, and he ran away directly. There was a smile on his face, and he looked at Xie He condescendingly, and his voice raised slightly: "Are you awake?"
Xie He stared at him, with tears in his red eyes, he said, "Why?"
Han Wenqian smiled. He put on his clothes slowly, adjusted his collar, and said to Xie He: "I said, asking me to help requires a price."
Xie He clenched his teeth tightly, his body was shaking, this is not the brother he remembered, this person... so strange, so terrifying.
The elder brother in his memory would not look at him with such a ruthless and joking expression, would not demand a price from him, would not bear to see him sad, let alone hurt him... But the man in front of him only had indifference in his eyes, he no longer Believe in him, no longer love him.
He is no different from those people outside, like Zhou Yuebin.
Why is he so sad in his heart... so sad that he can't breathe, this is the person he loves the most, but he can hurt him so mercilessly.
Xie He closed his eyes in pain. He knew that some words were self-defeating, but he still couldn't help but want to confirm and grab the only glimmer of hope. Xie He raised his eyes, and in the clear black eyes A faint light of water emerged, and a hoarse voice came out: "You... are my brother..."
Tell him he didn't abandon him...he's still the brother who loves him.
Han Wenqian looked at Xie He, and the young man fell to the ground in embarrassment. He was obviously tortured and bruised, but he still asked him with the slightest hope... He wanted to get an answer that would make him feel at ease, and he wanted to get the last comfort in despair.
But when I questioned you with my last hope in that life, why didn't you give me the answer I wanted to hear
Han Wenqian let out a deep laugh, and there was a little self-deprecating in that voice, but Xie He didn't hear it.
He said: "Don't be joking, you are just a kid adopted by my Han family. If you treat you better, you will have no self-knowledge... Are you worthy of being my younger brother?"
Xie He's face instantly turned pale.
At this moment, he no longer had any self-deceiving fantasies, and Han Wenqian's words finally shattered his last hope.
He told him himself that he was just a plaything of the Han family.
From the day he came to the Han family, he knew his identity. Although he was still very young at that time, he had already remembered his biological parents enough to understand that these were not his relatives.
A frightened child came to a strange family and lived cautiously. He shouldn't have many fantasies... It's just that Han's father and Han mother treated him very well, the kind Han mother and the majestic Han father, and there is a man who has been shielded from childhood. Looking at his brother, all this is so beautiful... This beauty lasted for sixteen years.
Sixteen years have allowed him to open up his heart little by little and integrate into this family. He is so grateful for everything they have given him now.
It is precisely because I am not a relative that I am even more grateful.
He feels that he is so lucky, it is a gift from God to be here, so he has always wanted to be an obedient, well-behaved good boy, he doesn't want to lose their love, he doesn't want to disappoint them, he doesn't want...
He has worked so hard, but because he made a mistake once, he is forced to make another mistake.
He lost everything that he had carefully guarded for sixteen years.
It's obviously not what he wants to become like this, and he doesn't want to be like this, he doesn't want to have his life ruined, he doesn't want to be raped by those men, he doesn't want to be treated as a person with bad morals... He doesn't want to be like this...
But Han Wenqian doesn't care at all, what he wants is probably a clean and well-behaved younger brother, not a dirty thing like him.
Xie He let out a miserable laugh... He slowly got up from the ground, ignoring what was dripping from between his legs, he said to Han Wenqian: "I see, thank you for telling me this."
In this way, he no longer has to have any illusions, and can return to reality.
Xie He picked up his clothes and put them on. When he walked to the door, he couldn't help but look back at Han Wenqian. That look seemed to condense all his hope and love, and he was still deeply nostalgic... Finally, it turned into a piece There was a dead silence, and then he pushed the door and walked out.
Han Wenqian kept watching Xie He leave and closed the door.
The last look of Xie He looking back at him kept appearing in front of his eyes, and suddenly his heart was clenched. What is that inexplicable suffocating emotion that wants to drown him
Isn't that what he wants? A little bit of pain was imposed on Xie He's body, making him desperate.
From the moment he was reborn, he kept brewing these words, vowing to speak the most ruthless language to the person who betrayed him, hurt him first, and never give him any chance to hurt himself.
But why, my heart still hurts
[Ding, target Han Wenqian favorability +10, blackening value -10, current favorability 50, blackening value 50]
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Xie He returned to his bedroom, closed the door, and went to bed.
[Xie He: My brother is definitely 18 centimeters, I am very happy. Smile JPG]
[444: O(∩_∩)O~]In order to make the host feel better, he only went shopping after helping him stay awake!
[Xie He: Baby, have you been serious about helping me monitor him recently?]
[444: Yes! (⊙v⊙)]
[Xie He: How is it?]
[444: In addition to taking time to deal with you, he has been secretly investigating Qin Ye. It is estimated that the deployment is almost time to attack Qin Ye.]
[Xie He: Very good, Xiao Qin is not a good quarrel, I will pay close attention to the movements of these two people, and when they really fight, Xiao Qin should come to see me.]
[444: Ah... If Han Wenqian sees you meeting, won't he turn black again_(:зゝ∠)_]
[Xie He: Baby, have you ever heard a word?]
[444: What...]
[Xie He: The person who needs to tie the bell to untie the bell:)]
[Xie He: Xiao Qin must be seen, but before that, I can still play with my love brother for a while, after all, I haven't slept enough with him.]
[444:...]
Xie He locked himself in the room for another whole day, and when the night was quiet, he quietly walked to the opposite piano room.
The white piano was placed there quietly. Music is his favorite thing. He likes this piano very, very much. I still remember how happy he was when Han Wenqian gave it to him as a gift. .
Xie He stretched out his hand and gently stroked the keyboard, looking at the black and white keys... with a sad look in his eyes.
After a long time, he seemed to have made some decision, walked to the door of Han Wenqian's room, and knocked lightly on the door.
After a while, Han Wenqian came over and opened the door in his pajamas. Under the dim light, the man's face looked cold and ruthless.
Xie He opened his mouth and made a hoarse voice: "I... have something to say to you."
Han Wenqian turned his head and said lightly, "Come in."
Xie He walked into Han Wenqian's room, clenched his hands tightly, trembling slightly, finally, as if making up his mind, he said: "I... want you to help me quit... I don't want to continue like that."
He can't give up on himself, he still has dreams and pursuits, he still wants to continue playing the piano and the music he loves...
He didn't want to let his life sink like this, even if it was destined to be a tragedy, he still wanted to struggle one last time.
The corner of Han Wenqian's mouth curled up, "Yes, I will send you to the rehab tomorrow."
Xie He's lips turned white, he shook his head, his eyes were red: "I don't want to go there, and I don't want to be known by others... Can you help me? Help me, I can promise you anything... "
Han Wenqian looked at him steadily, and after a few seconds, he said, "Do you know what you are promising?"
Xie He's eyelashes trembled and said, "I know."
Han Wenqian narrowed his eyes slightly, what made this young man who was already on the verge of collapse persevere? Forget it, you delivered it yourself, even though you were originally in my pocket.
Han Wenqian said meaningfully: "Okay."
Xie Hewenyan finally breathed a sigh of relief. He was very worried that Han Wenqian would not help him, so he could only choose to sink into desperation, or expose his scandal and be sent to forced withdrawal, which he could not accept.
Xie He looked up at Han Wenqian and said softly, "Thank you."
Han Wenqian's eyes were fixed, but he didn't expect this thank you. Why was Xie He still able to say thank you to him when he was treated like this... Shouldn't he be resentful and hate him
However, when he looked at Xie He's clear eyes, he suddenly understood.
Xie He no longer takes his help for him for granted, no longer regards him as the big brother who loves him unconditionally, but just a ruthless person who will hurt and ask for it, because he no longer has extravagant expectations, so he will not resent, will not If you feel unfair, you will only take it for granted.
Because there is a price to be paid for getting help.
Han Wenqian wanted to understand this, his face suddenly turned cold, "Get out."
Although Xie He didn't know why Han Wenqian was suddenly angry again, he didn't intend to ask or show any displeasure, and turned around and walked out silently.
Han Wenqian watched Xie He's back disappear, and suddenly punched the wall, really...
Hehe... The so-called favorite brother, why didn't he struggle any more, why did he accept his fate so easily... It was so easy to let go, that's why he betrayed him so easily back then.
He also didn't treat him as real family at all.
[Ding, Han Wenqian's blackening value +20, current favorability is 50, blackening value is 70]
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[444: The host is big, did you deliberately stimulate him just now... _(:зゝ∠)_]
[Xie He: Yes, you have seen all of this. Smile JPG]
[444:...]
[Xie He: What's the fun in reducing the blackening value so simply? How can it be profound when you don’t do a little more after you die and regret it? There is no reason to give up halfway after starting the capital city. I am not happy if he wants to stop.]
[444: ...] I'll go, he really wants to know if other systems have encountered such a host!
[Xie He: And the blackened love brother is very energetic in his work, I like it:)]
[444: O(∩_∩)O~]He thinks this should be the key point...
The next day Han Wenqian took the initiative to come to Xie He, took out a box of medicine, and said: "Take two pills when you have an attack, and you can't take more."
Xie He had endured a little discomfort, nodded hurriedly, and was about to reach out to take the medicine in Han Wenqian's hand, but before touching it, Han Wenqian took his hand back, and looked at him coldly with playful eyes.
Xie He froze his hands, and looked at Han Wenqian with worry and fear.
Han Wenqian stared at Xie He's face. Although he loved him for more than ten years and always knew that this younger brother was very sweet, he had never had any other thoughts about him until... now.
After tasting that wonderful taste, I can't forget it.
The young man's body, the sound he made when he was in pain and happiness, his clear eyes covered with water mist looking at you... all made him unforgettable, and he constantly longed to have it again.
Han Wenqian slightly opened his thin lips, and said a few words: "Take off your clothes."
Xie He's face turned pale, and he suddenly understood what Han Wenqian meant. He paused for a moment, then reached out tremblingly and pinched the button of his collar... lowered his eyelashes, hiding his shame and sadness.
This is the price he already knew he had to pay. He told himself that it was nothing at all. Anyway, this body is so dirty, who is it not for sleeping? It doesn't matter at all, it doesn't matter...
This world is cruel, if you want something, you have to pay the price.
The beauty before was just a dream, this is the real reality.
Han Wenqian looked at the young man in front of him, took off his clothes little by little, revealing his delicate and beautiful body, finally stopped suppressing himself, pinched his neck and kissed his lips.
You are mine, no matter past life or present life, don't even think about betraying me and running away from me.
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From that day on, Han Wenqian kept asking for Xie He, and Xie He never resisted. He couldn't do without Han Wenqian's help.
The withdrawal process is very painful, but in order to be on stage, to continue playing the piano, and to continue the music he loves, he can endure everything... Music has become the only sustenance in his heart, and the only thing that can bring him peace.
Xie He no longer stayed behind closed doors, but went downstairs to eat as usual, and greeted Father Han and Mother Han with his usual expression.
Even Han Wenqian didn't expect this fragile and vulnerable young man to show such a resilient side. He once thought he would choose to commit suicide.
But in fact he persisted.
Xie He behaved as usual during the day, and stayed in Han Wenqian's room at night. Han Wenqian really fulfilled his promise, as long as Xie He was obedient, he would help him.
After a few days like this, Xie He finally received a call from the senior. Xie He's cell phone had been turned off all the time. The senior finally found out his phone number at home and asked him why he didn't come to school after taking leave for so long. The month's performance was approaching, but he didn't participate in several rehearsals, let alone come to school to practice, and even the teacher was a little angry.
That night, Han Wenqian hugged Xie He and bit his earlobe. He found himself more and more addicted to this young man. There had never been anyone before who could attract his attention and mind like this.
[Ding, target Han Wenqian favorability +5, current favorability 55, blackening value 70]
Xie He was paralyzed, he was obediently lying in Han Wenqian's arms, his eyelashes were still covered with mist, his eyes were empty, after a while, he made a low voice, said: "I... want to go back to school go, can you?"
Han Wenqian smiled softly: "Of course."
Xie He's eyes lit up for a moment, but when he thought of his current situation, his eyes became gloomy again. He couldn't do without Han Wenqian. After being silent for a long time, Xie He's face showed humiliation, and he begged in a low voice, "I... I'll come back to you at night, okay?"
Han Wenqian pinched his chin, kissed his lips, and said, "It seems that I'm so fucking good at you, you can't live without a man all night."
There was a look of humiliation and sadness in Xie He's eyes. This person knew why, but he still wanted to humiliate him by saying such words...
Han Wenqian jokingly opened the corner of his mouth: "Go, I will pick you up after school."
Xie He nodded stiffly and closed his eyes tiredly.
When it was almost dawn, Xie He quietly left and returned to his bedroom. In order not to be noticed by Han's father and Han's mother, he always went there at night and came back in the morning.
Yeye endured unimaginable pain, torture and humiliation, but dared not be discovered by anyone.
Such dark days feel like years.
When Xie He came to the school again, he felt like a world away.
He stood blankly at the school gate for a while, and then went to meet his teacher. His teacher Xu Guokun is an internationally renowned pianist. He took Xie He as his student because of his talent and hard work. He is very caring and supportive. If it is not for the teacher, he would not have the opportunity to perform at the Royal Concert Hall of S country.
Xie He looked at the teacher apologetically, and said, "I'm sorry, I was sick a while ago and haven't come to school."
Xu Guokun has always felt that this disciple is humble, sensible, diligent and hard-working, not only talented but also good-natured, so he is very important to him, who knows that this time he disappeared without saying a word for more than ten days, not long before May, so good He was very angry that he didn't seize the opportunity but acted recklessly! But looking at Xie He's whole body thinner, his eyes were blue and black, and his thin cheeks made people feel distressed. Thinking of his previous cuteness, he couldn't express his temper... Maybe he was really sick.
Xu Guokun sighed: "Next time, if there is anything, at least say hello."
Xie He nodded again and again, and said in a low voice: "I see."
Xie He's attitude of admitting his mistakes was so good, Xu Guokun stopped talking about him, "Go, don't let me down."
Xie He respectfully bid farewell to the teacher, and went to the rehearsal place again. The other students saw Xie He's appearance and asked him very concerned. The well-behaved Xie He has always been liked by everyone. It looks like everyone is worried.
Xie He looked at the sincere concern in the eyes of these students, and couldn't help the soreness in his eyes. He smiled: "Thank you, I'm fine now."
As he said that he lowered his eyes and didn't want others to see his fragile appearance, all this made his heart feel warm again. It turns out that there are still some people in this world who have not changed, and not everyone has abandoned him... So he It must be able to persist.
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When Xie He left the school, it was already five or six o'clock. When he was about to walk out of the school gate, he heard someone calling him from behind.
Shu Yan ran over wearing a light yellow dress, panting, her eyes widened angrily, and said angrily, "Lin Xin!"
Xie He looked at Shu Yan, feeling guilty in his heart, he turned his head and didn't dare to look at her.
Shu Yan stared at Xie He, "You haven't called me for so long, don't you know if I will be worried? I heard that you are sick and no one can contact you... that's fine, but you came to school today why? Don't come to see me?!"
Xie He looked at Shu Yan, this was his first girlfriend... He had a relationship with her very seriously.
But how could he open his mouth to tell her about his current experience? So dirty and ugly... It's not that he didn't think about Shu Yan, but he didn't have the face to face her, the girl he loved.
Shu Yan looked at Xie He's silence, her eyes turned red, and tears flowed down, "You...you don't like me anymore, do you? You are avoiding me..."
Seeing Shu Yan's sad appearance, Xie He really wanted to go up to comfort her and wipe away her tears, but before he reached out his hand, he remembered the gestures he had been played by men... use these hands to touch what he likes Pure girl, he felt it was an insult to her.
Xie He didn't reach out his hand, for a long time, he said: "I don't like you anymore, let's break up."
When Shu Yan heard this sentence, her beautiful eyes revealed an expression of disbelief, "You..."
Xie He said, "I'm sorry."
Shu Yan covered her mouth, tears could not stop flowing, she turned around and ran out suddenly.
Xie He looked at the back of Shu Yan leaving, thinking of her crying, chest tightness, he actually didn't want to break up, he wanted to be with her properly, he even planned their lives after graduation.
But it's useless, sometimes... You must know how to let go for the person you like.
Xie He stood still, he couldn't see Shu Yan's back for a long time, but he was still reluctant to leave, until the sky was dark, Xie He turned around slowly, and suppressed the sadness in his eyes.
He must go back tonight.
However, before he took two steps, he saw Han Wenqian in a black windbreaker, leaning against the car door and staring at him for an unknown amount of time.