Xiao Yan looked at the torn jade pendant on the ground, and met Xie He's cold eyes, his body became stiff inch by inch... Even if he hurt Xie He like that before, Xie He was just afraid of him, just didn't trust him, never like now So... extremely indifferent... like looking at a person he hates...
At this moment, he suddenly understood that he really lost this person.
Xie He looked at Xiao Yan, exhausted all his strength, and slowly said: "My lord, please don't appear in front of me again."
After speaking, he grabbed the crutches beside him, stood up slowly, and walked out with difficulty.
If it was normal, Xiao Yan would have gone over to help, but now he stood there and found that he couldn't move. Xie He's cold words and eyes were like a knife cutting him inch by inch, telling him that he was totally unworthy of forgiveness...
There is no right to ask for forgiveness.
In the end Xiao Yan watched Xie He pass him by helplessly, leaving him alone in the room.
He stood motionless for a long time, then slowly bent down, and picked up the pieces of jade pendant on the ground. The sharp edge of the pieces cut his palm, but he didn't realize it. He clenched his hands tightly, and the blood flowed down his fingers. The cracks flowed down, and the pain reminded him that he must face the cruelest reality.
There are no eternal secrets in this world, Xiao Yan has always understood this, he is not the kind of person who likes to take chances, but this time... because he is too afraid of losing, so he indulges in the illusion with such unrealistic expectations extricate oneself...
But the day finally came.
Xie He walked out step by step, his eyes were blank, he was stopped when he was about to reach the gate, he can go anywhere in the palace, but he can't go out.
He didn't resist shouting, didn't even show anything, and walked back calmly, back to his room.
Xie He sat on the edge of the bed, he closed his eyes, and those things that he was about to forget many years ago were rummaged out from the dusty depths of his memory. He thought of his elegant father, and his gentle and virtuous mother. Love him so much... They are also the people he loves and respects the most.
When he was living in the brothel, he had blamed them, why did he do such a wrong thing, and why he abandoned him so ruthlessly, and let him live alone in the world to suffer for them.
He couldn't figure it out.
Later, when Xiao Yan told him that his father was innocent and his parents died unjustly, he, who had endured so many years of suffering, could no longer complain about injustice. Such an answer is enough.
He can't go back to the past, but at least when he dies, he doesn't have to be unwilling and regretful anymore, at least when he dreams, he can still see his parents smiling at him.
His request was already so humble, but now someone told him... It was all his fault.
If it wasn't for him, his parents wouldn't have died, his father wouldn't have to bear the infamy, and he wouldn't have been reduced to a brothel and become a lowly young man...
"Father, mother, I'm sorry..." Xie He muttered to himself, a flash of determination flashed in his eyes.
In fact, he has always understood that it is the prince who is corrupt and perverts the law and kills innocent people indiscriminately, not Xiao Yan. Xiao Yan didn't know that such a thing would happen, and even avenged him, so he couldn't blame Xiao Yan... what he hates the most In fact, it was himself, hating himself for harming his parents, hating himself for making everything like this...
But even so... He couldn't accept Xiao Yan, because it would always remind him of the mistakes he made.
He also finally understood why he had to suffer such a crime, which he deserved.
Xie He opened the corner of his mouth and smiled lightly. He picked up the tea cup in his hand and threw it on the ground, then picked up a fragment and cut it on his wrist.
Stay here, trample on the bones of his parents, and be Xiao Yan's concubine as if nothing had happened, enjoying the glory and wealth
No... he doesn't want to.
It's him who deserves to be damned. If parents are alive, seeing him so shameless, I don't know how disappointed they would be...
Xie He threw away the fragments in his hands, and the blood from his wrists gushed out crazily. He lay quietly on the bed, put down the curtains, and closed his eyes with a calm expression.
[444: Ah, host, what are you doing QAQ]
[Xie He: Baby, what are you excited about? It's just a mere wrist cut, and you won't die for a while, but the effect of covering the bed with blood is very good, Xiao Xiao will definitely feel distressed when he sees it. Smile JPG]
[444:...]
[444: But why did you do this, I almost thought you were going to marry him... _(:зゝ∠)_]
[Xie He: Baby, you don't understand this. When a man lies and conceals and feels guilty towards you, he will do everything he can to treat you better. This is out of a mentality of making up for it. Xiao Xiao behaved very well before, but if I really do what he wants To become his concubine, it will take a long time to get the next two points of favorability. I have always been a person who pays attention to efficiency. I am not interested in playing couple love games with him for 2 points of experience. The fastest way is to expose him directly. The lies forced him to face the reality, throw away his luck, and make the final choice. It's time for him to learn to face the bleak life :)]
[444: Then what will he do? QAQ]
[Xie He: cold salad.]
[444:...]
[Xie He: Just kidding, what else can he do other than let me go, is it possible to watch me die? Baby you really need to use your brain. Smile JPG]
[444:... _(:зゝ∠)_]
[Xie He: So, it is interesting to say that love must be magnificent. As long as Xiao Yan lets me out of the house, the prince's people will have a chance to fight back. They tried their best to pass the news to Song Heng and let him provoke me and me Xiao Yan, I definitely can't let them down. Although the prince only exists in a few words, but such a cooperative god assists, although he has never met but has been friends for a long time, I am very grateful to him:)]
[444:...]
[Xie He: Well, I'm sleepy, I'll sleep first:)]
[444: O(∩_∩)O~]
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Xiao Yan went back to the study, took out the brocade box, gently wiped off the blood on the pieces of the jade pendant, then carefully put the pieces into the box, and put them together again.
He stared at the deep cracks on the jade pendant in front of him, reappearing the broken scene at that moment again and again.
What was broken was not only this jade pendant, but also the last bond between him and Xie He... It can no longer be made up.
Xiao Yan got the news that Xie He tried to leave the house, but he went back by himself after being stopped, with a heavy heart.
He remembered what Xie He said, and he said that he should never appear in front of him again.
He knew he would never forgive him again...
Xiao Yan sat there, without moving his body for a long time, like a statue, until it was getting late, someone came to ask Xiao Yan for instructions, saying that Xie He closed the door and ignored anyone, and they didn't even eat. Dare to trespass, what should I do
Xiao Yan finally rolled his eyes, he was silent for a long time, stood up with a stiff body, and said in a deep voice, "I'll go and have a look."
The door of Xie He's room was closed tightly, and it was very quiet inside. Xiao Yan gently pushed the door open, walked in with heavy steps, and his jaw was tense.
Xiao Yan walked around the screen and saw that the curtains on the bed had been lowered. His eyes moved down, and then his expression suddenly changed! He suddenly stretched out his hand to open the curtain, the scene in front of him made his pupils constrict and his hands trembled.
Xie He lay quietly on the bed with his eyes closed, with his left hand on his side, blood stained the whole bed, like a blooming peony, against his beautiful and delicate face, with an indefeasible beauty, so beautiful.
Xiao Yan quickly tore off his sleeves and tied Xie He's wrists tightly, then sternly shouted: "Come here, go and invite the imperial physician!"
He stood by the bed, reaching out tremblingly to caress Xie He's cheek, his movements were very light, lest the person in front of him would disappear under his touch... You don't want to stay by my side, you would rather Suicide, you don't want to look at me again, do you
In your eyes, I am the source of all tragedies brought to you...
I'm sorry, wake up, I'll let you go, okay
Xiao Yan's eyes were full of pain and struggle. He had never loved someone so much in his life, but he was destined not to have it.
He held his hand tightly, and the unhealed wound oozes blood again. Just when he was about to despair, the imperial doctor finally came.
The imperial doctor saw that Xiao Yan's hands were dripping with blood, and then looked at Xie He who was in a pool of blood. He was shocked and sweated nervously. The injury, if Xie He died today, I am afraid that the prince will anger him!
As an imperial doctor, seeing these nobles seems to be a good thing, but it's not like walking on eggshells, who knows when they will be killed.
The imperial doctor took out his own medicine box, quickly gave Xie He an injection to stop the bleeding, and then made a careful diagnosis and treatment, and finally confirmed that Xie He's life was not in danger. Although he lost a lot of blood, he found it in time, and at least he saved his life.
The imperial physician wiped the cold sweat from his forehead, and said to Xiao Yan: "Your Majesty, don't worry, the young master is fine, but he has lost too much blood and needs to be recuperated."
Xiao Yan finally let go of the tense nerves just now when he heard the imperial physician's words. No matter what, Xie He is still alive.
As long as you can watch him live, it doesn't matter if you keep him by your side...
Don't want to let go, it's time to let go.
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When Xie He woke up, he found himself being held in Xiao Yan's arms. He pushed lightly, his eyes filled with indifference.
Xiao Yan didn't sleep well at first, so he woke up immediately. He looked at Xie He's cold eyes, and his heart was full of bitterness. Up to now, any self-deception is in vain. In the end, he just said: "You Woke up."
Xie He ignored him, he turned his eyes away, struggling to get away from Xiao Yan.
Xiao Yan didn't try to stop him, he just said a word, Xie He didn't move, he said: "I let you go."
From now on, as long as you can live well, it doesn't matter if you are my wife or not by my side? As long as you live... If I can only leave your body behind, then I choose to let you go.
[Ding, target Xiao Yan's favorability degree +1, current favorability degree 99]
Xiao Yan stretched out his hand and gently supported Xie He, with a gentle expression and a low voice, "Don't worry, I will let you go now, and I have prepared your residence for you. It is far away from the palace, so don't worry that you will run into him when you go out." I."
Xie He's eyelashes trembled, and some waves finally appeared in his eyes.
Xiao Yan said slowly again: "But you are not in good health now, I have assigned a few servants to serve you, don't refuse, just treat it as my compensation for you... I will give you all their deeds of prostitution, From now on, it's just yours."
Xie He remained silent, and did not refuse in the end. He knew that a few servants were not worth mentioning to Xiao Yan, and his own refusal might make him change his mind.
Seeing that Xie He accepted it, Xiao Yan shut his mouth and stopped talking. He didn't prepare too many things that were too ostentatious. He only prepared a few boxes and a few servants, mostly gold, silver and medicinal materials. Xie He's health is not good. If you are not in the palace, you have to take good care of it.
He personally sent Xie He to the sedan chair, and then watched him go away without following.
It's just... standing there for a long time without leaving.
Xie He sat in the sedan chair, did not look out, his expression was indifferent, after a long time, the sedan chair finally stopped, and a maid respectfully helped Xie He down.
Xie He raised his head, and saw the plaque on the mahogany gate, two vigorous and powerful characters: Cui Fu.
He stared at those two words, and suddenly his eyes became moist again.
He finally left the palace as he wished, got his freedom as he wished, and even got the 'Cui's Mansion' again, just like when his parents were still there, but now this Cui's Mansion, he is the only one...
Things are different.
Xie He walked into the courtyard, it wasn't particularly big inside, but the room was clean and elegantly decorated.
Xie He lived here and stayed behind closed doors. There are quite a few people who know him in this capital, and many dude sons are his benefactors. Even if he now has his own real name and identity as a good citizen, in the eyes of others, he is also It's still the famous No. 1 card in the Xunhuan Building, which only provokes ridicule.
His father was such a noble person, if he knew that there was such a son of an Israeli servant, he would feel speechless to face his ancestors even if he died.
Sure enough, Xiao Yan didn't go to see Xie He again. He understood Xie He's mood. As long as he saw him, he would think of everything he had encountered. Because he saved a person with good intentions, but was innocently involved in party disputes, his family was ruined, and he himself was reduced to a brothel. , how can it be accepted...
Although he didn't go to see him, he always paid attention to Xie He's every move, and paid close attention to the secret reports of his subordinates every day. Xie He had a few mouthfuls of food today, what kind of food he used, when did he sleep, did he wake up at night, and said What did you say...
He can only describe Xie He's appearance in his mind through these few words, as if he is still by his side.
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Xie He didn't see Xiao Yan again, but one day another guest was ushered in, it was Qi Qing.
Qi Qing took the risk of bringing Song Heng into the mansion, and told Xie He the truth. Xiao Yan was very furious. He thought Xiao Yan would kill him, but no... Xiao Yan finally just expelled him from the palace.
Qi Qing knew that he survived because Xiao Yan was looking at Xie He's face, even if Xie He didn't know, he didn't want to do anything that would make him feel sad again.
When Qi Qing came over, Xie He just got up not long ago, he didn't seem very surprised, and said softly: "Master Qi."
Xie He's expression looked quite calm, but Qi Qing could see the vicissitudes in those eyes. He was obviously still young, but he had experienced the most hardships in the world. In his short life, pain occupied most of it. , I can't help feeling sorry.
Qi Qing told Xie He the truth impulsively at the time, and later heard that he committed suicide, and he didn't regret it in his heart. At the beginning, he thought that if he didn't tell Xie He, he would know in the future, and he might not be able to accept the result, and would be even more sad, but he said... In fact, he would be just as sad.
It's just the difference between morning and evening.
Qi Qing was silent for a moment, and said: "I... am no longer in the palace. I just stopped by today to take a look. If you need help in the future, don't forget me as a friend."
Xie He paused and said, "Okay."
Qi Qing said again: "I live not far from you, if you have time, you can also sit with me."
The two talked for a while, like ordinary friends, they understood that there is no possibility for each other, Xie He can no longer accept others easily, Qi Qing can't take advantage of others, he can't disturb his peaceful life.
Qi Qing didn't stay for long, and finally took a deep look at Xie He and said, "Then I'm leaving."
Xie He stood up and watched him leave. When he was about to go out, he said softly: "Don't blame yourself, I am very grateful that you told me the truth."
Qi Qing froze for a moment, he nodded, turned and left.
He walked a long way before stopping, fearing that his reluctance would be seen when he turned around just now, but these were not what Xie He wanted.
In fact, he should be the one to say thank you, thank you for his thoughtfulness and gentleness.
Even though they can't be together, Xie He is the only one he wants to protect at all costs.
[Ding, Qi Qing's favorability +5, current favorability is 100]
Xie He returned to his room, closed the door, and lazily went to bed.
[Xie He: Xiaoqing's favorability has been maxed out, it's time to take a trip as soon as you say it. Smile JPG]
[444: (⊙v⊙) Well, what about Xiao Yan's favorability?]
[Xie He: Baby, I'm just preparing to brush him up. It's going to be moldy here all day long. How can I continue to brush up favorability without giving him a chance to get in touch with me?]
[Xie He: I see that the prince's remnant party is also impatient to wait. They know that I am so important to Xiao Yan, and they will definitely try their best to attack me. After all, it is very difficult to directly deal with Xiao Yan. I am ready to give They gave away their heads :)]
[444:...]
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On the second day after Qi Qing visited, Xie He called his housekeeper and said that he was leaving the capital and going back to Jiangzhou.
The housekeeper was very surprised, and persuaded Xie He not to move, so he had to pack his luggage as required, and at the same time quickly sent a secret letter to Xiao Yan.
Xie He didn't care about his servant's small thoughts, he just didn't want to stay in this sad place anymore, leave here, leave all this unbearable looking back, and go back to the place where his parents are. He misses them, just worried that his parents don't want to see him...
They didn't have many things, and they finished packing soon. The housekeeper prepared a very comfortable carriage for fear of bumping Xie He, and helped Xie He get into the car. The group left the city before dawn.
Xiao Yan followed behind on horseback from a distance. He had received the news long ago, and no one stopped Xie He. It was not easy for Xie He's life to return to peace. He must do his best to protect all of this, and he must not destroy it again because of his selfishness. , but he was really worried and reluctant, so he followed and escorted him from a distance.
Xie He was weak, they were not walking fast, they did not have time to reach the next station, and they camped in the forest for a night on the way.
Xiao Yan hadn't seen Xie He with his own eyes for a long time, he stood far away, staring at that side intently.
The soft and frail young man got off the carriage with the help of his servants. He hadn't seen him for a while, and he seemed to have lost weight again. Did those servants serve him wholeheartedly... Because the night was cool, the young man was wearing a thick fox fur, but he still Dong's face was a little pale, Xiao Yan really wanted to go up and hug him, but he knew that if he went, Xie He would only be sad, and would think of those sad things... so he held back.
That night Xiao Yan stood there watching, because he was afraid of being discovered, he didn't start a fire, and the subordinates behind him didn't dare to say anything. Fortunately, they were all strong bodyguards, so they wouldn't get sick from the cold.
Xiao Yan followed Xie He like this for three days, and the guards behind him finally couldn't help but persuade: "My lord, it's time to go back, you have been away for a long time." Now the situation in the capital is uncertain, and the prince's remnant party is dying and cannot leave Xiao Yan's seat.
Xiao Yan also knew that he should go back. After sending it so far, it should be fine. He just thought that he would not be able to see his loved one again for a long time in the future, and even letters about him would have to wait for many days before receiving them. When I arrived, I couldn't bear to leave.
Xie He and the others passed through a forest that day, and suddenly the ground in front of them collapsed, the horse neighed, and a group of vicious men rushed out with knives! The servants around Xie He are all skilled, but the other party has long been prepared to have a large number of people, and they are still quickly beheaded!
Xie He lifted the curtain of the carriage, and saw the butler who had been taking care of him was pierced in the chest by a sword! Before he died, he widened his eyes and said to him: "My lord, run away!"
Xie He looked at the tragic scene in front of him, trembling all over, and his eyes were sad and angry. Although these people were all given to him by Xiao Yan, they have always taken care of him very carefully, especially the housekeeper, who took care of him like an elder He, at this moment they were desperately protecting him, but they were all killed! Xie He watched them fall one by one, and his eyes were about to crack. At this moment, his grief overwhelmed his fear, and he shouted: "Who are you!"
The leading man's gloomy gaze fell on Xie He, and he sneered: "Catch him, be careful not to kill him, and rely on him to lure King Su out."
Xie He immediately understood, his eyes were full of resentment, "You are the prince's people."
The man smiled and said, "What a beauty, it's no wonder that King Su is fascinated."
Xie He turned around and ran away, his eyes were full of hatred, the prince killed his whole family, and now he is coming to kill him... At the same time, there is a deep powerlessness in his heart, he obviously doesn't want to, but he can't escape the grievances between King Su and the prince.
Just because King Su liked him, the prince refused to let him go.
Xie He couldn't run fast at all, and those men followed behind like a cat playing with a mouse. Seeing Xie He fall to the ground, he laughed at his lame leg: "It turned out to be a disability! In this case, I still need this leg What to do, I might as well cut it for you, so that you can't escape in the future!" He raised the cold knife and chopped it off at Xie He's legs!
Xie He closed his eyes, his face was pale, and at this moment he heard an angry shout: "Stop!"
At the same time, a familiar embrace hugged him tightly.
The author has something to say: It is said that everyone thinks it is not cruel? Great, the author Zhe thinks he can change his career to be a sweet article author 23333
The next chapter ends this world~