Xie He's eyes were in a trance, and he lost control of his body for a moment. His consciousness gradually became dissociated, and his legs fell down as soon as his legs softened.
Liang Chengshan kept his arms around Xie He's shoulders, and immediately realized that something was wrong with Xie He, and quickly hugged his waist to prevent him from falling to the ground. When he looked down, he found that Xie He's pupils were slack, his face was pale, and there was a leak on his forehead. With a thin layer of sweat, it seemed that he had once again fallen into the hallucination of pain.
Liang Chengshan's face changed drastically, he threw away the umbrella in his hand, picked up Xie He and quickly returned to the car, and then told the driver to go to the hospital!
Along the way, he held Xie He tightly in his arms, stroking his body with his big hands, lowered his head and kissed his forehead, trying to make Xie He less painful, but this time Xie He did not wake up, he closed his eyes tightly He squinted his eyes, his eyelashes fluttered, and made a faint moan.
This is the first time... Even his arms can't calm Xie He.
Deep worry appeared in Liang Chengshan's eyes. He thought he was sure enough to make Xie He return to normal... But now Xie He has frequent accidents and his condition is deteriorating, even to the point where even he is caught off guard.
The harm he brought to him has far exceeded his expectations, and it is developing in a worse direction.
Xie He felt that his soul was dragged back to that dark space again, unable to move, unable to sleep, boundless pain and loneliness tormented him, sapped his will, and made his memory fragmented... In the pile of fragmented memories, it seemed There is something that strongly attracts him...
what is that... what is...
Has he forgotten something very important
Xie He desperately wants to leave this desperate space, he doesn't care what he has forgotten, he only needs to be by Liang Chengshan's side, his lover can make him no longer painful, no longer sad...
He will never go back into that darkness again, nor will he recall those terrible pasts, and don't want to know what evil things he has done.
He thinks it's fine now, that's what he wants...
But no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't leave. Those fears and pains drowned him like icy sea water, and then a voice kept asking in his heart: How could you forget? How can you forget? !
How can you fall in love with the person you hate the most? !
At this moment, it seemed that the whole world stood still, and the deep-seated hatred rooted in the soul was wriggling desperately, wanting to emerge from the heavy seals, wanting to break the shackles of the cage, and control his heart again.
Xie He didn't want to remember it at all, but the deep-rooted hatred still reappeared in the depths of his heart, re-burying and taking root.
He hates Liang Chengshan...
He didn't know why, but he knew—he hated him.
This is his deepest obsession until the last moment in despair and pain.
Liang Chengshan held Xie He tightly all the time, and he didn't let go even when he went to the hospital. He watched the doctor nervously examine Xie He, but the examination results showed that everything was normal. Xie He just fell asleep and there was no other problem.
Doctors said he was just having nightmares.
Nightmare... This answer did not reassure Liang Chengshan in the slightest. Instead, his brows were frowned, and his eyes were even more worried.
Xie He used to sleep peacefully in his arms and never had nightmares, but this time...can't even his own arms make him peaceful
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When Xie He woke up, he found that he had returned home. He was wrapped in a warm embrace. When he opened his eyes, he saw the face he loved...and hated.
Liang Chengshan kept looking at him, his deep eyes were full of tenderness and tolerance, his worry was undisguised, and he said in a low voice, "You're awake."
Xie He's eyes were in a trance for a moment, and there was a look of pain and struggle in his eyes. It is obvious that this person loves him so much, tolerates him, and treats him so well... Why does he hate him
He didn't want to leave this warm embrace, only this embrace could keep him from being afraid... But there was a voice of resentment in his heart that kept accusing him.
Constantly screaming in his head...
You hate him, you hate him, you hate him!
Liang Chengshan noticed that Xie He's complexion was wrong and his eyes were slightly dark. The most important thing now is to figure out why Xie He fainted suddenly and what stimulated him. Liang Chengshan thought that he didn't encounter anything today that might cause Xie He to be irritated. reaction thing.
He stroked Xie He's back, and said in a gentle voice: "If you have anything on your mind, you can tell me."
Xie He looked at Liang Chengshan in a daze.
He knew that he should face him honestly, just like what Liang Chengshan said before, only by telling him his own feelings can he know how to take care of him... But, how should he say these words, how can he tell Liang Chengshan that he hates him
Xie He's face paled slightly. If Liang Chengshan knew that he hadn't deeply reflected on his mistakes, and even still held hatred for him, he would go back to the boundless darkness to accept punishment again...
No, don't let him know!
Xie He turned his eyes away and said in a low voice: "No, nothing..."
Liang Chengshan looked deeply at Xie He, Xie He was obviously trying to hide something, he had something on his mind, and it was something he didn't want to be known by him.
This has never happened before.
Liang Chengshan lifted Xie He's chin, kissed his lips, and plundered the air in his mouth lingeringly and unquestionably, gentle and strong, until Xie He's cheeks were flushed and his eyes were dim, he hugged him and said softly: "I Worried about you, you know? If you lie to me, it will only worry me more and prevent me from protecting you well."
Xie He was a little dizzy from being kissed. Liang Chengshan was like his poison, making him so addicted to losing his mind, and he had already seen that he was lying... Xie He's heart was wrenched. Continuing to hide it would only make Liang Chengshan angry, and then he Going back to that darkness again...
But Xie He instinctively knew that this matter must not be known by Liang Chengshan... Suddenly his eyes flashed, he looked up at Liang Chengshan sadly, and said: "I... I don't think I am suitable to be your wife... I am so useless, useless Qualified to be your wife... I'm sorry..."
Liang Chengshan looked into Xie He's eyes, the sadness in those eyes was not fake, he sighed softly, looked at Xie He firmly and said: "If you are sad because of this matter, it is completely unnecessary, Only you can be my wife."
Xie He stammered and said: "But, but I..."
Liang Chengshan pressed his lips and said: "No, but my decision will not change. If you really feel sad or blame yourself, why not cheer up and be a useful person to me, you can do it for me ,Is it right?"
Xie He hesitated for a moment, then nodded, he looked at the love in Liang Chengshan's eyes, and remembered his hatred for him, his heart almost twisted into a ball.
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From that day on, Liang Chengshan began to organize their wedding arbitrarily. At his status, marriage was no longer necessary. The reason why he did this was to give his lover enough respect, so that he would try not to think about his low self-esteem.
Liang Chengshan is no longer one of those impulsive young men. He loves someone so seriously at his age. This love is also after careful consideration. It's not just caused by hormones or freshness. If he loves someone seriously, he must let him You can rely on him to your heart's content.
Although he has been abroad for many years, Liang Chengshan still has a traditional side. Of course, the wedding date was not chosen randomly. Instead, he chose an auspicious day and started preparations long in advance. He invited both political and business circles to announce it to the world.
Soon everyone knew that Liang Chengshan was getting married, and his partner was a young man named Yang Ling.
Many people know that Liang Chengshan likes men. He has always been a man of both sexes. However, he is so serious about marrying a man, but many people lose their eyes. They are all curious about who this Yang Ling is, and he can make Liang Chengshan do it for him. obsessed.
You must know that Liang Chengshan's behavior is as if he wants to share his empire and everything with him, and this is to put him on an equal footing with him.
If it wasn't for deep love, it would be absolutely impossible for Liang Chengshan to make such a move.
Xie He's mood didn't improve at all. Logically speaking, Liang Chengshan's doing so could make him feel at ease, but...he couldn't forget, he hated him.
Every time he sees Liang Chengshan, every time he enjoys the warmth brought by his embrace, every time he hears him say he loves him... hatred will involuntarily appear in his heart, and he begins to wonder whether he loves this person or hates this person people.
Liang Chengshan saw Xie He's worries and struggles in his eyes, but thought that he was just still troubled by his own incompetence and inferiority complex, so he took care of him more attentively and cared for him.
However, Liang Chengshan's concern for Xie He made him feel more and more unbearable. He felt that his heart was dirty and despicable, and the seeds of evil began to take root... If Liang Chengshan knew his true inner thoughts, he would be extremely disappointed with him.
His love for him is no longer pure.
But what made Xie He even more painful was that no matter how he suppressed it, that hatred could not be eliminated, but it tended to intensify, and his love and dependence on Liang Chengshan had gradually been unable to suppress that hatred.
He couldn't help but think about why he hated Liang Chengshan so much, and what he had done...
He began to want to retrieve his memory, but he was not willing to be dominated by instinct like this.
Finally one day Xie He said to Liang Chengshan: "I want to go out with you, I don't want to stay at home all the time."
Liang Chengshan was very pleasantly surprised. He had always been worried about Xie He not wanting to go out. It was rare that Xie He was willing to go out. Of course he would not stop him. He looked at him with tender and loving eyes and said, "Okay."
Xie He lowered his eyelashes, not wanting Liang Chengshan to see the look in his eyes.
He wanted to go out, not to work hard to marry Liang Chengshan... but, to get in touch with the world more, to see if he could find any clues of his memory, he couldn't bear to be ignorant like this.
Liang Chengshan's tender care made him feel ashamed of his trust and love for Liang Chengshan, but... why should he be ashamed of the person he hates
The contradictory emotions made Xie He Ri Ri in torment.
Xie He still didn't dare to take the elevator, but if Liang Chengshan held him, he wouldn't be afraid. He came to the company with Liang Chengshan, but he had no intention of doing anything, anyway, he couldn't do anything by himself... At this moment, he saw Connie's indifferent eyes again.
Xie He always knew that Kang Ni didn't like him, and hated him very much. At this moment, his heart moved... Kang Ni is Liang Chengshan's personal bodyguard, so he must know many things.
Xie He said to Liang Chengshan: "I want to go out for a breath of air."
Liang Chengshan is absolutely tolerant towards Xie He, as long as Xie He is happy, he smiled and said: "Okay, but don't go far, I will go with you when I finish my work." He was worried that Xie He could not It was embarrassing to take the elevator, and his self-esteem was damaged, so I specifically asked him not to go far and wait for him to go back together.
Xie He nodded, showing a somewhat unnatural smile: "Yeah."
Xie He walked outside and saw Kang Ni smoking in the corner. Liang Chengshan didn't like people smoking in front of him, so Kang Ni would go out to smoke. When he saw Xie He walking over, his eyes flashed with disdain, but he didn't dare to say more what.
Xie He is the person Liang Chengshan wants to marry. Kang Ni has been with Liang Chengshan for many years, and now he understands that the boss who has always been ruthless and terrifying will love someone... If he dares to bully Xie He again, he has no doubt that Liang Chengshan will Cut him to pieces—not an adjective, but a verb.
Xie He hesitated for a while, his eyes flashed slightly, and asked: "Why don't you like me?"
Connie said with a straight face, "I don't dislike you."
Xie He shook his head, "You lied to me, you obviously don't like me very much, why?" He didn't dare to ask Kang Ni about himself directly, he could only ask in this way, even if Liang Chengshan knew it, he would only take it as him because Inferiority and sensitivity to make such a move.
Connie turned around and wanted to leave, but Xie He stopped in front of him and looked at him fixedly, "You hate me so much, don't you even want to say anything? Did I make you angry? If you really don't If you are willing to tell me, I will ask Chengshan, and he will definitely tell me."
Connie: "..." Damn it, why is this kid so vicious after losing his memory? He's going to complain to the boss, saying that he despises him and doesn't even want to answer... Are you sure you're dead
He can't beat him now, but he still has to bow his head and be disciplined by him. This feeling is really fucked up.
Connie's voice was hard, and the burly man stood there like a primary school student, and he was facing the head teacher he hated the most and could not offend, "I didn't like you before, because you betrayed the boss."
Xie He showed a sad look, and asked again: "How...how did I betray him?"
Connie hesitated for a moment, "You...you let go of the undercover police officer and assassinated him twice. That's all I know. I've told you everything. Everyone knows these things."
Xie He's eyes flickered for a moment. He knew that he couldn't ask any more questions, which would arouse Connie's suspicion. He nodded and said in frustration: "It turns out that's the case, no wonder you hate me, I'm sorry, but don't worry, I will definitely not do it again in the future. Do something like that."
Connie nodded stiffly: "Can I go?"
Xie He hurriedly moved out of the corridor. He looked at Kang Ni's leaving back with thoughtful eyes... The police were undercover, why did he let the police undercover go, why did he assassinate Liang Chengshan? Could it be... Was he once a member of the police
But if this is the case, why does Liang Chengshan love him and treat him so well
Liang Chengshan was worried that Xie He would be bored, so he didn't stay in the company for a long time, and came out soon after finishing his work. He saw Xie He standing in a daze under the open-air glass terrace, walked over and hugged him gently from behind, and said, "Let you stay for a long time." waited."
Xie He lowered his head to hide the complex look in his eyes. During this period of time, he has been struggling day and night, and has gradually learned to hide his emotions.
He felt that his heart was no longer honest, and his love for Liang Chengshan was no longer pure...
What was even more frightening was that he was afraid of going back there again, not daring Liang Chengshan to know all this, so he could only try his best to conceal it.
Xie He turned around and hugged Liang Chengshan, and said meekly: "It's okay, I'm fine anyway, I just hope I didn't cause you any trouble."
Liang Chengshan looked at Xie He's face, kissed him passionately, and smiled: "As long as it's your business, it's not a trouble." He loves him so much and is willing to pamper him at all costs. Liang Chengshan has always known how to distinguish himself And he cherishes the only person he can fall in love with now very much.
He has never loved someone so deeply before, and he will never love someone like this again in the future.
He will only love like this once in his life.
[Ding, target Liang Chengshan favorability +1, current favorability 94]
Xie He showed a moved expression, Nuonuo said: "Oh..."
Liang Chengshan knew that Xie He didn't dare to take the elevator, so he grabbed his shoulders and hugged him in his arms before walking into the elevator. The young man in his arms was close to him, his body was still trembling slightly, his hands hugged his waist, so that he finally remained calm.
As soon as Xie He walked out of the elevator, he seemed to let go of his hand shyly, but in fact... he just didn't want to rely on him so much anymore. He felt that he shouldn't be so dependent on someone he should hate, which made him feel painful.
Liang Chengshan didn't have any doubts. He now trusts the lover he created by himself, just like he trusts himself, and he doesn't want to doubt and speculate about Xie He at will... He has done a lot of things to hurt him, and now he will only use up Do everything to love him and make up for the harm you have done to him as much as possible.
Liang Chengshan took Xie He's hand and said with a smile, "Let's go out for dinner today."
He felt that Xie He should be allowed to go out for a walk more, get in touch with the outside world, and occasionally take him out for dinner.
Xie He and Liang Chengshan came to a well-known high-end restaurant. Liang Chengshan opened the chair for Xie He, let him sit down, and then started to order. From the beginning to the end, he was gentle, mature and stable.
Xie He was a little distracted, his mood was actually far less calm than on the surface, he still couldn't help thinking...why did he hate him, why did he betray him... obviously this person treats him so well, how could he bear to betray such a love His people
This made his conscience feel condemned.
Xie He ate slowly, stood up halfway through the meal, and said, "I'm going to the bathroom."
Liang Chengshan smiled and nodded, watching Xie He get up.
After Xie He went out, bodyguards followed him immediately, not to monitor him, but to protect him. Liang Chengshan has many enemies, and now he declares to the world that Xie He is his lover with great fanfare. Everyone knows that Xie He is his weakness, so he needs to strengthen his protection... Liang Chengshan is unwilling to make himself regret because of his mistakes.
Xie He doesn't mind either. He is used to being followed by bodyguards. The young and tall bodyguard who follows him seems to be called Gary. He doesn't appear much, and he hasn't shown any disdain or disgust towards him, so Xie He has a little impression of him. .
[Xie He: To be honest, it is really not easy to find a chance to connect with Uncle Hall. Fortunately, this Gary is quite clever. Smile JPG]
[444: Why do you want to see Hall? @_@]
[Xie He: Restoring memory also has to be a gradual process. I am brewing a relationship. After all, I am such a dedicated actor. As for other reasons, you will know later, after all, I am a dutiful son who avenged his father, and my heart is full of justice. Smile JPG]
[444:...]_(:зゝ∠)_
[Xie He: Ah, I feel a little bit reluctant to think that we are about to break up. After all, Uncle Liang is good at life, gentle and can play. I am very satisfied with him, and I will definitely take good care of him:)]
[444: O(∩_∩)O~]
Gary stood guard at the door of the bathroom respectfully. After a while, a middle-aged man with a hat came over and asked Gary, "Is Yang Ling in there?"
Gary nodded and lowered his voice: "He's inside, but are you really sure you want to see him? He has lost his memory, no one remembers him, and he is loyal to Liang Chengshan. It's not wise for you to take the risk of seeing him."
The man raised the brim of his hat, revealing a generous and resolute face, a look of guilt flashed in his brown eyes: "I must see him, I can't let him continue to make mistakes, I have to be responsible for him."
Gary's persuasion was ineffective, and he could only watch the man go in.
There was no one else in the bathroom, Xie He just opened the door of the cubicle and was about to go out when suddenly a man squeezed in and covered his mouth!
Xie He suddenly showed a terrified expression.
Hall looked at Xie He's appearance, and there was a deep pain in his eyes. He had stopped him at the beginning, and he didn't want this child to put himself in because of the hatred of his parents. How could Liang Chengshan be so easy to deal with? Otherwise, the police will not be helpless. But Yang Ling refused to listen to him and insisted on coming... He didn't protect Yang Jin well back then, and he didn't protect his son well now, which made him feel very guilty.
"I'm your Uncle Hall, but you don't remember me, do you?" Hall said.
Xie He shook his head and looked at him vigilantly, but unexpectedly, he was not very afraid of such a sudden person, and always felt that he would not hurt him.
Hall was very distressed. He looked at Xie He fixedly, and said in a deep voice: "I don't know what Liang Chengshan did to you to make you like this... I regret that I couldn't stop you. If I knew today, I would rather lock you at home than let you come over."
Hall said word by word: "I want to tell you today that you cannot marry Liang Chengshan. I don't want to see you regret it in pain."
Xie He's eyes gradually calmed down. This person is obviously someone he knew before, and... maybe he is a very close person, so he said such words.
He must know why he wanted to kill Liang Chengshan and why he hated him. Such an opportunity must not be missed!
Xie He used his eyes to indicate that he would never shout, his lips moved, and he had something to say.
Hall looked into Xie He's eyes, he knew that it would be risky for him to let go now, even though he is a policeman, but he took the risk to appear here, and no one could save him if he was beaten to death by Liang Chengshan's people, but... he still let go of his hand slowly , He believed in the child he brought up, and he could see that Xie He didn't seem to be completely loyal to Liang Chengshan as Gary said.
Xie He felt that Hall let go of his hand, and he breathed a sigh of relief. He did not shout, but looked at Hall seriously, and lowered his voice: "Do you know why I wanted to kill Liang Chengshan?"
Hall looked at Xie He thoughtfully, "Do you still remember that you wanted to kill him?"
Xie He's eyes were complicated, he was silent for a moment, and said: "I don't remember, someone said that I killed him. I only remember that I should hate him, but I don't remember everything else, can you tell me ?” When he said this, there was an urgent longing in his eyes.
Holder paused for a moment, showing some relief. It seems that Xie He has not been completely controlled by Liang Chengshan. This is the best news he got today. He said without hesitation: "I can tell you, I know everything .”
Xie He hurriedly said: "Please tell me."
Hall said: "Your father was an undercover police officer. Both your parents were killed by Liang Chengshan. Later, I adopted you... But you concealed your identity and returned to Liang Chengshan for revenge. That's why you hate him and why The reason for killing him. You must never marry Liang Chengshan... I don't want you to regret what you did when you think about it in the future. I once said that we are still involved in revenge. Don't get involved... You, now Are you still willing to go with me? I will hide you and prevent Liang Chengshan from finding you. "
Xie He was stunned: "The police undercover? My father? What about me... am I an undercover police?"
Hall shook his head and said, "You are not, I did not let you continue to be a policeman."
Xie He's eyes were a little confused. He always thought that he was an undercover police officer, so he would kill Liang Chengshan and betray him, but the result was not... His father was...
Hall asked again anxiously, "Are you willing to go with me? I will protect you."
Xie He was silent for a long time, and said, "I...can't leave." He is in a very complicated mood now, and...he can't leave Liang Chengshan, and he hasn't figured out the facts...he can't leave now...
Hall sighed, "Think about it carefully, this is my phone number, if you figure it out, just give me a call, and I will find a way to see you again."
He couldn't delay Xie He for too long, it would be too dangerous if Liang Chengshan came over.
Xie He knew that Hall was leaving, he seemed to think of something, and suddenly asked: "My parents... what are their names?"
Huoer said: "Your father's name is Yang Jin, and your mother's name is Ji Ling."
Xie He's face changed suddenly, his body shook a bit, and he reached out to support the wall so he didn't fall down. His father... called Yang Jin... Yang Jin...
Seeing that Xie He was so worried, Hall quickly asked, "What's wrong with you?"
Xie He raised his head, his eyes were full of sadness, and his voice was hoarse, "My father, he...was he really killed by Liang Chengshan..."
Hall nodded.
Xie He said: "I understand, you go quickly, and I will call you when I figure it out."
Hall was still very worried about Xie He, but at this moment he heard Gary's gentle tapping reminder outside, and finally had to leave.
Xie He stood there, with intense struggle and pain in his eyes, and a sharp pain in his head, he suddenly remembered... that day he fainted in front of Yang Jin's tomb, and then the deep-seated hatred began to continue Showing up... disturbed him so much that he couldn't be at peace...
If what Hall said is true... then everything can be explained. He wants to marry his father-killing enemy. He, of course his father would not forgive him!
Xie He grabbed his collar and panted in pain.
Suddenly he heard hurried footsteps again, he was very familiar with this footstep, even if he was in the crowd, he would never admit it wrong, it was Liang Chengshan's footsteps, he came to look for him.
Xie He saw that the door was pushed open, but he didn't have the strength to stand up, and the name was still lingering in his mind, Yang Jin...
It turned out that it was his father. He used to be Liang Chengshan's best brother, but Liang Chengshan killed him...
kill him.
The author has something to say: Unexpectedly, the first chapter still failed to write the turning point_(:зゝ∠)_The stupid author is already exhausted... I even prepared them for a happy breakup. 2333The next chapter will be divided, Regardless of Father Yang's coffin board, I can't hold it anymore 23333