Liang Chengshan stared at Xie He blankly for a long time without responding.
He thought he was mentally prepared to face everything, but now when Xie He looked at him expectantly and recognized him as Yang Jin... he found that he was not ready for this.
He didn't think about it.
Seeing that Liang Chengshan didn't speak, Xie He showed a disturbed expression, hugged him even tighter, and asked cautiously, "Dad, why don't you speak?"
No, I am not your father, your father was killed by me...
I killed him with my own hands, and then drove you crazy. I am your sworn enemy.
Liang Chengshan closed his eyes, his heart felt cold and painful... But I couldn't say these words.
I have brought you so much pain, how can I still see you sad, how can I see you disappointed.
I will do as you wish...
[Ding, target Liang Chengshan favorability +1, current favorability 98]
Liang Chengshan slowly stretched out his hand, hugged Xie He gently, and said, "Don't be afraid, I'm here to take you home."
Xie He was surprised and happy, but also deeply anxious, "I, can I really go home? Can I get out of here?"
Liang Chengshan nodded, "Yes, I'm sorry I'm late."
Xie He looked at him with envious eyes, "It's okay, I'm very happy if you can come."
Liang Chengshan forced himself to show a smile. He took Xie He's hand and sat up from the bed, saying, "Let's go back now."
Xie He was very happy. He grabbed Liang Chengshan's hand and followed him out of the ward. Sure enough, no one stopped him this time. He could finally leave here. His father came to take him home!
Seeing Xie He's appearance, Liang Chengshan's secretary sighed heavily.
Connie was waiting outside and had smoked several cigarettes. He had already learned from Bishop that Xie He was crazy. Seeing Xie He walking out obediently holding Liang Chengshan's hand, he remembered Xie He's treatment of Liang Chengshan before. The hatred, he thought to himself that he is really crazy... Otherwise, how could he give Liang Chengshan a good face
Connie has learned to be good now, and doesn't touch Xie He's bad luck. It's none of his business how much the boss loves Xie He, as long as he does his duty as a bodyguard. Not to mention what is there to argue with a poor lunatic...
He prepared himself psychologically, felt that everything was acceptable, and respectfully went to open the door for Liang Chengshan.
At this time, Xie He suddenly said to Liang Chengshan: "Father, is this your car?"
Liang Chengshan smiled and said: "Yes, go up, we will be home soon."
Connie's expression twisted instantly: "..."
Dad... Xie He can also call out, this is not ordinary madness, this is not light madness! ! !
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Liang Chengshan took Xie He back to his manor, and said to him gently: "Are you hungry?"
Xie He touched his stomach and nodded.
Liang Chengshan immediately asked the servant to prepare meals, all of which Xie He liked to eat. Xie He saw the table full of sumptuous meals, and saw Liang Chengshan sitting opposite him with a gentle and steady smile, and suddenly burst into tears.
Liang Chengshan felt distressed, he hurried over to hug Xie He's shoulder, wiped his face with a handkerchief, and asked softly: "Why are you crying, are you unhappy?"
Xie He choked up and said: "No, I'm so happy, I've been waiting for you, I almost thought I couldn't wait for you... Dad, you won't leave me anymore, will you? You always It’s because you rarely go home, you’re always on business trips, and you don’t have time to accompany me, I miss you so much…”
"I was there alone, so scared..."
Liang Chengshan pressed Xie He's head on his chest, preventing him from seeing the pain in his eyes.
Back then when Yang Jin was with them, they didn't know that he still had family members, so he probably wouldn't go back several times a year, leaving Yang Ling and his mother to depend on each other. , but was found by him in less than a year.
Then he was killed.
The family didn't have a long reunion, and the good times didn't last long... Yang Ling became an orphan.
He was the one who made him an orphan...
Deprived him of his otherwise beautiful life with his own hands.
Liang Chengshan patted Xie He on the back lightly, and said slowly: "I will never leave you again." Unless I die.
When Xie He heard Liang Chengshan's words, he finally burst into laughter, "Yeah."
Liang Chengshan concealed the sadness and pain in his eyes, and resumed his usual gentleness, saying, "Eat quickly, rest early when you're full, you've lost weight."
Xie He has not been able to eat well in the mental hospital. Now he saw that the table was full of his favorite food, and his father was by his side, which made him feel very relieved and started to eat happily.
After Xie He was full, Liang Chengshan prepared clothes for him and asked him to take a bath. He was still wearing crumpled hospital gowns. Xie He came out quickly after washing, and he refused to rest alone at night, so he must sleep with Liang Chengshan.
Liang Chengshan had no choice but to nod, and kept Xie He in his arms in order to let Xie He sleep peacefully.
Xie He slept very peacefully in Liang Chengshan's arms, with a faint smile on his lips, his face stretched out, unprecedentedly peaceful and quiet, like a carefree child.
Liang Chengshan stared deeply at Xie He's face, this is the person he loves deeply.
Now he is lying quietly in his arms like this, relying on and trusting him with all his heart, just because he is crazy.
There is an insurmountable moat between them, which makes them destined not to be together. If they are not willing to force it, they can only get a pile of destroyed fragments. He obviously loves him, but he still destroys him.
This seems to be an unsolvable problem, either to give up altogether, or to forcefully destroy it...
Now I finally know the answer to this question.
If I knew it would be like today's result, I would choose to let go earlier, as long as I can see that you are living well, it doesn't matter whether I have you or not.
Liang Chengshan lowered his head, and gently pressed his lips on Xie He's forehead. In his deep eyes, there was love as vast as the ocean, mixed with an indelible sadness.
I killed your father with my own hands, so let God punish me and love you instead of your father.
I will do my best to repay you for everything that was taken away by me...
This is what I deserve.
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Xie He was lying on a soft, comfortable and fresh bed, wrapped in a warm and generous embrace. This place was completely different from that cold room... When he woke up, he found that Liang Chengshan was still by his side.
It's already noon the next day, Liang Chengshan didn't have the heart to wake Xie He up, and kept hugging him, one arm was pillowed by Xie He, and he didn't move it all night, his arm was so numb that he couldn't feel it, But Liang Chengshan didn't show any painful expression on his face, but smiled gently at Xie He: "You're awake."
Xie He moved a bit, sat up from the bed, looked at Liang Chengshan with happy and happy eyes, "Well, Dad."
Liang Chengshan saw that Xie He got up, and then moved his body, his right arm was stiff and unable to move for a while, so he could only touch Xie He's head with the other hand, and said: "Go and change clothes, it's time to get up and eat. "
Xie He didn't notice Liang Chengshan's discomfort at all, and got up happily to get dressed.
Liang Chengshan came down slowly. When he raised his arms to change his coat, he frowned in pain, but he stretched it out quickly, and then took Xie He out.
Xie He showed that he was very dependent on Liang Chengshan, and his eyes kept circling him. Even when he was eating, he would look up at Liang Chengshan from time to time, as if he was afraid that Liang Chengshan would disappear if he lost his mind.
Liang Chengshan showed a helpless smile and said, "Don't worry, I'm here."
Xie He was a little embarrassed, he lowered his head, "I'm always afraid that you will disappear suddenly, it's the same before, you always come back suddenly, and then leave quickly... leaving me and my mother alone at home..."
Liang Chengshan looked sad and said, "I'm sorry."
Xie He suddenly seemed to think of something, he asked Liang Chengshan, "Father, where is Mom? I haven't seen her for a long time, where is she?"
Liang Chengshan thought of that woman in a daze. He only saw Ji Ling once. That time she threw herself in front of Yang Jin without hesitation and died under his gun. This is an innocent and brave woman...
His mother was also killed by him.
Liang Chengshan felt a dull pain in his heart, as if the blood was being pulled out of the blood vessel little by little. He spoke slowly, with a low voice: "She's gone on a trip and can't come back for the time being."
Xie He looked a little disappointed, "Did mom not want us? Why didn't you come back for so long?"
Liang Chengshan looked at him and said, "Of course not, she just left temporarily, and she will never want you."
Xie He looked at Liang Chengshan's serious and firm eyes, and seemed to finally believe it, showing a bright smile, "Well, my mother loves me the most! I also think she won't want me, I will wait for her to come back!"
Liang Chengshan nodded, "OK."
After he finished speaking, he suddenly didn't dare to look into Xie He's eyes, so he could only turn his head away so that he wouldn't see his sadness.
Sorry, the person you waited for will never come back.
Liang Chengshan took Xie He back from the mental hospital with great difficulty. It can be seen that his mood is not stable, so he didn't go out for a few days, and stayed with Xie He at home, as if he was really his father. , Love him.
When you love someone to a certain extent, you don't care how you accompany him, as long as Xie He can be happy, Liang Chengshan can always be like this, pretending to be his father.
Give him everything he wants.
His strong, proud self-control, and the city mansion allow him not to reveal his pain easily, and only show Xie He the side he wants to see.
Let him alone bear those ugly, stinking and rotten sins.
A few days later, Liang Chengshan had to go out due to something. He hesitated for a moment and said to Xie He: "I'm going out today, but I'll be back soon. Can you stay at home alone?"
Xie He was very reluctant, but he felt that his father had his own job, and it was impossible to stay with him at home without doing anything, so he nodded.
Liang Chengshan was a little worried, and repeatedly asked the servants and bodyguards at home to take good care of Xie He before going out.
As soon as Liang Chengshan left, the smile on Xie He's face disappeared, and he became taciturn, sitting on the sofa in the hall and not going anywhere.
The butler came over and asked cautiously, "Master, do you want to watch TV? Or go to the garden?"
Xie He shook his head and didn't speak.
[Xie He: Uncle Liang is still better. The quality of life has obviously been greatly improved. To be honest, a place like a mental hospital is really not a place for people to stay. It is not easy for me to gain favorability. Smile JPG]
[444: Nod Nod Nod Nod GIF]It's too bad there, it's hard to open a small kitchen secretly, and there are people staring at it all day, it's not much better than a small black room.
[Xie He: Uncle Liang is still very enlightened. He actually has the talent to be a father. So when someone fails to do something well, it’s not because he can’t do it, but because he doesn’t want to do it. Treating Liang Ze as much as I care for me, Liang Ze won't be blackened, what a poor child, tsk tsk.]
[444:...]
[Xie He: Although it is very pitiful, but for the sake of experience, he can't let him go. Pay attention to Liang Ze's news, baby.]
[444: (⊙v⊙) Hmm!]
[Xie He: I am very satisfied with Uncle Liang's version of his father, but if this continues, his goodwill will not increase, and he is about to prepare a little surprise for him. Smile JPG]
[444:...] trembling_(:зゝ∠)_
Xie He waited silently at home, kept his ears upright to listen to the movement outside, when he heard the familiar footsteps, a happy smile appeared on his face, he jumped up from the sofa and ran outside, because he ran too fast He fell heavily on the ground and felt a burning pain in his knee, but he didn't care about it at all, rushed outside and crashed into Liang Chengshan's arms.
Liang Chengshan quickly stretched his arms to hug Xie He, and scolded him fondly: "What are you doing running so fast, be careful that you fall."
Xie He hugged him, "I've been waiting for you, I miss you so much."
Liang Chengshan closed his eyes for a moment. Every time he heard Xie He's words, he couldn't help but think of when he was awake... The hateful eyes always reminded him that none of this was true.
Every trace of this beautiful illusion is evidence of his mistakes.
Liang Chengshan picked up Xie He, put him on the sofa, and said, "Your knee was hurt."
Xie He seems to have just discovered it, and feels a little pain in his knees.
Liang Chengshan was very distressed. He went to get an alcohol swab, and then gently rolled up Xie He's pants, exposing his injured knee. Bloodstains were wiped on it, and blood beads came out of the wound.
Xie He looked down and saw the bright red blood coming out of his skin... Suddenly his face was pale, his breathing was short, his eyes closed and he passed out!
Before Liang Chengshan had time to treat Xie He's wound, he saw Xie He faint suddenly, his face changed suddenly, and he immediately told the housekeeper to call the doctor over.
He paced anxiously, waiting in the living room.
The doctor came over quickly, he examined Xie He carefully, and after asking about Liang Chengshan's experience, he said dumbfoundedly: "It's nothing, he's just dizzy with blood..."
Liang Chengshan did not intend to relax at all, and his expression was slightly gloomy, as if he couldn't believe it, "Sick of blood?"
The doctor nodded, "Yes."
Liang Chengshan was silent for a moment, then nodded and said, "I see."
The doctor treated Xie He's wound on his knee and left.
Only then did Liang Chengshan come to Xie He's side, gently holding him in his arms, he looked at Xie He's pale face... dizzy with blood, how is this possible? He has not forgotten Xie He's previous sharp skills, his unblinking ruthlessness in killing, and his determination in assassinating him... Such a sharp and dangerous existence, walking on the edge of life and death all the time, would faint
He stretched out his hand and stroked Xie He's cheek, the pain in his eyes accumulated, what did he turn his favorite person into...
Xie He woke up in a daze, and found that he was already on the bed. Liang Chengshan still hugged him as usual, but looked at him with deeper eyes, as if there was some kind of heavy grief that could not be described in words.
Xie He didn't quite understand, he pressed close to Liang Chengshan, his voice trembling: "I'm so scared..."
Liang Chengshan stroked him tenderly and said, "Don't be afraid."
Xie He became calmer under Liang Chengshan's comfort, and finally smiled at him, saying, "Fortunately, I have my father here, and I have my father to protect me, so I don't have to think about anything, and I don't have to be afraid of anything. I like the way I am now." Life."
Liang Chengshan nodded, and said seriously, "I will always protect you."
He said this with a calm expression, no one knew the pain in his heart.
Yes... What Xie He wants is such a peaceful life. If he has the love of his parents, a complete family, and has not been dominated by hatred since he was a child, he should be living a peaceful and happy life now...
There is no need to see blood, no need to kill, if you can... who would like to walk on the edge of a knife, facing the threat of life and death... who would not like to live a peaceful and peaceful life.
His harm to him did not start from captivity, but from earlier...
If it weren't for him, Xie He wouldn't have to learn to kill, hide his identity and lurk beside him, don't do things he doesn't want to do, don't abandon his conscience, and force himself to be a cold-blooded and ruthless person.
He was not such a person in the first place, he was a very good boy, but he let him go on the road of revenge.
Liang Chengshan hugged Xie He tightly, what should I do to make you better, or let you go down like this, forget the pain...
I don't know what to do, this is the first time I don't know what to do.
Whether it is forward or backward, it is an abyss.
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Xie He Anxin lived at home, very well-behaved, never noisy, at first he just clinged to Liang Chengshan, and then he seemed to have discovered a new hobby, and began to like painting.
Probably because of his mental age, his paintings are only at the level of elementary school students, but no matter what he draws, Liang Chengshan gently encourages and praises him.
This makes Xie He very happy.
Xie He practiced for a while, and one day Liang Chengshan came back from his errands, and saw Xie He excitedly presenting today's painting to him.
There are three villains in the painting, two adults on the left and one on the right are holding the child in the middle, Xie He pointed to the people on the painting and said: "This is Dad, this is Mom, this is me, do I look good?" ?”
Liang Chengshan felt his heart twitch, and he whispered, "It looks good."
Xie He was very happy, and then he became depressed again, saying: "But my mother hasn't come back yet, when will she come back..."
Liang Chengshan had no way to answer this question, he could only say: "She will be back soon."
Xie He is still very disappointed. He has been waiting for so long, and his father always said that he will be back soon...but his mother never came back.
After dinner at night, Liang Chengshan lay on the bed with Xie He in his arms, and said softly, "Go to bed early."
Xie He didn't sleep, he opened his bright eyes, looked at Liang Chengshan, and suddenly raised his head to kiss Liang Chengshan's lips.
Liang Chengshan was taken aback for a moment, the clear breath of his loved one came from his lips, which made him so intoxicated, but he did not forget that Xie He only regarded him as his father now, which was wrong.
He pulled Xie He away with a serious expression, "What are you doing?"
Xie He seemed a little at a loss, he had never seen Liang Chengshan's stern appearance, and said timidly: "Are you angry?"
Liang Chengshan took a deep breath and said, "It's wrong for you to do this."
Xie He didn't seem to understand. He subconsciously felt that Liang Chengshan should like him. He said in confusion: "Don't you like me kissing you? I thought you would like it..."
Liang Chengshan's eyes are painful, he likes it... But he can't accept Xie He doing this now, it will only make him more painful.
Because the current Xie He... treats him as Yang Jin.
A mist appeared in Xie He's eyes, and he said aggrievedly: "I just want to make you happy, I don't know what I can do for you, I just know that you should be happy... Dad, help me find my mother Come on?"
"You bring mom back, I will be obedient and make you happy, I miss mom so much..."
Listening to Xie He's words, Liang Chengshan felt that his heart seemed to be torn into countless pieces.
He can't do it, he's not omnipotent... He can't bring people back from the dead, and he can't restore loved ones to normal...
He has no way to return Xie He's normal life, and he has no way to return his dead parents.
Some injuries can never be repaired.
Liang Chengshan suddenly hugged Xie He tightly, restrained his restless struggle, hugged him hard, and used this method... to confirm the temperature of the person in his arms.
The person he loves lived as he wished, but living like this might as well be dead.
Seeing that Liang Chengshan didn't speak, Xie He didn't dare to move when he hugged him so hard. He always felt that Liang Chengshan's mood didn't seem right, but this embrace was very warm, and he soon fell asleep in Liang Chengshan's arms. It's just that Liang Chengshan hasn't promised him to get his mother back...
Liang Chengshan felt the young man in his arms breathe evenly, put his chin on the top of his head, his hands slowly tightened, trembling slightly.
He remained motionless for a long time, then slowly lowered his head, kissed Xie He's hair affectionately, and made a soft, hoarse voice.
"As long as you get well... I'll let you kill me with your own hands."
"So get better, okay?"
[Ding, target Liang Chengshan favorability +1, current favorability 99]