Early the next morning, someone came and emptied Deng Zhuo's bedroom, moved all the things directly to the warehouse behind the garden, and then quickly refurbished the room, no matter how much Xie He played tricks, he couldn't delay During this process, he watched his room disappear from the house, not even a single thing remained, as if the traces of his own existence had been erased alive.
A few days later, Deng Jingwen returned with a strange boy.
The boy's features are handsome and delicate, you can't feel it alone, but when you stand with Deng Jingwen, anyone who looks at them will know that they are the real father and son. Probably because he lived outside since he was a child, he was suddenly taken to Deng's house. The young man had a cautious expression, and seemed to have a gentle and cautious personality, which was completely different from Deng Zhuo's.
Deng Jingwen ignored the fear and anger in Xie He's eyes, brought the young man in front of him, and said flatly: "Get to know him, this is Bai Xiaorui, and you will call him Young Master in the future."
Xie He clenched his hands tightly into fists, he glared at Bai Xiaorui with fierce eyes, pushed the door and rushed out without saying a word!
Bai Xiaorui looked at the back of Xie He leaving with a worried face, and whispered to Deng Jingwen: "Father... what should I do if he is angry?"
Deng Jingwen smiled faintly, looked down at him, "It's okay, you don't have to care about him, let the housekeeper take you up to rest."
Bai Xiaorui nodded obediently: "Oh, yes."
Xie He didn't go back that night. In order to express his distraught and unacceptable reality, he slept in the gazebo in the garden all night. When he woke up the next day, his nose felt stuffy, probably because he was about to catch a cold.
[Xie He: Tsk tsk, Dad, with his ruthless heart, if he goes to a spy war drama, he can definitely play the spy chief.]
[444: That must be very cold-blooded and cruel! =_=#]
[Xie He: But his son is a good boy with a kind heart.]
[444: (⊙o⊙) Oh!]The host has always been very accurate in judging people!
[Xie He: Such a good child, he will use it as a prop after he finds it, it is really unbearable. sigh jpg]
[444: ...] With this tone, the host must have taken a fancy to Bai Xiaorui, right? He is so scared... _(:3ゝ∠)_
[Xie He: Thinking of going to bully such a child, I feel my conscience is deeply condemned:)]
444: I don't think you have such a thing, thank you.
Bai Xiaorui was a little taken aback by the luxury of the Deng family, tossed and turned all night without falling asleep at all.
After getting up and having breakfast the next day, after thinking about it, he decided to go to Deng Zhuo.
Bai Xiaorui used to have a happy little family. Professor Bai and his wife are loving, noble people, and they are very fond of their only son. Although they are not from a wealthy family, they are extremely happy and happy. Unfortunately, when Bai Xiaorui was twelve years old, both Professor Bai and his wife died in a car accident, leaving him alone. Soon the family property was divided among relatives, and he was adopted by his aunt's family and lived a life of being dependent on others.
Bai Xiaorui started to learn to be self-reliant when he was very young, and experienced all the hardships of the world, and finally got into university and became independent... But he didn't expect that one day, he would become Deng Jingwen's son.
It felt like a lonely orphan who found out that he was actually the most honorable prince overnight, and he didn't even dare to think like this in his dreams.
But apart from joy, Bai Xiaorui felt more apprehension. In his heart, Professor Bai and his wife were his parents, who gave him a beautiful and warm childhood. For Deng Jingwen, he only felt fear and curiosity. Deng Zhuo, who taught his own son, felt even more complicated.
To some extent, his current luck is based on Deng Zhuo's misfortune. Can Deng Zhuo...can accept him
Before coming to Deng's house, Bai Xiaorui thought that he must get along well with Deng Zhuo. Who would have thought that Deng Zhuo's reaction was so intense yesterday... It made him feel guilty even more.
Bai Xiaorui asked the servant, and finally found Xie He in the back garden.
He looked at Xie He's figure from a distance, and was stunned for a while. It was really... an extremely perfect face, which completely inherited the beauty of Mrs. Bai, and was even more gorgeous and flamboyant, so dazzling that people couldn't take their eyes off it. His nose couldn't help but feel a little sour, and he thought of his mother again...
Bai Xiaorui forced himself to recover, walked to Xie He's side, and said actively: "Hello."
Xie He turned his head to look at him, his eyes were cold, and he pursed his lips without speaking.
Bai Xiaorui knew that he was in a bad mood, so he didn't mind his unreasonableness. He took another step forward and said nervously, "You... I saw that you didn't come back yesterday, so I was a little worried, so I came here to see, are you okay?"
Xie He Dingding looked at him, and suddenly let out a sneer, with a sharp voice, "Who wants you to pretend to be kind!"
Bai Xiaorui's expression was a little stiff, but he still explained: "No... I really care about you, and I really want to be friends with you. By the way... Do you want to know about your biological parents? I can tell you Listen..." In his heart, it was an incomparably beautiful memory, and he thought that maybe Xie He would be curious about what kind of person his biological father was, and he was willing to share those memories with him, just like sharing secrets with friends.
Unexpectedly, Xie He stared at him suddenly, and said loudly: "Go away! I won't listen! My father is Deng Jingwen!"
Why, why did everyone want him to recognize his identity!
He has lost his father's love, is he going to lose his only identity! He only has such little extravagant hopes and thoughts, why does someone always remind him to recognize this!
So that he can't even continue to lie to himself...
Bai Xiaorui was taken aback by Xie He's fierce reaction, and said in a panic, "What's wrong with you?" He was obviously just kind, why did Xie He lose his composure like this
"You stole my room, you stole my identity, you even stole my father! You stole everything from me! Who wants you to sympathize with me!" Xie Hejian With a cry, anger and disgust mixed with grief in his eyes, his voice hoarse, "I don't need your fake kindness! Get out of here! Get out!" He could no longer control his anger, and kicked Bai Xiaorui Kick it to the ground! Raise your fist and beat him!
However, before the fist landed on Bai Xiaorui's body, his wrist was tightly held from behind, holding his hand so hard, Xie He felt that even his wrist was about to be crushed.
He turned his head with red eyes, and saw Deng Jingwen standing behind him at some point, looking at him coldly.
Xie He's face changed suddenly, on his pale face, there was only panic in the black eyes, and his voice trembled, "Dad..."
Deng Jingwen's eyes were like Wang Shentan, he looked at Xie He expressionlessly, and said, "Apologize."
Xie He bit his lip, tears rolling in his eyes.
He doesn't want to apologize, why should he apologize? Bai Xiaorui snatched everything from him! He still has to apologize to him! Why! Why? Is it because he is not father's son that he should be treated like this
Deng Jingwen's hands tightened slowly, his eyes were cold, and he repeated again: "Apologize."
Xie He trembled in pain, cold sweat flowed down his forehead, and the look in his eyes changed from sadness to despair.
He looked at Deng Jingwen's emotionless eyes, and he couldn't remember how many times he knelt down in front of this man in humiliation, and how many times he was forced to say words against his will...
But this time, he suddenly didn't want to go on like this anymore. Anyway, no matter how he surrendered, no matter how he tried to compromise, he couldn't change Deng Jingwen's decision, and couldn't shake Deng Jingwen's mind. If so, why should he apologize, why should he give in!
Xie He loosened his biting red lips, and slowly revealed a stern smile, his expression distorted due to pain, "No, I don't apologize."
Bai Xiaorui got up from the ground, he was actually very sad just now, obviously he was treated like this out of good intentions, but now seeing Xie He's appearance, the desperate look in his eyes, and the grief that seemed to be abandoned by the whole world, he suddenly felt very sad. Sad, sad, just like when he lost everything...
He has come out of the suffering, but for Xie He, the suffering has just begun.
He did not expect this to be the case.
Bai Xiaorui was very afraid of Deng Jingwen, but he still stepped forward and said: "Father, forget it... He didn't do it on purpose, I'm fine."
Unexpectedly, before Deng Jingwen spoke, Xie He turned his head to look at him first, and looked at him with hatred: "Who wants you to plead for me for me! Who cares about you!"
Bai Xiaorui's face turned pale, and he took a step back dejectedly.
When Deng Jingwen met the boy's eyes, his heart froze for some reason. This was the first time he saw such lonely despair in the boy's eyes...
He was a little irritable at first, but he had clearly said that as long as the boy was obedient, he could give him more, but the boy didn't seem to listen at all. He waited in the room all night, thinking that as long as the boy was willing to come back , he would forgive him and treat him well to comfort him, but this time... the boy didn't come back, he would rather sleep alone in the cold pavilion than go to his room or beg for his affection.
Deng Jingwen didn't close his eyes all night, and he was worried about the boy, so he quietly followed Bai Xiaorui.
Why can't the boy understand his mind? Obviously it is always easy to give in, but in this matter, he is so stubborn!
Deng Jingwen was suddenly very angry, so he came over to stop the boy and ordered him to apologize, the boy must know where he was wrong! Since you don't want to rely on him like a man who relies on him, you have to bear the consequences of willfulness.
But this time the boy didn't listen to him.
He could have continued to force it, but at this moment, seeing the despair in the boy's eyes, he suddenly... couldn't bear to continue.
Deng Jingwen slowly let go of his hand.
Xie He threw him away, a few deep red marks appeared on the wrist hanging by his side, still trembling slightly, he fixedly glanced at Deng Jingwen, then at Bai Xiaorui standing beside him, A voice full of hatred said: "I hate you!"
Then he turned around and ran out!
But after running more than ten meters away, he fell to the ground with a 'plop' and didn't get up.
Seeing the boy fell to the ground, Deng Jingwen felt his heartbeat slowed down a beat. For the first time, his steps were a little flustered, and he hurried over to pick up the boy. The boy frowned in pain, his face was pale and dripping with cold sweat. Already passed out.
Deng Jingwen touched his forehead, it was burning hot!
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Xie He swaggered and blew the cool breeze all night, and let 444 give himself an enhanced and improved version of the advanced cold virus, and successfully started to have a high fever.
When he woke up, it was already the third day, with water hanging on his arm, and Deng Jingwen was sleeping next to him, with his arm under his neck, wrapping him in his arms.
Xie He moved a bit, pulled off the needle on the back of his hand, lifted the quilt and jumped off the bed.
His movement woke up Deng Jingwen. Deng Jingwen was in a shallow sleep. He directly stretched out his arms to wrap his arms around the boy's waist, pulled him back into his arms, pressed his lips against the boy's ear, and said in a low voice, "Don't move around." , your illness is not cured yet."
God knows how worried he was, the boy fell into a coma for three whole days! The doctor said that the boy was suffering from a cold and was already weak, but because of the emotional shock, he fainted under extreme grief. Looking at the sleepy boy with his eyes closed tightly, Deng Jingwen began to regret his cold heart for the first time. What did he think at the time, that he actually left the boy outside for a whole night and accused him so mercilessly .
He shouldn't have been so eager, the boy was so weak, he could have been more gentle. He is used to using strong means to get what he wants, and he doesn't know what is the correct way to love someone.
At the end of the day... because of the desire to own a thing for the first time, it is too hasty.
Xie He gritted his teeth, his body trembling slightly, and he said, "Let me go."
Deng Jingwen coaxed patiently, with a soothing voice, "Don't make trouble, just lie down obediently, do you want to faint again?"
Xie He gritted his teeth, his eyelashes trembled, his eyes were full of pain and struggle, and his voice trembled with depression, "So what, you don't care anyway, I'm not Your son… "
Deng Jingwen laughed uncontrollably, is this kid just acting angry? He said, "Although you are not my son, who says I won't care anymore, I am very worried about you." He spoke softly, gently patted the boy's head, and pressed him on the bed, "Hey, I'll call you now." Doctors."
Xie He stared blankly at the man in front of him, feeling his gentle tone and actions that he had never seen before, the tears finally flowed down uncontrollably, and he didn't make a sound, just crying silently like this, no matter what Can't live.
Deng Jingwen paused, feeling a little complicated, and said after a while, "Don't cry."
This sentence was like a spell to completely open the valve. Xie He finally couldn't control himself anymore, and cried even more fiercely. He looked at Deng Jingwen with tears in his eyes, and suddenly reached out and grabbed his arm tightly, and said hoarsely: " Dad... woo...why don't you want to be my father..."
"Dad, do you know how much I like you and need you...Although you seldom accompany me, I tell myself that's because you are busy... You never attended my parent meeting, I told myself that's Because you are different from others, my dad is a big guy, so I don't go to such insignificant occasions... You didn't go to the amusement park with me, you didn't help me with my homework, and you didn't tell me a bedtime story , I didn’t even celebrate my birthday... I told myself time and time again... Because my father is the most powerful, the most amazing, so he is different from other people’s fathers... "
"Although... I envy those classmates, their fathers, and those ordinary lives..."
"But, I still like you the most... because you are my father, you will protect me, love me, and accompany me for the rest of my life... I don't have a mother, I only have a father..."
"I only have you… "
"But why don't you want me, why don't you want me..."
Xie He was crying out of breath, and his vision was blurred. Because he was crying too hard, his chest twitched.
"Dad... what should I do..."
Originally, I could still lie to myself, even if you don’t love me, even if you hurt me, at least you are my father alone... But now I can’t even lie to myself about this, because you are not my father, you are my father. someone else's father.
I really, really... can't hold on any longer...
why aren't you my daddy...
Deng Jingwen looked at such a boy, and there seemed to be some dull pain in his chest. Is this what the boy really thinks in his heart... He has never reflected on it before, let alone cared about whether he is qualified as a father. For this unexpected son, he has a dispensable mentality. He felt that he had fulfilled his responsibilities when he ate and clothed, and never thought that what the boy needed was his father's company.
No, even if he knew, he might not care... But at this moment Deng Jingwen looked at the boy, feeling guilty for the first time in his heart. He watched his boy grow up little by little, from a white lump... He grew up to be a beautiful boy, but his heart was always selfish and indifferent, and he never truly fulfilled his father's responsibility for a moment.
Despite this, the boy still respects and loves him, regards him as the most important father, and looks at him with admiration and dependence as always.
At this moment, Deng Jingwen suddenly understood why he longed for a boy so much.
Because the boy is unique and irreplaceable to him.
Before he even realized it, he was already used to the existence of the boy, and no one else would rely on him as deeply as the boy, no matter how many setbacks and sufferings he experienced, he would still never leave him.
In fact, he has always had the most precious and rare relationship in this world, but he just missed it because he turned a blind eye.
How could he be willing not to have his boy.
He also needs him.
[Ding, target Deng Jingwen favorability degree 2, current favorability degree 90]
Deng Jingwen held the boy in his arms and patted his back gently until the boy stopped crying and gradually regained his composure, then bowed his head and gently kissed the boy's lips, and said slowly and solemnly: "I won't want you, I hope you can stay by my side... But, as my lover."
But this time, the boy didn't respond, he just raised his eyes numbly, looking at him with an unprecedented strange look.