The boy's words fell into Deng Jingwen's ears word by word, like sharp needles piercing his heart.
This is what he said himself. If he knew that he would love his boy so much one day, he would not treat him so cruelly. Deng Jingwen closed his eyes to hide the deep pain in his eyes. He deserved all this...but the consequences should not be borne by the boy.
He stretched out his hand, touched the boy's head lightly, and said in a low voice, "Whether you are worth staying or not is up to me. I think you can stay, so stop thinking about it, okay?"
Xie He looked at him fixedly, and slowly shook his head: "But, sir, I don't want to stay anymore."
Even if the boy doesn't say this, Deng Jingwen understands in his heart, but he can't let him go, if he leaves his side, who else will protect his boy? The boy will be bullied, live a hard life, and even... may die in a corner where no one knows, and these are absolutely unbearable for him.
What is even more unbearable is that one day I will lose sight of the boy.
Deng Jingwen was silent for a few seconds before he said, "I won't allow it."
Xie He glanced at him again, lowered his eyelashes, and stopped talking. In front of Deng Jingwen, he has never had room to resist, so why should he resist in vain. Anyway, this person... doesn't care what he thinks at all.
Deng Jingwen carefully picked up the boy and put him on the bed, and quickly called the doctor to re-bandage the wound.
From the beginning to the end, Xie He was very quiet, neither screaming for pain nor making noise, even the doctor was a little surprised, he quickly treated the wound, and after admonishing not to drop it and not to enter the water, he left .
The soup that Deng Jingwen brought in was already cold, so he went out and brought in a new bowl, scooped it up with a spoon, put it near his mouth to let it cool down, and then handed it to the boy's mouth, "Eat some."
Xie He didn't move, just sat there like a lifeless puppet.
Deng Jingwen's heart throbbed with pain, but he still patiently coaxed: "I know it hurts, but you still need to eat something."
Xie He still didn't move, he didn't even lift his eyes.
Deng Jingwen's eyes were dark, and he was deeply suppressed in pain and helplessness. His lips were pursed into a straight line. After a long time, he lowered his voice: "Be obedient, or I will punish you."
Hearing the word 'punishment', Xie He's expression finally changed slightly. After a while, he slowly opened his mouth, held the spoon in his mouth, and swallowed.
Deng Jingwen finally fed a bowl of soup.
Deng Jingwen returned to the kitchen, put down the bowl, and stood by the sink without moving for a long time.
He didn't want to admit that he was so sad just now that he wanted to escape.
Such a boy...with a dull appearance, no longer the agility of the past...
As long as he was a little gentle and a little bit of a smile, he could happily smile at him, and the children happily circling around him had completely disappeared. want him again.
Only after losing it can I realize how precious the things that were abandoned like shoes are actually.
However, at that time, because it was too easy to get, he didn't know how to cherish it, so he could trample on it easily... He used to think that he didn't care at all, but it wasn't like that, he needed it very much... The person who always needs each other should actually be It was him.
[Ding, target Deng Jingwen favorability degree 2, current favorability degree 94]
Xie He was drinking the soup just now, while browsing the system store with a deadpan expression, chatting with 444 by the way.
[Xie He: How effective is the painkiller in the system store?]
[444: Not bad!]
[Xie He: It's not expensive, give me ten boxes.]
[444: Okay!]
[Xie He: Are there any new low-calorie and non-fat foods that have been put on the shelves recently? Recommend me baby :)]
[444: Good Le (≧▽≦)/]
[Xie He: Wait... Give me an emetic first! Spit it out before eating.]
When Deng Jingwen came back, he saw the boy lying powerlessly beside the bed, vomiting out all the food he had managed to eat just now. He hurried over to help the boy up, wiped his mouth himself, and passed the water to his lips, "wash your mouth."
The boy didn't resist him this time, and took a sip of water obediently, because the vomiting just now had scratched the wound, finally he couldn't help showing a look of pain on his face, and his hands tightly grasped the edge of the bed.
Deng Jingwen was very distressed. How could his boy, who was spoiled and spoiled since he was a child, endure such hurt...
He gently hugged the boy in his arms, Zhao Hong...Deng Jingwen had an extremely cold look in his eyes, he would never let anyone who hurt the boy go.
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Since that day, Deng Jingwen has been taking care of Xie He almost every step of the way. Xie He is very cooperative and does not resist. He deeply understands the truth of "never obey when you should be obedient, and be obedient when you should not be obedient". Using his "submissiveness and obedience", he slowly stabbed a knife in Deng Jingwen's heart.
For example, Deng Jingwen would obediently eat whatever Deng Jingwen fed him, but he vomited it out after eating, which made him lose a lot of weight.
For example, Deng Jingwen never resisted when he wanted to hug him to sleep, but he always woke up in the middle of the night and screamed, which scared Deng Jingwen awake, and then coaxed him until the early morning.
Another example is that he never calls daddy, only sir, and shows extreme fear of seeing people.
The knives are very accurate.
After a period of time like this, the wound on Xie He's face can finally be removed. The gradually accumulated pain and powerlessness made Deng Jingwen's eyes full of depression, and as long as he had a little trouble, Deng Jingwen would be very nervous.
But Xie He is still not satisfied.
[Xie He: Dad is indeed a strong person, so the favorability does not increase, which makes me have the fun of challenging again:)]
[444:...]Why did he suddenly sympathize with Deng Jingwen? This must be an illusion.
[Xie He: It can be seen that I am still too gentle and considerate to my father.]
[444: (n_n)~]It's really 'gentle'...
[Xie He: But at present, it seems that Dad doesn't like this. A rough person like Dad must prefer rough methods. smile jpg]
[Xie He: I'm going to take a strong medicine:)]
444: ... I remain silent.
Although the wound on Xie He's face has healed, it is not as hideous and terrifying as it was at the beginning, but the long light red scar is still very conspicuous on the fair and flawless face, as if a stroke has been cut in the most beautiful painting, which is very impressive Both regretful and helpless.
Deng Jingwen has been in contact with the top plastic surgeons since a long time ago, and has assembled a team to wait for the boy to heal and perform surgery on him.
He watched the boy barely eat something that day, and felt very distressed.
Deng Jingwen hugged the boy and said softly: "I hired the best plastic surgeon for you, and I will definitely be able to cure you. You will be fine..."
This sentence made Xie He finally have a reaction. He lowered his head and asked, "Really?"
This was the first time in a long time that the boy took the initiative to talk to him. Deng Jingwen's eyes were filled with joy, and he said, "Yes, you will definitely be able to recover, trust me."
Xie He didn't respond for a long time. After a while, his body trembled slightly. He finally raised his head, looked at Deng Jingwen with an indifferent gaze, and said, "Sir, can I die?"
Seeing such gazes, Deng Jingwen's heart sank instantly. There was no joy in those eyes, but endless indifference... This kind of reaction was completely beyond his expectation, and made him feel extremely uneasy. He asked, "Why?"
Xie He stared at him coldly, with hatred and hatred gradually appearing in his eyes, but his tone was still calm, and said: "I think this is very good, so I don't want to treat it."
Deng Jingwen was silent for a moment, and persuaded: "Don't make trouble... I just hope you can get better... Listen to me, okay?"
However, this obedient sentence seemed to irritate Xie He. He finally couldn't maintain the false calm, and suddenly pushed Deng Jingwen away, trembling all over, and said loudly: "I said I will die! If I die, I will die!" Shouting and crying tears When he got down, the red scar on his beautiful face twisted, his expression was stern and terrifying, he looked at Deng Jingwen with red eyes, and said word by word, "This is the value I leave behind, isn't it? Cure me, So I can please you again."
"Sir, is my face really that good-looking? It's good to see that you still refuse to let me go."
Xie He stretched out his hand and touched the uneven scars on his face. How wonderful, he thought that he would never have to please that man again, but he actually wanted to heal him. He stared at Deng Jingwen bitterly, opened the corner of his mouth, and let out a voice that was almost crying: "I only regret that Zhao Ling didn't draw more strokes at that time, because it can't be cured."
"Then...you won't like me anymore."
"It would be great if you could not like me."
Deng Jingwen stared blankly at the boy... The severe pain almost numb his heart.
So is this what the boy really thinks? Has he always thought this way... thinking that he kept him, tried his best to take care of him, and tried every means to cure him, just to continue to use him to occupy him, and the docile appearance hides the resignation of grief and helplessness, It's despair with nowhere to escape.
The boy who once longed for his love said to him one day: It would be great if you could not like me.
For a boy, his liking is no longer what he wants, it is even a burden and torture.
He had never hated himself like this for a moment.
Hate the once ruthless self.
There are many people who say that he will be punished. He didn't believe it before... Now he finally believes it.
It was obviously so painful that he couldn't breathe, but Deng Jingwen still didn't leave. He swallowed all the pain mixed with blood, and didn't show it at all. What was shown in front of the boy was always a disguised gentleness and tolerance. He couldn't scare him anymore. up.
Deng Jingwen stretched out his arms and hugged the boy, saying: "You don't have to please me, I just want to cure you, nothing else." I just hope you can smile happily, continue to stand in the sun, and live a happy life ...it's me, trying to please you.
It's a pity that his consolation no longer has the slightest effect. The reason why one person can win the trust of another is nothing but the willingness of the other person.
Once expectations and trust are lost, all warm words are nothing but deceitful lies.
Xie He struggled desperately, he was emotional: "Don't touch me, don't touch me! Don't touch me!" He was crying hysterically, with helplessness and despair mixed in his crying, and he seemed to have finally collapsed, "You Don't touch me...why do you like me...why do you like me...I'm not good-looking anymore, really not good-looking... woo-woo... "
Xie He struggled too hard, Deng Jingwen was afraid that he would hurt himself, so he could only let go of his hand helplessly, with a difficult voice: "I won't touch you, don't get excited, I won't force you again."
Xie He curled up, his eyes were red, staring at him with fear and vigilance, trembling.
Deng Jingwen clenched his hands by his side, and he said, "Don't be afraid, I'll go out."
Deng Jingwen walked out of the room and leaned his back against the wall. He raised his head and felt that his eye sockets seemed moist, but he didn't cry. In fact, he is also very sad, but he can't cry, can't shout, can't collapse, can't be weak... Probably this is the punishment from God, so that he must calmly persevere and atone for the mistakes he once made.
I don't know how long it has been.
Suddenly there was a broken sound of 'crash' in the room.
Deng Jingwen quickly pushed the door open and returned to the room, only to see that the bowl on the table was broken, and the boy grabbed a piece and stabbed it on his wrist forcefully! Blood gushed out! The blood on that spot made Deng Jingwen want to tear his eyes apart, as if the scene of finding the boy that day had reappeared, only a little bit, he would lose him forever!
He rushed over and snatched the fragment from the boy's hand! Holding hands tightly, he didn't care if the fragments pierced his palms. Seeing the boy continue to grab other fragments on the ground, he hugged the boy's waist forcefully and dragged him out forcibly.
Xie He struggled desperately, but this time he couldn't break free. He cried and said: "Sir, don't worry about such a waste like me. My face won't get better, so it's useless for me to stay, really …”
Deng Jingwen's lips trembled slightly, "Don't say such things..."
Xie He's body stiffened for a moment, and the next moment, a flattering smile appeared on the face that had not yet dried out the tears, "I'm sorry... sir, I was wrong, please don't punish me, okay, I won't say anything..."
Deng Jingwen lowered his head, staring blankly at the boy in his arms. The boy was crying, laughing, struggling desperately, and begging for mercy.
He finally had to admit that his own existence would only bring endless pain to the boy, and that pain would drive him crazy and drive him to death.
And how could he be willing to let the boy continue to suffer like this, the one who should bear the pain... is him.
How could he push his boy into a desperate situation again because he wanted to continue to have the boy selfishly, because he was unwilling to let go, how could he make the same mistake again... Deng Jingwen closed his eyes in pain.
Blood trickled down his fingers and dripped onto the ground, but he didn't realize it. He moved his lips, his voice suppressed and sad.
"I don't like you anymore, I'll let you go."
[Ding, target Deng Jingwen favorability degree 2, current favorability degree 96]