Chu Xing's eyes were so red that they were almost bleeding.
Without saying a word, he quickly picked up the clothes on the ground and wrapped them around Xie He's body. His usually steady hands trembled, and his voice was extremely painful, "Your Majesty..."
Xie He moved uneasy, glanced at him timidly, and said cautiously: "Master... what's wrong with you?"
Chu Xing gritted his teeth tightly, his muscles tensed.
Seeing this, Xie He showed a terrified look in his eyes, and his voice trembled, "Master, why don't you speak, what is wrong with the slave?"
Chu Xing closed his eyes and squeezed out a voice through his teeth, "You, get up first, put on your clothes..."
Unexpectedly, this sentence seemed to frighten Xie He, Xie He's eyes were red, and he was about to cry, "Master, don't you want to be a slave... Are you going to give the slave to someone else..."
"No, yes, yes." Chu Xing spit out one word after another.
Xie He was still very frightened, because the clothes on his struggling body slipped away again, revealing his fair shoulders, his black hair fell down, and he was pitiful, "Then why do you want to wear clothes as a slave? How can a slave serve the master when you put on clothes? It adds trouble to the use of the master, and the slave cannot wear clothes... "
Chu Xing clenched his hands tightly, and he said, "I don't mind the trouble, you put it on first."
Xie He suddenly hugged Chu Xing's leg, tears flowed down suddenly, crying very desolately, "Master, don't want to be a slave, please don't throw away your slave... You can't wear it, you can't wear it, it's useless if you wear it It's useless, it's better to die..."
Chu Xing looked at the desperate panic in Xie He's eyes, and he didn't dare to push any more. He gritted his teeth and said, "Then you, you get up first..."
Xie He seems to be still hesitating...
Chu Xing's voice suddenly became severe, "I'll let you get up!"
Xie He trembled in fright, then got up from the ground, and looked at Chu Xing tremblingly.
Chu Xing's clenched fists trembled, and he tried his best not to show his grief. He felt that his blood was cold all over his body, and the part of his heart was burning with pain, tormenting him all the time.
Whenever he thought he hated himself enough, the cruel reality would make him realize that he could hate himself even more, so much that he wished to kill himself... It was he who cruelly forced His Majesty into this state!
He thought it was just amnesia...but no, he drove His Majesty crazy.
Your Majesty survived those ten years of blackness, but after all, he failed to survive his torment...
Is it because you can't escape that nightmare no matter what, so you just don't want to wake up again, don't want to persist anymore
In this world, is there nothing that His Majesty can miss...
If His Majesty can be restored to normal, if His faults can be redeemed, so what if he is killed... The crime he committed against His Majesty is not worth dying for!
Chu Xing turned around and walked out the door, his tall back seemed finally crushed by the unbearable pain.
After a while, Chu Xing came back again. He didn't let anyone in, but brought in the food himself. Although there were only a few dishes, they were exquisite.
Xie He originally had a panicked expression, but when he saw Chu Xing came back, he immediately showed a flattering smile like a puppy, "Master..."
Chu Xing shook his fist and said to Xie He, "Come and eat."
Xie He didn't go over immediately, and whispered: "Slaves can't eat with the master..."
Chu Xing's Adam's apple moved up and down, as if swallowing a mouthful of blood, he suppressed the pain in his eyes, and said in a commanding tone: "I tell you to eat, otherwise I will give you to someone else."
This sentence seemed to be Xie He's weakness, he showed a scared expression when he heard it, and sat down obediently.
Chu Xing put the vegetables into his bowl, "Eat."
Xie He lowered his head and started eating, but he was very cautious. His chopsticks never left his bowl from the beginning to the end. He would eat whatever Chu Xing gave him, and he would not eat if he didn't. Chu Xing quickly realized this, so he continued to pick up food for Xie He until he saw that he was probably full. He was worried that if he continued to pick up food, Xie He would continue to eat even if he was full.
Chu Xing really couldn't continue to face Xie He like this, so he put away his things silently and left.
It wasn't until noon when Chu Xing came to deliver the meal that Chu Xing realized that Xie He was still naked and sitting against the wall with his knees hugged. He had half-closed his eyes expressionlessly, but when he heard the door opening, he turned his head. When he saw Chu Xing He showed a gentle smile, looked expectantly, and shouted in a slightly hoarse seductive voice: "Master..."
Chu Xing gritted his teeth and clenched his fist, telling himself to be calm, to be calm! He walked over silently and said, "Come over for dinner."
Because Xie He had been sitting on the ground for too long, he stood up suddenly, his legs and feet were weak, and he threw himself on the ground. Chu Xing kept watching him carefully, and reached out to wrap his arms around his waist in time, and his palm touched Xie He's slippery skin on the side of his waist , as if there was a hot current flowing from the palm of the hand to the heart, Chu Xing froze, helped Xie He to sit on the chair, and let go of his hand in a hurry.
Chu Xing began to pick up food for Xie He, and Xie He ate quietly like in the morning.
When Chu Xing left again, he finally couldn't help but said: "Put on your clothes and go for a walk, I won't want you."
Xie He blinked, and looked at him helplessly with his miserable black eyes, as if this request was completely beyond his comprehension and subverted his outlook on life.
Chu Xing's eyes revealed a look of despair.
[444: The host is big! I told him he wouldn’t touch you~] Hee hee hee hee hee hee hee feels great, as if his IQ has become higher!
[Xie He: Baby, it's only been a long time, what are you anxious about?]
[444: (⊙v⊙) Huh?]
[Xie He: Sex life is a must, he will change his mind:)]
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When Chu Xing came over at night, he found that Xie He was still the same as in the morning, sitting there without even moving his position! In other words, he thinks that the current self is no different from an object or a piece of furniture. He has no thoughts and no self, and he just waits for the owner's return in the house.
Chu Xing's heart seemed to be riddled with holes, and he stared deeply at his majesty... Is it the only way to not feel pain in such a nightmare
But it pains me to see you like this.
Chu Xing walked over directly, hugged Xie He to the chair and sat down, and said slowly: "Let's eat."
Xie He ate silently, then turned his head to look at him suddenly, and said cautiously: "Actually, master, you don't have to do this. If you put it on the ground, the slave will eat it by himself."
Chu Xing held the chopsticks so hard that his knuckles turned white, "I want this."
Xie He stopped talking.
After eating, Chu Xing hugged Xie He to the bed again, and pulled the quilt to cover him, "Don't squat on the ground, you will catch a cold, you know?"
Xie He grabbed Chu Xing's hand, with a moved look in his eyes, "Master..."
"Have a good rest." Chu Xing said in a deep voice, then he took his hand out firmly, turned and walked out.
Before he reached the door, he heard Xie He call him, Chu Xing turned his head, and saw Xie He looking at him with sad eyes, his eyes were pouring out countless disappointments: "Master, don't you stay?" come down..."
Chu Xing gritted his teeth, turned around and left.
As soon as Chu Xing walked away, Xie He climbed out of bed, didn't even need a quilt, and lay down on the ground, posing in a seductive and pitiful position, and fell asleep. The ground was hard and cold, but fortunately he was a hard-working A hard-working actor, this little thing is nothing to worry about.
[444: Host, you really will catch a cold like this...]
[Xie He: This is the effect. smile jpg]
[444:...]
[Xie He: If you don't make him feel bad, how do you know to be obedient? My invitation is so obvious, I really don't understand it :)]
Chu Xing left for less than half an hour, and was really worried about Xie He, so he slipped back quietly, opened the window and looked inside. As a result, when I saw Xie He curled up on the ground, I was suddenly angry and distressed. Didn't I let him go to bed? ! Why come down!
He really couldn't bear Xie He to sleep on the cold ground, so he went in and carried him back to the bed. Because of this movement, Xie He slowly opened his eyes and looked at him timidly.
Chu Xing was very angry: "Why did you come down?"
Xie He trembled, "The master is not here, the slave can't go to bed..."
Chu Xing said: "This is an order."
He pulled the quilt back to cover Xie He, wrapped it into a ball, and gave him a warning look before leaving.
This time he didn't really leave, but jumped onto the roof, removed a tile and looked at Xie He secretly.
Sure enough, only a few minutes after he left, Xie He lifted the quilt and walked to the ground again to shrink up.
Chu Xing felt very distressed! He went in and hugged Xie He to the bed, and left after threatening... But for some reason, Xie He was very persistent in believing that the master was not there and could not go to bed, no matter what Chu Xing said, as long as he left, he would come down! Chu Xing couldn't bear to be tough, and was very helpless after being tossed.
After repeating this four or five times, Chu Xing finally had no choice but to hug Xie He's waist and put it in his arms. He went back to the bed and said viciously, "Sleep!"
This time, Xie He really didn't resist or struggle, and he burrowed into Chu Xing's arms, and fell asleep with a contented smile.
Xie He slept well, but Chu Xing couldn't sleep at all.
In his arms is the person he loves... His majesty is nestled in his arms naked, holding him tightly with a look of dependence on happiness. This kind of extravagant wish that can't even be realized in dreams... has now become reality. In reality, what Chu Xing couldn't restrain had a desire. This made him hate himself very much. Obviously he has pushed His Majesty to this point, and it is so painful... But he couldn't control his instinct, and couldn't help but want to blaspheme His Majesty.
But he couldn't do that, he couldn't continue to hurt this person.
He would rather be looked at by His Majesty with disgust and resentment than to see His Majesty look at him with gentle eyes and call him master...
He doesn't want to.
Chu Xing stayed up all night.
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Because Xie He slept early, he woke up early. He moved his body slightly, and his fingers got in under Chu Xing's clothes, and stroked his strong chest, tsk tsk... It feels good, um, there is an eight-pack belly underneath. Muscular, fit and stylish, hey, there are some scars... It really is a soldier who leads the war.
This figure is even better than his previous one. Xie He sighed in his heart. Since time travel, he has never had such a strong figure again. It is a pity.
Chu Xing was just sleepy at first, and after being touched by cool soft hands a few times, he immediately woke up and grabbed Xie He's dishonest hand.
Xie He's hand was held, and he raised his head and smiled at Chu Xing. His raised eyebrows and eyes were full of deep nostalgia and dependence. Because he just woke up with a trace of lazy sexiness, he slightly opened his lips and uttered a pleasant voice "Master, will this slave serve you..." He lowered his head, his hair hanging from his ears, against his jade-white cheeks, black and white were distinct.
Xie He's eyelashes moved, he lowered his head, and a gentle kiss fell.
That kiss all the way down...
Chu Xing was stiff all over, as if he couldn't move at all.
Xie He's wrist is very slender, as if it would break if he squeezed hard, his kiss is also very soft, like a feather, even if the weight of the whole body is on Chu Xing's body, in Chu Xing's view, there is no strength Word.
But it happened that such a person... restrained him who had killed countless people, and made him unable to move.
Because at this moment, he is being kissed by his majesty...
Xie He's hand finally landed on Chu Xing's place, and it was as hard as iron.
He raised his head, smiled charmingly, suddenly raised his legs and sat on it, and said: "Master... slave will make you happy..."
Xie He's action suddenly woke up Chu Xing! A look of intense pain and struggle flashed in Chu Xing's eyes, and before Xie He sat down, he tore him off with all his strength! A suppressed growl came out of his throat: "No—"
Xie He's eyes showed panic, "Master... Slave, I didn't mean to offend, I just want to make you happy..."
Chu Xing closed his eyes deeply, walked out without saying a word, and closed the door heavily!
He can't stay any longer, he's afraid he won't be able to control himself.
He will hurt His Majesty.
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[444: The host is big, he's gone again...]
[Xie He: Hehe.]
When Chu Xing came back again, he found Xie He lying face down on the ground, motionless, and stopped smiling at him and calling him master. He suddenly had a bad feeling in his heart, and quickly walked over to help Xie He up, only to find that there was blood gurgling on Xie He's wrist, and he took a deep breath! Xie He committed suicide again!
Chu Xing tremblingly hugged Xie He to the bed, pulled the curtain and called the imperial physician over. Although the imperial physician could not see Xie He himself, he could see the wound on his wrist, with a look of sympathy in his eyes. Your Majesty... was tortured to commit suicide...
The imperial doctor treated Xie He's wound, hesitated for a while, and then gritted his teeth and summoned up the courage to say: "General... His Majesty finally woke up, if you want him to live... you'd better follow him, don't... stimulate him..."
"If your majesty really wants to die, if you can save it this time, next time..." the imperial doctor said very tactfully, seeing that Chu Xing's face was getting worse and worse, he didn't dare to say more, and hurriedly retreated.
The imperial physician's words made Chu Xing's eyes more painful, and it was because of him... because of him that His Majesty became like this.
He gently kissed Xie He's forehead, Your Majesty... I just don't want to hurt you...
When Xie He woke up, he found that Chu Xing didn't leave this time, but held him carefully in his arms, like holding a fragile treasure.
He moved a bit, and seeing Chu Xing woke up, he looked at him with tearful eyes, and there seemed to be endless sorrow in his eyes, but he didn't speak, and he didn't call for master.
Chu Xing moved his lips and said, "You're awake."
Xie He's tears flowed down, and he still didn't speak.
Chu Xing panicked immediately, "What's wrong with you? Why are you crying?" Did he do something wrong
Xie He finally choked up and said: "Master, don't you want to be a slave..."
Chu Xing was in great pain, but he didn't dare to scare Xie He, and said without hesitation: "I didn't."
Xie He said: "But you obviously... you don't want to be a slave... a slave is useless, and it's better to die than to be useless..."
This time Chu Xing finally understood what Xie He meant by "don't". But what should he say? It's not that he doesn't want it, but he can't... He inserted his fingers into Xie He's hair, gently pressed Xie He's head to his chest, and said in a deep voice: "I don't want you, I don't allow you to continue to hurt yourself .”
Xie He looked at him with timid and expectant eyes, "Really..."
Chu Xing said: "Really."
Chu Xing didn't dare to leave Xie He easily, and has been here to accompany him personally. As long as he is by his side, Xie He always looks very quiet and obedient, but as long as he leaves, Xie He will remain motionless like a puppet. Moreover, he insisted on not wearing clothes, and when he was forced to cry desperately, Chu Xing didn't dare to force him, so he could only let him be like this. He asked people to spread a thick carpet in the room and put a stove on , so that even if Xie He doesn't go out, he won't be cold.
After a few days like this, Xie He showed no sign of getting better, and Chu Xing was very anxious.
On this day, he was temporarily out of the palace for business, so he had to leave Xie He alone in the palace.
When I came back at night, I found that Xie He committed suicide again, this time I almost failed to save him!
But in a few days, Chu Xing's eyes had accumulated a thick dark color, and he was about to be driven crazy. The imperial doctors tried their best to finally rescue Xie He, but when he woke up, he didn't eat or drink, his eyes were dead silent, no matter how Chu Xing tried to persuade him, even threats and orders didn't work.
"You eat a little, I said I won't want you." Chu Xing said.
Xie He didn't move, his cheeks sank, his complexion was pale and lost his luster, as if he had lost his last vitality. He was not in good health at first, and he was so weak that he finally rescued him. Now he wants to die, even if Hua Tuo is alive, there is nothing he can do, unless he wants to live.
Chu Xing looked at Xie He's face, closed his eyes in pain, and finally said: "Eat some, you will get better after eating, and I will only want you when you are healthy."
Xie He's eyeballs moved slightly, and he made a weak voice: "Master, you are lying... Nu Mingming... It's useless..."
There seemed to be a knife in Chu Xing's throat, and every word he said hurt his heart, but he still forced himself to say, "I won't lie to you, as long as you get better, I want you."
Xie He stared at him blankly.
Chu Xing lowered his head slightly and kissed his lips. There were no tears in his eyes, but he seemed to be crying. He said, "I keep my word."
Xie He stared at him for a long time, and finally nodded slowly. Chu Xing quickly picked up the bowl and carefully fed the medicine into it.
Because of Chu Xing's promise, Xie He was finally willing to take medicine and food.
Chu Xing took care of him every step of the way, and saw that he gradually recovered. Until one day, Xie He knelt and sat beside him, looked up at him and said expectantly: "Master, this slave is ready to serve you." In addition to anticipation, there was a slight fear in his eyes, As if afraid that Chu Xing was lying to him again this time.
Chu Xing looked down at him, and suddenly picked up Xie He and put him on the bed.
Xie He looked at him in surprise, his black eyes were shining brightly, he happily hugged Chu Xing's neck with his wrist, and took the initiative to move his face over, "Master, I like you so much..."
"Really..." Chu Xing whispered.
no you don't like me you hate me...
You hate me so much you want to kill me.
But I love you, and as long as you live, I can do anything.
Even if you will hate me even more after you wake up, you will not hesitate.
[Ding, target Chu Xing has a favorability degree of 2, and the current favorability degree is 96]
Chu Xing lowered his head and held Xie He's lips, which were so soft and sweet.
This is the person he loves. He originally thought that in this lifetime, he could only continue to touch and possess him in his dreams... He thought that would be enough.
But... At this moment, the person he loves actively embraces him, kisses him, opens himself up and yearns for his entry, looks at him with such longing and admiring eyes, and gives him all the extravagances he has seen in his dreams. briefly become reality.
Just at this moment, he suddenly wanted to lie to himself, to lie to himself that his majesty also loved him, and they were together because of love.
No wonder people in this world always like to deceive themselves and others, he finally understands now.
Because he finally turned into a self-deceiving wretch, in order to numb his heart and escape the endless pain.
Chu Xing carefully kissed the person under him, and slowly entered...
Xie He raised his neck and moaned in satisfaction.
This sound was like a low groan resounding in the hearts of the people, making Chu Xing completely lose his last reason...
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Xie He hugged Chu Xing's neck tightly, his charming eyebrows reflected the color of emotion, "Master... this slave likes you so much... push harder, harder... ah... master is so amazing..."
Hearing Xie He's voice, Chu Xing involuntarily lowered his head to look at him, his charming face was stained with lust, his black eyes filled with confused joy, there was no pain, only joy and enjoyment.
Chu Xing's rationality suddenly returned to his mind.
In an instant, he fell back to the cruel reality again.
He suddenly reached out to cover Xie He's eyes, turned him over, and hugged him from behind.
No... It's not like that, His Majesty won't like his aggression, his hugs and kisses... let alone such an expression.
It's all fake.
After all, he has no way to continue to lie to himself... The two of them are still deeply connected, but they seem to be separated by a distance like a moat.
He hugged the person under him, the only thing he could do was to prevent him from seeing himself crying.