Yi Ze looked at the person under him, and couldn't help but kissed him again. He had never kissed Xie He before, but it was just a thing bought with money to vent his desire. He was not interested in complicated foreplay and lingering, but today, for some reason, he didn't want to let go while holding this person in his arms.
Yi Ze was still buried in Xie He's body, pinching Xie He's chin and staring at this face... Probably because of being emotional, the young man's fair complexion had an attractive beige-colored luster, and his red lips were ravaged And slightly red and swollen, with long curled eyelashes trembling, he opened his mouth and murmured softly: "Senior brother..." His eyes shrouded in mist looked at him affectionately.
Yi Ze became hard again.
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Yi Ze didn't drive Xie He off this time after the incident, and Xie He didn't move. He was hugged obediently by him, his eyes half-opened and motionless.
It's just a title...it doesn't matter...as long as Yi Ze can be happy...
Can't cry, can't cry.
Yi Ze will get angry if he cries...you can't make him angry...
He thought so, so he really didn't cry.
In fact, as long as you let yourself go and don't think about anything, and treat yourself as an obedient puppet, it's not that sad.
Yi Ze vented a bit, and his depressed mood of being squeezed by Jian Zihan before was much better, and his tone was rare and gentle: "As long as you are obedient, I will not treat you badly."
Xie He hummed lightly, with a calm expression.
Yi Ze felt that Xie He should be rewarded, after all, he also made him happy, so he said: "If you need my sponsorship, just talk to my secretary and let him arrange it for you."
A gloomy look finally flashed in Xie He's eyes, and he closed his eyes in pain.
In Yi Ze's heart, he did all this just for his money, but what can he say? They were originally in this relationship.
Xie He was silent for a while, then whispered, "Thank you Brother Yi."
Yi Ze didn't notice his sadness at all, stood up and said, "You can go."
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Xie He started to drive back again. Before he left, he had already greeted the director. The director was one of the few people who knew Xie He's benefactor, so he agreed very readily. The next morning arranged for someone else's play. Even if Xie He couldn't make it in time It doesn't matter if you come back.
It was already noon when Xie He returned to the crew.
Jian Zihan has been a little absent-minded since yesterday, all he thinks about is Xie He, why did Xie He not return all night? Could it be that he stayed at the other party's house? What is their relationship? Since we are so close, why does Xie He still say that the other party doesn't like him
This kind of cranky thinking didn't end until he saw Xie He coming back, but the next thing that came up was anger!
Jian Zihan stared at the corners of Xie He's lips and neck... It was clear at a glance what happened last night!
Xie He also saw Jian Zihan in the corridor, avoided his sight in shame, lowered his head and walked into his room, but before he could close the door, Jian Zihan squeezed in against the doorknob.
Xie He's expression suddenly became a little nervous, and said: "You, what's the matter with you?"
Jian Zihan stared at his neck, managed to hold back her jealousy, and said in a calm voice, "You went to see that person, didn't you?"
Xie He didn't dare to look into Jian Zihan's eyes, pursed his lips and said nothing.
Jian Zihan was a little angry, and said in a deep voice, "Did you tell him that you like him?"
Xie He shook his head, there was a trace of sadness in his eyes, and the scene of last night came to mind again, how could he say that? He looked up at Jian Zihan, and met his gentle and caring eyes without any surprises. Facing such a person, he couldn't even be jealous, all he had was envy...and disdain for himself, Xie He pursed his lips and did not answer.
Jian Zihan knew it in his heart, and suddenly raised his hand to press the corner of Xie He's lips, and said in a low voice: "I didn't ask you what the relationship was before, because I didn't think it was important, but now I find that I was wrong. It's very Important... Can you tell me, what is the relationship between you two?"
The blood on Xie He's face faded, as if he had guessed that his feet hurt, he suddenly pushed Jian Zihan away, rolled his eyes and said coldly: "It's none of your business, I'm going to rest, can you leave?"
Jian Zihan did not leave this time, but looked into Xie He's eyes and said slowly: "You guys are in bed."
This sentence was like a slap on Xie He's face, he was treated as the person in front of him and was fucked all night! I have to face this person's questioning the next day! Finally unable to maintain his hypocritical indifference, his voice became slightly sharper, "Yes, is there a problem?"
Jian Zihan looked at the pain and sorrow in Xie He's eyes, and saw the thorns all over his body standing up like a hedgehog, his heart softened, and his tone softened: "I have no other intentions, I just want to help you."
Xie He shook his head, his expression indifferent, "You can't help me, let's go."
Jian Zihan turned around and locked the door with a snap, then strode up to Xie He, staring into his eyes, "I didn't want to interfere at first, because this is your own choice, and I respect your choice. But... now I really feel bad for you."
Xie He was a little angry, "I said you don't want to worry about it."
Jian Zihan pressed him against the wall, put his arm on his ear, and approached Xie He with his head down: "You said that person doesn't like you, but he likes someone else. Since he likes others in his heart, but Still sleeping with you and hanging you, this kind of person... has nothing to like about you."
Xie He bit his lip and looked at him: "I'm happy, I'm happy."
Jian Zihan narrowed his eyes, and suddenly asked, "Are you doing it for his money?"
This sentence stimulated Xie He, everyone thought he was doing it for Yi Ze's money! Why does Jian Zihan think so! He glared and said, "No!"
Jian Zihan nodded, without any doubt, and said, "In that case, you only love him."
Xie He said seriously: "Yes."
Jian Zihan said: "If you are doing it for money, I will turn around and leave without saying anything, but if you are loving him, then I don't think this person is worthy of your love, you deserve someone who cares more about you than him. A person who obviously doesn't like you but still sleeps with you, this kind of person doesn't understand love at all, and doesn't respect love, you won't be happy with him."
Xie He looked up at Jian Zihan, and retorted unquestionably: "You don't know anything, there is no one more worthy than him in my heart."
Yi Ze may not love him, but he cannot allow others to slander Yi Ze.
Without Yi Ze, he had no money to treat his mother, how could he send her to leave in peace in the last few years, without leaving any regrets in his life; without Yi Ze, he would be the same as those boys at the same time , reduced to a filthy state and allowed to be abused by others; without Yi Ze, his efforts are just a joke, because no one will give him a chance to stand out... Everything he has today... cannot be separated from Yi Ze.
His life changed because of Yi Ze, and he was willing to spend the rest of his life loving this person.
Jian Zihan paused, he knew that he might not be able to convince Xie He on this point, so he changed his tone and said, "Okay, if he is worthy of your liking, did you tell him your feelings yesterday?"
Xie He choked.
Jian Zihan sighed, "I just can't bear to see you continue to waste like this, you will have no results like this. If you like it, you should tell him, you won't regret it if you work hard, and you should give up decisively if you have no hope... Don't you Do you really plan to follow that person for the rest of your life without knowing why? Haven't you thought about your future?"
Xie He didn't say a word, lowered his eyes and didn't speak.
When Jian Zihan saw this, he didn't know what he was thinking, and he was so angry, how could there be such a stubborn and ignorant person! I don't want to be patient any longer, I don't want to see him wasting time on an unworthy scum, I want to grab him directly! Jian Zihan took a deep breath before forcibly suppressing the impulse in his heart, and said word by word: "I tell you this today because I really hope you will be happy."
Xie He didn't dare to look at Jian Zihan, such Jian Zihan made him feel more and more despicable, he hid in a dark corner and looked up at Jian Zihan enviously, but Jian Zihan only wanted him to be happy.
Maybe... There is still a situation where he is willing to leave Yi Ze, that is when Yi Ze no longer needs him as a substitute. Xie He suddenly moved his lips and asked, "What about you, do you have someone you like?"
Jian Zihan looked at Xie He without hesitation: "I have someone I like."
Xie He's eyes were tense, and he asked again: "He, who is he?"
Jian Zihan suddenly smiled, lowered his head and whispered in Xie He's ear: "This is a secret, when the time comes, I will tell you personally." He let go of Xie He, and said to him before leaving: "I hope you can be serious. Consider what I just said."
Xie He watched Jian Zihan leave in dismay, as if he was still struggling with who the person he liked was.
[Xie He: Baby, I really like my family Hanhan more and more, she is so gentle and caring. smile jpg]
[444:...]
[Xie He: It's a pity that we are not suitable, sigh jpg]
[444: Why? Haven't you always been interested in him?]
[Xie He: Baby, you have to know that sometimes liking is just liking, not necessarily suitable for being a lover.]
[444:? ? ?]
[Xie He: Because I'm not the kind of person who would give up an entire forest for a single tree. How do you fall in love with different views:)]
[444: ... Then why do you still want to brush his favorability?]
[Xie He: 8000 experience points.]
[444: ... ] Thank you, you and Mr. Yi are the best match! _(:3ゝ∠)_
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After that day, Jian Zihan continued to get along with Xie He as if nothing had happened, and Yi Ze did not continue to call Jian Zihan. After all, Xie He was more obedient, so he called him over once a week.
Yi Ze seems to like this kind of role-playing game. He always asks Xie He to call him senior brother on the bed, and his attitude towards him is getting better and better. Occasionally, he is willing to pamper him a little bit, so his favorability slowly increased by 5 points , is now 70.
Xie He thought that the time was almost up. Jian Zihan had been encouraging him to confess to Yi Ze. After such a long delay, it was time for Si Minghui to take action. After all, he had been in love for so many years, and it was still very tempting to confess Powerful... No matter how humble the love is, it is inevitable that people will have ridiculous extravagant hopes. It is human nature not to give up until the Yellow River.
If your heart is not broken, how do you know you have to wake up
So after another lingering, Xie He didn't leave obediently as usual, but looked at Yi Ze, showing a long-term expression, and said: "Brother Yi... I, I have something to say to you."
Yi Ze was in a good mood, his big hands were still wandering around his body, and he said casually, "What?"
Xie He pursed his lips and summoned up his courage to say: "I... I have always liked you very much..."
Yi Ze gave a casual 'hmm' and said, "What do you want?"
Xie He's eyes dimmed, but he repeated, "I like you."
Yi Ze paused, and finally looked up at Xie He, met his hopeful eyes, and suddenly smiled jokingly: "Do you like me?"
Xie He nodded, tense and stiff.
Yi Ze smiled softly and looked at him meaningfully: "So it's me you want."
Xie He stammered, "No, it's not... I just..."
"What a greedy little guy..." Yi Ze pinched his chin, his eyes became indifferent, "Even if you really like me. But... so what?"
Xie He's face turned pale. This result was expected by him, but when he heard it with his own ears, he was still heartbroken.
Yi Ze stood up from the bed, his dangerous eyes fell on Xie He, and he patted his face, "Don't be confused about your identity just because I treat you better. Especially...don't be with I play tricks like this."
Xie He looked at him fixedly. If it was the past, he would have flinched at this time, but today he didn't want to just let it go... because in the future, he might never have the courage to say this sentence again.
Xie He stared deeply at Yi Ze's face, his eyes were full of love and seriousness, he said softly: "Brother Yi... I didn't want to play tricks, I just wanted to tell you... I love you. I don't want to What... just want you to know this."
Yi Ze's gaze became colder and colder, he really became more and more courageous, and even dared to talk back. Did he think he could deceive him and get more from him by saying such ridiculous things
Yi Ze raised the corners of his lips: "Since you don't want anything, why did you say it?"
Xie He was taken aback.
"Do you dare to say that you really have no desires? People like you..." Yi Ze pinched Xie He's chin, his eyes were cold, and his tone was contemptuous: "I don't deserve to say the word love."
Xie He looked at him in shock, his lips trembling.
Yi Ze didn't bother to pay any attention to him, turned around and left.
Xie He looked at the back of him leaving... as if his last strength had been taken away, this was the answer he wanted to get.
Now he finally knows.
In fact, he really didn't expect so much... As long as Yi Ze can trust him a little bit and care about him a little bit, he can persevere forever.
But he tried his best to love, and what he got in exchange was not worthy of the word.
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[Xie He: My Zeze is so awesome. I suddenly fell in love with him a little bit. I am very pleased that he is so good. smile jpg.]
[444: Jian Zihan, you also said that you like it very much, your tastes are so wide (n_n)~]
[Xie He: Baby, did you just know this today:)]
[444:...]
When Xie He returned to the crew, Jian Zihan could see his abnormality at a glance. His distraught appearance was too obvious. He even made frequent mistakes during filming. He was not up to his usual standard at all. The director finally got a little angry and had to temporarily stop filming.
Xie He didn't care, and walked back silently.
Jian Zihan hurried to catch up, he probably already guessed the reason, but still wanted to make sure, "He rejected you?"
Xie He looked at him with a look of panic in his eyes.
Jian Zihan's heart aches, but he also vaguely looks forward to such a result... He feels that his thoughts are not so great and selfless. He actually longs for Xie He to recognize the reality as soon as possible and get rid of that hopeless love as soon as possible, so that he can Pursue him openly.
If they can be together... they will be very happy.
Jian Zihan took Xie He's hand and walked to the side. This is a temporary shooting location. Because the construction has not been completed and the location is relatively remote, there is no one at this time.
Xie He looked at Jian Zihan, his eyes were full of unstoppable sadness, his lips were pale because of lack of blood, as if he couldn't suppress his confession because he was too sad, he said tremblingly: "He won't like me at all ... I have known, I have known..."
Jian Zihan comforted softly: "Emotional matters cannot be forced. If this is the case, why don't you leave him to find your own love, there must be someone who is willing to love you."
Xie He's eyelashes fluttered, "But, I only like him..." When he said this, he was finally on the verge of collapse and self-loathing, and said with a smile, "It's not his fault, it's my fault, I don't deserve his liking, Not worthy of his liking... "
Jian Zihan said seriously: "Don't say that about yourself, you are very good."
Xie He smiled bleakly, "I'm not good at all, you don't understand me at all, I'm not good at all... If only I could be like you, do you know, I'm so envious of you..."
Jian Zihan finally showed a look of surprise, "Do you envy me?"
"Yeah..." Xie He looked at him in a daze, and murmured, "I didn't even graduate from high school, let alone go to college. I came out and sold it when I was a teenager. It's just luck that I can get to where I am today. Just a little better than others. But so what, no matter how hard I try, in his eyes... all this will never change, I'm just a lowly actor."
"I can't even blame him, because I abused myself. I didn't persevere and sold myself."
"I don't want to be like this either. I also want to study, go to school, and do what I like with peace of mind like others. I don't want to learn sophistication so early, I don't want to be an actor in the entertainment industry, and I don't want to sell my body for money. I also I don't want to be like this... I don't want to lose all my dignity in order to survive... Some things, once lost, can never be picked up again."
"I finally understand that now."
Xie He laughed softly, and looked at Jian Zihan with complicated eyes, "So, I really envy you..."
Jian Zihan looked at him in shock, although he knew that Xie He's life might not be so smooth, because he didn't have the kind of arrogance of being pampered at all... But there was still some surprise, but Jian Zihan didn't despise and loathe him, but felt more pity for him .
If possible, who would want to lose their dignity and go begging... He has gone through so many hardships, and he still hasn't fallen, and he still maintains his original intention. Isn't it even more rare
"I see." Jian Zihan gently held Xie He's face and said, "If he doesn't like you for this reason, it's because he has blind eyes."
With tears in Xie He's eyes, he stared at Jian Zihan in a daze.
The next moment... He suddenly pushed Jian Zihan away with force! Jian Zihan was caught off guard by Xie He and pushed several steps away! I saw the large chandelier above my head suddenly loosen and smashed down! Xie He only had time to push Jian Zihan away, and he was hit to the ground by the falling chandelier!
The flying glass shards cut Jian Zihan's arm, and blood flowed out, but he didn't realize it!
In order to push him away, Xie He was hit directly by the chandelier, his fragile body fell to the ground, his clothes were soaked in blood, and the ground was stained red... All this unfolded in front of his eyes as if in slow motion... Jian Zihan's eyes were red!
He trembled and got up from the ground, but he didn't dare to touch Xie He at all, for fear of causing secondary damage due to moving.
Xie He smiled at Jian Zihan, "Thank you for coming to comfort me, you are really a good person..."
Jian Zihan's hands were trembling: "Stop talking, stop talking..."
Xie He's breath became weaker and weaker. He looked at Jian Zihan with clear eyes. This is the person Yi Ze likes. With such a good person, what else can he be unwilling to do? Xie He's eyes showed a faint longing, and he smiled: "Fortunately, you are fine..."
Jian Zihan hugged Xie He tremblingly, "You'll be fine too...you'll be fine."
[Ding, Jian Zihan's favorability degree is 10, and the current favorability degree is 90]
[444: Host, what are you doing qaq] Although the host ordered him to manipulate the invisible robot to loosen the chandelier, he thought the host would dodge it himself!
[Xie He: I'm checking Jian Zihan's favorability, baby.]
[444: I know this!]
[Xie He: Don't worry, I've calculated the angle, this level of injury can't kill anyone. Otherwise, how can I let Yi Ze know how much I love him, I don’t even want my life to save his sweetheart, ha ha.]
[444:...]
[Xie He: I think I should be able to win an annual model stand-in award, I am really touched:)]
[444:...]I'd better choose a dog leash_(:3ゝ∠)_