Xia Mian could stop the relationship between Li Li and Xia Mian at any time, as Li Li had promised.
He wanted to keep Xia Mian, wanted to beg him not to leave.
But he couldn't.
He was stuck in a dream and couldn't wake up.
This dream is very simple, empty only himself, no one else and no background. What he dreamed about was a certain state, his body was constantly "losing" something. If you look carefully, the opening is in his lower abdomen. He covered, grabbed, and pulled, but none of them could prevent the loss of something.
From "he has" to "he loses", that's what the dream is all about.
"Mr. Li, Mr. Li..."
"Li Li!"
On a weekday morning, Li Li woke up from distraction when he was patted on the shoulder by a colleague and called his full name while sitting at his desk.
"What's wrong?" He took out a tissue to wipe the cold sweat on his forehead, and smiled at his colleagues.
"There is a teacher on duty who didn't catch up with the high-speed rail. I will arrange a class for you in the afternoon, just an elementary school interest class. Let Xiao Zhao be your teaching assistant, can you?"
"I'm fine." Li Li agreed straight away, "Where is Xiao Zhao? I remember she hasn't come back from her hometown yet."
Li Li looked at the calendar on the table. Wherever he goes, he is very meticulous in his work. Not only will he remember his own arrangements in detail, but also those of his colleagues.
"Xiao Zhao came back early. She went to the Internet celebrity shop to eat barbecue, and she didn't know how to block us when she posted on Moments." The colleague handed the lesson plan to Li Li, looked at his face carefully, and asked, "Did you not eat breakfast?" ? I don't see any color on your face."
Li Li shook his head: "I ate it, it's because I have a bad stomach recently and can't digest it."
Colleagues advised him: "Don't procrastinate gastrointestinal problems, you have to see a doctor, otherwise, if it becomes serious, you can't eat or drink, and you will collapse."
Li Li smiled and nodded: "Go when you are free."
At noon, other colleagues in the office went out to eat. Li Li was used to bringing lunch in a thermos, so he just sat at the table without moving.
He opened the thermos bucket, which contained a shallow layer of porridge.
Since the eighth day of the eighth day, that is, after the relationship with Xia Mian ended, Li Li couldn't eat much. In the beginning, it was just a poor appetite, and every meal was halved and then halved. Later, it turned into vomiting whatever I ate, and even drinking water would make me feel sick for a while.
Li Li could only stuff it with tasteless clear porridge, and the porridge had to be boiled so runny and rotten, like white water, that he wouldn't spit it out immediately after eating it.
There was no one else in the office, so Li Li stared at the computer screen quietly, where a group photo of the children in his class was used as the desktop. Every smiling face was very cute, which could divert part of his attention. He fed the bland porridge into his mouth with a spoon, and as soon as he swallowed it, he felt chest tightness and nausea, and couldn't help retching. He clutched his stomach and forced himself to take a second, third bite.
When Xiao Zhao came in the afternoon, Li Li's complexion had improved a lot.
Xiao Zhao, like Li Li, is the only Omega in the training institution. During the internship, he served as Li Li's teaching assistant. The two are seniors and juniors, and they are rare good friends.
"Teacher Li!"
Others call Li Li "teacher" because his job is a middle school teacher. Xiao Zhao called him that simply because he has a good relationship with him, so he used it as a nickname.
"I brought you a special product from my hometown." Xiao Zhao carried three or five paper bags to Li Li's table, and said with a smile, "Actually, I didn't buy them in my hometown, so it's so difficult to bring them. I searched them on the Internet after I came back. 'XX special product', directly bought here."
Li Li was not polite to her: "Thank you, I also brought you a New Year's gift, and I will bring it to you when I invite you to dinner next time."
Xiao Zhao smiled with crooked eyebrows, obviously looking forward to it.
The class in the afternoon is an elementary school interest class. Although the students are young and troublesome, Li Li and Xiao Zhao are both patient with children, and they completed it with ease.
In the middle of the class, Li Li's face was pale again, his lips were black and purple, and his voice was thin and soft, which made him look like a different person from usual. He left twice in the middle, Xiao Zhao didn't pay attention at first, but after the class was over, Li Li leaned on the wall and walked into the bathroom. She waited for ten minutes and no one came out, and then she realized that Li Li's physical condition was not right.
"Teacher Li?"
She knocked on the door of the private bathroom, and found that Li Li was throwing up by the sink, his legs were shaking so badly that he could hardly support him to stand.
"Ms. Li?" She was frightened, and walked over to help him, "What's wrong with you, did you eat badly?"
Li Li nudged her with his elbow: "It's okay, you go out first, I vomit very dirty."
In fact, he didn't vomit dirty at all. He vomited three times in one afternoon, but there was nothing to vomit, not even sour water. He just kept retching, his stomach convulsed, and the pain made him unable to straighten his upper body.
"Ambulance?" Xiao Zhao panicked, "Do you want me to call you an ambulance?"
Li Li laughed at her: "You are exaggerating. I will be fine soon, you go out first, and I will take you home later."
Xiao Zhao didn't dare to leave him alone, so he patted his back and said, "You throw up, it's not dirty at all, and I'll pat your back to make you feel better."
Li Li smiled at her again, not wanting to worry her, so he rinsed his mouth with water a few times, reluctantly straightened his upper body, wiped the water around his lips with a tissue, and said to her, "It's all right."
He drove Xiao Zhao home as if nothing had happened. Xiao Zhao sat in the co-pilot and talked about anecdotes, trying to mobilize Li Li's emotions. It's a pity that Li Li was really in pain and tired, at most he smiled along with her, and just looked ahead and stopped talking.
When waiting for the red light, Xiao Zhao suddenly turned around, turned his body to Li Li, and pointed to the position of the gland on his neck.
"Are you treating this? Because of the side effects of taking medicine, you vomit?"
Xiao Zhao asked strangely. Li Li didn't understand: "I'm not treating you. Why do you ask?"
Xiao Zhao tilted his head and thought about it, and said uncertainly: "It wasn't obvious in the organization before, but now I'm sitting in the car with you, it's a bit obvious. At first I wondered if you put tea in the car , but if you smell it carefully, it should be... your pheromone, right? Although I have never smelled it before."
The sweetness with a hint of bitterness that makes people mistake it for tea fragrance is Li Li's pheromone.
Li Li stared at her blankly, his ears buzzing, as if he had been hit head-on by a heavy vehicle.
"You smell... pheromones?"
"I'm not sure either...but my Omega instincts tell me it's your pheromone."
Li Li reached out and touched his neck, his fingertips trembling, thinking of a possibility that made his soul tremble.
It was almost evening, and the city hospital was crowded with people. Surrounded by the smell of disinfectant, Li Li did a series of examinations, got his number and waited in a long queue, and met the obstetrician who saw him.
"Congratulations, you are nine weeks pregnant, you can see the fetal heart rate and buds on the B-ultrasound, and the baby's development is still normal."
The doctor showed Li Li the B-ultrasound picture, pointed to a vague dot on it and said, "Can you see it, this is your baby, he is still too young, you may not be able to see clearly, after ten At two weeks, the baby is basically formed, and you can see his general appearance clearly. After fourteen weeks, his small body can be distinguished."
As if all the rays of light in the world were gathered into one beam, Li Li looked at that small spot, but couldn't see anything else.
His eyes were full of tears, and his eyes were wide open and blurry, pointing there, he couldn't understand no matter how he looked, so he asked eagerly: "Is it this, why I can't see clearly, is he not well?"
"Don't worry." The doctor reassured him, "You are unmarried now, is the baby's father here?"
Li Li clenched his hands tightly, his chest rose and fell sharply, trying to calm his breathing: "He didn't come."
"Why didn't you come?" The doctor flipped through the medical records and took out Li Li's inspection report, "He must come. You must be wondering, how can you still be pregnant if your glands are damaged? Actually, there are exceptions First of all, you need to know that Omega and Alpha have strong fertility. When they are combined, it is a breeze to conceive a baby. In the past, Omega whose glands were injured thought that he was infertile, and he did not intentionally have sex with his Alpha spouse With contraception, not only is the baby successfully conceived, but the glands are also reborn along with the baby.”
The doctor gave the information to Li Li and guided him to see a certain data, "Not all Alphas and Omega can experience this miracle, look at this data - 90%, it shows that the sex hormones of these Alphas and Omega are highly compatible Surprisingly, at least 90%. The matching rate is so high, not to mention the lack of glands, even if the reproductive organs are deformed or incomplete, it is not completely hopeless."
Li Li trembling, took the information from the doctor. He squeezed the thin paper in his hands, unable to stop his tears.
Hot tears dripped down on the paper, engulfing the number called a miracle. Li Li finally understood why he was attracted to Xia Mian at first sight, because he was destined to fall in love with Xia Mian before he was born. "It was proved that he and Xia Mian are each other's other half souls.
The doctor was silent for a while, and when Li Li's mood calmed down a little, he changed his tone to be more serious, and continued: "Why did I say that the baby's father must come? Because the baby's development is still normal now, but you as an embryo The situation of the implanted mother is not optimistic. The excessively high sex hormone matching degree of the parents will make the baby desperately need the presence of the father, which means that the Omega during pregnancy must be accompanied and comforted by Alpha pheromone, otherwise it will not be able to secrete the necessary pheromone during pregnancy. hormones. Especially like you have a defective gland, if the hormone levels needed to conceive a baby are so high—”
The doctor raised his hand to shoulder height, then pressed it down, and stopped at waist height, "You are giving the baby only so low now. In addition, your early pregnancy reaction is severe, and your body is in a state of malnutrition. Shen is in danger of miscarriage, tell me, how long has it been since you had a normal meal?"
The word "abortion" made Li Li shudder, and he desperately thought: How long has it been? How long has it been since Xia Mian said "it's over"
He was so confused that he didn't even remember what day it was.
"About half a month," he said.
"Look, half a month." The doctor's tone became more serious, "The baby is only eight weeks old, and you haven't taken in enough nutrition for half a month. I think your gland regeneration is not good, and your hormone levels are messed up. Yes, it should be because you haven’t met the baby’s father, right? You can’t be separated from him for too long, if you continue like this, it’s very likely that you won’t make it to the second trimester.”
Glands, hormones, first trimester, second trimester... These words successively emptied the oxygen in Li Li's lungs, pushing him to the brink of suffocation.
He seemed to be being tortured all over his body. Someone saw him piece by piece with a torture tool, and took away the bloody flesh and blood from his body.
This is not the first time he has been "cut to death".
"What should I do... How can I keep him?" He choked up and asked, "Can't I give birth to him alone?"
After eight years of reunion, Li Li vowed that she would "not get pregnant", seeking a relationship under Xia Mian's full control. Half a month after Xia Mian cut off this relationship, Li Li found out that she was pregnant.
The fateful pass fell from the sky, and Li Li was stuck in the middle, with no way out.
The doctor answered him: no.
He cannot bear children alone.
This means that if there is no Xia Mian, he will lose the fresh meat in his stomach and the second child in his life just like eight years ago.