When Gong Qin knew how to call her mother, his mother returned to France.
This Chinese-French woman can't stand her husband's sex, and she doesn't even want her son.
Gong Qin must be excellent from childhood to adulthood.
Not ordinary excellence, but shocking excellence beyond age.
He always takes the first place in the exam, and he can fulfill all the requirements of his father, until he surpasses his father and replaces him in the end.
Extreme self-discipline makes his life like a pool of stagnant water.
The only surprise was He Ling.
He broke in inexplicably, like a golden knife, ripping apart his life, bringing with it infinite light.
Gong Qin had never seen such a dazzling person, nor had he ever seen such a free person.
They are diametrically opposed, like light and dark, black and white.
Gong Qin likes him and everything about him.
Because these are what he yearns for but cannot have.
When He Ling confessed to him.
Gong Qin felt joy for the first time in her life.
After getting married, Gong Qin felt like a dream every day.
When he wakes up in the morning, He Ling will kiss him.
Before going out, He Ling would kiss him.
During lunch, He Ling would also have dinner with him.
Even when he was working in the afternoon, He Ling would leave early to accompany him.
He never thought that someone could live like He Ling, do whatever they want, do whatever they want, and do everything for granted.
He Ling's love is like a scorching sun, wrapping Gong Qin round and round, bringing him an unimaginable temperature.
Gong Qin was used to being alone, and there were a lot of uncomfortable places after being together suddenly.
He was not used to talking while eating, but he would try to chat with He Ling, but unfortunately he would only talk about boring work.
He was not used to making out in front of people, but he would still kiss He Ling in the car when the driver couldn't see it.
He wasn't used to bathing with people, but after He Ling insisted on it twice, Gong Qin found someone to replace it with a large square bathtub, so that the two of them wouldn't squeeze.
Gong Qin didn't like He Ling messing around in the office either, but after He Ling made trouble twice, he changed the single bed in the lounge into a double bed.
Sometimes Gong Qin felt that He Ling was too self-willed.
But soon he couldn't help smiling—
He yearned for his willfulness, and if he could, he hoped that He Ling could do whatever he wanted for a lifetime.
It's just that he didn't expect that He Ling's free will, he would no longer want him.
Gong Qin didn't know what happened or why it was like this.
They have been together for seven years, and they have never quarreled, never had trouble, and never separated.
Gong Qin was used to it.
Get used to kissing in the morning, getting used to kissing before going out, getting used to seeing him at noon and in the afternoon.
But suddenly, it was all gone.
I don't know which day, He Ling changed.
Gong Qin sensitively sensed He Ling's estrangement, sensed his observation, and felt his scrutiny.
Gong Qin was like a thorn on her back, her nerves were highly tense.
He hadn't felt like this for a long time. Ever since he met He Ling, ever since he married him, Gong Qin hadn't felt this way for a long time.
It was as if someone was staring at him, watching him, and remotely controlling him.
Gong Qin hated this feeling, he wanted to talk to He Ling.
He went home early, waited at home, forced himself to do nothing, just waited for He Ling to come back.
It's a pity that time passed, and it was getting late for He Ling to go home.
How to do
Huge fear grabbed Gong Qin's heart and dragged him into the dark abyss.
Until this day, he saw He Ling with a young boy.
At this moment, Gong Qin understood.
He Ling hasn't changed, he's still the same, he's still doing whatever he wants—
I don't love him as much as I want, and I love someone else as much as I want.
When He Ling told him about the divorce...
Gong Qin was not surprised, he had known for a long time that this was bound to happen.
It took He Ling so long to speak, it was already reluctant.
Gong Qin didn't want to force him.
He is a person, and there is no need to be a burden to him.
Gong Qin is gone, walking in the ice and snow, walking in the memories of seven years.
Then…
He broke down.
He couldn't walk, couldn't move his legs.
In his memories, the picture of the two walking together hand in hand became the last straw that broke him.
Why
Why
Why exactly
If it can't be done forever, why make a lifetime promise.
He believed it to be true, but he said it would change.
Gong Qin felt a bone-chilling cold, as if he had returned to that snowy night, watching his mother leave, but could only helplessly call her mother.
At that time Gong Qin understood that it wasn't because of his coercion that he couldn't come.
No matter how you call her, no matter how you call her, it's useless.
He is an adult, he is not the child of that time, he will no longer beg for warmth that does not belong to him.
But…
Not reconciled.
Even if I knew it would be useless, even if I knew it would make my nose bruised, even if I knew I would lose my last dignity...
When Gong Qin saw He Ling, she still broke through the shackles in her heart and asked him, "...Why don't you want me anymore."