On the day of Linzhi's funeral, the gray sky began to drizzle.
Su Nuo was dressed in a black dress and stood quietly at the end. The twins knelt and cried in front of the tombstone. Yuan Guohong didn't show any expression. He bent over and wiped the photos again and again with the white handkerchief on his hands. Su Nuo thought that he should be the one who suffered the most.
It was cold after standing in the rain for a long time, Yuan Ze next to her took her fingers and clenched them tightly.
"Okay, you all go back." Yuan Guohong arranged the tribute, "I won't be able to go back when it rains heavily."
"I won't leave." Yuan Che rubbed his face swollen from crying, "I want to stay with mom, I don't look like some people, when their mother left, they wouldn't shed a single tear."
He was referring to Su Nuo.
Yuan Guohong didn't have the strength to reprimand Yuan Che, and sighed: "Then you keep it, you go back."
Yuan Ze took the hands of his siblings from left to right, and led them down the mountain slowly.
"Little Che, come here." Yuan Guohong waved to Yuan Che.
He didn't disobey his father anymore, and walked over obediently.
"There's something I haven't told you all this time, and now is just an opportunity, so I'll tell you."
Yuan Che listened quietly.
Yuan Guohong took out a cigarette from his pocket, glanced at Lin Zhi, who was smiling brightly in the photo, and slowly put the cigarette back into his pocket, "Nuo Nuo was originally called Yuan An'an, a premature baby, so she was in poor health, so she named her I just wanted her to be safe and sound, but your elder brother was dissatisfied and took a small cotton..."
Yuan Guohong pursed his lips: "At that time, I just opened the factory, and your mother's work was also on the rise, so your grandma always took care of the child. But your grandma is old feudal, patriarchal and superstitious, she always thinks that we are An An It's a catastrophe. Although she didn't abuse An An very much, it wasn't much better. Later, when your mother saw this, she decided to resign and take care of the children at home."
Then, Yuan Guohong sighed heavily, and he wiped the water on his face, "The day before your mother resigned, your grandma took An An and Yuan Ze out to play, and when she came back, she was lost, and she said she went to the toilet , the child asked Yuan Ze to watch, blame Yuan Ze for not being optimistic, and blame us for being busy with work and ignoring the hard work of her old man. Your mother and I searched and searched, searched and searched..." He trembled, "I have been looking for more than ten years. "
Yuan Che pursed his lips and bowed his head, without speaking.
"To be honest, it was my selfishness to bring Nuoxuo back. At that time, your mother was diagnosed with lung cancer. I wanted your mother to meet her biological daughter before she passed away. Even if I knew she was doing well, it would bring her distress. , Dad still took her back. In fact, your sister may not come back. We have been demanding her and dragging her down. Why do you and Yuan Cheng blame her? Even if she really doesn't come to the funeral, we I don't even have the right to point at her nose and scold her."
Yuan Che opened his mouth: "...I didn't blame him." He whispered, "I just think..."
"You just feel wronged for your mother. You think your mother loves Nuowuo so much, and she still doesn't answer the phone, because of this, doesn't it?"
Yuan Che nodded, then shook his head again, he choked up twice, and swallowed tears into his stomach, "Since she came, you and Mom don't care about us anymore, she rarely talks to us, my room, bedroom, and toys are all given to me." Without her, and when my mother is sick... I don't pay attention to us anymore."
Yuan Guohong was stunned for a moment, and smiled, grabbed Yuan Che's head and led him into a bad place, "You are still jealous at such a big boy, if your mother knows, she will laugh badly."
"Mom won't know..." He closed his eyes, "Dad, I don't have a mother anymore."
Yuan Guohong's smiling face froze instantly, the corners of his mouth trembled, and his voice instantly aged ten years, "I don't have a wife anymore."
From then on, no one accompanied him to spend the first time together.
After Lin Zhi's first seven days, Su Nuo went back to her original home to pack the rest of her luggage, and was going to move to the school.
There was no one at home, and the mother's posthumous photo was taken in the middle of the living room, using the one Su Nuo took for her, with a gentle and kind smile. She didn't have many things, only half of the suitcase was packed, Su Nuo pulled the suitcase to the door, stopped again, and quietly walked into Linzhi's bedroom.
Since Lin Zhi left, Yuan Guo has become very casual, things are scattered around, the quilt is spread on the bed like that, Su Nuo stepped forward to tidy up, opened the window for ventilation, glanced around, and saw a bag in the corner , she paused, reached out to pick up the bag, and when she saw what was inside, her expression froze instantly.
A ball of red wool, the scarf is only half knitted.
Lin Zhi said that before winter came, she would weave them for the brothers.
Su Nuo sat on the bed holding the scarf, besides the scarf, there were other relics of Lin Zhi in the bag, Su Nuo rummaged through, and found a small box underneath, which was full of old photos, all taken when the siblings were young , Flipping through, a small envelope fell from between the photos onto my lap.
Su Nuo looked back and forth, carefully opened the letter, and there was Lin Zhi's beautiful handwriting on it.
[daughter;
Today is the fifteenth year since I lost you. You may have forgotten this day, but I will always remember that I lost you on this day. You will come back to me tomorrow. I am so excited that I cannot sleep, so I write this letter.
You are nineteen years old, I don't know what you look like, but I think you must be beautiful and kind, like a pearl like a jade.
Half a month ago, I was diagnosed with terminal lung cancer. Your father's company went bankrupt, and grandma passed away not long ago. My family was struggling and couldn't afford the huge cost of treatment. What's more, I didn't want to spend my precious time on Hospital.
I'm going to meet you tomorrow, I don't know if you are as excited as I am, or as anxious and sleepless as I am.
What I want to tell you is:
If I leave the world, I will become the drizzle on your head, the warm sun on your shoulders, the light that guides you at night, and the bright moon that you can see when you look up. You don’t have to be afraid anymore, because no matter when, life or death, mother will always protect you child.
This time I won't lose you again.
Will be meeting your mother to stay. ]
Su Nuo's hands holding the letter trembled, her heart that was as cold as a rock suddenly collapsed at this moment.
The violent mood swings made her stomach tighten again. Su Nuo stumbled and ran to the bathroom, lying in front of the toilet and vomited violently again. She almost wanted to spit out her own blood mixed with her bones, tears streaming down her face. Her mouth was wet and salty, and her throat was sore from crying. She was in unbearable pain, and she couldn't make a sound when she opened her mouth.
Su Nuo was short of breath, and the suffocation feeling in her chest forced her to take a deep breath.
At this time the door opened, and it was Yuan Ze who came back.
He was startled when he saw the luggage in front of the door, and then strode towards the bathroom.
"Little Cotton..." Yuan Ze was stunned for a moment, then hurriedly supported her.
Su Nuo's face was pale, and her lips were abnormally bruised.
Yuan Ze was startled, and among those who pinched her: "Su Nuo, breathe."
He pursed his lips tightly and looked solemn.
Su Nuo's expression was muddled, eyes darkened, and finally her consciousness returned to clarity. She panted, her eyeballs moved, and her eyes fell on Yuan Ze's face.
"Hey, you cry." Yuan Ze patted her face, her whole body was covered with sweat, her clothes and hair were all wet.
"I, I hurt..." Su Nuo only uttered three words.
"Brother, take you to the hospital, okay? If we go to the hospital, you won't be in pain."
Su Nuo shook her head, the hospital couldn't cure her illness.
Eight years of quick time travel has fulfilled her dream of being healthy, but it has brought her another incurable disease, heart disease, which troubles her every moment.
Lin Zhi didn't deserve to die, nor should she come back to life.
She is the one who should disappear in this world. She should have nothing and die alone, but her re-existence destroys the original order of the world, so the person who loves her the most will die instead of her.
This is the revenge of the world law on her.
Su Nuo closed her eyes, and the messy memory fragments in her brain began to piece together. She saw herself being hugged by Lin Zhi when she was a child, and heard her voice singing a lullaby.
She could have been... happy.
Once again, Su Nuo saw the corpses scattered all over the battlefield, the wandering demons in the city, and one after another men who took her as an object of interest.
Finally, they saw Lin Zhi and their adoptive mother, they smiled softly, wishing to give her the best thing in the world.
Su Nuo suddenly asked herself, is everything she has done worthwhile
"Little Cotton, talk, don't scare Big Brother."
Yuan Ze called her name over and over again in her ear, hugged her, and gently kissed her forehead, "Mum is gone, there is me, and Dad, those two children are useless, but I will definitely teach them a lesson. Until they are obedient. I see, are you thinking about that Shen Wang? Brother will tie him up tonight, if he is not willing, brother will break his legs so that he can no longer run."
Finally, he begged: "Little Mianmian, can you talk to me?"
Su Nuo blinked her eyelashes, and Dou Da's tears fell one after another.
"elder brother… "
"I am here."
Su Nuo cried: "Don't, don't want me."
She didn't want to have nothing, she didn't want to be buried in the dirt, and no one would worship her.
Yuan Ze was startled, and hugged her tightly: "I found you, and I won't lose you again."
Su Nuo was tired after crying for a long time, and fell into a deep sleep on Yuan Ze.
Yuan Ze patted her head, thinking that it would be good to cry a lot, but she has been unusually calm these days, which makes people worry.
Su Nuo fell asleep until the next morning. She fumbled to find her phone to check the time, rubbed her eyes and got up from the bed.
She was still at home, vaguely heard Yuan Guohong and Yuan Ze talking outside, Su Nuo put on her shoes and got off the bed.
"Nuonuo woke up." Yuan Guohong noticed her all at once, "Go and wash your face, Dad made porridge for you, drink more to warm your stomach."
Su Nuo glanced at Yuan Ze, turned around and washed her face.
Her eyes were red and swollen, and her complexion was pale and weak. Fortunately, she is now in good health. If she had the same physique as before, she would probably have to stay in the hospital for a few more days.
After washing her face, Su Nuo came to the dining table to drink porridge.
"I heard from your brother that you want to move to the school?"
Su Nuo nodded: "I'm going to be a junior soon, and my studies will become heavier, and it will be more convenient to live on campus."
Yuan Guohong sighed: "Even if you live on campus, you won't be able to bear the savings of running back and forth. By the way, are the living expenses enough?"
"enough."
Yuan Guohong lowered his head, he felt that he asked a stupid question.
Su Nuo's eyes flickered: "Dad."
"Why!"
Su Nuo said, "I will come to see you when there is no class."
He was stunned for a moment, then smiled, "Okay, make a phone call before you come back. Dad's cooking skills are not as good as your mother's, but they are not bad. He will cook a table of dishes for you then."