"No, I said, I was originally you, a self who was not accepted by you, plus my you, you are the real you..."
You are the real you with mine...
When Mo Lixin opened his eyes and saw the ceiling, these words echoed in his mind. Can't help but smile. Could it be that she has the courage to face it now
Ji Nanfeng has been looking at her all the time, and when she saw her open her eyes, she was happy, excited and anxious, but when she saw her eyes were hollow, and when her eyes were blank, there was no reason for distress and regret.
"I want to drink porridge!" she said suddenly.
She knew there was someone next to her. As for who that person was, she knew who she was. She also knew that she was no longer in country B, but in their home.
"Okay, I'll do it right away, you just lie down and tell me something." The man guarding the bed was happy like a child at this time, and immediately went out to prepare. For him, as long as he is willing to talk to him, he I'm very satisfied.
Mo Lixin looked at her back, not knowing what she was thinking. Then he lifted the quilt, held the table, and walked to the window sill.
The room is floor-to-ceiling windows, and outside the window is the balcony. The balcony fence is not high. She just looked at the distance and was in a daze. When Ji Nanfeng came in with her favorite preserved egg and lean meat porridge that she had prepared long ago, she saw She was alone, with some desolate and lonely voices and shadows. Where she stood, she suddenly realized something. She was so frightened that the bowl fell to the ground. Inside, she stepped forward and hugged her from behind.
Yelled: "In the last life, you chased me for three years and left. I missed you for five years and couldn't end well. You know, Mo Lixin, I don’t feel any better than you. This time, you have to Leave me alone, still holding the debt to you
Yes, in the previous life, I lost you and owed you a debt. But, in this life, don’t you see my friendship for you, maybe there is compensation, maybe there is debt, you can hit me, scold me, ignore me, I can meet all your requirements, but everything I do I just want to ask for a complete and happy you, don't you give me this request
I tell you, if you die, I will definitely not live alone, just like the last life, stay in the world stupidly, keep revenge, I will follow you immediately, you are my life and death is my ghost, even if No matter how you hate me, I will follow you closely. You will never escape from life to life. Even if you are an enemy for the rest of your life, I will be entangled to the end, so you must not think that you are willing to get rid of me.
You... can't get rid of it, because. I like you, and I feel uncomfortable when you frown. You are happy. I think it’s sunny. You are sad. I think the end of the yellow spring. So, don’t die, okay, even if I beg you, even if... is to stay and torture I can, as long as you don't leave me. "
The man’s voice is getting smaller and smaller, from the rage at the beginning, to the self-talking, begging, Mo Li is full of thoughts, he has never seen him like this, he has never been surprised, and everything is winning. A powerful man suddenly becomes so fragile one day, but because of this, he makes her feel as if there is a big rock in her heart that she can’t put down, and finally disappears, and there is no such pressure in her heart. People were breathless and depressed.
This was the first time she heard him say that he liked himself, and it was the first time she saw him become extremely vulnerable because of her.
At this moment, she suddenly understood a lot of things. Why didn’t she resent him in her heart, but wanted to avoid him. She just woke up and knew that he was by her side and didn’t know what to say, so she dismissed him, she wanted to be better. Think about it next, what she should do, what to say, all the previous life, although she has no regrets, but she doesn’t have the courage to experience it again, she doesn’t know what to do, and the confusion makes her fearful. But when she heard that he liked her, she was relieved.
"I just think the weather is good today," she said, letting go of his hand, turning her head to face him.
Ji Nanfeng looked at her turned face, feeling a little at a loss. He didn't understand what she said.
"What did you say?" He asked blankly.
"I said the weather is good, I just want to see, so you want me to jump from here?"
Mo Lixin said with a laugh.
The man was stunned, he realized that he immediately picked her up and turned around twice: "Thank you, thank you, and you can trust me once, Xiner, I'm really happy."
"If you turn, I can't stand it anymore," Mo Li said unhurriedly.
Ji Nanfeng's hug and circle motion really stopped, as if thinking: "What belly... You mean, we... We have children, Xiner, really, really I have children, am I dreaming? "The man put her down, cautiously, controlling his current excitement, putting his hands on her shoulders, his eyes burning, fearing that he might have heard something wrong or missed something.
"Yes, I have a child, you and my child," she said, seeing the man who was still fragile just now, but now he was alive again, looking happy, and the rapid changes in his emotions, Mo Li also felt happy in her heart. According to her previous instructions, as expected, Gong Yunze didn't tell him that she was pregnant. She could see that he was really happy.
However, the man did not write happiness on his face because of her words. Instead, he suppressed the impulse and calmed down slowly. He hugged her into his arms and took her He put his head into her chest, knocked her chin on the top of her hairy head, and said as if swearing: "Xin'er, I have lost your life. In this life, I will do everything for you and treat you well. In the first life, what has happened will not happen in this life. You will have a warm home and a husband who loves you. Don’t feel guilty, just to make up for what I didn’t do in the last life. I like you from the last life. At the beginning, it was just my stupidity that caused us to miss it after all, so no matter what happens in this life, I will never leave."
And he did exactly as he said, in the rest of his life, fulfilled his promise, of course, this is a later story.
In a blink of an eye, the weather has started to become cold again in the past 8 months. In the hospital, on the corridors, Mother Ji, Grandpa Ji and Grandpa Li, as well as Brother Mo family, Mo Lichen, they are worried about going there now, looking at the delivery room. The red light outside lights up, and there are bursts of heart-piercing calls from inside, which is really shocking.
At the beginning, just in case, the hospital I was looking for was a well-known private hospital. I thought that there were still more than 10 days before the due date. The last day, Mo Lixin was sent to the hospital, but I didn’t expect to send it yet. When I came in early in the morning, people were in pain. Fortunately, the nanny found out first, and the whole family at home rushed to the hospital.
It's just not there yet. The amniotic fluid was about to break in the middle of the road. It really caught everyone by surprise. As for Ji Nanfeng, it was still before dawn. Just for Mo Lixin’s dream, he went to the south of the city, two hours’ drive away, to buy some cash for her. Winter bayberry.
I just didn't expect that there were more than 10 days before the expected delivery date, and my stomach would have a headache, all of a sudden, but fortunately, I made preparations earlier and nothing major happened.
"Doctor, how is the doctor!" Ji Ji's mother hurriedly asked when she saw the doctor who came out.
"Hey, this girl has a cold physique and her heart is not very good. Right now, it's probably a bit dangerous, but fortunately, the doctor in charge is doing all he can to treat it as soon as you discovered it. No delay," the doctor said and hurried away wearing a mask again. "
"How could this happen?" Father Mo couldn't help, and almost fell back to the ground. Fortunately, Mo Lichen was supporting him.
"Grandpa, don't worry about it. My sister Jiren has her own vision. People in trouble must be people of great blessings. The doctors have said that the doctors in charge are still trying their best to rescue them. They haven't given up. They should be fine. It's you, you have to take care of your bones, otherwise you won't be able to hold your grandson," Mo Lichen soothed.
"Yes, you, please pay attention, don't get too excited," Ji's mother also said.
But in my heart, I wondered why my son hadn't arrived yet.
"Make a call and see where Ji'er is," said the old man Ji.
"Okay, okay, right now..." Before Ji's mother had finished speaking, she saw Ji Nanfeng hurriedly running over from the corridor, but sweating profusely in the cold winter.
"How is she?" Ji Nanfeng asked before he could catch his breath. Hearing the pain from time to time in the delivery room, he felt extremely uncomfortable for the whole person.
If he could, he really hoped that he would bear that share.
"The doctor said... Li Xin had a dystocia, maybe... it might be dangerous..." Ji's mother didn't conceal anything. There are some things that can't be hidden, so it's better to tell him.
Ji Nanfeng stood on the spot, what he said just now was like a bolt from the blue, and he immediately rushed in as a gesture: "I want to go in."
Before he touched the door of the delivery room, he was pulled by the doctor who had just gone out to get things and came back: "You go in, why are you going in? Do you mess up? Just wait outside. I understand your feelings, but you can go in. So there is no help, but it will interfere with the doctor's operation. Don't worry, we will try our best."
"-Yes, Nan Feng, I am no less worried than you, just wait," Mo Lichen said.
Ji Nanfeng finally calmed down. The handle was lowered from the door.
As soon as the doctor wanted to go in, he was stopped again: "Remember, if something happens to the people inside, I won't let any of you in your hospital go. And... If... it doesn't work, I want an adult, be safe. Nothing," he said.
Even though she might hate him when she wakes up, she still wants to do so, and no one can take her away, including her own flesh and blood children.
The night in the hospital is always surprisingly quiet, not to mention that there are no patients on this floor, only the family of them.
The woman in the delivery room screamed again and again, cried again and again, hoarse again and again, fainted, and woke up again.