The place where the wild vegetables were picked was the place Fang Yan had been to before.
Fang Honghua taught Fang's father and mother to recognize the appearance of wild vegetables, and then bent down to identify wild vegetables among the weeds, picked them out and put them in the basket.
Fang's father and Fang's mother were supposed to disperse and go to other places to pick them separately, but until Fang Honghua had picked a lot, they still stayed by the side, as if they were trying to distinguish the difference between weeds and wild vegetables, but in reality On the morning, the baskets they carried were empty and contained nothing.
Fang Honghua bent down to pick some, then straightened up, and asked straight to the point: "Do you have something to say to me?"
Mother Fang looked at her immediately. The expression is serious, not unexpected, as if ready.
That's right.
Fang Honghua simply stopped and asked, "What do you want to say to me?"
"We want to tell you something about Yanyan."
"Yanyan? Oh, you said Xiaobao."
Fang's mother emphasized the pronunciation, and said word by word: "My Yanyan, he is not called Xiaobao, he is called Fang Yan, which is the name given to him by his grandfather."
Fang Honghua was stunned, and the smile on her face gradually faded. Fang's mother suddenly changed her attitude towards her. She is not stupid, and she probably understands what Fang's mother means. It meant telling her to make her realize clearly that her little treasure was already someone else's son.
But this is an irrefutable fact. Xiaobao was not her child in the first place, she bought it with money, and was born in October of another person's pregnancy. Although they were lucky enough to spend ten years together, Xiaobao's biological mother came to the door, and Xiaobao had already left her.
Fang's mother didn't object to her calling it that way before, because she was in front of Xiaobao, and now that she was away from Xiaobao, she immediately came to correct her mistakes.
Fang Honghua managed to squeeze out a smile, and nodded in response: "Yes, look at my memory, it's Yan... Yanyan, his name is Fang Yan."
Mother Fang let out a long sigh of relief.
She softened her tone again, and said softly: "I know, when Yanyan was with you before, although he didn't have a good life, he was also very happy, so after he came back to me, he still thought about it. You, that's why I brought him here to see you this time. Although I hated you very much before, but since Yanyan likes you, as long as you don't try to take him back, then I can try to accept you .”
Fang Honghua hurriedly said: "Don't worry, little... Yanyan is your child, and I won't take it away. As long as... as long as you let me see him occasionally and talk to him, it's fine, just... just Like today, a few months, no, a year! Come here once a year, see him once a year, and I will be satisfied."
Mother Fang didn't answer.
Fang Honghua was taken aback, and her voice suddenly weakened: "One year...isn't it enough?"
"Of course I don't object to him seeing you." Fang's mother said, "But it's too far away from the capital, and it will take a whole day to come here. The transportation is inconvenient and the conditions are not good. You can also see that Yanyan sat down. He was almost exhausted after a day of planes and cars, and it was the first time I saw him get up so late today."
"I... I can go to the capital to see him!" Fang Honghua said anxiously.
Although she has never been that far, she has never left this small village, the farthest place she has been to is the city, and no matter how far away, she has only heard of it from others. Although she didn't know how far it was to go to the capital or how much it would cost to go to the capital, she still had the courage to leave her hometown for the sake of her son. Even though it was a place where I had never set foot before, and I didn't even know what danger was hidden.
"I farm, I can earn a lot of money every year from farming, and I sell eggs, so I can save money... Oh, now that Yanyan is no longer with me, I don't need to save his tuition fees, I can save money. As long as I save, I will definitely be able to save money to go to the capital." Fang Honghua looked at her expectantly, and asked cautiously: "At that time...can you let me meet him?"
Mother Fang still didn't speak.
The light in Fang Honghua's eyes gradually dimmed.
The child belongs to others, and it is their business whether they agree or not.
But when she thought that she would never see the child she raised again, she felt her whole heart ache.
She lowered her head and twisted the corner of her clothes with her fingers. She saw her rough hands, and then she glanced at the hands of the person across the way, which were whiter and tenderer than that of a 28-year-old girl. She immediately averted her gaze in low self-esteem.
The child she raised since she was a child is going to live a good life, and if she asks to see him again, maybe it will hurt Yanyan.
Father Fang sighed, patted his wife on the shoulder, and said: "We don't mean to let you see Yanyan."
Fang Honghua immediately raised her head in surprise, and said hastily, "Tell me, no matter what the request is, I will agree to it!"
"We don't have too much request, but you have also seen that the conditions here are really bad." Fang's father said repeatedly: "We want you to go to the capital. I wonder if you want to?"
"To the capital?" Fang Honghua was stunned.
This was an answer she really didn't expect.
She was born here, grew up here, spent more than 40 years here, and never left. She can tell every detail here, and always feels that she will live here until the Grow old until death, and then just like the villagers, even the ashes are buried on this land.
It never occurred to her to leave here.
Fang Honghua opened her mouth, but no sound came out.
She dared not agree to come down.
She knew that if she agreed, what awaited her would be an unknown and very difficult road, which would subvert all her cognition and challenge her courage.
She didn't have the courage to leave here.
"This is what my wife and I have thought about for a long time. It is a good solution for both of us." Fang's father said, "We also know that it is too difficult for you to leave your hometown suddenly. But Yan Yan My home is in the capital, and every time I come here, I have to go through a long journey, which will only make him more tired, but it will be different if you live in the capital, you can see him anytime, and whenever he wants to see you It will be all right."
"Of course, it's not all because of Yanyan." After staying here for a short time, Fang's father was keenly aware of the current situation of the village: "You live here alone. Those people still look down on you with your heirs around. If you want to live alone, we don't say much. It's just that there are no children around, and no other people to help. When you get older, it will be inconvenient to live alone. "
For a single woman who has no husband and no children, in this village, she will be criticized by others.
What's more, in the past, there was an adopted son to help, but now she is the only one to do everything, and she is too busy with many things. It's like an empty water tank, or an empty firewood.
She still has a lot of strength now, but when she gets older, she can't even move on the ground, and it will become difficult to continue to take care of herself by herself. It is easy to get sick when you are old. If you have a headache, every house here is far away, and you can’t find anyone even if you shout loudly.
To raise a child for old age, she bought a child from a human trafficker for this purpose.
"Yanyan is going to grow up. He definitely doesn't want to see you suffer, but when he grows up, he will definitely stay in the capital. Even if he wants to take care of you, he can't do much in the capital. What, it’s a day’s journey and it’s too late to help.” Father Fang said: “That’s why we thought, if you move to the capital directly, not only Yanyan can see you often, but the two families are together , If you need help, we can take care of it. In comparison, the capital is the fastest-growing city in the country, and it is very convenient to do anything. Even if you want to live alone, it is much more convenient than here."
"If you want, we can also help you survive in the capital."