After Ren Xinghe said his last words, he leaned into Kujie's arms and fell asleep.
When she woke up again, her mind was much clearer, but her voice was still hoarse, and the man who had taken care of her all night was sleeping uncomfortably on the sofa nearby.
Perhaps sensing her gaze, Ku Jie suddenly opened his eyes and looked at her: "Are you awake?"
Ren Xinghe stood up, looking a little sick: "Last night... did I talk nonsense again?"
Ku Jie also stood up and looked at her: "What kind of words are considered nonsense?"
"For example, I'm very tired... I can't hold on anymore... and so on." Ren Xinghe explained, "When I'm not conscious, I tend to shout slogans like this."
Hearing this, Ku Jie chuckled and squatted beside her: "You are allowed to be weak in front of me."
"Then don't take it seriously. No matter if I say you can't hold on or want to give up, don't take it seriously."
Kujie tapped the tip of her nose and nodded: "Not seriously."
Last night was a time of separation and transformation for Ren Xinghe.
Completely withdraw from Ren's mother's shadow.
Therefore, for Ren Xinghe, this is not a bad thing.
"Want to go back to sleep or get up for breakfast?"
When Ren Xinghe came over last night, she didn't have time to take a good look at Kujie's private space. Moreover, after sleeping all night, she only felt sore all over.
"I choose to get up..."
"There are new toiletries in the bathroom, brand new, but a little masculine, please bear with me."
Kujie helped her get up and watched her enter the bathroom. Then he went downstairs and cooked a pot of porridge.
After Ren Xinghe closed the bathroom door, she saw herself in the mirror. She was sweating all over due to a fever. She now looked haggard and embarrassed, and her clothes were sticky and uncomfortable. She had to go home to change after a while.
Afterwards, Ren Xinghe began to look around this man's bathroom. There were traces of industrial style everywhere, but it was neat and clean, and even looked like a hotel. It was not commonly used at first glance.
He probably doesn't come home very often...
Ren Xinghe's guess was right, because there was almost no atmosphere of life in this home.
There are many things that I haven’t even had time to tear off the labels on.
After Ren Xinghe quickly washed up, he went downstairs and saw the busy figure in the open kitchen. He sat down in front of the bar and said, "Don't you go home often?"
Ku Jie was pouring milk. When he heard the question, he nodded: "X Club has a rest room and other places to stay."
"Can you... tell me about your relatives?"
Ku Jie put the hot milk in front of Ren Xinghe, and then sat down opposite her: "I don't know where to start, just ask. Whatever you ask, I will answer."
"parents?"
Ku Jie's eyes darkened a little, and he also suppressed a smile. For him, recalling things before he was eight years old was the same as Jiang Yuning's recalling the loss of his family at the age of nineteen. Of course, he had more experiences than Jiang Yuning, and he was also more mature. profound.
When Ren Xinghe saw the difference in his expression, he immediately understood something and waved his hand quickly: "If it's a bad memory and you don't want to remember it, don't think about it. I'm not very curious, so I don't need to know so clearly."
"There's nothing I can't say." Although Ku Jie's mouth was frank, his tone was not right. "I have no parents. After I was eight years old, I was cared for by my uncle. When I was in college, I learned that my uncle's family was in trouble, so I gave up my studies. I returned to China, joined the entertainment industry, and established X Club to take care of my sister."
"Why... not...?"
"My father was born into a well-known family, but compared with my uncle, he could only be called passable. He worked as a professor at the university. Later, after a blind date, he married my mother. At first, the two of them treated each other as guests, and their lives were not bad. But when I was born, My father's first love found him, and the two got together somehow, and were discovered by my mother, who was in confinement at that time. She suffered from postpartum depression and almost jumped out of the inpatient department of the hospital. "
When Ren Xinghe heard this, he immediately grabbed Ku Jie's hand.
"She didn't succeed and was stopped by my grandmother. But from then on, her mental state was not normal, and because of my crying, she... tried to strangle me several times."
"But even so, my father was still fooling around with his first love, and the family relationship was so abnormal for several years."
Ren Xinghe's heart was tightly grasped by Ku Jie's sultry words, and the pain was severe.
She thought of the first time she met Ku Jie, the first time she came into contact with him. He seemed to be naturally immune to that kind of family ethics drama.
Ren Xinghe felt that he was unsympathetic, even to the point of indifference, that he could say such cruel and realistic words to a child.
Now that I think about it...
Ren Xinghe couldn't listen anymore, and suddenly stood up from the chair, walked around behind Ku Jie, and lay on his back: "Stop talking... Stop talking... I feel bad."
Ku Jie was immersed in his own thoughts and continued:
"My mother's illness came and went. When I was a child, I was afraid of irritating her because she had no other outlet to vent her anger. She could only vent her anger on me. This kind of fearful life lasted until I was eight years old. I remember that year , my father came to ask my mother for divorce with his first love. My mother beat them both like crazy. She went crazy and her children were gone. There was no need for this family to exist anymore. After that, I My uncle came forward, took me away, and finally brought me back to the track of a normal person."
Ku Jie never told anyone these things.
Even Jiang Yuning didn't fully understand the details of that year.
His childhood experiences made him very insensitive to the outside world and lacked empathy. If Jiang Zhitong hadn't used a lot of love to drag him back, he might be a perverted murderer now.
Years have passed and times have changed. Although these things no longer affect his world view of life, he is still troubled by nightmares.
Only then will resentment and anger become so strong that there is nowhere to vent it.
Fortunately, Jiang Yuning and Gouzi were around. Although they were noisy, they always dragged him forward.
At this moment, Ren Xinghe said nothing and hugged him tightly from behind: "It's all over, right?"
"Yeah." Ku Jie nodded, "So Xinghe, sometimes, I envy you. After enduring so much pain and suffering so much damage, you still have a firm goal and you will go all out. To make it happen, but I didn’t.”
"My sister is living a happy life now. She no longer needs me, and she doesn't need me anywhere. So, I'm panicking. I keep learning things and changing identities, but I still haven't found my value. where."
The old man has not grown crooked, which is worth gratifying.
One update tonight, and I will make up for it tomorrow, if something happens.
(End of chapter)