After saying all this, Zhou Qichen saw that Lang Feng had a strange expression. He lowered his head, holding a beer bottle in his hand, and his whole body was tense. He finally came out of his previous emotion: "Did I... say too much?"
Lang Feng raised his eyes, and Zhou Qichen saw that his eyes were red, and there was even a gleam of tears in them. He was trying hard to control his emotions - he actually made Lang Feng cry.
Zhou Qichen was also surprised when he saw it, and he didn't know how to comfort him. He finally chose to smile and reached out to touch Lang Feng's shoulder: "I'm fine, why are you crying?" He smiled quite freely.
"I just... feel sad for you. If it were my parents, if it were Ivy, I might..." He might lose the whole meaning of his life.
"I've never experienced anything like this, and I'll never understand." Lang Feng said at last. His voice was tense. Zhou Qichen had been with him for a while, and he had never seen Lang Feng lose his composure like this.
"... I've been through it, and I've gotten over it. I'm also... trying to find a way. Let's set a small goal first, and try to get in touch with her again one day." Zhou Qichen said.
Lang Feng just kept saying, "I shouldn't have asked you this, I'm really sorry." He regretted bringing up the topic of his sister so much, and he also understood why Zhou Qichen didn't want to say anything when he asked about this in his room the first time he went home with him.
Especially in this situation, it seemed as if he had flown all the way from Switzerland just to listen to Zhou Qichen's confession, and if he didn't tell him everything, the two of them couldn't move on to the next step. If time could go back, Lang Feng wanted to put the question he asked back. Maybe one day in the future, Zhou Qichen would be willing to talk, and that would be when he felt it was appropriate and comfortable to talk about it. Now it seemed as if he was forcing him to reveal his scars, one after another, he was bloody and still smiling. He felt uncomfortable, not only because these things really happened to Zhou Qichen in the past, but also because he regretted saying "Tell me everything". He was still a little hasty.
At this point, Lang Feng understood that Zhou Qichen's life was like an abandoned battlefield. He had once tried hard to survive in the smoke of war. So much so that today, every direction he went was a landmine. No matter what topic he brought up, it was always about sad things. But he was usually so optimistic and could make people laugh with just a few words. He had only seen the calm after the smoke of war before, and could guess that he was a man with a story, but today he saw that the land under his feet was riddled with holes.
However, Zhou Qichen just said: "There is nothing to be sorry about. I should have told you some things earlier... Maybe not everything, but it's not good to shut yourself off like this."
Lang Feng nodded, raised his hand and rubbed his eyes. Zhou Qichen felt a little amused when he first saw him crying, but now he was just moved. He broke down and told all the things that made him sad, and then Lang Feng was like a furnace, melting his heart and putting it together again. It was like a full sour feeling. He hadn't experienced this feeling in several years.