Jian Jie stood at the gate of the community, and said to Lin Xiaotian who was not a professional but pretended to be a professional bodyguard beside him, "I'm here."
Lin Xiaotian took out a cigarette from his pocket, raised his head and looked around Jian Jie's community for a few moments, and then acted like a big brother in society: "Go up."
Jane Jie didn't speak, and stood still without moving.
"What's the matter?" Lin Xiaotian held the cigarette with his hands, the flames from the lighter cast a dim red color on his face, and then the flames were blown out by the evening wind, leaving no traces in the blink of an eye.
Seeing that Jane Jie didn't intend to go up, Lin Xiaotian stopped his hand to continue lighting his cigarette, his handsome face was confused.
Jian Jie didn't know what was wrong with him, he stood on the spot, his feet were trembling, his eyes were fixed on the cigarette that Lin Xiaotian was good at, and suddenly he frowned and asked, "Is the cigarette easy to smoke?"
Lin Xiaotian took the lighter and pointed at his finger for a few seconds, then jumped up on the spot when he realized it, grinning his teeth in pain.
Jane's family environment is relatively conservative, Jane's mother is a strong person, working as an accountant in a certain company, maybe it is too much calculation of money, and even Jane's life has been converted according to the routine of calculating money, Jane My father runs some small businesses by himself, but he basically doesn't drink alcohol, let alone smoke, but it is this model couple who gave birth to Jane with a sense of unruliness in his bones, and all his emotions and thoughts are hidden in a bottomless pit. heart.
In the words of Gu Yan later, Jian Jie is a fine lotus root that emerges from the mud without being stained, of course, some aspects are not counted.
The lotus root Jianjie stretched out his hand to Lin Xiaotian: "Give me one."
Lin Xiaotian took several steps back: "Are you crazy?"
Jane Jie continued to stretch out her hand.
He is just curious.
That's all.
"Jane Jie, when you see Gu Yan, let him teach you." Lin Xiaotian chopped his foot on the ground a few times, and said helplessly, "What time is it, go up."
Jian Jie didn't insist, and smiled with the corners of her mouth: "Why doesn't Gu Yan go to school tomorrow?"
Lin Xiaotian thought for a while, then sighed, and swallowed his words: "Gu Yan is different from us, so I say...he likes to let himself go, and he will come if he wants to. If he doesn't come, we will find him tomorrow."
Jane Jie turned around and waved her hands at Lin Xiaotian.
"Hey—" Lin Xiaotian suddenly stopped Jian Jie: "By the way, this is for you, Gu Yan asked me to bring it to you."
Jian Jie turned her head and looked at Lin Xiaotian.
Lin Xiaotian had a small notebook in his hand, the cover of which reflected a snoozing cat in a simple and elegant way.
"He said that he sent a pen, so he must have writing paper." Lin Xiaotian put his hands on his hips, like a teapot: "What little secret are you two behind my back? Gu Yan and I have known each other for so many years. Did not send me."
Jane didn't say a word, and took his second gift: "Thank you."
Watching Jian Jie go upstairs, Lin Xiaotian yawned, covered his school uniform tightly, took out his phone from his pocket to edit a text message, and sent it to Gu Yan.
Jian Jie's footsteps were heavy, and he stood outside the door and took a few deep breaths before taking out the key and preparing to open the door. Unexpectedly, as soon as the key touched the keyhole, the door was suddenly pulled open from the inside. Mother Jian, who hadn't removed her make-up, looked worried and frowned. It became a triangle: "It can be counted back!"
"Um."
"Jane Jie, is there something you didn't tell me?"
Jian Jie changed his slippers at the entrance, his heart skipped a beat. Although he didn't feel guilty about the lie he had told before, he was still worried about the shame of being exposed after lying.
"No." Jane remained calm, trying her best to control her expression.
"Go take a shower and rest." Jian's mother didn't say anything more, she patted her chest to comfort her worry that she was about to collapse.
Jian Jie lifted her foot and was about to leave, but she was stopped by Jian's mother who was slowing down behind her: "Wait!"
Looking at Jane's mother's shrewd eyes, Jane didn't understand why.
Jian's mother leaned over and smelled on Jian Jie, and suddenly opened her mouth and asked clearly in the silent space: "Where does the smell of cigarettes come from on your body?"
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In winter, it gets dark very quickly. Gourmet shops and boutiques around the commercial street are popping up one after another, and the stars are lit up. Before Jian Jie has time to watch the dusk at sunset today, he is already sitting in a small coffee shop on the corner of the street. inside.
Mother Jian looked melancholy, she was wrapped in an oversized down jacket, her hair was simply coiled behind her head, and the fine lines at the corners of her eyes were hidden in the tips of her hair. Looking at Jian Jie who was sitting opposite her smoking a cigarette, Mother Jian's eyes froze. Red, with trembling lips, it took a long time before he said bitterly: "Now you don't even want to go home!"
Jane tapped her index finger a few times, and the ash fell into the ashtray. The steaming American cup on the table mixed with the smell of coffee and smoke, making Jane want to vomit inexplicably.
He didn't know how to face Jane's mother. Jane's mother would be strong for a lifetime. He knew what a heavy blow his actions would bring to the old man in front of him, but there were some things that he needed the support of his most important person.
"Mom." Jian Jie put out the cigarette, looked at Jian's mother's reddish eyes, and finally could only sigh: "I'm sorry."
This sentence was like a switch that could break the bank of tears, Jian's mother covered her face with her hand and sobbed loudly.
"You... you just want to piss me off and your dad. We...we've been looking forward to you for most of our lives. If this is a disease, we'll treat it! Jane Jie... Mom begging you, what's wrong with Beibei?" Jane The mother cried out of breath, complaining and begging in her tone.
Jane really wanted to escape, to a desolate and inhabited place, where there was no pressure, no stubbornness, no worldly concepts, no feelings that he could not let go of, and no reality that made him in a dilemma.
Seeing Jane's mother's shoulders trembling, it is impossible for Jane Jie, his own flesh and blood that fell out of Jane's mother's stomach, not to be heartbroken. The pain of someone tearing his heart with both hands is transmitted to the stomach along the nerves. Jian Jie couldn't bear it anymore, covered her mouth with one hand, quickly got up and rushed to the golden bathroom.
Jian Jie has been busy all morning today, and took a few mouthfuls of lunch. It was not until the cup of cold coffee just now that the vomit in his stomach became more colorful.
The uncontrollable nausea made Jane hold the toilet and vomited for a long time, with snot and tears staining her face, she was decadent and embarrassed.
This feeling has been there since he met Gu Yan. He attributed it to the fact that he was too tired recently. He didn't want to admit that he would dream of Gu Yan every time he dreamed. It was because he missed him too much, and he was unwilling to face him as if The fact that he loves Gu Yan more than before.
If the matter of loving Gu Yan is compared to a tree, then he is the roots of the tree. After ten years of silence and longing, after absorbing nutrients again, those roots will greedily absorb more.
But he hates again.
She hated Gu Yan for abandoning him, throwing him into a lonely corner, and letting him go through the years alone.
After a while in the bathroom, Jian Jie rinsed his face with cold water, and then slowly returned to his seat.
Jian's mother was waiting anxiously, and when she saw Jian Jie approaching, her eyes showed worry.
"Mom." Jian Jie held Jane's mother's hand with cold fingers, and tried to pull up a smile on the corner of her mouth, so as to dissipate the tension in Jane's mother's eyes: "It's getting late, I'll take you back."
Jane's mother hesitated to speak.
She carefully polished Jane Jie in front of her.
Jian Jie is no longer a teenager, his shoulders are broader, his face is more defined, without the frailty of his youth, the person in front of him can be called a burden, and he has his own ideas.
Jian's mother stretched out her hand to pick up her bag, her hands trembling, the stubbornness engraved in the same mold as Jian Jie did not allow her to waver.
"Pay attention to your body, I will go back by myself."
"I'll see you off." Jane said.
Jane's mother gently pushed Jane's hand away: "Jane, you are my son, your father and I can be shameless, but you can't, you still have most of your life to go, you want to live, I can't watch you forever Being pointed at by others, so... I came today to tell you that if you insist on not marrying Jia Bei, then don't want me, mother!"
Jane's hand paused in mid-air. Out of the corner of her eye, the handmade flowers on the coffee table were playful and beautiful. The originally casual and comfortable coffee shop became a place where Jane made important decisions in her life.
He was in the North Pole, and his whole body was cold.
"I'm sorry." Jane joined hands and hung by his side.
"I'm sorry, Mom"
"I let you down."
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As Lin Xiaotian said, after the morning self-study, Jian Jie looked at Gu Yan's seat for countless times, but Gu Yan didn't come.
Xie Jiang pushed down his glasses, his eyes behind the lenses were sharp, and suddenly he knocked on the podium with his hand: "Jane Jie—"
Jian Jie was taken aback for a moment, then raised her head to look in Xie Jiang's direction.
"I've been distracted in class, what are you thinking about?" Xie Jiang hooked his fingers: "Come with me to the office."
A few minutes before the next class, Jian Jie simply packed up the pens and notebooks, stood up and went out through the back door of the classroom.
Xie Jiang looked at Lin Xiaotian who was sleeping like a dead dog, and then rolled his eyes helplessly.
Xie Jiang's office is on the far left of the third floor, and basically all the teachers who teach senior one classes are in this room. When Jian Jie followed Xie Jiang in, the chemistry teacher who liked Jane Jie the most burst into laughter.
The chemistry teacher is a thin old man with bald hair like a Mediterranean. It can be said that he dedicated his precious hair to chemistry.
"Class is about to start, why are you here?"
"I called him." Xie Jiang pointed to the empty seat next to the desk, motioned for Jane to sit down, then turned to the chemistry teacher and said, "Mr. Wang, is it yours for the next class? I'll borrow Jane for a while." .”
Teacher Wang is obviously unwilling. Among the dead students, there is no one else who can discuss the subject with him except Jian Jie. Sometimes he can ask Jian Jie to help out when doing an experiment. The freshmen in high school are all loose Student, Mr. Wang hates iron but is always angry and his cheek hurts.
The class bell rang, and after all the teachers who had classes in the same office had left, Xie Jiang took out the file form filled out by his previous classmates from his desk pocket.
"Did you have a good time with Gu Yan recently?" Xie Jiang asked unhurriedly.
Jian Jie pondered for a while, wondering what kind of medicine was sold in Xie Jiang Gourd: "General."
Xie Jiang smiled, and pushed the form belonging to Gu Yan to Jian Jie: "Out of respect, I hope you can help me talk to Gu Yan and ask him to fill out this form for me. Files are very important."
Jian Jie was puzzled and looked down.
Gu Yan crossed out all the blank spaces on the table with a black gel pen.
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