Chu Xiaoyi turned on the light in the tea room, where he and Liang Shuangqi sat and communicated without disturbing the rest of the family. Chu Xiaoyi found a clean glass. He poured a glass of water for the little boy. He didn't get used to the atmosphere for a while, so he had nothing to say: "Do you want something to eat?"
Liang Shuangqi shook his head, he didn't intend to enter the house at first, but now he came in in a daze. Chu Xiaoyi has also never been the person to be confided in, and his mood is also quite subtle, and he doesn't know what to say.
Fortunately, after Liang Shuangqi finished sorting out the state, he started from the beginning in an orderly manner and made up for the information that Chu Xiaoyi missed. The cause of the incident is that Liang Shuangqi won the International Bronze Award. He was invited by a famous school under many recommendations. The school does not require tuition fees and provides scholarships, and there are very few enrollment places.
Because the school is an orchestra system, there are only 13 students majoring in cello, and the school will only recruit new students when graduates give up their positions. Liang Shuangqi belongs to the youngest group in the school. His parents want to accompany him to study abroad, but it will inevitably affect the parents' work and life.
Chu Xiaoyi thought thoughtfully: "You don't want your mother to accompany you to go abroad?"
"It's not just this..." Liang Shuangqi pondered for a few seconds, he lowered his eyes slightly, and simply confessed, "Actually, I don't want to go abroad either."
Liang Shuangqi has never said this to the people around him, mainly because he sounds really ignorant of praise, and he will definitely be reprimanded by others.
Chu Xiaoyi straightened up in an instant, he looked at each other in disbelief, and said in disbelief, "Why? Do you know what this school stands for? It is possible for you to become a top international player?"
Although Chu Xiaoyi didn't study classical, he knew that this school was in the music industry anyway.
Liang Shuangqi murmured in a low voice: "I know, people around me say this every day, brother, you say something new..."
Liang Shuangqi suddenly felt a little regretful. He was afraid that Chu Xiaoyi, like the orchestra teacher, would like to force himself into it. Those who majored in music all understood the status of the school.
Chu Xiao Yi thought about the arrogant attitude of Xiao Guitou before, and reminded: "If you dare to say that you don't like this school, I will beat the child in the next second."
Chu Xiaoyi: If you dare to scold in front of the old people who are out of school, don't blame me for betraying the old and disrespecting the old!
"No..." Liang Shuangqi pursed his lips, he hesitated for a moment, and said with a sense of loss, "But I always feel that if I choose to go abroad, my future life can be seen at a glance."
Chu Xiaoyi: "What do you mean?"
Seeing that the other party was puzzled, Liang Shuangqi simply broke his fingers to analyze, and said slowly: "If I go to school now, I will continue to practice the piano, and the intensity is even greater, and I have no time to do other things. I started when I was five or six years old. Staying in the orchestra, now for several years, completely disconnected from the normal school... "
"I do have the potential to be a great cellist, but am I really going to do this in the future? I've been practicing piano at school, then touring with the band, and then going on to solo performances, and I can't do anything else. Even if I want to change jobs one day, I can't do anything else."
Liang Shuangqi is really unimaginable. After many years, Chu Xiaoxiao will have the opportunity to choose various jobs, but he can only play the cello, which is terrifying. If he really chooses to study abroad, he has already seen his unchanging development trajectory in the future, how his predecessors will develop, and how he will develop.
Chu Xiaoyi didn't expect that the other party was young and thought a lot, so he said blankly, "You actually think so much?"
Liang Shuangqi frowned and said, "Of course, but these words cannot be said to my parents and teachers..."
Chu Xiaoyi suddenly realized that if Liang Shuangqi said these words to others, it would be like asking for scolding. Not to mention the orchestra teacher for the time being, it may not be easy to convince the parents. After all, studying abroad is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, and it is simply a smooth road, but Liang Shuangqi's personal wishes are like intangible clouds and there is no way to compare them.
Chu Xiaoyi looked at the frowning little boy across from him, and he looked a little dazed for a while, as if he had been reminded of long-standing memories.
Liang Shuangqi noticed Chu Xiaoyi's silence, and he said helplessly: "Actually, I know what adults think, they think this is the safest way, and I really don't have a chance to prove that I can do anything else, but I always feel that this choice is very... Not reconciled…”
This is where Liang Shuangqi struggles. If he has encountered injustice in the past, he can prove it with his strength, just like surpassing others in the orchestra, but this time is different. He has never tried anything else, his time is completely occupied by the cello, and naturally he can't find a more powerful skill than the instrument.
He had no chance at all to prove that now he can only play the violin and cannot convince anyone, leaving him deeply powerless. His mother arranged for him to learn the piano, and he practiced diligently, but he was at best smooth sailing, and he was not ready to do it all his life.
Liang Shuangqi said distressed: "I don't know if my brother can understand this feeling, but I always feel that this time following my mother, I will never have the opportunity to do anything else..."
Liang Shuangqi has also been reflecting on himself recently and weighing the pros and cons. Of course, he knows that choosing the cello will have advantages. All the people around him are trying to persuade and encourage him, but he is always unable to pass this test.
He hasn't chosen his future yet, so should he be planned by talent first? But he has made so much effort, who can be sure that his piano skills come from illusory talent, not his own time on the cello, maybe he can do other things too
[I don't know if you are suitable for playing the piano, but I think you will be very good in what you do in the future. ]
This is what Chu Xiaoxiao said before, and Liang Shuangqi was so convinced at the beginning, but he was shaken when faced with a choice. He has not yet possessed another ability, and is forced to make a choice.
"I know..." Chu Xiaoyi responded calmly, "I know this feeling."
Chu Xiaoyi let out a long sigh, he suddenly leaned back on the back of the chair, stared at the ceiling in a trance, and smiled bitterly: "Because you think that if you don't speak this time, you will still have no chance to speak in the future, and you will never have the opportunity to speak again..."
"Like I did, if I didn't open my mouth to speak, I would choose a stable major according to my father's idea, and then go to college honestly, and after graduation, I was assigned a job, and I walked all the way naturally..." Chu Xiaoyi said helplessly. "You didn't even have a chance to speak, because you are still too weak, he is much stronger than you, and your ideas only make people feel childish and unrealistic."
Chu Xiaoyi occasionally thinks of what happened when he was eighteen years old. If there is no sister at home and the time is reversed at this moment, will he and his father still have a dispute? Even though he has reconciled with his father now, he understands that nothing will change at that moment because he was so powerless.
Although his mouth is full of bloody dreams, anyone who listens to it is a fool's dream. Who can determine the future success, it is better to choose the safest path. He hasn't had a chance to prove it to his father, so what will he use to convince him
Human beings are all creatures that pursue comfort. As long as you give in a step first, you can give in another step, and then continue to give in again and again, and finally kill your original aspiration. Effort and struggle are children's stories, and risk minimization is an adult story.
Chu Xiaoyi now also thinks about what happened when he didn't rebel and left home, but no matter how he deduces it, history seems to repeat itself. Even if he and his father did not have any contradictions in the college entrance examination, he would still have differences when he graduated and work, and there would be differences after the work did not improve, and he would never escape this link.
Liang Shuangqi's experience is very similar to his. They can't prove the results in a short time, but they have reached the choice of life. The adults around were all experienced and experienced, and they planned everything without giving them a chance to intervene.
Liang Shuangqi was silent for a moment, and he asked slowly, "...then do you regret it?"
"Brother is now preparing for college again. If you don't have any success now, will you regret it?" Liang Shuangqi certainly knew that Chu Xiaoyi was struggling to prepare for the exam.
Chu Xiaoyi's eyes were distant, and he gradually came out of his memory, without even the slightest hesitation: "I don't regret it."
"I probably regret the way I communicated with my parents, but I don't regret the choice I made." Chu Xiaoyi paused for a few seconds, he considered his words, and for the first time revealed his original intentions, "Although it is a little hypocritical to say so, But even if I didn't achieve anything, I don't regret it now, because I knew then that it was the only chance..."
"If I hadn't made the choice on my own then, I might never have grown up."
If his attitude at that time was not firm enough, his father might never think he grew up, never take his words seriously, and he would still take care of everything for him. There is a high probability that he will not be a singer after graduating, and may just take a leisurely job in his father's company.
He and his father are both mature now, but he used to do his best to prove his maturity.
"But this lack of regret is painful and difficult, which means that you have completely left the protection of your parents, you must be responsible for every choice you make, and there is no one to blame or complain. I don’t have much money, and I still feel that my efforts are not rewarded, and I am even mocked by people that I might as well go to study at the beginning…” Chu Xiaoyi thought about his practice career, he looked at Liang Shuangqi seriously, and asked, “… Do you have the courage to accept all this? ?"
Chu Xiaoyi occasionally felt that maybe it was the inexplicable youthful impulse that drove him, that he would grit his teeth and survive the darkest moment, so he did not regret it. If he hadn't experienced the worst time, he might never have been able to reach his dream. People are forced to work hard.
"Even if I say I have no regrets now, I still bear the price of not regretting it. Just like you said, I have to prepare for the exam and even work harder. There may be a bigger price in the future..." Chu Xiaoyi said slowly, "You No regrets let you grow up, but if you try your best to grow up, but only grow into an ordinary ordinary person, can you accept this reality?"
He calmly said: "If you have the courage to run down hard and be prepared for a crushing defeat, then go with your heart. If you can't bear all of this, it's okay to be content with the status quo. It's okay to study cello abroad. Good."
Chu Xiaoyi couldn't let Liang Shuangqi make the same choice because of his own choice. He could only put the future path in front of the other side and let the little boy make his own choice. Only when Liang Shuangqi makes a choice alone will this matter have real meaning, just like him back then.
Liang Shuangqi said in a low voice, "Then how painful it would be to have no regrets?"
Chu Xiaoyi: "Growing up may be a pain like breaking a bone."
Liang Shuangqi fell into silence. He looked at the water in the cup and didn't speak for a long time.
After the two exchanged in the tea room, Chu Xiaoyi didn't know how much the little boy listened to, nor did he know what choice the other party would make. He sent Liang Shuangqi to the gate of the small courtyard, and said in greeting, "Do you need me to escort you?"
"No, the street lights are still on." Liang Shuangqi thought for a while, and then he said again, "Brother, in fact, you just said something wrong."
Chu Xiaoyi: "What?"
Liang Shuangqi said calmly: "I think everyone is an ordinary person, so growing up to be an ordinary person is not a punishment."
Chu Xiaoyi was slightly taken aback.
"But your words have also inspired me a lot. Ordinary people may be more able to do extraordinary things." Liang Shuangqi's eyes were faint, "I will think about it myself."
After Liang Shuangqi finished speaking, he looked down at the bag in his hand and hesitated: "This..."
Chu Xiaoyi: "When you hand it over to her next time, I won't hand it over for you."
Liang Shuangqi didn't expect the other party to talk so easily, he said in surprise, "Brother, you really look like a person today."
Chu Xiaoyi smiled but didn't smile: "...What is 'like'? You can remove the 'like' for me."
Chu Xiaoyi: Is that how you talked to Shudong? I see you are asking for a fight!
Chu Xiaoyi suddenly remembered something, and he proposed aloud: "No matter what choice you make in the end, I will give you something when the time comes."
Liang Shuangqi was slightly surprised: "Okay..."
Liang Shuangqi waved goodbye to Chu Xiaoyi, he walked slowly along the street lights in the night, and said leisurely: "Goodbye, great ordinary brother!"
Chu Xiaoyi couldn't help complaining: "You are just ordinary, we don't have ordinary genes in our family."
Chu Xiaoyi watched the little boy leave, and he relaxed in the dark. Although Liang Shuangqi did not give the answer, he seemed to have learned the other party's choice. As he returned to the tea room to clean up, he said dutifully, "Don't complain in the future..."
After Chu Xiaoyi returned to the house, Chu Xiaoxiao noticed the slight change in her brother's mood. She walked out of the parting from her partner and asked suspiciously, "Are you outside just now? It seems like a long time?"
Chu Xiaoyi said nonsense casually: "Yes, I chatted with the stray cat for a while, so it was a little delayed..."
Chu Xiaoxiao: "?"
Chu Xiaoxiao: "Then did you feed it?"
Chu Xiaoyi: "No, he's so ugly, he just poured water."
Chu Xiaoxiao felt that her brother was not good at attacking small animals. She looked strange and frowned slightly, but Chu Xiaoyi patted her generously and explained: "Okay, don't frown, if Liang Shuangqi can go abroad, I will Just perform a handstand on the spot!"
Chu Xiaoxiao just pretended to be a big brother and teased herself. She whispered, "... It's not serious to stand upside down at the airport to see you off. Brother Qiqi will find it very strange."
Chu Xiaoyi gritted his teeth and said, "I won't stand upside down at the airport!" As long as Liang Shuangqi doesn't get kidnapped abroad by aliens on the road.
Chu Xiaoyi couldn't reveal the news yet, so he had to hold back and wait for the parties to announce.
Liang Shuangqi's journey home was neither long nor short, but it was enough for him to make a thorough decision. After he opened the door, he felt the sad and dull atmosphere in the house. This feeling has lingered for a long time recently, making the three people and one cat in the family uncomfortable.
Liang Chen opened the door for his son. He saw the bag in the other's hand and said in surprise, "Didn't you say you want to give something to Xiao Xiao?"
Liang Shuangqi put the bag aside, his eyes were clear and his attitude firm, he said solemnly: "Mom and Dad, I have something I want to discuss with you seriously."
It was the first time that Liang Chen and He Yan saw their son so determined. They both sat on the sofa in a daze, and even the black cat Liang Sit came over. Liang Chen hesitated: "You said."
Liang Shuangqi glanced at the study materials on the coffee table, and said calmly, "I don't want to study abroad."
He Yan was startled, and she hurriedly said, "If you are worried about reading with me..."
Liang Shuangqi shook his head: "No, Mom, I don't want to only play the piano all my life."
He Yan: "What do you mean?"
Liang Chen: "Go on."
Liang Shuangqi took a deep breath, his eyes were bright, and he said calmly: "Actually, I wanted to say this a long time ago, I am not a musical genius, nor a cello prodigy, I am just an ordinary child, I just want ordinary The ordinary happiness of…”
News reports describe him as an exceptionally good pianist, but he knows he's just a schoolboy who hates dogs.
"I just want my family to reunite happily. I want my mother to work and live in a familiar environment, and I want you not to worry about me studying abroad alone. I know what you are worrying about, but can you give me some time? , give me a chance to prove..."
"Although my aptitude is very ordinary, as long as I try my best, I can do something better than playing the piano. I want to try to do other things in the future."
His eyes were like fine black jade, filled with clear and soft light, and looked straight at his parents on the sofa.
After Liang Shuangqi finished speaking, he felt more relaxed than ever. This sentence was buried in his heart for too long. Everyone was praising his talent, so that he couldn't judge himself. Whether he is relying on talent or his own efforts to get to where he is now, this answer is very important to him.
He just felt unwilling, even if his bones were to be broken, he still wanted to know the answer.
The young eagle, of course, will be apprehensive as it leaves the warm nest and spreads its wings on the edge of the cliff, but it still does not give up and wants to fly alone, even if it may fall to pieces.
He Yan couldn't help being dumbfounded. She didn't know what to say at this moment. She single-handedly guided her son on the road of music, but when she heard "the family reunites happily", she couldn't help but redden her eyes.
As Liang Shuangqi said, she is not as strong as she imagined, but she has been leading him forward, so as a mother, she cannot retreat at will. Even if she was reluctant to give up, she would use her son's future to convince herself and restrain her sensibility with reason.
He Yan raised her neck abruptly, holding back her tears, she was speechless: "You're like this...you're like this..."
Liang Chen said calmly, "What if you can't do it?"
Liang Shuangqi stood at attention, and he said calmly, "Then I don't regret it, I am willing to accept the reality."
Liang Chen: "You won't blame anyone? Can you be responsible for your own choices?"
Liang Shuangqi seemed to take an oath, he said word by word: "I will not blame anyone, I am responsible for my choice."
Liang Chen stood up, he decisively picked up the pen and paper on the table, and said, "Okay, there is no evidence, we are setting up the evidence now, you have to be responsible for your own words..."
Liang Shuangqi did not hesitate. After reading the agreement that his father had drawn up, he signed his name stroke by stroke. Liang Chen also signed at the back, and then handed the signature paper to He Yan.
He Yan shouted with a crying voice: "How can he not go if he doesn't want to go? What the hell are you doing!?"
Liang Chen couldn't help but smile: "But this is his life, and you cry like this."
He Yan was obviously the most unacceptable person to be separated, but she suppressed the sadness that she was about to burst, pretended to handle everything rationally, and finally broke out at this moment!
She finally signed on a blank piece of paper, and then burst into tears in her husband's arms, venting her recent unspeakable emotions.
Liang Chen patted her on the back soothingly, and said warmly, "Alright, alright, just cry..."
Liang Shuangqi took his oath paper and looked at it, with the names of a family of three on it. After thinking for a moment, he took the black cat Leungster's paw again, and dipped it in some ink pad to make it press the paw, and only then did he feel a little satisfied.
The black cat Liangst rubbed its paws in disgust on the paper. It was bewildered by the continuous paw prints: "Meow?"
Liang Shuangqi did not go abroad to study, which made the orchestra teachers very regretful. After all, it is a good opportunity that cannot be found, and there may not be suitable places behind famous schools. However, Liang Shuangqi and his parents have made up their minds, and it is not easy for outsiders to persuade them. This is a personal choice.
Inside the Yurong Terrace, Chu Xiaoxiao learned that her little friend would not leave. She was naturally surprised and very happy, and she was inevitably worried: "Then will Brother Qiqi still play the piano?"
Liang Shuangqi said decisively: "Of course, the prize money is so high, this time there are three thousand dollars. I must continue to play the piano."
Chu Xiaoxiao was stunned when he heard the words: "?" Is that so? Is it so realistic
Liang Shuangqi's voice was calm: "And I've been playing the piano for so long, and I'm not used to it at all, but I will do other things in the future, but I will definitely not give up the cello completely..."
Liang Shuangqi thought about it carefully. Although the days of playing the qin were very boring, it really tempered his will and gave him peace of mind. Although he may not necessarily embark on a career path, the cello is barely half his friend.
Chu Xiaoxiao felt that this might be the best choice. She couldn't help but ask curiously, "What will Brother Qiqi do next? Work hard to become Jack Ma?"
"I plan to do my studies first, try to get into a good middle school, and then slowly approach Ma Yun..." Liang Shuangqi sighed, "But recently, I have made progress for studying abroad. After returning to school, I have to work hard to make up for cultural lessons."
When Liang Shuangqi mentioned studying abroad, he suddenly remembered the old things again, and was dissatisfied with the reckoning: "Xiao Xiao made me so sad last time. I came to ask you if you want to study abroad. You didn't keep me at all, and completely forgot our agreement not to say goodbye!"
Chu Xiaoxiao: "?" Why does this topic jump so fast
Chu Xiaoxiao said in shock: "I didn't forget it, I just wanted to think about the future of brother Qiqi...".
Liang Shuangqi: "You don't even have a trace of remorse!" He watched carefully for a long time, but she didn't reveal it. He simply insisted that she was lying, deceiving himself that she had a different opinion.
Chu Xiaoxiao whispered: "... There are still some."
Liang Shuangqi: "..."
"Hmph, well, anyway, I said I would solve it at the time..." Liang Shuangqi was a little embarrassed. He handed her the bag in his hand and muttered, "Then I'll give it to you this time."
Chu Xiaoxiao carefully took out the contents of the bag, and she found that there was a shining bronze trophy, elegantly and delicately designed. Liang Shuangqi brought it up and down several times, and finally delivered it to her.
Liang Shuangqi lowered his eyes and said, "This is the bronze trophy from the last competition I went abroad. I will try to send you something that has nothing to do with the cello..."
Chu Xiaoxiao hugged the trophy tightly, she knew that he never lied, and answered happily, "Okay."
Liang Shuangqi was afraid that she was expecting too much, so he made up for it with a guilty conscience: "... But if it has nothing to do with the cello, you have to wait a while, I can't have it right away."
Seeing that he was embarrassed, Chu Xiaoxiao couldn't help laughing and said loudly, "Okay!"
Her little friend has always attached great importance to promises, and has never broken their trust!
Liang Shuangqi saw that she was so straightforward, so this time he didn't speak at all. He could only purr with unknown meaning, and he couldn't organize human words for a long time.