"impossible."
Xue Xue didn't wait for Chi Yu to answer, so he gave the answer himself.
"I can't trust a person unconditionally, even if this person is my lover, I can't do everything to him from the beginning."
"My character is like this. Whether or not it is affected by the acquired environment, I have lived with this mentality for more than 20 years, and I can't change it." After a pause, Xue Xue added another sentence. "I don't want to change either."
"It's my fault that I didn't tell you this clearly. Now that I've confessed to you, this is who I am, whether you accept it or not."
Having said that, it finally comes to an end.
Chi Yu didn't seem to react yet.
After all, Xue Li seldom said so much. During the time they were alone, she was usually an audience member.
"Then... what about Fu Qingyu?"
As soon as Chi Yu asked these words, the whole atmosphere immediately became treacherous.
He was actually a little annoyed. It was rare for a woman to be willing to speak her heart out to him, but all of this seemed to be less lethal than a Fu Qingyu. To Chi Yu, the three words Fu Qingyu were like a burning fire. The thorn that has passed, inserted into my heart, and it hurts when touched.
What he didn't know was that Xue Xue had been waiting for him to take the initiative to talk about Fu Qingyu.
If it is mentioned by herself, it is difficult for her to accurately grasp Chi Yu's reaction, but if it is mentioned by Chi Yu, it is different.
There is a buffer anyway.
"Fu Qingyu? He is Xiangxiang's boyfriend." Xue Xue explained in more detail after thinking about it with her head tilted. "To me now, he's just Xiangxiang's boyfriend."
Chi Yu did not ignore the adverb of time used by Xue Xue.
"Now? What about before?"
"Before..." Xue Xue said, leaning the whole person against the door, staring at Chi Yu with a smile that was not a smile but gentle and tolerant. "Didn't you already know, or guessed it?"
When Chi Yu heard Xue Xue throw the question back, he didn't know what to say for a while, and he felt inexplicably guilty, as if he was an unreasonable child.
Xue Xue only found it funny when he saw Chi Yu's face turning blue and white.
Obviously he wanted to ask himself, but he still looked like he was being asked.
"I just want to hear from you."
After a long while, Chi Yu finally got his voice back.
His eyelashes are thick and slender, like two rows of small fans. When his eyelids are drooping, he looks a few years younger than his actual age. With that beautiful face, even if his face is expressionless, he is still innocent and pitiful. .
Xue Xue felt that her heart was hit by something, and there was a sweet and greasy taste in the soreness and swelling.
Although this body is a little younger than Chi Yu, if the time spent in these worlds is summed up, she can be considered an ancestor.
Xue Xue, who wanted to hang Chi Yu for a while, thought of this and thought that he should not care about Chi Yu.
So, she changed her posture.
Still staring at Chi Yu, the plain white lotus arms wrapped around the man's neck like vine branches.
"I'll say it this time, you have to listen carefully."
"I did like Fu Qingyu, but before this love turned into love, it faded away."
When Xue Xue said the first sentence, Chi Yu held his breath, and for a moment he could even feel the stinging pain caused by the lack of oxygen to the brain, but before the stinging feeling was transmitted to the whole body, It stopped suddenly because of Xue Xue's next words.
He turned his stiff neck.
At the moment when Xue Xue's four eyes were facing each other, Chi Yu saw something in the woman's eyes that he had not discovered in the past.
"I admit that for a long time, I couldn't tell whether I liked Fu Qingyu? Love? Or thanks?" Xue Xue continued. "Actually, not only for Fu Qingyu, but also for your feelings, I can't understand it myself."
"Although I am in my twenties, my experience in this area may not be as good as that of some underage children."
Saying that, Xue Xue smiled bitterly.
"I have never been ambiguous with anyone, and I have never liked anyone, or been liked by anyone. Those are far, far away from my life." Xue Xue's eyes began to become dazed. "I have too many things to do. As for feelings... I have never been taught how to judge, express, and face since I was a child."
"Fu Qingyu is the first person who didn't treat me well because of other external conditions. I can feel his sincerity."
"I like being with him and being taken care of by him. That makes me think that there are people in this world who treat me like this, not because I have something they need, but just because I am me."
"You know what I mean? I..."
Xue Xue was a little incoherent when he said this, but it happened that Chi Yu could understand.
Because he had the same experience.
At first glance, it has grown up well, and it has become like an indestructible copper wall. However, only those who have experienced it personally understand that the shadows and pains of childhood will not completely disappear due to the passage of time, but are carefully used in various ways. just hide it.
In the silence, the two looked at each other, only each other in their eyes.
It seems that there is no one else in this world except Xue Xue and Chi Yu.
"You are different, Chi Yu."
Xue Xue's voice was soft, like a murmur, but in the limited space of the car, it was like using a loudspeaker, and every word was amplified particularly clearly.
"You and Fu Qingyu are different. What Fu Qingyu can give me, you also give me, but what you give me, Fu Qingyu can't give me."
"You know what I mean? Chi...