Xue Xue was startled, and quickly realized what Su Lin meant.
"You're too polite, Auntie." After a pause, Xue Xue said, "I didn't help him, mainly because he can figure it out by himself. If he doesn't figure it out by himself, even if I want to help, I can't do anything."
Hearing what Xue Xue said, Su Lin's smile deepened.
"No, you are being too polite." Su Lin said, looking away from Xue Xue's face. "I know my own son, Xiang Nan... He is a person who looks calm on the surface, but is actually very stubborn in his bones."
"So once he decides what to do, he will do it as hard as he can, and if he decides to give up something... then basically no one can change his mind."
Su Lin said, and sighed softly.
"As a mother, I am sorry for him."
"When I was young, I was blinded by my emotions. I thought I had found true love, but I didn't know that in the eyes of that person, true love is just a concoction in a rich life that can be discarded at any time."
"I actually had a hunch about what would happen to me, but... I'm not reconciled." Staring at the ethereal point in the air, Su Lin had a blank look on his face. "Man is probably such a magical creature. Reason and sensibility can exist at the same time, but they run counter to each other."
"A man's promise is sometimes worth less than a lie."
"It's a pity that it took me too long to accept this." Su Lin said with a wry smile. "Some mistakes are irreparable, things have happened, and no matter how much I regret, I can't change them."
Her words jumped a bit, but Xue Xue didn't interrupt, just listened to the other side quietly.
"When I have a child... Actually, at first, I wanted to knock him out." The woman suddenly covered her face. "I knew it would be a cruel and correct decision, and if I knocked him out, everything would be different."
"But I can't bear it."
"I'm reluctant to bear a child who is connected with his blood, and that little chance to awaken a man's sincerity. That woman is right, I'm just a cowardly and selfish... a third party."
Xue Xue felt that Su Lin was crying.
Even without tears.
But she had no words of consolation.
Everyone must be responsible for their own choices and decisions, even if she is Su Lin and Su Xiangnan's mother.
The ward fell into a silent atmosphere for a time, only the woman's rapid and repressed breathing sounded abrupt.
Xue Xue thought she would never speak again.
However, Su Lin was not finished yet.
She grabbed Xue Xue's hand suddenly, and the movement was so fast that people couldn't react.
Xue Xue subconsciously wanted to struggle, but stopped when she saw the woman's scrawny arm and the back of her hand covered with veins and pipes.
Su Lin also noticed her rudeness, she let go of her strength, but still circled Xue Xue's wrist.
"I know it's my own debt."
"I have a hunch that it's time to repay this debt." Her eyes were red, and she said almost incoherently, "But Su Xiangnan is really innocent. Do you know what his name means? No, not even himself. I don't even know what my name means."
"Wood is born in the south and goes to the south." Su Lin murmured: "He said that, he has a son named Xiangbei, if there is another son, he should be named Xiangnan, grow toward the south, facing the sun , how nice, how nice."
Xue Xue raised her eyes sharply.
"But he's a liar, a complete liar." Su Lin shouted as if completely caught up in his own emotions. "We agreed to call him Xiangnan, but he refused, refused to let him be called Xiangnan, and refused to let him be named Lin... Hehe..."
With a flash of light in his mind, Xue Xue finally put everything together.
The truth sometimes emerges unexpectedly.
"Is that all my fault? I shouldn't intervene in other people's marriages, but at the beginning, I refused... It was him, he was unwilling to let go... " Su Lin looked at Xue in pain. Xue. "Why is it all my fault? I didn't expect what happened later... I just want my children to have a legitimate identity, isn't it wrong?"
Although Su Lin looked at herself, Xue Xue knew that what a woman wanted was not an answer, but a listening.
She had been holding back for too long.
That breath was stagnant in my heart, and it couldn't be dissipated for a long time.
But she couldn't tell Su Xiangnan, even if Su Xiangnan might have guessed or knew, as a mother, Su Lin still couldn't tell her son those embarrassing pasts calmly.
She was afraid of facing her son's hatred and incomprehension, so she would rather deceive herself and pass the year like this.
However, the stagnation has become a disease, and the body that has been suffering from illness has been unable to bear it, and it is only a matter of time before it collapses.
After a moment of silence, Xue Xue asked, "Then... what about Lin Xiangbei?"
In an instant, Su Lin seemed to have lost all his strength and fell back limply.
Xue Xue was startled, and at the same time annoyed in her heart that she had acted too hastily. If something happened to Su Lin or Su Xiangnan suddenly pushed the door and came in, there would be no excuse.
Fortunately, Su Lin's condition quickly stabilized. When Xue Xue approached her, she heard two words slowly spit out under her lips.
"died."
Xue Xue closed his eyes.
Sure enough.