"Su Xiangnan."
"It's fine."
Xue Xue repeated these two sentences, with a soft voice like the notes struck by a pianist's fingertips, perseveringly drilled into Su Xiangnan's ear.
He was sweating unconsciously.
The weather was so cold, but he looked like he had just finished playing the ball under the sun, and fine beads of sweat rushed out of his pores from his forehead, cheeks, and neck.
Although there was a towering wall to block the cold winter wind, and the temperature was less than ten degrees, Xue Xue was afraid that Su Xiangnan would catch a cold if he stayed here, so he helped him up.
"Can you? Come, take my shoulder." As she said, Xue Xue pulled Su Xiangnan's hand over her neck. "Let's go home first, shall we?"
Su Xiangnan nodded.
After gradually easing his despair, Su Xiangnan gradually regained his strength.
He felt quite useless.
But I have to admit that the feeling that someone is protecting me and supporting me... It's really good.
However, they did not go straight home.
Xue Xue went to the convenience store to buy two cups of hot cocoa, one of which was given to Su Xiangnan.
They just found an empty seat and sat down.
"I'm sorry." Su Xiangnan said in a hoarse voice after taking the hot cocoa handed over by Xue Xue. "I just... gaffe."
"Huh? Why do you say sorry?" Hearing this, Xue Xue's long eyelashes trembled slightly, her apricot eyes widened slightly, and then she lowered her eyelids. "Even if I want to say sorry, it should be me."
Su Xiangnan was taken aback.
"Those things should be your scars."
"Opening other people's scars is a very immoral thing, my mother told me so." Xue Xue opened the lid of the cup. "So, I should say sorry to you, not you to say sorry to me."
Her tone was too serious.
Serious enough to make Su Xiangnan smile.
After the laughter came out of his throat, even his chest vibrated.
I don't know when it started to accumulate into a group, and the depression that was pressing heavily on my chest seemed to have found a breach and let it out.
Even the clerk couldn't help but glance at them.
Xue Xue laughed along with him, and finally heaved a sigh of relief.
In fact, until just now, Xue Xue was nervous. After all, Su Xiangnan's state was really worrying, as if he had lost his soul. He was obviously next to him, but his spirit didn't know where to go.
Fortunately, it looks much more normal now.
Although it's a bit regrettable that I couldn't take advantage of this time to crack Su Xiangnan's inner demon, Xue Xue also knew that this matter should not be urgent. Besides, the matter was more complicated than she originally thought.
The line between victim and perpetrator is blurred, and even if it is not intended, the fact remains.
All reasons just sound like excuses.
"I think… "
"I think I should be braver."
Su Xiangnan spoke in front of Xue Xue.
Swallowing the consolation that was on the tip of his tongue, Xue Xue looked at Su Xiangnan. The line of the boy's handsome face was blurred by the heat coming out of the hot cocoa. Despite this, his eyebrows and eyes were still clear and neat. With a clean youthful air.
Perhaps because of the sweat just now, Su Xiangnan's face was paler than usual. Under the illumination of incandescent lamps, it was like a fragile item, so delicate that he could not pick out even the slightest flaw.
"I can't go back to the past and change those mistakes, but I think I can work hard in the future to avoid making the same mistakes myself."
Su Xiangnan said slowly, Xue Xue listened quietly.
Did he really do anything wrong? At that time, he was just a child who didn't understand anything, believed in his mother, and had a crush on his father. After listening to Su Lin's words, he treated the woman on the other end of the phone, who didn't know her identity, as if he was standing on the class podium. Introduce yourself, what's wrong
Lin Youfeng, who cheated, was at fault, and Su Lin, who intervened in other people's marriages, was at fault, but can an ignorant child, a child with no malice, make an unintentional mistake, can it really be called a mistake
Even Xue Xue didn't know what the answer to the question was, or the question itself had no answer.
"I actually knew it all along, and I haven't forgotten it."
"Lin Zhi was right at that time. I was a coward. I pretended to be strong on the surface, but I was just a coward on the inside. I knew there was a better decision, but I chose to escape."
"I don't have the courage to face the past honestly. I'm afraid that one day everyone will say... Look, Su Xiangnan is not that good at all. He is just an illegitimate child who killed others." Su Xiangnan's hand clenched the paper cup. "It's better to be exposed than this embarrassingly..."
It's not as good as anything, Su Xiangnan didn't say it clearly, but it's not difficult to guess from the results.
Including what Lin Zhi said when he went to the ward to find Su Xiangnan.
People have self-esteem.
"Xue Xue." Suddenly, Su Xiangnan called out to her: "I seem to have something I haven't said to you..."
"Huh?" Xue Xue was holding hot cocoa, and she looked a little lazy, like a cat. "What?"
The boy turned to look at her.
"I love you." In Xue Xue's eyes, he suddenly lowered his head. "And... thank you."
When the words fell, a light kiss was placed on her forehead.