After the words fell, Xue Xue actually regretted it.
Without a brain, rushing too fast.
But since it has been said, there is no reason to take it back.
Moreover, even if she is sincere, it may just be an excuse for others to hear.
Jiang Xiaotian's expression showed her disbelief.
After all, she is only an eighteen-year-old girl. Even if she tries hard to suppress her real thoughts, it is still easy to see what she is thinking through some subtle changes in her expression.
"Yanyan, I..."
"I know you don't believe it." Xue Xue let go of her and shrugged helplessly. "Actually, I don't believe it myself."
"what?"
"You should have come to ask me, why did you go to Nanjiang to study?" Xue Xue sat down directly on the carpet. "It's true that it has something to do with you and Feng Yang, but it's not entirely because of your relationship."
Looking up at Jiang Xiaotian, Xue Xue smiled bitterly.
"I hate myself like this, you know?"
"Because I know better than anyone else that I shouldn't compete with you for Feng Yang. You and Feng Yang are in love with each other. What can I use to get in between you?"
"But, I'm just not reconciled, I just can't let go."
Xue Xue's tone was full of self-loathing, which made Jiang Xiaotian startled.
She had only one thought at the moment.
It can't go on like this.
Compared with Xue Yayan, her relationship with Feng Yang...
"I know what you're going to say, you can break up with him."
Before Jiang Xiaotian could speak impulsively, Xue Xue had already finished speaking for her.
In the last life, Xue Yayan also used this method to break up Jiang Xiaotian and Feng Yang.
But this is the same as the wolf.
A lie told a hundred times will not become the truth. However, after a lie has been told a hundred times, the truth may become a lie.
Later, Jiang Xiaotian was really disappointed with Xue Yayan.
It's just that the fate that has been forged since birth runs through Jiang Xiaotian's life. Habits that are good for a person are just as bad for a person. It's a very scary thing.
Even if you have realized that it should not be done, you will still compromise to yourself again and again under the influence of inertia.
Like an addiction.
By the time a big mistake is made, it will be too late.
Therefore, in this life, in order to fulfill Xue Yayan's wish, we have to start from the fundamental problem.
It is normal for people to have partiality, but this partiality cannot be placed above everything else.
Jiang Xiaotian and Xue Yayan can be said to have never been separated for a day since they were born, and to a certain extent, they are even closer than sisters who are connected by blood.
But because of this, a lot of things can't be seen clearly.
Just like Xiao Yao thought he liked Xue Yayan at first.
Father, like son.
When you are in the mountains, you can see mountains all around, but if you go outside the mountains, you will find that the world is huge, and the sky and the land are actually vast and boundless.
The same goes for people and feelings.
In the current situation of the three of them, only by widening the distance and leaving space and time for each other, can it be possible to gradually see the reality clearly and then make changes.
Otherwise, just keep going around in circles.
"You don't need to break up with Feng Yang because of me, and you don't need to be wronged for me." Xue Xue held Jiang Xiaotian's hand. "I've been thinking about it a lot during this time, and I think... we shouldn't be like this."
"It's me who has always been too headstrong and too selfish."
"Take everyone's kindness to me for granted."
"Maybe as Feng Yang said, I'm spoiled, so I feel that as long as I want, others should give it to me." Xue Xue lowered her eyelids. "But this is actually wrong. It's wrong to pay blindly, and it's even more wrong to ask blindly."
"So I thought, I have to get out of my comfort zone first."
"I have to learn to live by myself, face and solve problems by myself, instead of relying on you and my parents for everything, so that I will never grow up."
Jiang Xiaotian looked at her blankly.
"Look, we were born on the same day, but you are much more mature than me. You know what you want and what you should do. Compared with you, I seem to be only older."
"It can't go on like this." Xue Xue made an exaggerated face. "Don't worry, although I went to Nanjiang to study, I may not be able to come back often, but..."
She almost fell to the ground before she could finish her sentence.
Jiang Xiaotian bumped over and hugged Xue Xue.
It was different from the hug she had just hugged, as if she was trying to express something, and at the same time as if she was trying to catch something.
"Xiao Tian..."
"We all have to become better people." Xue Xue was stunned, Jiang Xiaotian looked up and looked at her seriously. "Right?"
After reacting, Xue Xue smiled.
"Um."
"Pull the hook."
"Okay."
"You actually want to go to Nanjiang."
"Yeah, it's not in your eyes."
Hearing this, Feng Yang's eyes narrowed.
He wanted to see through Xue Xue's mind, but...
"You've really changed too much, Xue Yayan." Feng Yang put out the cigarette butt with the tip of his shoe. "I almost had to think that you changed the core like in those novels."
This is a blatant test, and both parties know it well.
"Each each other." Xue Xue did not admit or deny, but just smiled and said: "I think so too."
Eyelid lifted, the two eyes met.
No one dodged, and no one conceded defeat.
Feng Yang sneered.
"Very good, go to Nanjiang, you can find Xiao Yao." His tone was cool. "You are a good match, you can think about it."
Xue Xue pretended not to understand what he said.
"Do you have anything else to do? I have to go first, I have an appointment with Xiao Tian... "
She didn't finish her words, because Feng Yang suddenly bullied him, trapping Xue Xue in the narrow space between the wall and him.
"I'll warn you again, Xue Yayan." The deep male voice sounded extraordinarily rough after being deliberately lowered, as if someone was scratching the eardrum back and forth with the sharp corner of a piece of paper, which made people feel quite uncomfortable. "No matter what medicine you sell in the gourd, I will not accept you."
"If you dare to hurt Xiao Tian..."
Suddenly, he put his hand on Xue Xue's neck.
Although not tightened, it gave a very strong sense of oppression.
"I will definitely make your life worse than death." He said clearly, word by word: "Say it, do it!"