The atmosphere became extremely dignified in an instant.
The invisible air seemed to have a substantial weight, pressing heavily on the two of them.
Silence spread, unbridled.
Xue Xue lowered her head and took a sip of soup.
Although she started the topic, she was waiting for Wei Chinian to give an explanation first.
Always give an explanation.
Xue Xue thought, whether it was for her or Xue Xia.
"That's what I took."
When the stainless steel spoon hits the inner surface of the porcelain bowl, it makes a unique crisp sound of metal collision.
Xue Xue looked up.
Wei Chinian didn't look at her, but just stared at his clasped hands.
"At that time, I had no other choice."
"They took my mother's ashes and only gave me one night."
"I..." He paused. "I thought, just go like this."
It is almost the same as what Xue Xue guessed.
According to Wei Chinian's temperament, he should leave quietly, as if he didn't miss it, just like when he was neighbors with Xue Xia, he would arm himself layer by layer with a hard shell.
In this case, Xue Xia may still be in pain, but this pain can be alleviated.
Many people have a first love that ended without a medical condition in their lives. Xue Xia is not the first person to experience this kind of regret, and naturally he won't be the last.
If there is no unforgettable first night, if there is no tear from the boy's eyes, if there is no note that hastily left the words "wait for me"...
Xue Xia may still remember Wei Chinian, but he can only stay in the past after all. The bright young man will gradually fade into memory, instead of letting Xue Xia take him with him, inseparable, passing through the present to the future, until life I couldn't let go even with my last breath.
This is the best decision for both of them.
However, after all, life is not a chess game that can be calculated rationally and meticulously.
That day Xue Xia was worried about Wei Chinian, so he sneaked out in the middle of the night. That day, Wei Chinian was immersed in the pain of losing his mother and was threatened by Yuchi's family. Appearing, it is like a ray of light that suddenly penetrates in the darkness.
He instinctively absorbed the warmth rushing towards him.
Young and impulsive, young and full of vigor, he was out of control once he started.
Xue Xue believed that when Wei Chinian left that note, he didn't want Xue Xia to spend his whole life waiting for himself whose return date was unknown, but just hoped that there would be a thought for her and for himself.
to pass the long night ahead.
but…
He still delayed Xue Xia.
It was not intended, but it became a fact.
"sorry."
These three words caused the wall of Xue Xia's heart that had been built high in the shadows to hide all of Xue Xia's emotions and secrets to collapse.
Xue Xue stared blankly at Wei Chinian.
She didn't realize that she was crying until her vision was blurred by water mist, she raised her hand to touch her hot eye sockets, and felt the wet fingertips.
Unable to look directly at this scene, Wei Chinian closed his eyes in pain, and at the same time lowered his head even lower.
"I really didn't expect..."
"I... I thought... I'm sorry, Xue Xia." Wei Chinian's voice was undulating like a ridgeline, and it was like a hot mud flow under a volcano, waiting to break through the shackles at any time. "I was so naive back then, I was more useless and cowardly than I thought, I..."
"say no more."
Xue Xue interrupted his self-pity.
"Wei Chinian, look up and look at me."
This was not an easy task for Wei Chinian.
He could endure humiliation, and hibernated in Yuchi's house as Yuchiyue's stand-in for several years. He could also survive the torment of his opponents and enemies, and find a glimmer of life in the abyss. But in front of Xue Xia, he always had a guilty conscience.
This is actually where Wei Chinian's knot lies.
Xue Xia has it, and so does he.
Bearing different pressures, but also trapped in the same place.
In the summer of Wanghai Town, the seventeen-year-old they could never go back to, the seventeen-year-old who seemed to be able to overcome all difficulties as long as they loved each other.
"You are indeed sorry for Xue Xia."
In a word, break the man's silence.
He raised his head suddenly, and trembled all over after seeing Xue Xue with tears streaming down his face.
He opened his mouth to speak, but didn't know what to say.
Although her face was full of tears, Xue Xue's attitude was unexpectedly calm, just like her eyes, like a sea with no waves but no waves.
No one can guess what lies beneath the azure surface.
Once again, Wei Chinian felt that strong sense of separation.
About the woman in front of me and the girl in my memory, about the past that I had to atone for, and the present and future that I long for redemption.
"I just want to ask you a question, Wei Chinian." Xue Xue's voice was soft, but with unspeakable strength, Wei Chinian could not escape, and could only wait for the trial under her gaze. "If I didn't come to Jingnan but continued to wait for you in Wanghai Town, but you could still get rid of the control of Yuchi's family and have freedom and the right to choose, would you go back?"
Wei Chinian opened his mouth slightly.
"What I want is the real answer." Xue Xue said to him like this: "Can you understand what I mean?"
Of course Wei Chinian could understand.
So he closed his mouth and eyes, no longer looked at Xue Xue's face, and no longer thought about the present, but completely threw himself into a new hypothesis.
If Xue Xue didn't come to Jingnan to find him, but he still survived the struggle with Yuchi's family by luck, would he turn back